Thu, May 13, 2010
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Donot emotionally respond to the scare “bells” in the environment. Youare an “actor” not a “reactor”. We should not be like a ship that goeswhichever way the wind happens to blow. We must keep our ship afloatand stable. Our ship must not be tossed and rocked and perhaps sunk byevery passing wave, or even a serious storm. (Hare Krishna Movement)
Low feeling of energy day. These words were comforting and motivating that turned up on FB, by EVa
Woke up around 5am. Thou I slept like a log after going out running in the cold yesterday night.
Took the shuttle at 7:30am.
got down at the cafetria enterance and this time again greeted a bunch of people. It looks like most people were really grumpy today. But some of the peoples faces lit up after seeing my smile and hearing me say "morning". did not say good or anything.. just "morning" and gave them all a charming smile. And it was rewarding in itself to see that I was able to light up a few peoples faces and make them look beautiful, from the grumpy aged look they were entering the office. :)
Reached my desk around 8:00am as usual the only guy here. Scanned the pay stubs and sent it to HR. This is a controversy thats going on for more than a month now. And the bigger the company the harder its to solve these kinds of issues. Still have not got any salary for the 2 weeks of Mar, work I did at New york for Satyam, Guardian ,, Apex 2000.
Had sent out a mail, to Radish at Apex 2000. have to call up and see what the situation is. Or threaten to call labour dept and complain.
Called up Radish and he seemed to be uncertain and was saying that Satyam is objecting cause I did not complete 15 days. Then I told him that they wanted me for 1 month, and I did that job in 2 weeks. So whats their problem?
Said will call me back in half and hour.
Atlast got a mail from current employer... so I a going to get $423 for the one day they missed out adding. I was thinking something like $200. whoo hooo. :)
Got msg from Sara, she is still struggling after the accident and the resulting problems in her back. Sweet gal that I have danced with the most in one night ever.
She is one example of how much people in US and Canada have to struggle to make it thru college and studies and work all at the same time. We indians are so fortunate that our parents take care of the finance of our living and studying.
My heart goes out to people like this who are so sincerely and honestly working and living their day to day life. Just barely saving enough to have a trip to some distant land for a few days and then back again to their daily struggle and survival.
And then I compare it to the people who are in AISEC India and Eva, who seem to end up spending more out of her own pocket for the experience of living in India. Not sure if she will even recover the costs of her air-fare.
What is she was in Sara's shoes, not having any big savings or heriditary assests. Would she have dared to spend the money on the US trip and the India tirp?
Well she is privilaged to have two working parents and a house to retrun back to.
Wish she would have had more exposure to the real people in India and not the Richy-rich crowd of AISEC that she seems to hang out with.
Wonder if any of those guys, Amit, Rihit, Mihir, Jose or any other would had to work for minimum wages. Doing hard manual labor. With the fear hanging over, of becoming homeless, if they miss out of working for a few days because of sickness.
For me it was a real learning experience. Guess even Eva went thru the lows of that in Van. And now she is living a life thats considered very luxurios for Indian standards. Not again really experiencing the real India. Which would surely have made her more appreciative of the life and opportunities and facilities she has in her own country.
Feel like going on a Hiking trip around the National parks on the East coast. Wonder if she would be able to make it here for the month of August (before the pass for NPs expire) and see how our trip would go JUST as friends. And see what we have learned from our different experiences the past one year and matured. That would be a great test! I would atleast like to see how I would or what I would do different.
But as I had expected before she left for India, she is with someone else now and it would not be fair to the other person that we meet up. And hence rules out any possibility of us even going out as just friends. Well atleast I remain true to my dedication and loyalty in my heart. :).... guess thats the difference between the western values and Eastern sentiment/values. Even people in the middle east are extremely passionate about their sentiments. Something which the people in the west seldom are capable of understanding. Unless they get to see lots of Hindi Movies and living in India. hahaha, just the suggestion of that triggered AC in Eva...
Called up Radish again and was told that Satyam was not paying up and was causing issues. Then I told him well, its not that I did not do the work I came to do, I completed the one month work in 2 weeks. And if they cause issues, I will just complain to the Labour dept and name every one there to them. And if they want to get tangled in it, then I will just do it with out any issues.
Tried calling up Linda for William movers, to know the ETA (estimated time of arrival) of my car and goods. Ended up leaving a msg. And she has not replied to my mondays email either. Will try to call her again.,,,,, no luck.
Talked with Jose at guardian to know how the things are going on there. Maybe even I need to apply to the Florida company and get a free ticket for the interview. lets see how that goes.
Narayan returns from Ottawa. Successful trip with his wife and baby. cheers
Just discovered that Geocities is closed... ahhh so that means I lost some of my original poetry compilations... bummer :(
Thursday, May 13, 2010
Wednesday, May 12, 2010
Eva found Love (announced her new love)
Wed, May 12, 2010
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its 8:20am now. At work station. Just walked from the Cafeteria to the room i am in with other indians. As usual the first to arrive as the others arrive around 9:30am.
But today when I was walking from the cafeteria, I greeted about 37 odd people walking past me all with a smile from my heart and a "hi" or "good morning"... there were a few angry AC's (Angry Czech's as I call them after Eva..hehehe).
But over all it was a great feeling to be happily smiling and greeting people. And some of them had so heart warming smiles back in return.
Was wondering what set this up today.
For one, after reading Evas status and understanding that she has really found love. I was imagining her brightly smiling with happiness and in LOVE. And just the thought of her been happy made me feel happier. Just like I was able to forget the paralyzing fear on the hike up squamish, by imagining her smiling face.
When she is nice and very happy her sincere smile always makes me feel happy. Wish she will always remain happy and not get angry or upset.
Guess I am really in love with her to think only good things for her. Just that I was thinking and now she has indicated that her real love is else where.
ITs better to have loved and lost than not to have loved at all. But again, my love is not really lost, as I love her for what ever nice things are there about her and don't expect anything back from her now.
But been in love and caring for that one person also makes me feel apprehensive for her. Hope her new love is not just playing some kind of seduction game with her.
For some reason I got the feeling that Rishit and Mihir have a kind of bet game going on to see who can get Eva to have sex with them or who can seduce her first.
Rishit seems to be like Igor, the same animal look I saw so many times before the guys are trying to get the gal , not because of love but just for animalistic sex.,, Sad but nature at work.
Hopefully Eva is not another "Anastasia Safronova" .
These guys (I am sure are the rich kids compared to others in India). Seems to have got the magical door of AISEC opened to them and a host of innocent and sometimes slutty gals coming from other countries. They get to do things with them that they cannot do with gals who are from India. And then these gals are safely the ones who will move away after their visa expires. So its a kind of double guarantee that they can easily get away with telling lies and smooth talking and telling the gals what ever they want to hear. Especially if these guys are a bit educated, they are usally exposed to some kind of spiritual thinking and talking.
Atleast most guys that I know from my own college were guys who were involved in spiritual and philosophical and phscological discussions easily. Something I found that very few people in the Western world do.
Why for that matter of fact, all the Indian guys here in my room seem to be into those kinds of Analytical discussion about spirituality, Religion, Pshcology, Philosophy..... wow.. it felt like I was back in college with all those late night discussions.
Anyways its also strange to see that Eva was for the month of March April so deeply in love with Amit and wanting to be with him and then suddenly seems to shift towards Rishit.
And that to me remined me of her life in Vancouver. When she was moving from one guy to another with out any real direction or thought of her own moral and mental strength.
And that was one of the reasons I wanted to talk to her about the ossoyos episod with Igor and the her relationship with Raymondo.
Communication ;;;; but why did I really want to open up the past. been thinking about that again and again and trying to understand why.
Then today in the shuttle bus it occured to me. I wanted us to be able talk about it openly and understand why something like that happened and also understand that these type of things will not happen again in the future.
I think I needed to know that this was the past and that if we ever end up becoming a permanent couple for life these things will not repeat and happen again.
But when she just shut herself up and just got angry and said "I don't want to talk about this again", the whole mechanism of communication just shut down and the doubts and thoughts about it just multipled and grew into more insecurity and fear. And then compounded by a couple of lies here and there, things only become worse.
That IS why Open COMMUNICATION is said to be so Important for a relationship. No matter how difficult the subject is to face. But the TRUE and HONEST approach is the only way things will become stronger.
As the popular saying in India goes, Truth will always Triump in the end. Just a matter of time.
But anyways, I am really happy for her and her new love and just the thought of her HAPPY Smiling from the heart and radiating the happiness around the other people around her is making me happy.
ITs so nice and sweet to see her room mate Jose and his girl friend so in love, no matter how far and removed from each other they are physically.
For real love, distance does not matter. Its a feeling that will conqure all the distant miles.
Like for me now thou I understand that she is in love with somone else, just the thought of her been happy makes me feel happy. :)
cheers to Love
and its sincerity.
cheers to Love
and the feelings of happiness
cheers to Love
and the moments of joy
cheers to Love
and the heavenly feeling of been on top of the world
cheers to Love
and the feelings of been able to face anything and everything in life
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Got talking with Chakri after a long time. He is still trying to adjust to the time change and jet lag. Tried to explain to him the emotions I was going thru, was not able to discuss openly as there were others in the room by then.
Was wondering what was it that I was pissed off. Well her trying to lie to cover up another lie. I was not against her going and staying or with the issues of trusting her. I was pissed off at her lieing and the questions and frustration,, why,,, ????? I am not that foolish not to understand when she is lying,,,, its so obvious,, just a couple of questions and the way she answers when she herself feels guilty and not been really honest and the way she words her answers always tells me that she is hiding something or is not been open.
While all I wanted was for her to be open and honest with me as fully and best as possible.
Thats another thing that was frustrating, For sure I will have my opinion about what ever she or anyone does.
But that is something she or others have no control over and if lying is what they think is the easiest solution. Then history should will show that it only adds to the problem than any long term benefit.....
Lying is but a short term fix, that may buy you time, but makes you loose credibility and makes you less trustworthy.
Had chicken with some kind of Vodka sauce pasta in the afternoon. yummy... was so huge got more than half of it for dinner too.
Then had CTI meeting with the Bussiness analyst and got to realise that there the work for the new enhance had already been done and put in. So in other words, they don't need me hear for this project which is supposed to go on till November...... is it time to look for a new job?
I am getting lots of mails regarding the openings now. And some of them paying almost double. But all are short term projects. And this looks like a good company to have long term interests, but again nothing is long term and for sure in US, its all profit driven and objective oriented.
ahhhh so many uncertainties, who has seen the future. Just live it day to day and try to be happy.....
Went for a run about 2 kms. And realised that I was walking 1.5 kms each way every day the past few days to work. With about 20 kgs on my back. Not a bad change in life style.
Talked with Anil in Texas, his parents have come to visit and he was disappointed that he could not get the color of the the Honda Pilot that he wanted. So much difference between peoples wants and things that could disappoint them.
I just wanted a simple gal to love and to be loved by and live a peaceful happy life of contentment ... and just don't seem to be able to find any who would love me. anyways I have now given up on that dream. To old and tooo worn out by too many disappointing past experiences.
Life goes on.
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its 8:20am now. At work station. Just walked from the Cafeteria to the room i am in with other indians. As usual the first to arrive as the others arrive around 9:30am.
But today when I was walking from the cafeteria, I greeted about 37 odd people walking past me all with a smile from my heart and a "hi" or "good morning"... there were a few angry AC's (Angry Czech's as I call them after Eva..hehehe).
But over all it was a great feeling to be happily smiling and greeting people. And some of them had so heart warming smiles back in return.
Was wondering what set this up today.
For one, after reading Evas status and understanding that she has really found love. I was imagining her brightly smiling with happiness and in LOVE. And just the thought of her been happy made me feel happier. Just like I was able to forget the paralyzing fear on the hike up squamish, by imagining her smiling face.
When she is nice and very happy her sincere smile always makes me feel happy. Wish she will always remain happy and not get angry or upset.
Guess I am really in love with her to think only good things for her. Just that I was thinking and now she has indicated that her real love is else where.
ITs better to have loved and lost than not to have loved at all. But again, my love is not really lost, as I love her for what ever nice things are there about her and don't expect anything back from her now.
But been in love and caring for that one person also makes me feel apprehensive for her. Hope her new love is not just playing some kind of seduction game with her.
For some reason I got the feeling that Rishit and Mihir have a kind of bet game going on to see who can get Eva to have sex with them or who can seduce her first.
Rishit seems to be like Igor, the same animal look I saw so many times before the guys are trying to get the gal , not because of love but just for animalistic sex.,, Sad but nature at work.
Hopefully Eva is not another "Anastasia Safronova" .
These guys (I am sure are the rich kids compared to others in India). Seems to have got the magical door of AISEC opened to them and a host of innocent and sometimes slutty gals coming from other countries. They get to do things with them that they cannot do with gals who are from India. And then these gals are safely the ones who will move away after their visa expires. So its a kind of double guarantee that they can easily get away with telling lies and smooth talking and telling the gals what ever they want to hear. Especially if these guys are a bit educated, they are usally exposed to some kind of spiritual thinking and talking.
Atleast most guys that I know from my own college were guys who were involved in spiritual and philosophical and phscological discussions easily. Something I found that very few people in the Western world do.
Why for that matter of fact, all the Indian guys here in my room seem to be into those kinds of Analytical discussion about spirituality, Religion, Pshcology, Philosophy..... wow.. it felt like I was back in college with all those late night discussions.
Anyways its also strange to see that Eva was for the month of March April so deeply in love with Amit and wanting to be with him and then suddenly seems to shift towards Rishit.
And that to me remined me of her life in Vancouver. When she was moving from one guy to another with out any real direction or thought of her own moral and mental strength.
And that was one of the reasons I wanted to talk to her about the ossoyos episod with Igor and the her relationship with Raymondo.
Communication ;;;; but why did I really want to open up the past. been thinking about that again and again and trying to understand why.
Then today in the shuttle bus it occured to me. I wanted us to be able talk about it openly and understand why something like that happened and also understand that these type of things will not happen again in the future.
I think I needed to know that this was the past and that if we ever end up becoming a permanent couple for life these things will not repeat and happen again.
But when she just shut herself up and just got angry and said "I don't want to talk about this again", the whole mechanism of communication just shut down and the doubts and thoughts about it just multipled and grew into more insecurity and fear. And then compounded by a couple of lies here and there, things only become worse.
That IS why Open COMMUNICATION is said to be so Important for a relationship. No matter how difficult the subject is to face. But the TRUE and HONEST approach is the only way things will become stronger.
As the popular saying in India goes, Truth will always Triump in the end. Just a matter of time.
But anyways, I am really happy for her and her new love and just the thought of her HAPPY Smiling from the heart and radiating the happiness around the other people around her is making me happy.
ITs so nice and sweet to see her room mate Jose and his girl friend so in love, no matter how far and removed from each other they are physically.
For real love, distance does not matter. Its a feeling that will conqure all the distant miles.
Like for me now thou I understand that she is in love with somone else, just the thought of her been happy makes me feel happy. :)
cheers to Love
and its sincerity.
cheers to Love
and the feelings of happiness
cheers to Love
and the moments of joy
cheers to Love
and the heavenly feeling of been on top of the world
cheers to Love
and the feelings of been able to face anything and everything in life
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Got talking with Chakri after a long time. He is still trying to adjust to the time change and jet lag. Tried to explain to him the emotions I was going thru, was not able to discuss openly as there were others in the room by then.
Was wondering what was it that I was pissed off. Well her trying to lie to cover up another lie. I was not against her going and staying or with the issues of trusting her. I was pissed off at her lieing and the questions and frustration,, why,,, ????? I am not that foolish not to understand when she is lying,,,, its so obvious,, just a couple of questions and the way she answers when she herself feels guilty and not been really honest and the way she words her answers always tells me that she is hiding something or is not been open.
While all I wanted was for her to be open and honest with me as fully and best as possible.
Thats another thing that was frustrating, For sure I will have my opinion about what ever she or anyone does.
But that is something she or others have no control over and if lying is what they think is the easiest solution. Then history should will show that it only adds to the problem than any long term benefit.....
Lying is but a short term fix, that may buy you time, but makes you loose credibility and makes you less trustworthy.
Had chicken with some kind of Vodka sauce pasta in the afternoon. yummy... was so huge got more than half of it for dinner too.
Then had CTI meeting with the Bussiness analyst and got to realise that there the work for the new enhance had already been done and put in. So in other words, they don't need me hear for this project which is supposed to go on till November...... is it time to look for a new job?
I am getting lots of mails regarding the openings now. And some of them paying almost double. But all are short term projects. And this looks like a good company to have long term interests, but again nothing is long term and for sure in US, its all profit driven and objective oriented.
ahhhh so many uncertainties, who has seen the future. Just live it day to day and try to be happy.....
Went for a run about 2 kms. And realised that I was walking 1.5 kms each way every day the past few days to work. With about 20 kgs on my back. Not a bad change in life style.
Talked with Anil in Texas, his parents have come to visit and he was disappointed that he could not get the color of the the Honda Pilot that he wanted. So much difference between peoples wants and things that could disappoint them.
I just wanted a simple gal to love and to be loved by and live a peaceful happy life of contentment ... and just don't seem to be able to find any who would love me. anyways I have now given up on that dream. To old and tooo worn out by too many disappointing past experiences.
Life goes on.
Tuesday, May 11, 2010
Eva back from trip more experienced and mature(i hope)
Tue, May 11, 2010
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Up around 5am. with intermittent waking up thinking about the documentation needed for the drivers licence.
Got to see if I can get a licence with out giving up my Canadian Licence.
took the 7:30 shuttle to work.
Stopped by the canteen and brought a Carrot Muffin and my first coffee at work in the morning. That is a record for coffee. Eyes are burning for lack of proper sleep.
Good to see Eva safely back from her trip (atleast from her FB status). God only knows what kind of hard ships she had to endure. Hopefully nothing very bad that would change her outlook on life for ever has happened. Atleast at first look seems like she has matured a bit more in terms of appreciating her friends.
So to me that means that she is slowly learning to the value of team.
So far a cry from the Eva, i got to know during the trip to US in Sep. That was a Eva, who in the frist 24hrs made it clear that she does not care if I was suffering from sever cough, heaviness of breathing, high fever, head aech, had the responsibility of driving us safely around and trying to stay awake or what ever and was just focused on going for hike down the hill.
Did not even bother to tell me that she rather prefers to go down and eat. She just threw the food down to me and walked away. When in fact I decided to have the food to give her company. I was not even feeling hungry as I was having a running fever and had no appetite or taste to eat anything. Just because she suggested that we eat, I agreed and wanted to sit in the shade than the sun where she wanted to sit...... ahhh so many torturing memories.
If I had sat in the sun, it would have only aggravated my fever.
And after returning again she just went away to enjoy her next hike. So sweet and caring.
No wonder the lady at Grand Canyon commented to me scarcasticly with a sympathizing look. "she sure is very attentive".
And if I remember rightly, she was with a group of about 5 people who was continously looking at us. At first I thought that they were looking at us because of the odd color couple. But they were easily reading her body language and that of mine.
Atleast I got to know the extend to which I was willing to sacrifice for the other.
And she did not even have a clue. Even thou she claimed repeatedly before the trip, that she does not care about hiking and was more interested in spending time with me...... And at the first instance ,,, she just showed to me her pattern of behaving.
What people say and what they really do when faced with the reality. It was not anything extreme, just the basic day to day normal living.
Well Atleast she is safely back from Delhi and Agra. Only wish i was there to protect her.
sometimes I think that Eva is naieve and who she is because she did not get to experience the things I got to. She lived a very protective life in that little village she calls town.
Well everyone has their own way and life of growing.
Not sure how I would have handle the situation if I am thrown into the trip again.
Was supposed to go to DMV around the afternoon, ended up not going as Bashu had a meeting at 1pm. So might go around 2pm.
Got to know that Suvendu was heading off to India. Nice guy, very sincere and commited to his work and his daily way of living. Except that he is hooked on to smoking. And got to know that he is diabetic. poor guy.
Bashu comes around 2pm and we head out to Norristown. DMV. It was kind of crowded. Asked at the counter for beginners if I could exchange canadian Drivers licence. and was told that I could and get a PA license in exchange.
So went thru the process of waiting and when my number came up went with my documents to the counter. Where the guy looked and talked like he wanted to beat up anyone who talks.
Gave him my visa docs and he did a search and said that my information is not coming up on the INS . So he took a copy of the passport and the other documents and said that I will get a letter with in 3 weeks with information to come to DMV.
Ahhh after all the waiting. Bashu gets his temp card from DMV. Atleast one person got it.
Latter back at work got to know that many people ended up having the same issue as me. Just concerned about the difference in name on the SSN.
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Up around 5am. with intermittent waking up thinking about the documentation needed for the drivers licence.
Got to see if I can get a licence with out giving up my Canadian Licence.
took the 7:30 shuttle to work.
Stopped by the canteen and brought a Carrot Muffin and my first coffee at work in the morning. That is a record for coffee. Eyes are burning for lack of proper sleep.
Good to see Eva safely back from her trip (atleast from her FB status). God only knows what kind of hard ships she had to endure. Hopefully nothing very bad that would change her outlook on life for ever has happened. Atleast at first look seems like she has matured a bit more in terms of appreciating her friends.
So to me that means that she is slowly learning to the value of team.
So far a cry from the Eva, i got to know during the trip to US in Sep. That was a Eva, who in the frist 24hrs made it clear that she does not care if I was suffering from sever cough, heaviness of breathing, high fever, head aech, had the responsibility of driving us safely around and trying to stay awake or what ever and was just focused on going for hike down the hill.
Did not even bother to tell me that she rather prefers to go down and eat. She just threw the food down to me and walked away. When in fact I decided to have the food to give her company. I was not even feeling hungry as I was having a running fever and had no appetite or taste to eat anything. Just because she suggested that we eat, I agreed and wanted to sit in the shade than the sun where she wanted to sit...... ahhh so many torturing memories.
If I had sat in the sun, it would have only aggravated my fever.
And after returning again she just went away to enjoy her next hike. So sweet and caring.
No wonder the lady at Grand Canyon commented to me scarcasticly with a sympathizing look. "she sure is very attentive".
And if I remember rightly, she was with a group of about 5 people who was continously looking at us. At first I thought that they were looking at us because of the odd color couple. But they were easily reading her body language and that of mine.
Atleast I got to know the extend to which I was willing to sacrifice for the other.
And she did not even have a clue. Even thou she claimed repeatedly before the trip, that she does not care about hiking and was more interested in spending time with me...... And at the first instance ,,, she just showed to me her pattern of behaving.
What people say and what they really do when faced with the reality. It was not anything extreme, just the basic day to day normal living.
Well Atleast she is safely back from Delhi and Agra. Only wish i was there to protect her.
sometimes I think that Eva is naieve and who she is because she did not get to experience the things I got to. She lived a very protective life in that little village she calls town.
Well everyone has their own way and life of growing.
Not sure how I would have handle the situation if I am thrown into the trip again.
Was supposed to go to DMV around the afternoon, ended up not going as Bashu had a meeting at 1pm. So might go around 2pm.
Got to know that Suvendu was heading off to India. Nice guy, very sincere and commited to his work and his daily way of living. Except that he is hooked on to smoking. And got to know that he is diabetic. poor guy.
Bashu comes around 2pm and we head out to Norristown. DMV. It was kind of crowded. Asked at the counter for beginners if I could exchange canadian Drivers licence. and was told that I could and get a PA license in exchange.
So went thru the process of waiting and when my number came up went with my documents to the counter. Where the guy looked and talked like he wanted to beat up anyone who talks.
Gave him my visa docs and he did a search and said that my information is not coming up on the INS . So he took a copy of the passport and the other documents and said that I will get a letter with in 3 weeks with information to come to DMV.
Ahhh after all the waiting. Bashu gets his temp card from DMV. Atleast one person got it.
Latter back at work got to know that many people ended up having the same issue as me. Just concerned about the difference in name on the SSN.
Monday, May 10, 2010
Monday,
Mon, May 10, 2010
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A lack luster day. wake up early around 5 out of bed by 5:30. get the 7:30 shuttle , 1st to reach work. get busy with getting approvals for DB.
3:30 to 4 Show a mini CTI demo to Murali. @ 4pm all the loadrunner accounts run out of their log on time... 1000 log in accounts all gone.. just like that.
4:30 get to meet Hari, who used to work in Aces my 1st company in US. He is now the director level guy. All because he stuck on to the same company. And got to know that the guy Raj Mehta who used to just be a talker with no substance is now the COO (chief operation officer) of the Company..... wow.. some guys have all the luck.
Went for a run in the apartment gym on the thread mill and then did 30 mins of biking. then did some weights as no one was watching.. ;) my first time in my life. tried to lift a 50 pound dumble.. uuuhhhh that was tough just barely was able to lift it.
Need to go for getting my drivers licence tomorrow. got the Elect and heat bill. wooping $50 plus for just living here for 20 days.. ahhhhh
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A lack luster day. wake up early around 5 out of bed by 5:30. get the 7:30 shuttle , 1st to reach work. get busy with getting approvals for DB.
3:30 to 4 Show a mini CTI demo to Murali. @ 4pm all the loadrunner accounts run out of their log on time... 1000 log in accounts all gone.. just like that.
4:30 get to meet Hari, who used to work in Aces my 1st company in US. He is now the director level guy. All because he stuck on to the same company. And got to know that the guy Raj Mehta who used to just be a talker with no substance is now the COO (chief operation officer) of the Company..... wow.. some guys have all the luck.
Went for a run in the apartment gym on the thread mill and then did 30 mins of biking. then did some weights as no one was watching.. ;) my first time in my life. tried to lift a 50 pound dumble.. uuuhhhh that was tough just barely was able to lift it.
Need to go for getting my drivers licence tomorrow. got the Elect and heat bill. wooping $50 plus for just living here for 20 days.. ahhhhh
Sunday, May 9, 2010
Back to Lansdale and Indian restaurant
Sun, May 9, 2010
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Had a night marish sleep at Narayans place. Was thinking about missing documents and that I had left stuff off in Vancouver. Woke up a few times thinking that I did not pack and move stuff from vancouver.
Narayans wife makes Brunch, few Chappathis, spicy mutton curry,, yummy.!!! And then they head out to Ottawa , Canada and me and Viki head to Lansdale.
We get to take some home ,, ahhh I am all set for the next week, with yummy Andhra mutton keema curry and another veggie fry, that I liked, must be cabbage and carrot, finely sliced and diced and fried. hmmmm :)
Start off from Narayans house around 11:20am. No stop at the temple. reached Lansdale around 1pm. Head to Sultan restaurant for the Punjabi Buffet lunch. woooo I could not walk after eating and stuffing my self with the food and the sweets..... Ate more of the sweets than the food. :)))
3:40pm sent out mail to Radish for the salary of two weeks work at Guardian/Satyam/Apex2000. With Muhus address to send the check. lets see what happens.
chatted with Evas dad Lubo. He just got back from a competition with his students and was exhausted living in a room of over 20 noisey kids who were just chatting thru out the night. Poor man.
7pm went out for a walk, kind of chill with the wind gust blowing. Went to the park/hike trail. Sat there and was kind of wondering how different this is from the city life. Hardly anyone around. Lots of birds freely flying around and atleast 2 more hours for sun set.
Called up Balaji in California, cause I was reminded of him when I saw a family of Indians walking by. He just got back from Kerala. And when he returned he found that all the electronic items in his house hold in US were stolen. TV, lap top, camera, Desk top..... What a shocking experience to come back to the land of plenty and to find thing stolen.
The thief entered by opening a window and had locked the door (latched) from inside. And he had to call the leasing off and then the cops to get into his own house. Lucky he landed in the afternoon and not during the night.
His wife seems to be more affected by it.
Latter returned home listening to Merengue songs. Got a couple of text messages from Sara. sweet of her! Atleast there is one girl who really seems to like me and dance with me. And she feels really sincere and honest ("I hope").
Got call from Anil who was returning from JC penny. His parents are coming tomorrow. And discussed about the car insurance with him. And then saw that there was provision for entering Canadian Drivers license and registration. So after getting the dates from Linda of the approximate arrival of the date of my car. I can get the insurance online.
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Had a night marish sleep at Narayans place. Was thinking about missing documents and that I had left stuff off in Vancouver. Woke up a few times thinking that I did not pack and move stuff from vancouver.
Narayans wife makes Brunch, few Chappathis, spicy mutton curry,, yummy.!!! And then they head out to Ottawa , Canada and me and Viki head to Lansdale.
We get to take some home ,, ahhh I am all set for the next week, with yummy Andhra mutton keema curry and another veggie fry, that I liked, must be cabbage and carrot, finely sliced and diced and fried. hmmmm :)
Start off from Narayans house around 11:20am. No stop at the temple. reached Lansdale around 1pm. Head to Sultan restaurant for the Punjabi Buffet lunch. woooo I could not walk after eating and stuffing my self with the food and the sweets..... Ate more of the sweets than the food. :)))
3:40pm sent out mail to Radish for the salary of two weeks work at Guardian/Satyam/Apex2000. With Muhus address to send the check. lets see what happens.
chatted with Evas dad Lubo. He just got back from a competition with his students and was exhausted living in a room of over 20 noisey kids who were just chatting thru out the night. Poor man.
7pm went out for a walk, kind of chill with the wind gust blowing. Went to the park/hike trail. Sat there and was kind of wondering how different this is from the city life. Hardly anyone around. Lots of birds freely flying around and atleast 2 more hours for sun set.
Called up Balaji in California, cause I was reminded of him when I saw a family of Indians walking by. He just got back from Kerala. And when he returned he found that all the electronic items in his house hold in US were stolen. TV, lap top, camera, Desk top..... What a shocking experience to come back to the land of plenty and to find thing stolen.
The thief entered by opening a window and had locked the door (latched) from inside. And he had to call the leasing off and then the cops to get into his own house. Lucky he landed in the afternoon and not during the night.
His wife seems to be more affected by it.
Latter returned home listening to Merengue songs. Got a couple of text messages from Sara. sweet of her! Atleast there is one girl who really seems to like me and dance with me. And she feels really sincere and honest ("I hope").
Got call from Anil who was returning from JC penny. His parents are coming tomorrow. And discussed about the car insurance with him. And then saw that there was provision for entering Canadian Drivers license and registration. So after getting the dates from Linda of the approximate arrival of the date of my car. I can get the insurance online.
Saturday, May 8, 2010
Docs appointment and then to NJ
Sat, May 8, 2010
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wake up with intermittent sleep. Then get out of sleeping bag around 7am.
And today the guys at work are having the Ghost hunt. Well i have docs appointment @ 9:30. So it kind of feels bad but have to do whats priority. Something I think I should learn a lot from Eva. She is so focused, wish that she had a little more focus on me, when we were together and things would have happened different. But hey she is who she is. Only she can change her own attitude. No one else can, and even if they make it will temp and will have very different side effects.
Just like me telling her that I cannot live with someone who kisses other guys on the lips. Its not cultural, nor anything external. ITs just that I cannot handle the jealous feeling and sick feeling of seeing something that I hold precious and very close to my heart. The purity of our relationship with its exclusive features always reserved for that one person only. And kissing on the lips happens to be very exclusive feature I think should only happen between who are in a relationship and are in exclusively in love.
Other wise its like any other one night stand or open relationship. There is nothing special in that.
Well back to the original story, so me telling her that I cannot live with someone who goes around kissing other guys on the lips and her getting very angry and abusing me and telling me mean things at that moment. And then latter trying to compromise with no real conviction. saying okay that is just a small thing. And the worst, "he (raymondo) will understand".. whats that supposed to mean? So out goes all the heated arguments she put across about the culture thing. hehehe, he was just there to seduce her and he was trying to work his way to just have sex with her by making the kiss the first step in breaking down her defence..... Well some gals will never learn.
Either Eva will become one of those gals who will either be going around the world having 1 month affairs or maybe have a sudden change of attitude and settle down with someone she really loves.
well so much for early morning sat thoughts. ahh there you go, the paradox of a women who seems to have extraordinary focus and then been a drifter and low in values, when it comes to ethics and relationship..... Well that thing about values may have saved me from making a huge mistake. But hey there were flags all along the way. But again those were things that could easily be worked out had she been open to communicating and discussing and not getting angry and throwing up a tantrum every time things did not go her way.
Crux of a relationship, is in both people been open to sit down and talk no matter how uncomfortable the situation feels. Thou she felt nice to hear me openly communicate, she had little inclination to openly and honestly communicate with me. Blamed it on her conservative upbringing, to relationship disaster with Mirav, Louis as her inability to openly express herself....
yea right, Blame every one but ones own attitude of thinking that lying and avoiding giving out information, is a great way to go about establishing TRUST in a relationship.
Hopefully people will realise that not openly revealing or only partially reveling is also equal to LYING and its not been fully honest. And soon the cracks caused by that will result in the collapse.
Went to the Hospital @ 9am with viki. There was an Indian doc there turned out to be from Tamil Nadu and another student doc again hot Indian gal following her around.
get the doc from there and then get home. pack up and head towards temple in New Jersey.
reache temple around 11:45am. The doors to the Gods sanctuary was closed and there was the weekly sat pooja going on. Opened up at 12:10. Then had some food at the canteen and headed towards Narayans house.
Again since his wife had cooked, we had to eat the lunch there.
Gave narayan the receipt for the Scotia bank that he needs to take to the US consulate in Ottawa. And towards night he realises that he needs another one for his wife too...
Hopefully he can get it done there on Monday morning.
Watched the movie "house full" again the main character Akshay Khanna reminded me of myself. Gals coming into my life to use me as a stepping stone..... wonder when my luck will ever change... Then see "page 3" about life in mumbai and show business and business world...
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wake up with intermittent sleep. Then get out of sleeping bag around 7am.
And today the guys at work are having the Ghost hunt. Well i have docs appointment @ 9:30. So it kind of feels bad but have to do whats priority. Something I think I should learn a lot from Eva. She is so focused, wish that she had a little more focus on me, when we were together and things would have happened different. But hey she is who she is. Only she can change her own attitude. No one else can, and even if they make it will temp and will have very different side effects.
Just like me telling her that I cannot live with someone who kisses other guys on the lips. Its not cultural, nor anything external. ITs just that I cannot handle the jealous feeling and sick feeling of seeing something that I hold precious and very close to my heart. The purity of our relationship with its exclusive features always reserved for that one person only. And kissing on the lips happens to be very exclusive feature I think should only happen between who are in a relationship and are in exclusively in love.
Other wise its like any other one night stand or open relationship. There is nothing special in that.
Well back to the original story, so me telling her that I cannot live with someone who goes around kissing other guys on the lips and her getting very angry and abusing me and telling me mean things at that moment. And then latter trying to compromise with no real conviction. saying okay that is just a small thing. And the worst, "he (raymondo) will understand".. whats that supposed to mean? So out goes all the heated arguments she put across about the culture thing. hehehe, he was just there to seduce her and he was trying to work his way to just have sex with her by making the kiss the first step in breaking down her defence..... Well some gals will never learn.
Either Eva will become one of those gals who will either be going around the world having 1 month affairs or maybe have a sudden change of attitude and settle down with someone she really loves.
well so much for early morning sat thoughts. ahh there you go, the paradox of a women who seems to have extraordinary focus and then been a drifter and low in values, when it comes to ethics and relationship..... Well that thing about values may have saved me from making a huge mistake. But hey there were flags all along the way. But again those were things that could easily be worked out had she been open to communicating and discussing and not getting angry and throwing up a tantrum every time things did not go her way.
Crux of a relationship, is in both people been open to sit down and talk no matter how uncomfortable the situation feels. Thou she felt nice to hear me openly communicate, she had little inclination to openly and honestly communicate with me. Blamed it on her conservative upbringing, to relationship disaster with Mirav, Louis as her inability to openly express herself....
yea right, Blame every one but ones own attitude of thinking that lying and avoiding giving out information, is a great way to go about establishing TRUST in a relationship.
Hopefully people will realise that not openly revealing or only partially reveling is also equal to LYING and its not been fully honest. And soon the cracks caused by that will result in the collapse.
Went to the Hospital @ 9am with viki. There was an Indian doc there turned out to be from Tamil Nadu and another student doc again hot Indian gal following her around.
get the doc from there and then get home. pack up and head towards temple in New Jersey.
reache temple around 11:45am. The doors to the Gods sanctuary was closed and there was the weekly sat pooja going on. Opened up at 12:10. Then had some food at the canteen and headed towards Narayans house.
Again since his wife had cooked, we had to eat the lunch there.
Gave narayan the receipt for the Scotia bank that he needs to take to the US consulate in Ottawa. And towards night he realises that he needs another one for his wife too...
Hopefully he can get it done there on Monday morning.
Watched the movie "house full" again the main character Akshay Khanna reminded me of myself. Gals coming into my life to use me as a stepping stone..... wonder when my luck will ever change... Then see "page 3" about life in mumbai and show business and business world...
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