Start of new week.

Monday, Jun 14 2010
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6:68am made it to work desk. Woke up with some kind of bad dream and was not able to sleep after that. Just remember the feeling of something not right, not able to recollect anything. Maybe its a good thing. Just need to focus on the postive and stay positive.

Just remember that I did not have dinner yesterday night either.

7:08am Kriss comes in late, the rest of the people seem to have been waiting. I need to fix this escript thing , was playing around with the code to understand. need to do research on a similar code.

Put in the memory stick to get to the old code and suddenly a exotic gypsy song starts playing,. Trace it back to the music Eva copied it for me when she was in Vancovuer. Wow about a year latter.
This is the music she uses for belly dancing.
She keeps coming back to me in some way or the other. Hopefully she is doing well and this is not again something thats telling me that she must be in some kind of trouble. (bad dream + music from her) And the music seems to be haunting and of someone in pain. Oh please god. protect that sweet brain and please guide her into a path of Virtue.

Need to keep track of the market today to see how high it will go and be on the path of recovering all my lost material fortune. Hopefully I can atleast get back more than 50 percent this year. Or who know I may get by everything that I lost in the stock market

7:36am and the meeting comes to an end. Issues with not been able to log on to the Server data base. so no work was been done in India today. Paid holiday due to server problem in US. :)

Suddenly saw a mail from CZ something to do with Czech on my iPhone. Not able to access personal mails from work. Forwared the msg to Eva hoping for some translation.

Should I believe in life showing all kinds of hidden and visible message and hints and take actions or just let life take me where ever I am going with out any sense of purpose and direction.

Eka-lavayaa was saying that he was able to get into google chat with iGoogle. let me try that.

Kool it works. Should I use it. Just see Eva and Prameela online. Tempted to chat with Eva and ask about her well being and maybe send her some positivitity. What if she is not interested in chatting with me and is busy with some other. awww, don't want to screw her mood. Don't really know how and what she is thinking.

Start chatting with Prameela. funny how we met thru a kerala marriage web portal, became friends after our horoscope did not match and our castes were different.

she basically grew up in bangalore. Latter got married to a software guy Malu from singapore and is now settled in Chennai. She just said that she got promoted as branch Head of the Chennai branch last month. kool, way to go girl. :)

She was really dissappointed when my parents raised the issuse of caste incompatibility. And now they were even open to me marrying a non- indian. But ,,,

hehehe, she is asking me about marriage and is feeling so bad for me. well what can we do, we can just try. she is trying to motivate me..

Saw translation from Eva about the cz mail. so sent her a msg via google chat.

Pramee is saying that she is feeling sad for me and saying that i have to forget horoscope and just marry. heheehe
she is telling me her husband is now in singapore and her inlaws are helping her with the baby, taking care of the kid when she is out working.

she had something interesting to say:


Prameela: actualy i wasnt interested in marriage at all....but some how whne this proposal came my mind acepted..i felt this is Gud...
may be its the feeling in u rself plays an important role

me: thats how its supposed to happen, when you get the right one you feel that its the right one.

Prameela : ur right the bel wil ring...

Well i felt like that with E, she said she felt it too. But looks like things are happening in a very different way.

Prameela : i m seriously going to find a nice girl fo u

wow.. another person going to look for a girl for me :) hehehe

Eva goes offline. was pleasent chatting with her. Hope we can get back to been nice with each other and be good soul buddies.

Then get lost in the maze of Bug fixing. been working on it for two days now. Its been a long time since I did any e-scripting.
After 12:30 head off home and start working from there. Have my breakfast and yesterday nights dinner all in one.
Around 3pm get call from the Car registration agency that the DMV at harrisburg rejected my documents saying they needed more.
Now I have to go around again to customs offices to figure out what needs to be done.
Go to the agency office and get my documents.

Then go back to office. 4:30 training. then @ 5:30 get back to desk again working on the problem. Get out of work exhausted and drained @7:30pm. been working for 12.5 hrs now. ahhh need a break.

Almost 8pm now and no motivation to cook anything. :(

Better to go out for some Free Monday night salsa. Atleast there will be some girls there who will be all happy and appreciative and complimenting me.

The question is, do I look externally for others appreciation and compliments to make me feel better about myself or do I try the long way of doing good and positive things and feel better about myself. :)