Monday, August 17, 2015

Lazy warm days some would love to have

Sunday Aug 16 2015

Lazy warm days some would love to have ....


Ahhhhhh my fav Merengue at last after a very long time... Bonus dancing with a curly haired beauty smile emoticon
Followed by an amazing Cumbia... wow what a night at Border line ,, after a very very long time smile emoticon

Sunday, September 7, 2014

Sep 07 2014, ONAM Sunday / Sadhya ,, off to 1000oaks

Sunday Sep 07 2014

Onam....
what an emotional day it was yesterday,,, with raised hopes and expectations ,,, all coming crashing and then raising again and then crashing again.
feeling of wanting to love someone special and to be loved back in return ,,, desperation and what not.... talked with Anl,, who was advising me to start the search the traditional way ,,,, again,, not in a situation to do that at this age... too late.

And the connection on the dance flr with alb,,,,, driving me crazy ,,, addictive ,,, wanting more...  and as per the laws of fuck up that governs my life.... nothing seems to happens was I would want ideally,, not even close to remote... causing more tension and drama than any happiness, love and peace.
REminds me again about....

Note to Self : Stop barking (chasing) up the wrong tree ..,,, again and again. ... please just LEARN,, already,,,,Just trust your basic instinct, have some self discipline and self respect and walk away...
Somethings are not ment to be. If it was ment to be, it will happen smoothly and effortlessly, with out any drama 

Just have to be carefull again about dancing with my heart...., very very dangerous..... 

Now off to 1000 oaks to a new phase of life and start of life... lets see how that goes.

Cheers


Another bit of creative gushing out of emotions... 

.... afraid to love again

I am afraid

Yes I am afraid to fall in love with someone
who does not care about me
As much as I care about her

Yes I am afraid to fall in love with someone
who does not love me
As much as I love her

Yes I am afraid to fall in love with someone
who does not think about me
As much as I think about her

Yes I am afraid to fall in love with someone
who ignores me
As much as I am focused on her

Yes I am afraid to fall in love with someone
who will never love me
As much as I love her.

Yes I am afraid to fall in love with someone
who will only hurt me
As much as I adore her

Yes I am afraid to fall in love with someone
who dances with a closed heart
As much as I dance with my heart

Yes I am afraid to fall in love with someone

Copy Rights Vi V (Sep 2014)

Friday, September 5, 2014

Sep 05 2014..... afraid to love again

Friday Sep 05 2014.... afraid to love again

I am afraid

Yes I am afraid to fall in love with someone
who does not care about me
As much as I care about her

Yes I am afraid to fall in love with someone
who does not love me
As much as I love her

Yes I am afraid to fall in love with someone
who does not think about me
As much as I think about her

Yes I am afraid to fall in love with someone
who ignores me
As much as I am focused on her

Yes I am afraid to fall in love with someone
who will never love me
As much as I love her.

Yes I am afraid to fall in love with someone
who will only hurt me
As much as I adore her

Yes I am afraid to fall in love with someone

Sunday, August 10, 2014

Aug 09 2014 , volunteer and movie

Saturday Aug 09 2014

went early morning around 9 to volunteer for the burrito making proj,  thou there was satsang and was thinking of staying back. Ended up taking the 100 burritos to Rescue mission center . and they needed more to as they feed about 300 plus people and more towards end of the month.

Towards evening decided to go for the movie

hmmmm interesting read :::
Someone who is truly interested in you will find an endless number of reasons why they must see you. 
Someone who is just playing around—or confused about their own feelings—will find an endless number of excuses why they just don't have the time. 

*******makes sense, ,,,, reminds me of the will smith quote ::
Don't chase people, Be yourself, do your own thing and work hard.
The right people,, the ones who really matter and belong in your life, will come to you . And Stay   

ok off to see the The Hundred-Foot Journey .. ideally would have loved to go with someone,,, but hey , life of newbie in a new town, just have to live the moment and do my own thing  ,, when the right people come in at the right time,, added bonus 


was asleep and around 11:30 woke up to see the msg from alb about going to some mexican place and asking if I would be there. too worn out for any expedition .. and it was funny how she chooses not to answer any direct questions? kind of a turn off and does not help build trust .... as avoiding to answer kind of constitutes a kind of walled lie.


Wednesday, August 6, 2014

Aug 06 2014 4th day in isolation

Wednesday Aug 06 2014

Its my 4th day in isolation at home. Trying to cut away all the temptation and glitter around me and trying to withdraw in , focus and get centered.

just went out for a bit for bank related work and was back.

only open was Facebook which I hope to eventually be able to cut down more.


Monday, August 4, 2014

Aug 04, loosy goosy way of life

Monday, Aug 04 2014

Its one thing to fall for someone, in a thunderbolt struck moment locked in eternity, seeing something amazing in them, imagining and creating a very endearing persona..... The very passing thought of their Eyes, Smile, Lips and cute Cheeks makes your heart beat faster, drenching you in waves of happiness and hope ....  
***********and another thing when you realize that you could never live happily with the real person, cause of their bitchy superiority talk, looking down on others and you, selfish, self-centered, loosy goosy woosy irresponsible princessy way of life, over critical, sarcastic,,,  

Its one thing to fall for someone, in a thunderbolt struck moment locked in eternity, seeing something amazing in them, imagining and creating a very endearing persona..... The very passing thought of their Eyes, Smile, Lips and cute Cheeks makes your heart beat faster, drenches you in waves of happiness and hope ....   ***********and another thing when you realize that you could never live happily with the real person, cause of their bitchy superiority talk, looking down on others and you, loosy goosy woosy irresponsible princessy way of life, over critical, sarcastic,,,  

Jul 27 , End of month, crazy exposures to extremes

Sunday, July 27 2014

Almost End of month, crazy exposures to extremes .

hahahahaha oh boy,,,,, Russel in Florida,,, so can relate to the story he said... hahahaha... wow
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=OXxg3lO6sNI&feature=share

I am not a perfect person, I make a lot mistakes. But I really appreciate those people who stay with me after knowing how I really am.
[from a quote shared on FB]

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Saturday, Jul 26 2014

Emotionally drained  Consolation is, helping in the effort to make 847 burritos — at Amma Los Angeles

Wrist hurt after having flipped 600 plus burritos the last two weekends.. corporal tunnel ??

Was feeling very low, around evening went for a walk to the world series beach volleyball.. woooofff,, the hot looking perfect bodies and bums of hot chicks ,,, rather some of natures exquisite creations is mind blowing.
Then returned back


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Friday, July 25 2014

was out shopping at costco and walmart for grocery and house hold supplies.

Towards evening went to watch the world series of beach volley ball.
Boy oh boy, its filled with lovely gals in two piece bikinis... not sure if I will find any other bodies interesting and inspiring as the beauties there.

Thursday July 24 2014

Random thoughts of mine on FB
I sincerely believe and see that there is MORE - GREATER GOOD and GOOD PEOPLE in this world than any bad. We just have to be more conscious when we see it and appreciate it and not keep taking it for granted. 
Open your eyes to the GREATER GOOD Happening all around you

Started day with Yoga on the beach
Yeaaa Yoga. Felt really centered and good today..... free of some burden and thoughts  — at Dharma's Yoga on the Bluff

Went to laguna beach to check out ISKON there. but it was closed. and the whole area was crowded with beach goers.. for gods sake its mid week  and its crowded like an indian market.
wonder how it is during weekends?

Also kind of fine tuned these thoughts of mine.

SHARING IS CARING, IF YOU CARE, SHARE! :) [draft version]

24 July 2014 at 08:52
"Every time you have an opportunity to communicate, you have an opportunity to change lives"

Its also true in the case of Facebook (FB) as a medium of communication.
Having the power of media (FB) to reach out to friends and all those who care to check on your Facebook, gives us the opportunity to reach out, share and spread our positive thoughts and messages, in the most non-intrusive way possible.

You never know who is going thru what in their life?
Just that chance of seeing or reading a positive message that you cared to share, might brighten up their day, change the direction of their life.
It Maybe for a few minutes, hours, days or even their life.
And who knows they would end up spreading it to others they come across, a chain of events, THAT YOU CARED TO SHARE, leading to a better world.
All because you choose to share a positive inspiring message or bit of information in/about your life.

Thanks to facebook and youtube, we got see babies laughing and boy oh boy, did it not mellow the hardest of hearts and melt the coldness within!?
We got to see puppies, kittens and baby elephants fill our hearts with their sweet innocent happy expression and playfulness.

If you care , then please share messages and information that might help change someones life.

You have one of the most powerful instruments that normal people years ago never had. The power of Facebook for sharing and reaching a wider audience.
Not just sucking in what the media controlled by vested interested throw in our direction (mostly negative news) causing panic and creating hopelessness.
We now have the power to voice our own goodness, positive messages, that would probably make a difference in someone else's life in ways we would probably not be aware off.

IF YOU CARE, SHARE!

Cause
SHARING IN CARING :)

I got inspired to run and improve my health after seeing the regular feed on my FB home page of a FB friend going out running.
Then when I started sharing my running info, another friend of mine got inspired to start running..... this was one good example of spreading and inspiring positive change in the lives of others.

Then there was this article that got me moving away from coffee to healthier Tea.

I see articles shared by people doing yoga, working on healthy eating habits and I have been inspired to try and try adopt the positive practices for what I believe is greater good. :)

There are times when it feels like I have no energy to get thru the day, but thanks to some inspiring and motivating posts by kind FB Friends, just reading a few feeds turning up on the Home page, stopped the downward slide I was in and got my spirits soaring again and helped me walk around with a smile. :)

THANK YOU ALL FOR INSPIRING ME AND GUIDING ME INTO BECOMING A BETTER PERSON. (physically, emotionally, philosophically, psychologically, improving my strength in character, ,,,,)

I sincerely believe and see that there is MORE and GREATER GOOD and GOOD PEOPLE in this world than any bad. We just have to be more conscious when we see it and appreciate it and not keep taking it for granted. Open your eyes to the GREATER GOOD Happening all around you :)