Seems nice day

Tuesday Jun-08-2010
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Woke up early around 5:30am. After morning wash room stuff. I try to blog and see that Eva has a sweet touching write up on her blog.

It was refreshing to see her talk like a caring team player.

I got my Philly Drivers licence , at last after making 3 attempts. If something like that can happen in a fully developed country like US then only dread to think what would have been my situation in India. Would have had to bribe a series of officials to get things done.

And I am not that great a fan of taking bribes or giving bribes and don't want to support the institution of bribing. Its so disgusting that people take advantage of the troubles in other peoples lives. One of the sickest things.

I don't want to contribute to the demand, Only where there is demand is there some kind of supply.
Same with all kinds of illegal substances, prostitution, smuggled goods, plastic industry, PUC,,,,,,

Well time to focus on the good things and positive things in the morning. And get my mind organised for the next Visit to get the Registration of my Car to the Pennsylvania State, from the Canadian , BC one.

That is my next phase of hopefully, with not much struggle. Its such a unknown area. And these Government guys can say and tell anything and for sometime they are like gods and we are like some slaughter house cattle's.

Time to move.

7:00 am... as usual starts off at 7:10am... And what a blow up, Indians in Kolkata and Indians in US arguing about some format and the indians in Kolkata are pissed off that the US Indians escalated some issue with their managers. The Indians in US are pissed off that the Kolkata people are not taking any responsibility for their commitments to dates and for not doing things on time..... ahhh
Sense of Accountability is such a huge thing.
All over the world that sense of accountability and commitment for ones actions drive everything. Be relationships, family, friends, at work, on the road, when walking and in everything we do.

The meeting seems to be getting more aggressive. Lucky I am not that much into it and my area is all mine. :)

I see Martha, E's mom on skype and send her a greeting. Not sure what she thinks of me. But I am kind of pissed of at her a bit because of ignoring Eva during her formative years. The time a girl needs her mom the most.
She is a very nice lady with a great sense of energy and liveliness. She are lubo are like me and Eva in the opposite way. She is very practical in her thinking and very analytical like all Engineers. And Eva is more like her dad in many aspects.

7:30 am , meeting still going on. with lots of undercurrent of anger. Kriss of the US Indian team seems to be in a very bad mood today. Maybe its because his wife and kids went to India on a vacation and he must be feeling lonely and missing them and seems to be sucidal to the effect of wanting to be fired and get back to India.

Well it feels like too much negative engergy floating around today.

Atleast I got my modified SSN , modified with my name. yeaaaaa at last.
That was another series of running around I had to do to all the Government offices, between DMV, and social Security. Just because my long name does not fit into their name field of their computer system.

Why is it that I am punished because of my name. Well if not that there maybe something more bad. So I rather settle for this one. And one by one the issues seem to be getting resolved with the move. And its been almost 3 months.

Last thing to do, take care of the registeration of my car today afternoon, keeping fingers crossed for things to move smoothly.

See Niliesh online after a very long time on google chat.

7:45am and now they are still talking about the ego clash issues because of escalating to higher managers.

I think I need to start doing something more positive and visible at work.

Nilesh was talking about Arranged marriage, no expectations with full responsibility. thats a nice way to put it. And that married people have no time for anything and life is full and fullfilling... so true,

""so you will be 110% occupied at same time you will get some goal in life to achieve and thats where you always found busy and have meaning to life""

And I wished that Eva would have been part of my life to experience that together.
If only she knew that she was the only one I really thought seriously about having a family and kids with.....

Wondering should I send her the reply or no. Do people we are in love with deserve to know what we are feeling towards them.
What if this was the last day of my life, would i want to tell her and explain to her about what I think. hmmm feels like it. Well right now at work so cannot send personal mail. Have to be from home.

8:00am,, call gets over with the Indian manager Diman, talking with the people here in US and trying to calmly talk and compromising. After he explained and communicated, the people here also felt a sympathy towards him and then they seem to understand each other better and feel more friendly than aggressive... Atlast some positive movement.

Communication the key to all possible issues between people in the world.

Even if it means sitting with a angry person. But the angry person should be open to listening and not have a block. Where there is a will there is a way.

Great news, I just got approval for Managers training thats on Friday 11th. For a full day secession in New Jersey. Waiting for details of the training. Aww some line of hope and positivity. cheers and yahoo. :) :) :) :) :)

8:35am,, always used to wonder how come one person can fall so deeply in love with someone and the other person does not even seem to know or care. Now I know it is possible for one person like me to. And the other person can just choose to ignore them and their feeling totally. Have a wall up to such an exten that they are not even aware and able to see the beauty of love.

Lost are they in the blinding colors of their own illusions and superficiality.
They could never even know the diamond in their hands from a dry stone.

Will the diamond thats thrown away into the wide world be disconvered
Or will it just sink into the depth of the ocean, forever lost covered in sand.

Remains to be seen if it gets discovered before its thrown
Or Will it fall into deserving hands that could shape it to perfection.

Did I think she was a diamond. yes
And a diamond that needed to be scrubbed, cut, turned and polished with experience.

I did my bit of trying to clean up the dirt and cobwebs
What her experience does to her and her choices, remains to be see
hope that experience does not break her sense of moral life and sincere behavior
Hope she does not loose value for other peoples sentiments and sympathies.

knew her potential then and even now proud.
Just wished I was there the whole way and process.
And wished that she would have done the same for me.

11:30am After working on trying to find what the issue was since yesterday to log on to Test5 got to talk with George and figured out that its pointing to Prod. So sent a msg to matt from UK and he came up to change the VESP.IMP file to point to the right Sieb url.

got to go for the Car registeration.

12:15 head out to home, have lunch, chicken curry and rice. tastes yummy like grand moms.

Then take all the import docs and Canadian Insurance docs to the registertion office.
There the guy is not sure how to process the US car retruning from Canada. And he wanted the title. But the title was already taken by the people in Canada for their registeration in BC. And all they gave me was the insurance papers.

After asking for documents one after the other and my Pennsylvania liscence, he is still not sure what to do.
And then says, you need to go to Harrisburg as it will take about 4 weeks for it to get processed here. Harrisburg is the capital of Pennsylvania.
Its about 100 plus miles and 2 hrs drive from my place. Ahhhhh

Well I am not sure if I want to go all the way to Harrisburg. Might as wel go to another shop and see if they can give me any.

Evas friend jose only has issues with his registeration. I am having issues with everything and anything I seem to touch.
1) for Licence
2) for Social secrutity
3) with the movers
4) for getting the insurance.
5) now the car registeration

All this because non of these people seem to have handled a canadian move before and all are scared to make the mistake and get caught in some kind of fake business.

Well given the way people are turning up as people with bad intentions towards this country all over, it is understandable. But when will my series of frustrations at these delays and extra work needed for each and everything that I am trying to change ever end.

Now i really need someone to hug me and console me