May 11 2011, Lost and Confused

May 11 2011, Wednesday,

Feeling of been lost and full of confusion, not sure where all my life is heading. Just got mail yesterday about 1 month notice from work.
Thou was expecting something like this to an extend after my trip to india, it filled me up with confusion as to what to do and how to go about this.
Jun 13 2011, last date of lease at this apt too..... so confusing.

Where to go, where to move, do I have to try looking for another apartment? do I just put my stuff in storage and then move to Canada?
what about the car registration? the insurance??

getting tired of all the move and unstable life, people say why can't u take a job thats stable. Where is any job secure these days?
everything comes with an expiry date. Just that the dates seem to have too frequently for me and fills me with sense of lose and hopelessness. Is it age catching up with me and wanting to just retire to a calm peaceful place?
OR
is this all the result of Jet lag,,, 48hrs travel door to door and the total change in sleep rythm... 10 hrs diff.

Its been a week. getting some emotional support from a few friends who all seem to be having a steady life.... funny all of them got US green card or Citizenship.

Nice to get mails from malin who just got back from greece, she seems to have had a great time there. and also from De who is in VA this week.

will miss them all as I get ready to be kicked out of philly now.....

guess I should start packing slowly and try to get card-board boxes.

Was nice also talking with Lubo. sweet and honest person. kind of felt nostalgia about it. Also with the possibility of getting the project in Slovakia or Czech.. lets see keeping fingers crossed.

wish I had lots of money, about 2 to 5 million Dollars then could have just retired in Mahe..... sweet sleepy place filled with greenery all over.

around afternoon posted the mail to Canada revenue with the 8dollars and change of past due.
Then got my gas filled .. that was about dollar 50 for a full tank. used to be about 30 dollars a few months ago. Surely the prices of other things are going to be affected soon.
Then got back to the room, talked with Anl and decided to put in my 60 day noitice period will end up paying about 1500 next month on. got to see how that works with the mid of month end of lease.

Had a pleasent chat with Malin she seems to be on the move again going to the west coast to see her sis. seems to be happy that I did not get married on my trip to india or get hitched. :)
well atleast she had some encouraging words to say.

wanted to go for a run ended up walking,, found out that was just 3 kms... talked with balaji for sometime and told him a bit about my trip