Monday, Mar 31 2014
Am I in love again, feel so much like a kid to be infatuated by the smile of one person. Like all the walls I built up the past few years cause of the last heart break seems to just melt away.
What a tipsy feeling, just not able to stop thinking about that sweet warm smile that melted my heart. All the signs of one sided love. But what a great feeling to be back with those feelings. Like I could just go on with out food and sleep for ever.
that feeling of liberating a 100,000 butterflies out from my heart, gently floating around me, can't stop smiling.
,,,,, all this inspite of been out of work .
Also another record of having worked for the same company for 4 years. Anniversary.
Wish I could just stay on in Ed and just end up in reciprocal love with her and live the rest of our lives together for ever.
But,,,,, then reality and practicality is another story of pulling me back from the highs of the feeling of love.
Tomorrow starts the next Q2, where will my life take me, where is this all leading on too.
Only time will tell.
It was one of my visions to be living like this in this kind of apartment.. with a view, swimming pool , gym.. well some visions come true, just wished that it was also with someone I love and who loves me.
Monday, March 31, 2014
Monday, March 24, 2014
Mar 24 .. Rolling of the project,, next change
Monday, Mar 24 2014
hmmm great start to the week.. get to know that with change in scope requested by the client, I would be off the project.
Just about settling down,, or rather in the process and now this uncertainity.
hmmm great start to the week.. get to know that with change in scope requested by the client, I would be off the project.
Just about settling down,, or rather in the process and now this uncertainity.
Mar 23 . The smile that set butterflies dancing
Sunday Mar 23 2014
Got cooking curry for the first time at the new apartment,,, tasted yummy, then went and got my car washed .. just that now my little apartment smells like curry all over , including me.
went out dancing salsa, again just 10 mins away from home. But suspecting,, forget it,, it is it.. that I am stinking of curry, so tried out perfuming my self before entering .\
Got to dance with the the gal whose smile felt like it made butterflies dance with joy. So sweet, full of innocence . got a name and a bit of back ground... M a Architect from Austria working at drafting in canada ....
Canada oh Canada, how could you be so cruel to highly talented people...
Got cooking curry for the first time at the new apartment,,, tasted yummy, then went and got my car washed .. just that now my little apartment smells like curry all over , including me.
went out dancing salsa, again just 10 mins away from home. But suspecting,, forget it,, it is it.. that I am stinking of curry, so tried out perfuming my self before entering .\
Got to dance with the the gal whose smile felt like it made butterflies dance with joy. So sweet, full of innocence . got a name and a bit of back ground... M a Architect from Austria working at drafting in canada ....
Canada oh Canada, how could you be so cruel to highly talented people...
Saturday, March 22, 2014
Mar-26-2014 Unfaithful
Saturday Mar-26-2014
Was watching the movie Unfaithful on tv.
Reminded about how deceptive, crooked and cunning some women are and then play the victim, with no sense of accountability for their own actions.
They all have the same pattern of behavior when asked about it and not wanting to talk about it when confronted about it and playing the victim and blaming the real victim - the Cheated on.
Was watching the movie Unfaithful on tv.
Reminded about how deceptive, crooked and cunning some women are and then play the victim, with no sense of accountability for their own actions.
They all have the same pattern of behavior when asked about it and not wanting to talk about it when confronted about it and playing the victim and blaming the real victim - the Cheated on.
Sunday, March 16, 2014
Mar 16 2014, what a trun in life and it happening
Sunday Mar 16 2014
Hectic turn of events and life .
Felt like I have lived a 100 days in the past few months. So many things happening. The chaos of change.
Helping out uncle with his new venture, hoping that he would succeed, keeping fingers crossed.
New apartment, with a great view of the downtown... 7 th floor on top of 11 floors of parking, so in effect I am on the 18th floor.
Fear of heights is preventing me from going over to the balcony. Not a great feeling to be standing there. Feel as thou my legs freez up and I am not able to move after that.
loving the wooden floor, thou the single Broom is relatively smaller than the apartments I have lived in. Feels good.
The downtown seems to be populated with a lot of home less people hanging around. Not sure how bad it might be here, but do get the smell of pot smoke drifting in the air.
The temparature is becoming warmer, what a huge difference from the - 30 and -40 deg... to positive temps.in the span of a few days.
The only place I am not able to focus on or work on or put in full effort to do something positive seems to be at the work place.
Too many confusions and not any clear cut path and vision.
The gals and ladie here look much lovelier than in DC area. hmmm wonder if I will meet my princess and life partner forever here?
It was interesting coming across the girl with the sweetest smile. The smile that made my heart feel like there were a 1000 colorful butterflies dancing with joy.
ahhh the infatuations of the heart. If only I could just find that one person who would love me deeply as I would love her.... hmmmm well everything happens for a reason and if its ment to be , it will be.
Hectic turn of events and life .
Felt like I have lived a 100 days in the past few months. So many things happening. The chaos of change.
Helping out uncle with his new venture, hoping that he would succeed, keeping fingers crossed.
New apartment, with a great view of the downtown... 7 th floor on top of 11 floors of parking, so in effect I am on the 18th floor.
Fear of heights is preventing me from going over to the balcony. Not a great feeling to be standing there. Feel as thou my legs freez up and I am not able to move after that.
loving the wooden floor, thou the single Broom is relatively smaller than the apartments I have lived in. Feels good.
The downtown seems to be populated with a lot of home less people hanging around. Not sure how bad it might be here, but do get the smell of pot smoke drifting in the air.
The temparature is becoming warmer, what a huge difference from the - 30 and -40 deg... to positive temps.in the span of a few days.
The only place I am not able to focus on or work on or put in full effort to do something positive seems to be at the work place.
Too many confusions and not any clear cut path and vision.
The gals and ladie here look much lovelier than in DC area. hmmm wonder if I will meet my princess and life partner forever here?
It was interesting coming across the girl with the sweetest smile. The smile that made my heart feel like there were a 1000 colorful butterflies dancing with joy.
ahhh the infatuations of the heart. If only I could just find that one person who would love me deeply as I would love her.... hmmmm well everything happens for a reason and if its ment to be , it will be.
Monday, February 24, 2014
Feb 24, Wake up in Canada
Monday Feb 24 2014
Woke up to a bright early morning of cold in Edmonton Canada.
Had reached on Feb 23, went thru customs, kind of felt was harassed by the Customs officer. Felt a under current / tone of racism there. Hopefully I was not been to over sensitive.
Well the cold is really COLD. -20deg ... just going thru 10 meters to the car rental left my hands numb and could feel the cold thru my jeans pants
Anways seems like a small city, so was able to make it with out GPS to the hotel. Another great thing is that the streets are numbered like in New York city so was easy to drive and have reference points.
Evening went and met up with Melani and had a great dinner and catching up conversation . Looks like our lives are criss-crossing again.
was feeling a bit sad to be leaving DC, and still feeling a bit not sure about the new assignment.
First off all pissed off with AT and T for leaving me feel cheated even after paying for the Early termination.
was told that the phone would be unlocked in 24 to 48 hrs and then when I called after 48 hrs they said it takes 7 days,, then asked to talk to supervisor, who gave me the line that it takes 10 days... ahh so its like each person is just quoting time lines from the air.
After 4 years of been a loyal customer, I no longer feel like going back to taking a connection with At&T.
It was like the customer service personal do not care, and for sure this attitude is coming from way up from above. Not a good sign for the company, time to SELL OFF the shares before the attitude become epidemic. Or has it already become.
Woke up to a bright early morning of cold in Edmonton Canada.
Had reached on Feb 23, went thru customs, kind of felt was harassed by the Customs officer. Felt a under current / tone of racism there. Hopefully I was not been to over sensitive.
Well the cold is really COLD. -20deg ... just going thru 10 meters to the car rental left my hands numb and could feel the cold thru my jeans pants
Anways seems like a small city, so was able to make it with out GPS to the hotel. Another great thing is that the streets are numbered like in New York city so was easy to drive and have reference points.
Evening went and met up with Melani and had a great dinner and catching up conversation . Looks like our lives are criss-crossing again.
was feeling a bit sad to be leaving DC, and still feeling a bit not sure about the new assignment.
First off all pissed off with AT and T for leaving me feel cheated even after paying for the Early termination.
was told that the phone would be unlocked in 24 to 48 hrs and then when I called after 48 hrs they said it takes 7 days,, then asked to talk to supervisor, who gave me the line that it takes 10 days... ahh so its like each person is just quoting time lines from the air.
After 4 years of been a loyal customer, I no longer feel like going back to taking a connection with At&T.
It was like the customer service personal do not care, and for sure this attitude is coming from way up from above. Not a good sign for the company, time to SELL OFF the shares before the attitude become epidemic. Or has it already become.
Friday, February 21, 2014
Feb 21 2014, Religion, Movers, Salsa for AshisS,
Friday, Feb 21 2014
Religion :
Religion does not make you superior.
You become Superior because of the Goodness in you to do Good things for Others.
Movers :
The movers came in yesterday around 9:30 and left around 11:30 === 12.
Whole apartments feels so empty, just with the barest of my worldly possessions. The thought process started grinding and trying to put the feeling I was going thru into words.
hmmmm sitting in an empty house... This is how life should be... free of worldly possessions.
Let go, let go, let go...
was thinking about that and then recalled the words
"EAT to LIVE and NOT Live to Eat"
I like my furniture's and household stuff too, but now after the movers came in and took it away, it feels kind of liberating, not seeing it
Mel in edmonton:
It was nice to hear back from her, wanted info on possible houses to rent in edmonton. said would be back in town after her trip to hawa and vancouver.
Salsa:
Yesterday night introduced Ashis to salsa at salsa room. After trying to finish up the beer stock in my room. we ended up reaching a bit late, so kind of felt bad about it.
Gave him the vip card. hopefully he will start using it and learn another skill.
Wanted to introduce him to the pican crowd too, but that remains to be seen if only he could make it for tomorrows friday night.
And my car gets taken for moving today morning. So I would probably not be able to make it with out someone driving me.
Past @ pican... meeting interesting people:
Last week, met this cute and pretty german gal at pincan salsa. Felt like a very good connection. And interestingly, the next day was thinking about her, when I get a facebook request for friends.
Wow kind of reminded me of what happened a few years ago.
Is it something to do with the European gals and me?
Ended up exchanging a few mails back and forth, getting to know...
But anyways for now the possibility of anything great happening is minimized by the fact that she is going to jamaican islands for vacation... and that I would be moving away to another country when she returns.
hahaha... natures way of throwing in temptations and leaving me with doubts of could have's, should have's.
Well if things are ment to be, things will happen on its own. Things fall into place in very unexpected ways.
Religion :
Religion does not make you superior.
You become Superior because of the Goodness in you to do Good things for Others.
Movers :
The movers came in yesterday around 9:30 and left around 11:30 === 12.
Whole apartments feels so empty, just with the barest of my worldly possessions. The thought process started grinding and trying to put the feeling I was going thru into words.
hmmmm sitting in an empty house... This is how life should be... free of worldly possessions.
Let go, let go, let go...
was thinking about that and then recalled the words
"EAT to LIVE and NOT Live to Eat"
I like my furniture's and household stuff too, but now after the movers came in and took it away, it feels kind of liberating, not seeing it
Mel in edmonton:
It was nice to hear back from her, wanted info on possible houses to rent in edmonton. said would be back in town after her trip to hawa and vancouver.
Salsa:
Yesterday night introduced Ashis to salsa at salsa room. After trying to finish up the beer stock in my room. we ended up reaching a bit late, so kind of felt bad about it.
Gave him the vip card. hopefully he will start using it and learn another skill.
Wanted to introduce him to the pican crowd too, but that remains to be seen if only he could make it for tomorrows friday night.
And my car gets taken for moving today morning. So I would probably not be able to make it with out someone driving me.
Past @ pican... meeting interesting people:
Last week, met this cute and pretty german gal at pincan salsa. Felt like a very good connection. And interestingly, the next day was thinking about her, when I get a facebook request for friends.
Wow kind of reminded me of what happened a few years ago.
Is it something to do with the European gals and me?
Ended up exchanging a few mails back and forth, getting to know...
But anyways for now the possibility of anything great happening is minimized by the fact that she is going to jamaican islands for vacation... and that I would be moving away to another country when she returns.
hahaha... natures way of throwing in temptations and leaving me with doubts of could have's, should have's.
Well if things are ment to be, things will happen on its own. Things fall into place in very unexpected ways.
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