Attitude and Life of wandering

Saturday, April 17, 2010

Woke up to: ""Attitude and Life of wandering results in developing a personalty and mentality that is incapable of sticking to a Place or Committing to a Relationship. ... Does that explain why I am still single?""

Is that why my life thou seems great subject matter to talk about or as a great conversation material and invoking envy from others in a party or initial meeting, is still something to me that is missing that special someone-forever and family that most others seem to have?

Its great to experience and get exposed to lots of different exotic places and cultures, but in the end human mind is really seeking that peace and fulfillment, which only comes when one is calm and in stable. Just like Gautam Buddha, who had the world or riches and pleasure, but realised the moksha (liberalization) to Happinesss only by giving up all and everything.

To me it summerizes that no matter how far and wide you travel, no matter how exotic your experience is, in the end when the temporary rush and excitement subsides (as anything that goes up must come down) is there someone or something that makes you feel at home and at peace and fill you up with happiness. That someone who would be there no matter what ever happens outside the HOME. That someone special who would make me want to return home and look forward to returning HOME. That special love and tenderness with which she could make me feel special and loved......
And with time the seeds and fruits of our love (kids) and their life..... A loving family!

Called up home again to mom tell me about the new year horoscope stuff, about things clearing up for me getting married. About time.
Was chatting on FB with Geetha chechi and relying info between them. hehehe modern tech. One in Arabia, me in US and mom in Kerala... cheers

Got call from Narayan, so tempted to go to Jersey again to the temple. tried renting and was told that the car is not available for economy. Then called up after 2 hrs and got an intermediate size car. Well got to go with it, and satisfy the urge to travel and pray.

Chatted with Lubo, he is a good man and good person at heart. Only wish that others close to him could have got some of the goodness from him.

Went and got the car around 1pm. 2pm head to office to get the receipts for the Visa expenses scanned and sent to the mail id. Called up narayan and told him i am starting off around 3.. its already 3:20 as i was not able to find the map.. well heading out for the Temple ,, hanuman darshan. more this time as per the suggestions of my mom.

cheers and off to NJ after that.

Reached temple around 5pm, then after been there for an hr, went to the cafeteria and had their famous Veggie Biriyai. packed a few tamrind rice and onion bajji(pakoras/pakodas).

Reached Narayans house around 7:30, latter go out in Narayans new Honda CRV. wow loved the new model with its sleek features.....
Returned back to his house and got watching Hindi TV channels. It felt a bit heart warming to watch TV from back home, thou it felt a bit sub-standard. And it was me watching TV after a very long time. Also got to see the movie "Dil Chahata hai", felt like I was living the life of the character Sameer.. :((( always having my heart broken.