Monday, Sep 24 2012
The weekend was spend in self debate about actions past. How to improve self into the future. Lazing about looking for something worth while to do and be proud of accomplishing. To do something positively motivating and enriching.
Was able to go out for a long fast walk. It was an accomplishment, given that for the past 4 weeks, life swung from hectic travel, different cultures, climates and ultimately the body giving up under these pressures and yielding to fever, cold and cough.
Its strange that I noticed when I am sick, my hair and nails don't as fast as they would when I am feeling healthier. So looks like I am back to normal health, except for the occasional cough. Was a good decision not to go out dancing on Friday night.
Guess I am now tired to travelling as a tourist or have ended up having an over dose of exposure or in material sense, have now spent more than I am earning. So time out from any more travel.
These are the situations when I get inclined towards having money and not having to worry about earning to sustain myself.
Back to cooking (rather re-heating) veggie food.
And maybe head out for the group meditation at the Buddhist place in the evening and then for some free monday salsa :)
Thoughts when re-heating..
Looking around and comparing with friends I known for 10 to 15 years.... all ,, i mean all seem to have some kind of life achievement. Have their own house. yes something they did not inherit from their ancestors, just built or broght with their own hard earned money. Something physical that they could look at and feel proud of having done, rather a symbol of all their hard work, sacrifices and achievements.
What do I have, non-attached, fluctuating bank account (at its seasonal low now).
I could have had something too, had it not been my own greed and thoughts of making money grow faster, resulting in investments that only screwed up my savings.
Could have, should have, might have,,,,,, ahhh the story of HAVE.
Was on a roll the few months before going to India, peaceful, happy, alone, tension free life.
Then came the tragedy of moms heart attack. Ended up spending a bunch at the hospitals and travel. And then having to put up with some very idiotic self-imposing people (relatives), who think that they own me and started dictating and pushing me around only to rudely feel the surprise of me pushing back and no longer wanting to have to do anything with them.
Saw a Fedex van pull up, was excited thinking that it must be my iphone 5,,,,aww turns out that it was one of the neighbors who ordered a LG TV.
Monday, September 24, 2012
Saturday, September 22, 2012
Sep 22 2012 Saturday, Beautiful day
Saturday, Sep 22 2012
BEAUTIFUL great Day, these are the words one should start their day with.
Seems to send out the positiviety and also get it back in return.
was nice to see the msg from J who is now moved down south of the equator.... one of the very few people who I had a good chemistry dancing with. She so inpsired me to create new moves and dips on the cha cha.
Was reminded of the conversation we had, chemistry between people is a mystery, just like life, you could be with the most beautiful person, yet not have the matching chemistry. External beauty is just skin deep, but the chemistry, the energy level match-up is really unique if one has the fortune to come across that kind of match.
Well everything is energy. And only few energies are bound to be compatible with each other. Wonder who and where my energy match up is.... been searching for her for a very long time and yet to find the one who is a match and is available.
Had brief talk with mom, was good to hear the lady who had come to help has come back after a few days. So a bit relieved with that and not having to think that moms sis (evil sis) would screw up things for her.
BEAUTIFUL great Day, these are the words one should start their day with.
Seems to send out the positiviety and also get it back in return.
was nice to see the msg from J who is now moved down south of the equator.... one of the very few people who I had a good chemistry dancing with. She so inpsired me to create new moves and dips on the cha cha.
Was reminded of the conversation we had, chemistry between people is a mystery, just like life, you could be with the most beautiful person, yet not have the matching chemistry. External beauty is just skin deep, but the chemistry, the energy level match-up is really unique if one has the fortune to come across that kind of match.
Well everything is energy. And only few energies are bound to be compatible with each other. Wonder who and where my energy match up is.... been searching for her for a very long time and yet to find the one who is a match and is available.
Had brief talk with mom, was good to hear the lady who had come to help has come back after a few days. So a bit relieved with that and not having to think that moms sis (evil sis) would screw up things for her.
Thursday, September 20, 2012
Sep 20 Thu, another day passes by
Thursday, Sep 20
Another day passes by, but atleast I got a call from bos about a non-matching opening. Which probably is a call back from yesterdays call and msg left.
Totally confused about life and its mysterious ways. Down into the lowest with hopes of love and life. Its like a hopeless deep well that I seem to be spiraling down into. Not able to meet single women who are compatible. Ending up meeting selfish angry women. Its like all the compatible ones are taken, smart guys who made the smart move in time.
awww rather not spend life with a miserable angry women, will only make my life miserable with her attitude. Rather be at Zero than get sucked down into negative area.
Now I am feeling well enough to go out dancing? still have the cough from Aug last week. The fever seems to have gone down. Sleep pattern seems to have got better. Thanks in a way that I am not working, gave me enough time to recuperate.
And right at that moment I end up sneezing a few times, like having an allergic reaction..... hehehehehe lifes comedy of errors.
Wonder whats happening back home, with the working lady taking off cause of her own cough and fever. Wonder how they are coping up there?
Well there is so much I can do and makes me realise the limits of my capabilities and also makes me feel guilty that I have so limited abilities.
Another day passes by, but atleast I got a call from bos about a non-matching opening. Which probably is a call back from yesterdays call and msg left.
Totally confused about life and its mysterious ways. Down into the lowest with hopes of love and life. Its like a hopeless deep well that I seem to be spiraling down into. Not able to meet single women who are compatible. Ending up meeting selfish angry women. Its like all the compatible ones are taken, smart guys who made the smart move in time.
awww rather not spend life with a miserable angry women, will only make my life miserable with her attitude. Rather be at Zero than get sucked down into negative area.
Now I am feeling well enough to go out dancing? still have the cough from Aug last week. The fever seems to have gone down. Sleep pattern seems to have got better. Thanks in a way that I am not working, gave me enough time to recuperate.
And right at that moment I end up sneezing a few times, like having an allergic reaction..... hehehehehe lifes comedy of errors.
Wonder whats happening back home, with the working lady taking off cause of her own cough and fever. Wonder how they are coping up there?
Well there is so much I can do and makes me realise the limits of my capabilities and also makes me feel guilty that I have so limited abilities.
Wednesday, September 19, 2012
Sep 19 Dis satisfaction and confusion
Wednesday Sep 19 2012
Going thru a phase or a stage in life where I am totally not satisfied with the things happening in my life and confused about a lot of things.
Am I on the right path or am been dragged into directions that I did not see coming by. Don't have much options either.
Past 10 days just passed by, mostly trying to get my sleep pattern back and recovering from the sickness I got when I toured the 4 south Indian states in 3 days. All the pollution, drinking water at hotels with shady hygiene conditions and then been on the move with very little sleep. Again the trip started with a blast, yes a virtual blast of the Gas tanker that delayed the train and killed many people. From there on it was a cascading effect, but looking back it was a good trip where I just made the best of the circumstances. Advantages of travelling alone and not having to think of what the other travel partners might like or not like. Well a good compatible travel partner would sure have made travelling much easier and nicer.
Waiting for passport and the new iphone.
The iphone order is something I regret now as I realize that apple screwed us over with an incompatible plug in to connect to computer. Its no longer the standard USB port.
Big disappointment there, if its true. Should know in a few days.
This time around hoping to use the video in the phone for recording incidents that would probably help improve the world. maybe like an hidden camera and publicize about bad things and people.
around 2:42 called up bos and ra ,, left msg to let me know about any job openings... it kind of sucks, not getting enough billable poejects and because of that the company screwing me over about the yearly increment in salary. Everyone seems to have got upwards of 3 percent hike, and me left with a meager 1 percent.
feel ashamed to even ask about it. Don't feel right to ask about it and also feel screwed over that I did not get what others got and that I was entitled to get. Its not like I did not work, just that the company did not have projects that fit my skill set or could not fit me in.
Going thru a phase or a stage in life where I am totally not satisfied with the things happening in my life and confused about a lot of things.
Am I on the right path or am been dragged into directions that I did not see coming by. Don't have much options either.
Past 10 days just passed by, mostly trying to get my sleep pattern back and recovering from the sickness I got when I toured the 4 south Indian states in 3 days. All the pollution, drinking water at hotels with shady hygiene conditions and then been on the move with very little sleep. Again the trip started with a blast, yes a virtual blast of the Gas tanker that delayed the train and killed many people. From there on it was a cascading effect, but looking back it was a good trip where I just made the best of the circumstances. Advantages of travelling alone and not having to think of what the other travel partners might like or not like. Well a good compatible travel partner would sure have made travelling much easier and nicer.
Waiting for passport and the new iphone.
The iphone order is something I regret now as I realize that apple screwed us over with an incompatible plug in to connect to computer. Its no longer the standard USB port.
Big disappointment there, if its true. Should know in a few days.
This time around hoping to use the video in the phone for recording incidents that would probably help improve the world. maybe like an hidden camera and publicize about bad things and people.
around 2:42 called up bos and ra ,, left msg to let me know about any job openings... it kind of sucks, not getting enough billable poejects and because of that the company screwing me over about the yearly increment in salary. Everyone seems to have got upwards of 3 percent hike, and me left with a meager 1 percent.
feel ashamed to even ask about it. Don't feel right to ask about it and also feel screwed over that I did not get what others got and that I was entitled to get. Its not like I did not work, just that the company did not have projects that fit my skill set or could not fit me in.
Thursday, September 13, 2012
Sep 13 2012, Jet lag
Thu Sep 13 2012
Still suffering from Jet lag and trouble adjusting to the sleep pattern changes.
Took more than 50 hrs door to door. with a 20 hr halt in Doha.
Wed Sep 12 2012
Tuesday Sep 11 2012
Did not know what happened to this day, guess spent sleeping, confused and lost. Remember waking up a couple of times and looking for parents and hoping that one of my wicked aunts did not poison them.
Monday Sep 10 2012
Reached NYC around 4pm and after a long wait in the Q for immigration was out with out any issues. Got admire the way the immigration people working at the airport are working.
So many different people from different cultures from around the world, speaking in different tones, some that may be considered rude in many cultures.
ooofff to handle all these kinds of people day in and day out..... remarkable human quality of patience and peservence... hats off the immigration guys in NYC and many other places.
Thanks to nar for picking up at the airport . reached his house around 7:30pm and drove to my house to reach around 9:30pm EST (which must be around 7am IST of Sep11).
About 51 hrs door to door travel.
Sunday Sep 09 2012
Started off from home around sep09, 6am IST which is 8:30pm EST of Sep 08.
Reached calicut airport around 7:30am with a huge crowded of passengers blocking the enterance. took about 30 mins to get past the gate. Another 30 mins to pay the 10,000plus rupees that I had for changing the flight. then another 30 mins to clear the immigration... so was able to board the flight around 9:30 with out much hassle. Wish had come in earlier to avoid the crowd. Well lesson learnt.!
Reached Doha in the afternoon, asked the flight attentends about salsa in doha,, one of them seemed pretty excited ,, she was sweet and sexy,,,, damm why did we not talk much earlier.. but came back sadly with the news that there is no salsa on a sunday there.
So me and an check into Retaj hotel. Great looking hotel, with great facilities, I got a whole suite with kitchen and couple of rooms two TVs mostly showing the local soccer in about 5 to 10 channels.
After having a lunch buffet at the hotel, an asked around about the desert safari. about 300USD.(more like 270). So arranged for the safari guy to come pick us up around 3:30pm.
It was a different experience, driven in a Nissan 4 wheel drive. up and down some amazing sand dunes and 40 deg plus drops, like a crazy ride in a theme park.
Reached the south eastern border of Qatar, with a view of Saudhi arabia.
Returned back around 7:30pm,, 4 hrs.
did not have much in me to go into the swimming pool or try to find a place to dance salsa. Just had another great dinner buffet, stuffed with deserts. :)
Asked to have a wake up call around 5am. for flight at 8am.
Still suffering from Jet lag and trouble adjusting to the sleep pattern changes.
Took more than 50 hrs door to door. with a 20 hr halt in Doha.
Wed Sep 12 2012
Tuesday Sep 11 2012
Did not know what happened to this day, guess spent sleeping, confused and lost. Remember waking up a couple of times and looking for parents and hoping that one of my wicked aunts did not poison them.
Monday Sep 10 2012
Reached NYC around 4pm and after a long wait in the Q for immigration was out with out any issues. Got admire the way the immigration people working at the airport are working.
So many different people from different cultures from around the world, speaking in different tones, some that may be considered rude in many cultures.
ooofff to handle all these kinds of people day in and day out..... remarkable human quality of patience and peservence... hats off the immigration guys in NYC and many other places.
Thanks to nar for picking up at the airport . reached his house around 7:30pm and drove to my house to reach around 9:30pm EST (which must be around 7am IST of Sep11).
About 51 hrs door to door travel.
Sunday Sep 09 2012
Started off from home around sep09, 6am IST which is 8:30pm EST of Sep 08.
Reached calicut airport around 7:30am with a huge crowded of passengers blocking the enterance. took about 30 mins to get past the gate. Another 30 mins to pay the 10,000plus rupees that I had for changing the flight. then another 30 mins to clear the immigration... so was able to board the flight around 9:30 with out much hassle. Wish had come in earlier to avoid the crowd. Well lesson learnt.!
Reached Doha in the afternoon, asked the flight attentends about salsa in doha,, one of them seemed pretty excited ,, she was sweet and sexy,,,, damm why did we not talk much earlier.. but came back sadly with the news that there is no salsa on a sunday there.
So me and an check into Retaj hotel. Great looking hotel, with great facilities, I got a whole suite with kitchen and couple of rooms two TVs mostly showing the local soccer in about 5 to 10 channels.
After having a lunch buffet at the hotel, an asked around about the desert safari. about 300USD.(more like 270). So arranged for the safari guy to come pick us up around 3:30pm.
It was a different experience, driven in a Nissan 4 wheel drive. up and down some amazing sand dunes and 40 deg plus drops, like a crazy ride in a theme park.
Reached the south eastern border of Qatar, with a view of Saudhi arabia.
Returned back around 7:30pm,, 4 hrs.
did not have much in me to go into the swimming pool or try to find a place to dance salsa. Just had another great dinner buffet, stuffed with deserts. :)
Asked to have a wake up call around 5am. for flight at 8am.
Saturday, August 25, 2012
Aug 25 2012, lifes complications
Saturday, Aug 25 2012
Went to irt y met up with unkls family. rainny day.
checking web to see about accomodation in tirupathi and mode of booking. lets see how that goes.
should be ok since its non-peak time.
Friday, Aug 24 2012
just waiting for the days to pass by for flight back to home.
went and reserved a tkt to tirupathi, hopefully will be able to complete my visit there after the scheduled 12 day mourning period for aunt.
Dropped of the gal who came in for cooking and taking care of the other work at Ranj , cousin sisters house so that she could go back to her village to celebrate the onam festival with her family.
Mon Aug 20 2012
The day the grave was closed, 3 days after cremation.
An comes back after 10 years around noon.
Friday, Aug 17 2012
Sail aunts body was cremeated around 10am
Thursday Aug 16 2012
had gone for walk around 7pm
got call from unkle.
Aunt sail passes away, after very courageously battling cancer for more than 3 years. She was one of the sweetest, soft spoken and nicest person I ever got to know on this earth. It was heart wrenching what she had to go thru and die inch by inch. Felt sick and think that life is sure not fair, if at all one person that deserves peace and happiness and ZERO suffering, it was her.
Her body was brought to the main family house of grandparents towards midnight.
So was busy cleaning up the house and getting it ready, when I got some help from Sr and husband Ra... who like the good person he is, just helped me with the cleaning, unselfishly and just for the sake of helping.
Then cam aunt ka,, claiming in front of everyone that she and her husband had cleaned up the place the day before. what a load of bull, if they had really cleaned up, then would there be so much of plastic and other crap in front of the house, that seems to have been there for quite a long time.
Wed Aug 15 2012
Went to mahi for the kadhi festival along with ath and ram.
Tuesday Aug 14 2012
Went to bsn mahe to get the modem configured and then to cousin prade shop to buy a couple of towles and dress and sandals.
Mon Aug `13 2012
Sun aug 12 2012
Sat Aug 11 2012
brought new fridge.
Friday, Aug10 2012
Thursday Aug 09 2012
registered issue with geaser with the dealer. walked all the way to chokli.
Wed Aug 08 2012
Brought Adsl modem rs 2000
Sunday Aug 05 2012
Towards evening ranj cousis sis gets the lady to help with the cooking and cleaning - kamala
Went to irt y met up with unkls family. rainny day.
checking web to see about accomodation in tirupathi and mode of booking. lets see how that goes.
should be ok since its non-peak time.
Friday, Aug 24 2012
just waiting for the days to pass by for flight back to home.
went and reserved a tkt to tirupathi, hopefully will be able to complete my visit there after the scheduled 12 day mourning period for aunt.
Dropped of the gal who came in for cooking and taking care of the other work at Ranj , cousin sisters house so that she could go back to her village to celebrate the onam festival with her family.
Mon Aug 20 2012
The day the grave was closed, 3 days after cremation.
An comes back after 10 years around noon.
Friday, Aug 17 2012
Sail aunts body was cremeated around 10am
Thursday Aug 16 2012
had gone for walk around 7pm
got call from unkle.
Aunt sail passes away, after very courageously battling cancer for more than 3 years. She was one of the sweetest, soft spoken and nicest person I ever got to know on this earth. It was heart wrenching what she had to go thru and die inch by inch. Felt sick and think that life is sure not fair, if at all one person that deserves peace and happiness and ZERO suffering, it was her.
Her body was brought to the main family house of grandparents towards midnight.
So was busy cleaning up the house and getting it ready, when I got some help from Sr and husband Ra... who like the good person he is, just helped me with the cleaning, unselfishly and just for the sake of helping.
Then cam aunt ka,, claiming in front of everyone that she and her husband had cleaned up the place the day before. what a load of bull, if they had really cleaned up, then would there be so much of plastic and other crap in front of the house, that seems to have been there for quite a long time.
Wed Aug 15 2012
Went to mahi for the kadhi festival along with ath and ram.
Tuesday Aug 14 2012
Went to bsn mahe to get the modem configured and then to cousin prade shop to buy a couple of towles and dress and sandals.
Mon Aug `13 2012
Sun aug 12 2012
Sat Aug 11 2012
brought new fridge.
Friday, Aug10 2012
Thursday Aug 09 2012
registered issue with geaser with the dealer. walked all the way to chokli.
Wed Aug 08 2012
Brought Adsl modem rs 2000
Sunday Aug 05 2012
Towards evening ranj cousis sis gets the lady to help with the cooking and cleaning - kamala
Friday, July 27, 2012
Jul 27 successfull operation
Total expenses was less than 2lacs for the 10 plus days of hospitalization.
Saturday Jul 28
Moved back to the room
Friday, Jul 27 2012
4:30pm operation successful.
5:15pm was able to see
5:30 to 6 visit in ICU.
Thursday, jul 26 2012
10am an called
2pm echo test
Call up preet and talk to him about the details and stuff.
Wed , jul 25 2012
12:15 biriyani for lunch
Tuesday, Jul 24 2012
2pm Angiogram
2:30pm check out of hotel.
4pm kank aec leaves for teli,, pupa aec takes her place.
Monday Jul 23 2012
Moves out of Semi icu,
from afternoon to evening,, Nuclear scan.
Get connection to the Idea net setter. sanil comes and helps with the id and photo in the afternoon. had gone in the morning only to find that I did not have the required documents.
Sunday, Jul 22 2012
Ravi calls regarding project... success.
Satruday, Jul 21 2012
Project live.
Friday jul 20 2012
got released from the teli hospital around 2 noon and reach calicut around 4, immediately again gets admitted into the ICU with chest congestion. Seems there is fluid build up in her chest.
Thursday Jul 19 2012
night in ICU, went home had shower and returned back.
Wednesday Jul 18 2012
Got up early morning, with intermittent sleep. cooked, cleaned up and then around afternoon went to paloor and got a Sim with moms pic and id. then went to check out BSNL for internet connection. checked mails at near by cafe and was contemplating going to HDFC when i get a call from dad that moms having problems and that they are heading to the hospital again.
Tuesday Jul 17 2012
board plane around 2am have a cute lil babe gal besides me, who made an entrance blawing and scaring all the passengers near by.
One issue was the vent in our row was not working at all. thou I told the stewards about it, no one was able to do anything to fix it.
Just the pleasent behavior and manners of the inflight staff made the flight pleasent.
Reach cali, landing around 10am and reached home by taxi around 12:30noon, 1699 +300 tips.
mom seems to be walking around as thou nothing had happened.
After dinner set out on the mission of cleaning up the kitchen.
Monday Jul 16 2012
@ doh airport around 7 evening to 2 morning.
Saturday Jul 28
Moved back to the room
Friday, Jul 27 2012
4:30pm operation successful.
5:15pm was able to see
5:30 to 6 visit in ICU.
Thursday, jul 26 2012
10am an called
2pm echo test
Call up preet and talk to him about the details and stuff.
Wed , jul 25 2012
12:15 biriyani for lunch
Tuesday, Jul 24 2012
2pm Angiogram
2:30pm check out of hotel.
4pm kank aec leaves for teli,, pupa aec takes her place.
Monday Jul 23 2012
Moves out of Semi icu,
from afternoon to evening,, Nuclear scan.
Get connection to the Idea net setter. sanil comes and helps with the id and photo in the afternoon. had gone in the morning only to find that I did not have the required documents.
Sunday, Jul 22 2012
Ravi calls regarding project... success.
Satruday, Jul 21 2012
Project live.
Friday jul 20 2012
got released from the teli hospital around 2 noon and reach calicut around 4, immediately again gets admitted into the ICU with chest congestion. Seems there is fluid build up in her chest.
Thursday Jul 19 2012
night in ICU, went home had shower and returned back.
Wednesday Jul 18 2012
Got up early morning, with intermittent sleep. cooked, cleaned up and then around afternoon went to paloor and got a Sim with moms pic and id. then went to check out BSNL for internet connection. checked mails at near by cafe and was contemplating going to HDFC when i get a call from dad that moms having problems and that they are heading to the hospital again.
Tuesday Jul 17 2012
board plane around 2am have a cute lil babe gal besides me, who made an entrance blawing and scaring all the passengers near by.
One issue was the vent in our row was not working at all. thou I told the stewards about it, no one was able to do anything to fix it.
Just the pleasent behavior and manners of the inflight staff made the flight pleasent.
Reach cali, landing around 10am and reached home by taxi around 12:30noon, 1699 +300 tips.
mom seems to be walking around as thou nothing had happened.
After dinner set out on the mission of cleaning up the kitchen.
Monday Jul 16 2012
@ doh airport around 7 evening to 2 morning.
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