Jul 25h Sunday

Sunday, Jul 25 2010
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Woke up around 8am debating weather to go for the hike.. was needed to be at sidneys place by 9:30... too late. Well might as well focus on getting things done around the house, shop for groceries.

Called up home and talked for a few mins, got to know that Adhi got into engineering in kerala and prathis son got into enigneering in bangalore. Also cousin sis chandinis daughter got into medical in jipmer. top medical college in India. wow. smart gal.

Looks like every one in the coming generation in the family is either going to be an engineer or a doctor. :) proud go to be part of smart family gene.

around 11am call up Eva, asks me to call back after 30 mins. so i ask her to call me back when she is ready. get her call back at 11:56am. they spent almost 40 mins trying to connect with her with the calling card. got to her around 12:36. IT seems she was busy talking with some other friend. And as soon as we start talking she starts feeling sleepy and wants to go to bed.

I spent almost an hour and half hoping to talk with her and was trying for more than 40 mins to call her and in 5 mins into the call, she wants to end the call. Well she does not seems to have changed much. It was the same thing when we were in a relationship too. All the effort was from me, and then in the end after putting in all the effort, the person who got hurt the most was just me. And the worst part she accuses me of ignoring her. While all she ever did was ignore anything and everything about me and only focused on her own wants and wishes.
Well are all women like that - Selfish and Self centered? AV said yes they are all like that. He said he has problems even with his daughters who behaves like that.

Why do I let people take me for granted so much. No wonder I feel so much gratitude towards people especially women who seem to even give me a smile and almost seem to want to do anything for the lady who is kind enough to dance with me or talk nicely with me.

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am I been just too judgemental. Its easy to expect certain behavior from others, but we will never know what their thinking is or conditions are unless we travel in their shoes.

Went and dropped off the rent check posted the heat bill to peco. paid the cell phone bill.

To costco for milk and grapes. then got a call from Balaji, talked for a few then tried to call anil back could not get him or narayan.
Started raining after I got out of costco. was hot and sunny when I entered.

Got msg from Evas dad that they are back from Yoga full of energy.

6:30pm feeling very restless and mind troubled. Went for a drive its cooler outside after the rain.
Filled up gas, talked with AV who was at Universal studios with his kids and his wife went to East coast to meet her uncle. For this week he is taking care of them in LA away from the SFO bay area.

Drove over to get gas filled and with the sun still out at 7:50 and still feeling restless. I think I will meditate. Really bothered by somethings happening that I have no control over.

9pm go for a run. ITS FULL MOON,
the beauty of the moon rippling thru the horizon.
standing up in the eastern skies with a full face
radiating its beautiful glowing light

ahh how I wish there was the love of my life
with me to share this beautiful moment
forever etching it in our hearts together
to become one in mind and soul forever.

The darkness melts in the milky glow
cherishing the tender moments in times flow
with an aching heart that swallow its tears
tremble I when the comes true my worst fears