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Went to sleep early and kept waking up early. Atlast 8 hrs sleep. Don`t remember the last time I went to sleep like that.
Got to rush out already 6:30am. meetings, delivery of house hold , car.... will be a action filled day. maybe go out salsa dancing tonite. hehehe.. and make my presence in Philly. got to join up a group, that looked active on the internet atleast. With indian gal salsa dancing.. will be interesting to see that, As I hardly got to meet any Indian girl in Vancouver salsa.
Almost of week of not even able to see anything on Evas Facebook . After she deleted and blocked me for what ever reasons of Anger and resentment she seems to have built up. But that seems to be acting in a good way for me. Now thats less of her I will be thinking and been concerned about.
She did not even have the courtesy to reply to my mail asking her about the check from the Tax dept i sent to her address. And like a fool i sent it by registered post paying 14 dollars when I could have just mailed to her by regular.
Guess she just was trying to maintain a friendly attitude till she got her check and then decided, I have no further use of this guy, so lets cut him off from Facebook. Cool, thats another side of hers that I got to see.
Why do I always get the feeling that women just come to use men. And then when men do that, they are very bad. But every women thinks its her right to abuse men and then paint them as bad people when her wishes are not met.
Reminds me of the chat with guiermo, even he was saying women are strange like that, so use them before they use you.
Well who knew that just the Madhya-ma-ranju would cause this much pain and suffering. Even with ideal 9 out of 10 star compatibility. Maybe thats why we met and connected so well. almost perfect.
And maybe thats why mom said that the first 3 to 4 astrologers refused to compare our astrological charts.
But I was of the opinion that she would have it in her , the will to work and accomplishing. Like the way she climbed cypress with me. Or maybe she gave up, because she really loves someone else. Or maybe she is only motivated to climb and hike and not really capable of using that attitude in real life situations.
Atleast i tried and tried. And she made me crawl and I crawled by putting my ego aside.
That I think is the end. Atleast I have the satisfaction of having tried and lost and rather not have the guilty conscious of not having tried. It told me a lot about my own character of willing to work at making relationship work. Maybe its because of my Indian upbringing and attitude. That I found was true. Because on sunday I realised that most Indians are unconsciously trained by their parents. And the girls are constantly reminded to behave good to make good husbands and trained to behave and act in a way that makes them ideal wifes. And guys are trained to Not drink and smoke and to be faithful to their wifes and to work hard to provide for the family.
Something I guess Eva missed out as her parents were always away and her mom was hardly even there for her, when her period started. ahh I feel so much for her pain and lack of proper guidance from her mother during her crucial formative years. Guess its a great learning experience for me to learn what happens to kids when their parents are not there to give them guidance. And I am sure Eva will continue to the same to her kids. Which is something I would not want for our kids.
7:30 at the shuttle stop, get chatting with the guy from Philly, about work and other places and comparing Canada and US work and efficiency.
12:00 finish off with all the meetings and call up jeff, who seems to be already there at my apartment. Ask Murali for a ride and he gives me.
reach home and meet the driver from Winnipeg. Jeff. Very friendly man, who did all the carrying up of my stuff.
Only that they broke one of my lamps. yet to find my blender. only got to unpack a few essential boxes.
then around 2:30 go to get my car. noticed that the handle to open the hood is broken. Damaged. arrrgghhh. make a note of that and sign the docs.
So far everything seems to be in order.
3:30 help the driver go drop off the shuttle truck he came in and gave him a ride back from the shuttle rental to his trailer truck.
Went over to Mc donalds and had a burger for my lunch and my own way of celebrating the arrival of my lifes closest and dearest, now that I am single and no one else is closer and dearer to me than my own personal stuff. :). Sticking by me thru thick and thin.
4:00pm back to work with my CAR and parking. Saw george on his way out.
4:30 again training and
5:45 Raj asks me if I can going home. Told him that I can and then dropped him off at his apt.
6pm get home and start un-packing.. woooo.
put the bedsheets and pillow into the washer.. and then the dryer.. so convenient . Ahh to luxury.
9:30 start towards downtown Philly for some salsa. got lost again when entering highway 76 and went the wrong direction. used the GPS on the iphone to get back.
10:30 reach downtown philly almost on empty tank. have to find a place to fill up , but the first requirement is for finding a place to park. Luckily after 10pm its free parking.
get in with $5 cover. Enter to a fully packed Wendnesday night at Brasil. no place to walk too, how are they going dance with this crowd. Seems there is a theme party of all "white" dress going on. So many people came in all white.
Start by watching the level of dancers. got a good dancer to start off and was flattered by the way people were looking at me dance. Hope it does not get to my ego. Then a couple of people who were very new found it challengling to dance with them. One quite in the middle and the other continued with a smile, that is the attitude I like of "NOT QUITING". There is always going to be some kind of difficulty, but we can decide to over come it by facing it or run away from it.
Then had one of my best merengue with a cute Italian looking girl. She was a bit chubby, but followed so easily and it was helping me make new moves. This is what I probably need in my life partner too, someone who can help making living easy and compliments rather than causing and creating issues and obstructions.
Partner dancing shows and teaches so much about how a relationship and attitude of people will be in a relationship.
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