Saturday May 10 2014
Running around for cleaning up the place, and waiting for the car to be picked up. got picked up around 1:30pm
around 4:15 butterfly smile comes in, so we load her car with the stuff that I had. cooking pots and a few food stuff.
then head to remedy for tea... ahhh was not sure how it would go,, but an hour and half just flew away. touched on great topics and amazing intelligent conversation.
It was heart breaking for me to see her go aroun 615... why is the universe showing me someone who meets all the crieteria of a soul mate and then not letting us unite!?
Feels like a cruel joke.
Asked her if I could interest her for persian lunch tomorrow, to which she declined.. ah well I tried.. more than 200%.... thats 100% for me and 100% for her.....
well looks like she is in a different place and plane than I am.....
summary......
Its one sided..physical attraction on my side... We hardly know each other... And i leave for LA today.... She so matches the criteria of an ideal soul mate. ... Happy to have met someone like her...and heart broken at the same time... After i put that post up..we met for coffee and had another round of wonderful conversation... For about 2 hrs.. Then she had to go... And it started feeling like the universe was playing a joke...
kind of reminded me about the same thing that happened in indiana .. just that its just a switch of my direction of move,, and I had just been in Edmonton for about 2 months... did not even know her name for 2 weeks after I was impacted by her smile.. was trying to pull back,, then we became friends on FB,,,, not much interaction... so told her how I was impacted by her smile a day before I left for LA (2 weeks ago).. she was nice and wonderful about it.
we both realize that its just a physical attraction on my side and we hardly know each other.. and maybe we will one day meet when I return to Edmonton over coffee...... so subsequent ot my move to LA,, when I was about to get back to Edmonton on tuesday, Told her about it and that we should meet for coffee sometime when I am here... long story, short,
as fate makes things work,, we met on wednesday as she came to my apartment...and as I was dumping some kitchen stuff.. talked for a few mins.. then on thrusday at the salsa club,, a bit of an awkard meeting saw her dancing very closly with some guy,, thougth that it was her BF... on friday she invited me for dinner.... terriffic conversation for about 2 hrs and then a bit of salsa,,,,, so I told her hey we have to meet for our coffee.. she was reluctant.... then towards the end of the night she said hey I think we can meet for Tea on sat afternoon.. she has a tight scheduled life of activities, dance classes she is helping with ,, ,, so was not expecting much,, as I also had to leave the next day...
That 1.5 hrs of conversation and things we had in common,, blew my mind even more.. felt like she is closest I have ever come to knowing that there is someone meeting the criteria of "the women of my dreams".... and then it started sucking....
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evening went to tumblwe with mark, who was trying to motivte me by asking me to forget her as it does not seem to have potential for growth as I leave on sunday....
Obiviously if she had anywhere near to the same kind of feelings she would have put everything else on hold... but it was not ment to be.
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