Return from Pittsburg

Sunday may-30-2010

We get up in the morning clean up and go to the lobby to have break fast. It was packed like in the hotel at Zion on my trip with Eva , the hotel with the pool. One of my fav nights when Eva was so calm even with the TV on. I felt I would have married her that day if things permitted.

We start off with the intention of stopping and praying again at the Venkateshwara temple as its on the way.
Reach there by around 10am and go to pray and Narayan again pays for special darshan.

We get out by 11 and I take the wheels of his new Honda CRV. Was feeling really sick to the stomach and upset at the way things were with Eva and me, Wish that we could atleast maintain to be friends as she seems to so hate me, why , why and why is the question that is bothering me. When I was so sincere and dedicated to our relationship, did not cheat on her . When I felt guilty even to be dancing with another girl. I was so dedicated to her and to my love for her and only wanted our love to grow and not wither away.

The drive goes okay, and we stop on the way at a rest place to have the lunch of tamarind rice we brought yesterday at the temple.
I manage to make a call to my home and talk with mom. As there is severe thunder and lightening, Mom is hesitating to talk for long. Tell her about my life been troubled and tortured. Don't tell her the details, just tell her about how I was feeling inside and how things were not happening to me the way I want to happen. She did not seem much interested in talking as there was too much of lightening and thunder and was afraid of talking. So we hang up,

After having lunch and cleaning up the table we start off towards Philadelphia.

I think I was so troubled I was thinking and of late was feeling very suicidal, and driving like a crazy guy,.

Got pulled over for over-speeding by a cop and was give a ticket for 169.5 dollars. Wow, what a pleasant surprise. Atleast we did not end up dying or injured cause of some accident. and I guess it was not time for me to die

So that is a sign, its not yet time for me to give up and its time to live and to fight for another day.

I hand over the driving to Naryan and he and his wife and viki are trying to cheer me up. We reach my house in Lansdale by evening. Show them around my house and narayan was interested in seeing my silver Honda CRV of 1997 to compare it with his brand new 2011 model.

After having a light snack and fruit juices, we go towards Philadelphia downtown to see Penns landing and drive around the famous landmark that was instrumental in the formation of United States of America, The Independence hall ,the independence Bell was narayans favorite want to see and photo.
Then drive to Penns landing by the river, lucky get parking , after going down get to know that most of it is closed. We end up going back, I drop them off at the independence bell and wait in the car.

They come back after sometime and we get back to Lansdale around 9pm. Just in time to get into Sultan restaurant for dinner. Have chicken biriyani which is not really cooked in the way Biriyani is supposed to be cooked, its cooked more like in the Punjabi style restaurant of mixing basmathi rice with some chicken curry gravy with some raisens added. But loved the garlic nann. That goes into my will have again list.

Get back to my apartment around 10:30pm and they take off towards New Jersey. Tried to get them to spend time in my apartment and go home the next morning. Looked like narayan had some major things to settle and viki had some shopping to do in New Jersey next day morning. Just go in and drop off to bed.