Jan 27 2914, dull start of the week

Monday, Jan 27 2014

After a very quite weekend mostly spent at home. Trying to re energize self and soul, trying to get my spirits up and going.All cause of the cold outside.Made a new drink that I was able to come up with .. of fresh cut ginger, put in a bit of turmeric power and microwaved it in a cup of water.... 
Ginger is great to improve our immune system, turmeric has healing powers ,, good for any internal cuts and bleeding within the colon and I remember using it when I had a major injury to my leg, it healed like magic. 
So made it for the second day.

Wish I was able to get out and go for a run ,, even getting to the gym in the neighborhood for the thread mill seems to not hold that much of a motivation factor,, even thou its again a privilege that I am given and not realizing the value and not been appreciative and grateful for those privileges of luxury.

Have been having the fruit mix, blending it in the blender and having it like a smoothie. Seems to reduce the waste that has been making me feel guilty when I end up throwing out  about 50% of the fruits I end up buying but not consuming (or lazy to consume).

Getting the small portions of mixed-cut fruits seems to be better and easier to consume after blending it.

Its exactly to the day last month that was my last working day. Time sure flies (again a reminder).Don't seem to be able to concentrate and study. things I am so privileged to have opportunity for. 

Whyyyyy, ,,, is it the ADD or is it just my own dis content and the search for something more exciting, or is it just plain laziness, with no sense of accountability but a sense of Entitlement (false)?

Oh why am I been so ungrateful and not putting in the disciplined focus thats needed to make my life productive for self, family and the world?
Do something good and useful for others. Learn something that I am given an opportunity to learn (a privilege actually),,,,, there by given the power and opportunity to make life around me better. 

Nothing much happening on the side of the getting a new project.was there on Saturday evening as part of the dry run for the presentation pitch they were making to one of the possible clients... still a long way to go...Realistically seems like a far fetched shot.

****************Some people become so losts deep in hate, that they become blinded by any goodness or all the goodness thats there in the object of their feelings.was thinking about the people on facebook friends, who so seem to trash obama at every possible opportunity. ITs like unknown to them they have a deep racial bias. So easily seems to have forgotten the republican pres before who led the people into war and chaos in Iraq, not to mention the lives of the poor soldiers lost and the impact that the families are burdened with.*****

Jan 24 2014, Black under the eye

Friday, Jan 24 2014

Was wondering why in some pics the dark under my eye was showing up.

The reasoning I got to understand now is that I have not been getting enough sun due to all the cold wave. Mostly been sitting indoors. Result = skin growing pale with the depletion of pigments. But the pigments under the eyes seem to remain.

okay I am going to go and sit in the sun by the bedroom door. :)

Jan 23 2014,,,,, the uncertainty of next job

Thrusday, Jan 23 2014

3 weeks and counting.... not sure where, what kind of job I will end up doing ,, if at all I will get a job?
So much of the repeated pattern. Not been smart enough or qualified to be in a market where the need is more than supply, means as a supplier of my services, I have to just be open to be thrown around in what ever directions the tide takes me.

Jan 22 2014, Purpose in life

Wednesday Jan 22 2014

Again thoughts were going back to the purpose in Life.\\

back to 
Breed, Breed, Breed.
Eat, Breed, Eat, Breed.
Competitively Breed 
[seeking out the best possible available match]

All other things in life , house, dress, make up, cars, roads, weapons, morale, laws, security, hygiene, religion,  ,,,,,
all of that revolves around the one Main purpose of Breeding for all living creatures : Birds, Animals, Trees, Plants, bacteria, viruses, Humans,,,,

So cheers to Breeding with the best possible AVAILABLE Match. :)

Jan 20 2014, weekend breezed by

Monday, Jan 20 2014

The weekend, just breezed by.
From going out with the group to late night break fast (or early morning 3am) . to sleeping thru most of satur-DAY to ending up watching the NFL games on sunday.

thou much of my plans of studying just did not happen or start off.

was thinking about the kindness offered by sandy to help me get a American green card. She offered all her docs and everything to help me get it. It was very touching to see that kind of volunteered kindness. Especially after experiencing all kinds of selfish self-centered women in my life. It was refreshing to have a bit of faith restored in goodness of women well atleast some of the women who are and have been in my life.

Love is so made of crazy fantasies and dreams of a perfect mate. But the perfect mate does not exists. So then we try to compromise, but that again requires two or more interested parties. For that it takes something called Loyalty and Commitment.
Not every one is loyal and commited, most are constantly looking for bigger better deals (BBD), at the first opportunity to ditch and run (move) to another ,,,,, many do go for the BBD.
Maybe its cause who they are or because they were raised that way, with no loyalty to anything (family, friends or anything). Well glad that these traits did show up pretty early in my relationships and happy that I am not stuck with such miserable creature who could have made my live miserable and short instead of Long and Happy ,, as is now :)

Jan 18 2014 legacy of the true Villans

Saturday Jan 18 2014

Who would you believe!!???
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Official British Indian sources gave a figure of 379 identified dead, with approximately 1,100 wounded.
The casualty number estimated by the Indian National Congress was more than 1,500, with approximately 1,000 dead.

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Jallianwala_Bagh_massacre
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This is just a itty-bitty piece of India.... much more has been and have been swept under the British Rugs. Countless murdered by the British, French and the Portuguese for over more than 200 years of murdering, plundering, looting, tyranny and what not.

And then just because they were able to win the war against Germany [all because of Russia], these scum bags of the world get to mislead the world, by painting Germany as the villain and hide their own crooked dastardly legacy soaked in their BLOODY Villainous acts.

Jan 14 2013 Reconnecting with the past

Tuesday, Jan 14 2014

It was nice when my past crush from school V (the most intelligent and dynamic gal I knew back in school), connected me to one of my class mates from school Jay, :)
Who turns out lives in canada with his family. chatting with him on FB brought back memories,,, one thing we both really agreed on is that we cannot go back and settle down in India, too many issues . Starting with pollution in the cities to people been dis-respectful and taking others for granted......

Yesterday was too damm depressing and was not able to do any real learning or productive work. Was kind of feeling uneasy and was all over the place. Thou I did not switch on the TV till 5pm.
Its the uncertainty of waiting for the next work. looks like the project that might start in Canada will probably take 2 to 3 months atleast.. so in effect about 4 months.
Was preparing for that technology and now lost the momentum and desire to learn that package.

Got mail to prepare another fusion related stuff, which might start off next month. But nothing has been finalized..... crappy uncertain situation to be in.

So went out for some salsa,,, met some interesting people. one very pretty indian gal from mangalore deepa...
One cutie from france (could not follow her name,, el... something),, but when I started dancing with her,, got hijacked a few times... got put off by her after that. thou she had a cute french ascent, felt disconnected after that inability on her part to follow and trying to take the lead,,, looks like she is one of the pro dancers. looks like she enjoyed the dips i snuck in.

Jan 04 2014 Freezing Cold days

Saturday Jan 04 2014

First post of 2014.

Woke up thinking about a couple of wise ideas of wisdom:

WE all have angry cruel instincts.
The difference between been good and bad is been able to control the destructive basic instincts.

.... in the end its the people and the information we have (or information we are fed) that gives us the Power to bring about the change.
Based on who is arguing what, things can be made to look good or bad.
In the end the greater good of good intentions needs to be acknowledged and people need to move on to work on been productive and effective in making life and living better for all living on the planet. :)

My Mantra for HAPPINESS 
Let Go, Let GO, Let Go 
Let It GO, Let it Go, Let it Go  
Let Go, Let GO, Let Go   

Breath deeply and Repeat as many times as you want and try to smile when you repeat.....


My summary of Relationship is that of broadly classifying people into , Controlling and Walk-over.

Reality of Attraction is between two groups of people broadly classified as :
 a) Controlling  b)Walk-over (Controlled).
The Controlling people are always looking for walk over people to have a relationship with  and the Walk overs are looking for Controlling people to have relationship with.
So far so good, made for each other.

The Controlling people hate other Controlling people and are always repulsed and turned off by their own kind in tune with the "Like Poles syndrome".

The Walk overs like the other Walk overs, find them to be nice people but do not find that magnetic attraction or as I always hear,  "No Chemistry" with the nice guy or nice gal. :) so go figure.

Many times the Controlling people are lucky to get a submissive walk-over people for life.... with the walk-over living a miserable life.

But when the Walk-overs mature, with age and bad experience of relationships with Controlling people, they will learn to look for other walk overs and that ends up in a Giving, Mutually Respectful and long term LOVE ing relationship :)