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Tue, May 4, 2010
Lazy day.. wake up @ 5am as usual, but decide to lay low and Enjoy sleeping on the floor. Used the jacket as pillow. With all the stuff taken by the movers the apartment looks like a huge room of nothingness.
Funny how people attach so much importance to bed and great comfortable matters. And I am fine even sleeping on the floor. Felt and was reminded of the time spent out camping with Eva. And some how seem to miss that adventure. The memories of dealing with an Angry Eva seem to be fading... Guess thats life, the bad fades away faster than the Good. Is it just me or is it usually Human. To remember most of the good and pleasant times.
She claims to remember the good times. But her actions don't seem to back up her words. Thats one thing they said about all women. (i think it applys to everyone) that to watch what they do and not what they say.
Did not get to see her online nor any updates on FB. wonder what happened. Hopefully she is safe and doing well.
Asaf expected to come by in the evening to take the TV and also KAye for my fave cooking mate, my DANBY microwave.
Let me get going, have to call up linda, and then head off to the CRA in Surrey as soon as possible and see what I need to do.
It was nice to see that Delma is considering getting back into software after talking with me. So sent her the docs and other material related to SQL and Database. Hope she goes thru them and sees how she feels after going thru them for a month.
8am get call from muhu that he is at honda dealer and will drop by for picking up more of the remaining stuff.
he comes by 9 am and leaves by 9:30...
10am got msg from Bela Sara B. .... she is back from Italy and wants to go out dancing with me... Told her that I would not be having my car for the evening and she was fine lets take the sky train.... woo hooo.. and told her lets meet up for dinner or something before that.. she was like I don't have any money, I am broke and in debt ... ahh I told her its my treat, we need to talk and catch up, its my new job party...
Reluctantly she agreed.... well thats a date with Sara before I take off to Philly...
Some people don't like to call it a date, its just that they are trying to fool themselves into thinking that dating is bad. Dating is not bad, its just two people meeting and if things are ment to happen and there is some special magic that they can see it as going forward and for life long it happens or it just ends with that one date.
Eva never liked to admit that her going out with other guys for BBQ (one on one) or for the movie or for dinner with all the guys she went out with as date. Thou they the guys like to call it A DATE.
And as Amit Jha put it, more so because of his Indian conservativeness that all the white gals are like that (bitches and very low in moral character) and was surprised that he called Eva a Slut because of her dating.. Thats just the way of life in the west! Dude! well may be he will understand after he spends some time out in the west.
Just that eva and many like don't like to admit it because even they judge other people harshly and hence their own reluctance to admit it to themselves and be honest with themselves and accept it at its face value...
Anyways,, off for my Revenue dept and then to call sara and hang out..... she is such a sweet heart.. but am i looking at romantic possibility..????
no, i can't as I am in love with someone else...., and not in a relationship as I got dumped. :) but who knows, the day is still young and the possibilities are endless. Even thou I do not like to date anyone else now as I love Eva dearly and consider it cheating at my own end thou I do not have any moral obligation to her as she was the one who dumped me two times.....
IT to me is my own moral obligation to be honest to myself than to be honest for the sake of someone else.
Come back from surrey and start the last of clean up work. Pack the Microwave up for Kaye . Asaf said will come by at 6pm to pick up the Tv, stand and the microwave.
Got msg from Sara about her visit to the dentist. Ahh why am I leaving Van, when I am suddenly making lots of new good friends and meeting good new people.
3pm.... Mundies guy comes by and picks up my car. feel a sad parting sensation that my car will be away from me for about 2 weeks. hope it reaches philly safely.
Again get a call from Sara, talk for sometime. says her computer is screwed up.
6:00pm Asaf comes by and takes the TV, the 2nd TV stand and micro wave for Kaye. And the remaining food stuff of coke and the cables and the digital box that I paid $100 for at future shop.
7:30 meet up with sara, have Vino and Dinner at Cactus and then go out to the boss to dance non-stop. She is so sweet and so easy to lead. Just follows and don't have to stress thinking about if she will hijack or do something on her own.
Definity one of my Best nights at Atlantis/Boss.
Reached home using the Bus and then from patterson, took a taxi to drop off Sara. And she said that she felt a very strong connection with me too. Wished that I was staying on and disappointed that I am going away in a few hrs. What can I say, Life is strange, we want something, but something different seems to happen. Just have to live and enjoy the moment. I was too choked to say anything. just could not tell her anything to comfort her. But if I make it into a job that is consulting ,, flying in and out during weekends, then I would surely get back to Vancouver.
It was an awesome night to remember., How I wish that I had a job in Vancouver and got to stay on. Well life has its own twists and turns. Got to know very closely 3 wonderful women in two days. And yet ..... the heart is else where. Thats why they say, you fall in love and not choose to love.. When people choose to love, they are trying to artificially do something thats supposed to be natural. And from that comes all the other issues. Because its all caused by the imbalance of nature. Leading to fights, lack of understanding, lies, cheating and what not....
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