Saturday May 29 2010
Wake uo early 6am , it’s a very good time management and adjustment between 5 people to get ready for the Pittsburg trip.
In between check the net. To find a msg from Sara. Poor Had suggested chakri as friend to her and she had not accepted him as she said she did not know him.. Told her that he was the guy who introduced us. Guess she does not remember him from that night.
girl seems to be suffering constantly and fighting against the odds of nature and was apologizing for not been in touch. Then explaining the reasons related to work and how she has to deal with rude customers especially today. She got it really bad with all the series of bad conditons that were happening to her.
First her dad dies about Christmas, then she gets into an accident with a car when she was riding to work on her bike. And then having to go to a remote Italian village to meet up with all her dads family and was constantly reminded of him and his memories. And now she is living with her mom, going to school and working all at the same time. Not been able to do her favourite acitivty of running daily and running the marathons.
I wish I could something for her and my worries and sadness seems to be nothing compared to her natural calamities.
Send her a reply with positive motivating words, need to call her sometime after the trip.
Then saw the mail from Eva, again she sounded so angry and seems to hate me for some reason. If only the reasons were valid and I could understand them. All I ever did was to act in her best interests and always with her happiness in mind. Only thing I did with amit was to open my heart in a time of weakness to him. Something I wanted to do to her if she was open to listening to me. But now she has built up this wall and after repeating the imaginary thing about me spreading bad things about her to all her friends she seems to believe that I have just gone around the world to tarnish her life and image.
I was feeling uncomfortable because we were going to talk after a long time and I was kind of excited and was not sure what to talk and what to say. Just wanted us to talk as casual friends, talk about life, philosophy, pshycology, salsa, belly dancing, hiking, or anything that would make her smile and laugh and keep her happy.
Did not have time to reply to her, but could just feel the intensity of her words==>>>I am not going to invite you to Czech Republic. I am not going to move to the US.
So did she get the Green Card at all? No reply to that. IF she had got the green card, it’s a greater indication of nature granting us even more conditions and signals that we are ment to be together. If only she stopped behaving like a teenager and thought about things in a sound and reasoning way. And not just run away with her emotions. Emotions that seem to cause more confusion than any solution.
Sent her a msg back in reply from the iPhone during the drive to Pittsburg. Explaining that when I said uncomfortable, I ment that I was feeling uncertain about how and what we will talk. And I was not hoping about resolving any issue, that is a very far and distant thing. First I just want us to over come this tension of even starting a conversation.
Anyways we start off around 8:30 am. In Narayans car , take the 80 most of the way. The landscape seems to different from the ones on the west coast, narayan had a good collection of Indian songs which did bring up the mood for sometime.
Stopped maybe once on the way to fill up gas. Then at a mac donalds to have coffee and I had a apple pie, was suddenly reminded of the trip with Eva and her parents to US. One of the girls working at the mac was behaving kind of rude when I told her we were just deciding on the order. So did not go to her to order. Just too scared to deal with angry people.
We reach Pittsburgh around afternoon 3pm. Check into the Days inn. The hotel had a indoor swimming pool and regretted not getting my shorts for going swimming. Pittsburgh reminded me also of Vancouver cause of the river going in between the city.
After a shower and a bit of meditation trying to clear my mind of the sad state of my relationship with eva. We start of towards the Venkateshwara, temple of Pittsburgh, supposed to be run by the same group that takes care of the temple in Tirupathi. As ananya has her induction ceremony to the world of letters, words and education. First we have to stand in line to get in as there is a huge crowd that’s come from all over US for the long weekend. No wonder we could not get the rooms to hotels close to the temple. First have darshan in the tirupathi style. People stand in line one after another and get into the deeper temple area near to the gods statue and the priests give us prasadam , banana, holy water and blesses us with the golden crown.
After the darshan, we get the poojari (priest) to come and have the special ceremony for ananya . She behaves like a good girl and the ceremony is successfully over with the priest blessing her in flowing words of compliments.
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Then we go down to the temple cafeteria, where any item is by donation of $2. Have about 16 items packed so that I can eat them at home in Philly after I return. Mostly Tamrind rice and curd rice. And a couple of packets of sweet ladoo. Tirupathi ladoo is the most famous of all ladoos.
After eating the stuff we get to see a gods idol been taken into the temple after it was taken around in a golden chariot. They had some more Prasad. Some stuff made of lentil and sweet potato. Spicey and tasted good too.
Around 7 we decide to go to another temple for Sai Baba. My first visit to a Sai baba temple ever in my life, it’s a couple of miles away and on top of another hill. Seems like all the temples are constructed on top of the hills in Pittsburgh.
Was just in time there for the sunset arthi and prasadam. Again banana, holy water with milk and blessing with silver crown.
Then narayan has another brilliant idea of going to the Jain temple. Again just a couple of miles and we get to see the most magnificent temple I have ever seen in North America. Its majestic and awesome all seem to be in red lime stone or something like that. Its named HINDU JAIN TEMPLE, since when did Jains and hindus get combined. Is not Jainism something similar to Buddhism. There was the statue of Mahivir the founder of Jainism, then there was also the statues of Krishna, laxmi-narayan , Surprise, We were the only people there and the poojari was kind to do pooja for us and gives the holy water, some raisins and cashew.
After taking a few more pics we return back to the hotel, tired as hell. Viki was watch TV and I did not have any interest in watching TV, neither did I fee any kind of anger or irritation because viki was watching TV.
Viki and me shared the single double bed. end up pushing viki off from me, a couple of time during the night.
Got to call up home tomorrow morning and if possible call up Eva.
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