Off to Atlantic City, beach hiking

Sun Jun 27 2010
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Woke up early need to reach car pooling point by 7:45. For trip to Atlantic city beach hiking. Have not been to a beach for a long time hope to make it there today and have a calming time.
Something about the beach that cools the Fiery Sagittarius in me.

todays love horoscope in MSN.com

Your Lovescope - Today, June. 27, 2010
Some great news could come to you today, perhaps involving the attainment of a long-desired goal you've been working toward for a long time. You'll want to get on the phone to your love partner immediately. Congratulations are definitely in store! The astral energy implies that word should spread quickly among your colleagues, who should be impressed. Enjoy the spotlight! Then go out with your sweetie and celebrate.


Reach Sidney place around 7:45am, meet with Juidth and Elizabeth. We all decided to car pool with Sidney. That way we are not spending time and money on the Tolls.

The beach on the Atlantic city was foggy and since we reached @ 9:45am it was kind of deserted. So we wanted to hike as far as possible before the crowd starts arriving.
Got so see some really beautiful women in two piece dress. wow.
Seem to be a very high class houses linning up at the beach and very rich people on the beach.

Reach the cape point of the beach and returned back.

We had sub sandwiches at Dinos and then sidney drove is to Atlantic city area where the casinos were, did not get into any. Just hung around the beach and this one seems to have even more beautiful bodied women. The beach here is so much longer than Vancouver, but in Vancouver they get together and play Volleyball. here they just lay down on the beach in the heat and chat, and some read get sun tanned, go into the water a bit and back home.

Returning back we got caught in the evening traffic to Philadelphia. Got to sidneys house around 6 and then to my house by 6:30pm.

Checked the fridge and found the last of the two mangoes I got at Costco. cut it up, mixed it with a fruit juice and made a smoothie. cheers to healthy drinking and living.

The two ladies on the hike seem to be single and looking and had a lot of questions for me. I did not know what to ask or to what extend to ask. As I did not want to send them the wrong signals. If I was a player or was just wanting to have fun, I would have tried to be more natural and tried to show more interest.

Elizabeth wanted to come out and try salsa and asked me if she could come with me. I said, I go there often but I am not sure of any particular day I go and would not be able to commit to it in advance as I just go if I feel like going.

Judith was telling about other groups that are for singles who just go bar hopping and it was a great way to meet new people and have fun. Fun means. Well sure its fun in terms of connecting with people and taking it to the level of making love.

IS that my goal and priority in life now?

ahhhhh dilema. Been the nice guy is only causing me to hurt. And E is not been a saint there in Ahmadabad either, . And hence her reluctance even to talk to me as a friend.
Or am I reminding her of the true negative behavior of hers. And that I told her would happen after she goes to India . that she is not able to control on one side and is trying to justify her actions and fooling herself. Some of the comments on her blog are also very painful and scary.

I wish i could help her is some way before its too late and she gets into some kind of deeper trouble. Why??? only reason because I seem to care for her more than I care for myself.

It hurts much that the one person I love go so much is moving in a direction that one wishes would not and to just having to helplessly sit back and watch.
Its like my hands and legs are tied to a tree and I see the one person who matters most in my life sinking into the quick sand she just choose to bravely experiment with. In her own innocent arrogance she just say, I don't care, I am going to experience this. Just like playing with fire. :((((

So should I still hang on the thread of virtue and sincerity and not go ahead and have fun like she is having.
Or should I still be sincere to who I am, not open to another relationship as I choose to stay dedicated and faithful to my true love.

Where is my future taking me, opportunities are knocking,
yet my heart seems to be locked in the love of a life time.

Where will it lead to?
how long am I going to be stuck in this misery.

Will I drown like all true lovers lost in their honesty and sincerity?

Ahhh, why, why, why am I am been tortured like this.
Why is life not just simple. why all these complications?

Deposited the Rent check and set up paying the other bills. Went for a walk talked with Anil for a few mins. He wanted me to come to Texas in Aug. Awww I want to go to Europe and travel. It would have been great if I had someone to go with.
Guila and stefano are in Ireland so no way to get their help for Italian travel.