Thursday, Oct 25 2012
As expected got the dreaded Notice of 5 weeks.
Well like everything that you come across face to face, even thou you been thru it before and are expecting it. It fuels the lousy feelings more than its already been experienced when its just all in your mind.
The material impact sure is a fuel as its coming with your other senses getting to experience it and then it comes to hit you with a D-Date.
What exactly is causing me to think of it and dreading it, what is it that I am fearing?
As much as I like to claim, there is a huge part of me thats not willing to do minimum wages jobs. I want to work smarter and contribute to the development of self and my surrounding better with what I believe to be my skills, suited for jobs in the industry. Something that would give me a feeling of self recognization and also gives me enough confidence to hold my head up high and not be belittled by snobs and other ego maniacs. Something that would make the people who I love and who love me, look up with pride and feelings of great achievement in my actions and been associated to me.
It is ofcouse with pride everyone talks about the ones we are related to when we hear of their accomplishments. And in many a cases do not want to talk about relatives who have not done good to the society at large.
Its just like every human, that I want to be liked by people.
Been liked and loved has it own wonderful feeling.
Kind of reminded of the lil babies and dogs loving me of showing actions of liking me with out even a word been spoken.
ITs like the theory of we all been masses of energy, sending of vibrations and frequencies of goodness or not so good. And then suddenly when we meet people who match our frequency there is the
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