Nov 11 2010. early to work

Thursday Nov112010

Woke up around 5am and got to work by 7:20am.
got to talk with sweta in bangalore before she left for the day. apprised her about the happenings and motivated her to feel better about handling issues here after I leave.

ajay seems to be having issues before his taking off to india for his marriage. damm these issues have a funny way of turning up when you least want them to. Same thing happened before I left for europ. 5 months of non-activity and suddenly two days before I leave, series of issues.

confused as to what to reply to malinis mail. She is just reminding me of Eva with her behavior. Don't want to get into a relationship or sucked into a relationship with selfish - self centered people.
Had I been in a relationship with her maybe I would have made the effort to explain to her. Now I am least bothered to make the effort as she is not someone I am interested in and do not want to be sucked into the drama. She will just go on to behave like evil eva no matter what I tell her. So I just zip up and pretend nothing is the matter and keep my distance.
Why do all these drama queens try all these sick irresponsible, lack of accountable behavior and then expect to be treated like queens and expect others to shower them with un-divided attention that they do not deserve?

They don't even try to make the effort and then expect others to make the effort. Yea right, like I am going to.

Tried, rather went out of my way more than any man would ever, setting aside my pride and self-respect. And what does it result in? Just more pain and heart break for me. dis-respect towards me and my life.

awww Fuck it, these people do not deserve any kind of attention or good feedback. LEt them just continue on their path of self destruction and then wonder why no one is interested in them for the right reasons.

When some one is interested in them for the right reasons, they tend to treat them like shit and take them for granted. Then who would even want to pay any attention to their sick personalities. After sometime the interested people will surely move away too.

Well atleast I am not going to get sucked into that loop again, no matter how tempting it is.