Dec 31, End of 2012

Monday, Dec 31 2012

Around afternoon went to DMV office from work to only find it closed.. crazy traffic here.
got back home around 7 with intentions of going out running..

Going to sleep myself into the new year.....

hopefully the plan will work this year END. :)

 To

Wake up, to a new sunrise, with hopes of peace and dreams of love.

To

Wake up, to finding Happiness in the little twists and turns of life.

To

Wake up, to been able to laugh at every fall with a sense of humor.

To

Wake up, to have the fortune of having a job to go too.

To

Wake up, with a Happy Smiling Heart and welcoming 2013.....

Cheers to all.

- Vino


awwwaaa.... went out running and twisted my foot and sprained it.
That is a bummer way to end the old year.

Dec 30 2012, sunday or plans

Sunday, Dec 30 2012.

was able to go for a run in the evening.. nice. all around my apt neighborhood . great place to run.

got back and worked out a bit and watched the nfl games.

Dec 29 , Sat of Snow

Saturday, Dec 29 2012,

Woke up to the gentle snow drifting down to make love to the earthy grounded surroundings.

was a good nite out salsa dancing, thou with not much connection except with the gal who is a professional salsa dancer. she is sweet and seemed to love every time I dipped her.
there was another mature lady, who kept asking me to dance, it was great, but except that she kept leading and then said that I need to get do something sexy with the bachata.... hmmm
anyways went out to my picnic spot around afternoon.

Got call from ash to play some pool towards evening, tried to play as best I could, realise how bad I am at it, but had fun, mocking my own goofiness.

back home around 5:45 and got on the web watching ufc. need to get into shape to be able to do physical stuff.

Dec 28th, Frustation at work, feel like such a dumbo

Friday, Dec 28 2012

woke up a bit late by 7:15.. got to work by 825.. no break fast, just a glass of milk. shower, and out of the house aroun 815. Glad to have taken an apt close by, beats getting stuck in the snobbish, crazy, arrogant driving traffic in the area .

Avoiding 2 hrs of stressful driving each day, about 40hrs per month or about 500hrs per year of stress avoided. :))) now putting it into per year makes it feel much better. works out to 25 dollars extra that I end up paying per day for the rent. that is about 12.5 dollars per hr of stress avoided.


Maybe like I planned last year, will try to sleep it into the new year. Just avoid all the noise and hype of consumerism around the new year.
Last years plan fell aside when I ended up winning the tickets to the new year event. well atleast got some free food sampling and hang out after party with maty. wonder what her story is, never really got to the bottom of it. was she cheating on her husband? or was she separated? or was she just looking for a short term fun? Just glad that I did not fall for her.

Dec 27, Thrusday of exploring options and people

Thursday Dec 27 2012.

8am to 8pm work.. :)
with lunch around 12 30 to 1:30

in the evening called up a v and talked for a few mins. got number of Rav S. Called up and left a msg.
got a return voice msg after a few mins.
got back home and called up, turns out to be living close to my current house and in a posh area by the country club. must be doing really well.
So the plan is to meet during weekend. Sat seems to be a low in possibility cause of the forcast of snow.

But anyways glad to know that someone from my past is living close by.

Dec 26 , Day after Christmas

Wednesday, Dec 26 2012

Not able to sleep, its just past 12 mid night.
Thinking of the snow, the Business rules and connections that I have to go thru to connect and understand. Damm discouraging. wish it was more structured and easier.

woke up around 6 out of bed around 7 and at work by 8..
went to the cable office to see if I could get the streaming bundle. but turns out I have to buy a TV to get the box and stuff.
had lunch @ home and then back to work.

Got out around 8:20..

on Facebook and saw that a gal I liked and had a brief connection with just before my move to US from van, got engaged.
I am really, really happy for her. She is such a sweet person.
The thing that got me thinking is thats another Good luck Chuck moment.
Thats like another persons best dreams coming true.

Cheers to Good luck Chuck in me ,,,,,,

 oooorrrr....

Cheers to Good Luck Vin.
Vin Vino.

I just have to fall in love with a person  or like them and their best dreams or desires come true,

Also was reminded of the lady in dallas salsa, who seems to have suddenly become a celibrity on Dallas latin Radio,,, seems to have become a talk hostess.

Dec 25 2012, Christmas.

Tuesday, Dec 25 2012

Woke up , with no desire to get out of bed. saw the sun rays seeping into my bedroom. Was only able to make it out of be around 11pm with multitude of thoughts swirling around planning the rest of the day, yep cook for one.

Then was getting all the preparations ready to make chapattis, when the call came from rj kan. regarding his move to Canada and wanting information about the initiation of the move, the things to do, look for, the counsel and stuff. Like everyone who is on the verge of a new move, was confused and seemed to need info and some to keep focused.
His heavy heart that the guys he  tried to contact reg the move, were not so helpfull and cooperative as he wanted or expected. He thought that every one would be like me unselfish, jumping at the opportunity to help and make his life comfortable. He is saddened that they are not returning his call even after a few calls. welll the take away I told his, that we learn from their behavior what we should not do to others. Atleast thats what I try my best to learn.

one of the beauties of living life is living itself.....

yea just wish that there were more ups and plateaus than the hard hitting lows.

Christmas night, and its been a great day of sunlight here. But come 3am, its going to start snowing... going to have a hard time getting to work.

Dec 24, Christmas eve after End of world / after life

Monday, Dec 24

trying to motivate myself from yesterdays feelings of low enthusiasm and low feelings.
Got get to get to work and start working on assimilating the knowledge to be able to do justice to the job I have undertaken...

Afternoon got out of work and drove home for lunch,,,, damm snowing has started..... hmm what a magical happening for some,, snowy christmas..

well not a big fan of the snow and driving in the snow.

Invited to tishs house, went there around 7 was there for south indian food and a couple of games of cards. Then returned back with a full stomach around 10pm.

that was Christmas eve for me, domesticated christmas eve.

Dec 23 2012, Slow sunday.

Sunday, Dec 23 2012

slow waking up, arranging things around the house to liven it up.. Feels good looking out in two different directions thru the 3 doors in 3 different directions.


CAlled up home again,, and again ending up in arguments ,,,,, frustrated with their false sense of priorities and sense of privileges...
A privilage sense of thinking that they own me.

Well my argument is that no parent own their kids, its the responsibility of the Parents to take care of the kids,,,,, and its the law in most of the countries and a matter of behavior among most of all living creatures that reproduce.

And among humans the children MAY take care of their parents in latter time. a huge may, again not a true responsibility. Just a sense of enforced responsibility cooked up by selfish parents, who just want to get away with a free ride by making their children feel guilty.

Felt a bit better taking with Ath and Ang,, trying to motivate them to live life and not get too serious with college life.

Dec 22....yea After life

Saturday,, Dec 22 2012..
12 22 2012

Is this after life,,, damm feels and looks the same.
Well @ salsa yesterday night ,, hit peaks and lows..

lows of getting too many rude "nos" at a salsa place.... damm sick bitches. There were like double number of guys to gals there..... guess thats where one gets to see the true nature of women.... most of them too self centered and then when the ratio changes,, they are always complaining about men not asking them to dance..

The crowning point was when the hottest gal (scarl)crossed across a sea of guys and comes over to ask me to dance.. first she points to me from in between two guys standing in front of,, I turn around to see if she ment some else behind me... she was like no "YOU",, for a moment I go googly eyed,, meee..
Wow,,, I was too nervous, but had a fun dance with her,,,,
Then latter on a cumbia, I went around the room asking a few gals,, got 3 NOs in a row,, tried to stay positive by saying, their loss,, went and asked a cute looking african american gal sitting with her friends in the vip section... dang it was nice to even get to dance the last 45 secs or so of the cumbia.

The crowing point was that latter the hottest gal (scarl) came and asked me to dance two more times..  woooo.. i could see the other gals giving her the dagger looks.. she did not care and she just danced.. kind of felt nice because of her,,, she drove about an hr from the neighboring state to be here. wow..

What a night, of ups and downs.

If only she knew how easily she could have got me to fall in love with her,,,,, I would have fallen for her just because she asked me after the series of NO's.. hmhmm,, well life sure is confusing with all kinds of curve balls thrown at you.



Friday, Dec 21 2012..... or 12 21 2012 Supposed to be the end of Mayan Calender or end of world..

At work around 7:45am,, out by 6:45pm
Decided to get Hyderabadi Dum ka biriyani during lunch...
rjn called up regarding info to of moving to canada. told him the details and then sent him the mails for relocation.

Evening decided to go to the salsa room.. wow a club called salsa room.. totally dedicated to salsa. nice..

Dec 20 2012 about 24hrs more for the End Of World EOW

Thursday Dec 20 2012

Just past mid-night,,,
feeling sick with all the doors around my life closing.... so 24hrs more EOw.... sick.

Dec 19 2012... Day of focused studying

Wednesday, Dec 19

attempted to get to work by 7 ,, was able to make it there only by 7:45am.. decided to stay focused on learning than attending any meetings and looking at the mails... seems to be a waste of energy and time.

got to stay focused.

got out by 7pm..

got back home and from 8 to 12 worked on documentation for about 4 hrs  ,,,, then got to know

"Your access has expired,check the date of expiration - > expire on Saturday, November 17, 2012 11:59:59 PM PST. ."

... such is life.....

ahhhh when is the world coming to an End... hope its pretty soon.... :(((

I am getting too old for all this fire fighting and trying to work my arse off , time and again to only have the rug pulled out from under me.

ahh now I really feel choked and feel like crying about everything happening in my life.

Dec 18, early to work

Tuesday, Dec 18

Got in early to work 7:45,,, late by 45 mins to my original plan. really frustrated for not been able to make much progress in understanding the nity-gritty of all this small components and their relationship.
Making me feel like a dumb arse and surely having ADD as I am not able to concentrate and focus and read and learn the stuff I should be.

got out around 7pm

ended up having thin crust pizza , my first bake in the gas oven, with a glass of the yummy spanish vino.
Was browsing the net and got to the first web page I created.. got to see the pics of my younger days.

http://www.reocities.com/siliconvalley/program/8411/

Dec 17, End of world in 4 to 5 days

Monday Dec 17

Was wondering whats high on the list of things to do for people when they are told its the end of the world in Dec 21 2012..
what would be the things that many have up on their list..

Most men would sure have lots of sex with lots of women among the top things to do list. :)

One gal friend said she would like to cuddle into the end of the world,, ended up asking is that gal talk for lots of sex? Cause gals are not so forth coming about talking or revealing about their sexual intentions.

Dec 16 2012, Love

Sunday, Dec 16 2012


Music has been and is the one MAJOR influence in inspiring and building up feelings of LOVE. 
Parents should focus on presenting KIDs with Musical related gifts than those CRAZY video games that seems to build up that part of the brain, related to destruction, killing and all kinds of progressive levels of violence !!!!! 
Parents, its a Choice and Responsibility that you folks have,

Inspiring thoughts during early morning cooking of my second week of veggie curries. :)

well there were lots, but this was the only one I could remember as an idea and come up with words.. the initial words, which I vaugely remember seemed much more precise and inspiring.

11:30,, debating on hitting Costco for my weekly picnic and need to explore the malu grocerry that I had seen online.... 
ahh why has the sun got to set around 4:30pm...

Got a Israeli Vino and a Spanish Vino...

Opened up the Spanish one,,, woooo it was smooth and charmingly fantastic,O... cheers to the mild tipsy and romantic feeling.

Dec 15 like waking in a dream

Saturday, Dec 15 2012

IT was great waking up after a very exciting and wonderful night of meeting some great people. hmmmm.

Got to go and apply for licence at new place.. now to find time to go and title and register the car..

Called up home during the drive to the department. tryiing to convince mom to avoid the soap operas on TV,,,, and like every addict, she refuses to acknowledge that its a problem.
Well its a major problem for a person who is living on just 25 percent and 30 percent of her heart muscles functioning.

Was nice to give my car, my lovely sweet heart a good Car wash with wax and the works. :)

Dec 14, Friiiiii,,, to salsa or not to

Friday, Dec 14 2012

frustrating with not been able to been upto speed at work.....

almost 11 hrs every day this week.. and still feel as thou I have not been able to make any progress.

frustrating and confidence killing.
need to now figure out, should I go or not to go salsa and just go let loose.

Tuesday, Dec 11,

Tuesday Dec 11 2012
but made it to work by 8:30,,, again with a struggle..
hmmmm 12-12-12 is tomorrow and the much talked about end of the world theory. hehehe.. not many seem to remember ,, or seems to have been lost in their own web of living life

back to home, 5 mins dirve ahhhaaa.. :) around 7pm and lots to time to kill. Sun set seems to happen around 5..

Was looking at the old pics from the past and re-living some of the great adventures.
Zion canyon always seems so close to heart and has a special place in my heart.




Monday Dec 10 2012

was not able to wake up early, kind of loving to sleep on in my own bed after such a long time.
but made it to work by 8:45

was able to send out my exp rpt.

Dec 09, Unpacking and resting and getting organized

Sunday, Dec 09 2012

woke up , called up home,,,,, not a good conversation. Don't remember having a good conversation ever after calling up parents....
Why?
what am I doing wrong?
why the total disconnect?

It feels sick,,, I try time and again to take a different approach,,, but.. soon the conversation turns ugly.

I must be really screwed up.

Anyways trying to unpack, clean up debris, organize and needing to complete other stuff and listening to some ancient hindi music that ver had given me.

Dec 08 hang over sat

Sat Dec 08 2012

Woke up around 10:30 and was in no situation to go to the DMV office.

feeling surprised that I was totally lost after last nights booze and meet with D and family. reached place around 7 and was there till a good 3am...
Then went to sleep again around 11:30 and woke around 3 in the afternnon

well my first sleep in my own bed.

Towards evening, went shopping for grocerries


Friday..Dec 07 2012

Checked out of the hotel ,, break fast was good at the hotels. hmmm another 2 week home of mine now.

Around evening went to D's house. was  trying to get the spoon I got from kerala. but was not able to find it or anything I could give them.
in the end, closer to the house, stopped at a grocery shop and brought two packs of lindt chocolates... not really happy with that thou.

Dec 06 2012,, so much brain/thought activity

Thursday Dec 06 2012

The past few days, have been noticing a much elevated range of thoughts and views about many subjects related to self awarness and my own past and current actions.

Dec 05 2012, House hold stuff

Wednesday, Dec 05 2012,

went from the hotel to the apt to wait out the movers.
got call ,no rather a voice msg @ 9 16.. they came around 10 and left around 11:45... two boxes broken and opened up...
and a few damages..

called up sen around 11 and told him that I am not going to make it to the meeting .. aroun 11:45 went to the hotel to have lunch...

Nov 28 2012...

Wednesday Nov 28 2012

Nov 29,,, confusion and chaos

Thursday, Nov 29 2012

got to work aroun 8:30 can in by 9

afternoon went to new apt and gave the initial rent.
tried calling up state revenue... again no let up or down about the mistake.