Sep 02 2011, Ethics

Friday, Sep, 02, 2011

Ethics and its application has been revolving around in my head since yesterday.

Work ethic, of been punctual to work, attending meeting, completing assigned work on time and more seem to be done with a great deal of enthusiasm. So I was wondering why is it that I am finding it difficult to motivate myself to get up and going these past few days when not on any project.

Its not that I don't have stuff that I can work on improving myself.
Why the procrastination?
Why lack of energy and focus?
What can I do to over come this lethagy.
Used to try and wake up around 5am and then get my life moving. Not been able to do that the past few months. Whats happened? Is there something thats physical thats preventing me from been able to wake up with engery?
or
Is it something thats emotional?

What ever it is, I need to move in the right direction to be able to be independent financially and not having to depend on someone else. For that I need a safety net, which means I have miles to go before I can take a break and relax.

Want to be able to support parents in all possible way financially. They did a lot of things for me and sacrificed a lot for me. Its my turn to do things for them. And that requires a lot of finance.

Have to forget all that I lost financially as thinking about that will only make me emotionally weak.

So trying to motivate my self to focus on Ethics of working for my own self improvement and take advantage of all the opportunities that is at my door step. Have to try and get the few courses done for project management.

12:noon,, was able to complete one module, took the test with out evening going thru the course and got 82%.
hmmm either my IQ is really good or I am really lucky.

Have to go thru the course latter, just so that I can get my way of thinking oriented to what they are teaching in the course, in terms of management terminology.

Shaved the thick hair growth on my head, still have the mustache on. maybe after taking a couple of pics I will remove the mustache too.


Holding on to anger is like grasping a hot coal with the intent of throwing it at someone else; you are the one who gets burned.
~Buddha

yes its so easily shown in movies and TV that u can just say, I forgive and the anger is gone. But its lot of hard work and effort to forget some of the hurtful feeling left behind by lies and betrayal. mostly maybe cause of been so easily taken for granted and becoming a fool to the lies and deceit. Anger maybe because of not been smart enough to not know it, even after lots of experience.

But in the end its something we all need to overcome.

There is some understanding if my anger was due to my selfish self-centered requirements, like wanting a chocolate, ice-cream, or trying to manipulate someone to follow my requirements..... those are anger that is from cheap people. But my anger is from been so easily manipulated by such self centered people and at my own self for allowing such people to take me for a ride......

Great news of hope. Hopefully it works out soon. Tired of sitting at home for the past 2 months.