Jul 12 2012 Thu

Usr accpt test day two... still isses ,, that are not mine.

Got cal from Anj asking about my leave. sounded like a heart less person.. kind of asking me for notice period,,, like I had the family emergency issues planned or something... another sicko. totally devoid of human element in person.

looks like she is bothered that she would have to set me on 2 weeks notice before relieving me from the project.
really pissed off that I don't feel like going for the lunch... well I should not go. they are celebrating.. and I am in a very sad state with family issues,,, which is my area of importance.

called up raj and told him about the leave issue, he asked to send a mail , which was forwarded to jo an and who in turn looped mena in.

durng the talk with raj, he said he would talk with senti and let me know about the banglor job.


gt call from dad around 11 30pm.. was meaning to call him.. seemed to be a bit lost and not able to hear properly again.

Jul 11 2012 Wed

Usr accpt test day one... all scrp failed by D and company.
saw the new opening in Bangalore.. so sent out mail to ven and raj for advice.

ven looped in senti... so at night sent out my resume to Senti.

Jul 10 2012 tues

Got ticket booked for sunday to go to india in the morning.
Talked to dad in the afternoon and told him that I would be there by Tuesday.

goto finish the sy tes scrp after the fix at vend end.. by 7:45 and sent out mail to all.

Jul 09 2012 mon
Ended up having an argument with dad when I talked to him in the afternoon, he was at home. as he was talking more like dham and others, got pissed off when he offered money for trip as incentive.

was feeling bad and sick after talking to him like that and loosing my kool. wanted to call up and apologise,, but it was past mid-night there.

got out of work around 2:30 and went to the leasing office.
talked with the lady there who seemed to be out to screw me over. so ended up signing 3 mths lease extension. have to pay 200 more per month.

Then tried to make the booking by Qtr.. but got transcation denied and ended up getting all the 3 other transcations denied. called up amx and was told  that they did not get any tanscation info.
called up qtr call center about 3 times to know what was happening. was asked to try again tomorrow.

Dad calls back early morning his time around 6am,,, almost wept and begged me to come... was feeling even more sick and tried to explain to him. that i am trying and did not want to give him false hopes when I was not sure when I could come there.... it was a gut wernching feeling to hear my father cry on the phone... Every kid tries to make their parents cry out of pride,, made my dad cry out of my own insensitivity..

I am a very low person and feeling sicker and more sicker everytime I am thinking about this.


July 08 2012 sun
drove over to the temple in nj prayed a lil
then went to nars house he was not there, dropped the puli there
returned and stopped by at the isk

told anj about moms conditions




July 07 2012 sat
got to know that mom had a heart attack and is in ICU


went to leasing office to see about the extension of lease, was asked to come in on Monday
recharged the washer card
washed cloths


called up rav and told him about moms condition and that I might go away.