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Sun, May 2, 2010
12:30pm Eating last of the love shaped cookies that Eva sent for Christmas- 2009, did not feel like finishing them and did not feel like throwing them away either.. about 5 months old now. EAT them with a heavy heart.
2 pm call u p Jennifer Hewitt. the Bldg mgr and told her about the notice I dropped off on Apr-29th (had called her yesterday too and left a msg) said was busy yesterday at a wedding hence could not get back to me. She said she would get the check for Jun back to me and then do a walk thru and the final process. 604613-3185
5pm party with Kaye, Igor, Mel, Asaf.
Got call from Eva from phillipines. she wanted to come for the party too. Kind of invited herself and then wanted to get a couple of her relatives too. But told her that there is a restriction on the number of people I can accommodate.
Then latter another call from menalnie who works with Eva. asking about directions.
4:30 went to super store and got 2 packs of chips and one pack of Indian snacks.
Kind of trying to figure out the best way to hand over the keys to the car for the movers to pick up. Kaye does not seem to be available on most of the dates. Muhu in Surrey seems to be the next best alternative. Or have to hand over to Asaf.... just figuring out the best way to have fun at Atlantis. OR maybe I hand over the keys on Tuesday evening and then come back from the Boss/Atlantis by the skytrain or taxi.
5:30 Kaye comes in first, Igor sends a text saying he cannot make it cause of work.
Then Call up Asaf who is oblivious to the party, and did not check Facebook. So he sets off to come. Melanie and Eva turn up too.
We start getting drunk on Merlot, the Jackson Triggis specail olympic edition, wine I got for Volunteering at the Olympics..... then the next two bottles from Oliver Twist, I wanted to take to Kerala to give to my family members... but now with the move to US and not wanting to transport the Wine all the way, I open up the other two bottles of Oliver Twist,, bottles that were signed by the owner couples. :(( and tasted good...
Latter we all get into heated drunk discussions,, starting with Greek, the gals were talking about the type of guys that they feel attracted to and how they feel attracted too. Kaye was more mature in saying that she is no longer a teen and does not go,, aww and ooohh when she sees a guy any more, but rather ends up more critically and is not attracted to them as she seems to be traumatized by the cheating of her husband..... Trust is a very delicate thing.... I feel the same, after the series of girls in my life who seem to come into it just to betray me and my sincere trust in them.
I can easily understand how she feels and what she is going thru.
Then we get into talks about sex and the idea of sex and cheating in different cultures... my argument was that thou culture plays a role in influencing, its again the individual persons preception. For some people just touching is equal to sex. for some its the full penetration and both achieving orgasm. for some oral sex is not full sex... for some kissing another while in a relationship is cheating...
around 10:30 they all leave and Kaye takes the vacum cleaner and Melanie takes the Printer.
So now only the thing remaining is the TV for Asaf and microwave for Kaye,,, guess I am just giving out 1000's of dollars worth of free stuff...
Well atleast someone gets to enjoy it and its not going to waste.
Chatted with E a bit.. again seems to get angry,, guess its her own guilty conscious of having played a game of lies and deceit thats at the crux of her not able to face her self and I kind of remind her of her Evil side. WEll atleast I am not holding anything against her, she did what she had to do for what ever she thought it was useful or worth it.
She has to learn to be honest with her self and understand all this started with her thinking that its okay to tell lies and then follow it up with a thousand lies to cover up one lie. And then her torturing me saying that I have to say sorry for calling her a lier, when all i said was how can she talk about trust when we are not even able to have a honest conversation..... well it could be that she was like I suspected ,,,, setting up for the Break up and make it all look like its my fault so that its easier for her to convince Amit about it and hook up with him..... Guess Amit turned out to be another Louis or her first Mirav who just did not fall for her crooked schemes and did not end up becoming another victim.
Am I a victim? in a way maybe, as I was so foolish to place my trust when all the red flags were all there. But I choose to ignore them. Maybe in my own way, not knowingly,, I was desperate to find love and be loved. Wanting to know that I could find connection with someone different than all the crooked cheats I met before. But... the pattern of behavior just continues.....
Or plain and simple,, all these gals come into my life so that they can have their best dreams come true,, which does not include me. Maybe I will meet a gal whos best dream is to always be with me thru thick and thin. And is fully and totally dedicated to me and my values and my way of life... A " Good Luck Chuck " that I am.
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