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Mon, May 3, 2010
8am Movers coming.
Chat with eva again after seeing her blog about the farm party. Was suddenly reminded of the night mare I had a few days ago. Mail I wanted to send but did not as she does not seem to want to communicate :
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There was another reason why I called.
a few days ago, I had a vision/ dream or what ever you call it... it was bad.
It was about you wearing the chocolate brown pants (that u seem to be wearing and then something green on the top mixed with a brown... and u were also having the light yellowish bag (that u use for going to work in india)....
u are attending a party, lots of guys, drinking and everything.. many of them seem to know you and you them,, friends aquaintance.. you already have a reputation about the kissing thing in Czech and drinking.... and after sometime some of the guys decide to fix your drink... with something called the date rape drug (very commonly available in india and used by many indian guys in the clubs of mumbai that i know). Then after some time one of the guys takes you to the room as the effects of the drug seem to take over and you are behaving desperate and horny... he takes you to the room and do things to you, get you naked and has sex with you ... and after that all his friends all join in one after another, and they take pics of you in the act... then I woke up sweating.
It sounds crazy.... just one bad night mare. But thought that I would share it with you to be careful with the crazy unpredictable guys there.
This kind of incident happened in one of my office parties when I was working in mumbai. But the gal was born and brought up in Mumbai and was too smart, and she does not drink. So those guys I knew were not successful with her.
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Don't know why I am bothering with this, when she does not seem to care about my words or does not seem to be interested in been friends with me either..... I just don't want to have any resentment towards her or anyone. The more I am trying to try, the more she is acting like some power drunk person and acting all ego entric. But again I do care about her for some nice things that she has and the unexplained feeling of love I feel for her and her well begin.
And don't want to end up regretting latter if something happens to her. That I had the opportunity to warn her Naive personalty and did not.
But if she continous in this hate filled way of behavior towards me,, I think even I will soon develop a wall and stop caring about her.
Wonder how she keeps moving from one person to another,, just 55 days ago when I wished her all the best and that its too much of logistic involved to plan a trip to india and go to kerala with her. As she might be with some other guy by then. She was saying, how can I fall for another guy when I have been thru so much suffering with me.....
And as i see it, she fell in love and proposed to Amit all slobering him and scaring him in the first 30 days and now replaced him with Rishit..... wow strange are the working of some peoples brain. Or is it just their short term way of always looking at relationships.. would that explain why she did not or was not able to have any relationship that lasts more than a month?????... well I did try to warn her about Igor...
And when I see the pics of Rishit, his expression remind me of Igors when he is about to pounce on a new victim. And her expressions are the same as she had when she was going behind igor.. with her "mastero, mastero...."... Well for some people history repeats..... the cycle of karma continues, untill such time that they learn from their actions and its results...
Atleast I am not able to consider anyone and don't feel like considering anyone. That maybe because I am in love and she is able to do it cause she was never in love,, or just pretended to be in love or did not know what really love is.
Well atleast I was and still am sincere and honest and continue to be so.
Thou there have been opportunities and lots of windows seem to open around me. Especially with the Call center building that I am located in and with all the beautiful blonds floating around..... thou my heart like any man would love to jump into the sack with them,,, my hearts sincerity and love for someone who does not seem care about me at all,,, does not allow me too. Strange paradox or true sincere love.
Or is it that she is addicted to kissing. There are many who are addicted to sex and it drives them crazy if they don't have sex. She I guess is a person with an addiciton to kissing and wanting to be kissed...... a thought that was there before but just put in writing...
The saddest part of all this is, that she got caught and cornered in her web of lies and instead of showing any regret or remorse or feeling sorry, she truned it around and made it my fault. Well some people are really good at fooling themselves and really believing that others are at fault even after getting caught red handed. What causes this, no idea.
But had she had some kind of remorse or felt sorry for lying so blantedly, I would have been just happy for her and would have loved to get back with her. But she decided to go with counter accusation and make me look like the bad guy here and accuse me of creating imaginary stories and sending emails to my friend complaining to him about me been the villan... how sorry a state of mind that she must have been.
Maybe its all the sudden change in location, cultural shock and her master plan and desire to be with Amit backfiring, scared her to make up her own stories and then accuse me of creating stories.... what ever. But I just hope that she realises that I do not intend any harm to her.... Harm is the easiest and cheapest thing I could have done to her. But that is not me.
But looking at the way things are going and even after I swallow my own ego and approach her to make things better and ease of the tensions and let her know that I forgive her for the games she played (was surprised when she labeled that I was playing a bad game,,,,, shocked that she thought of all this as a game)... and only want to forgive and but the bad past behind. Does not seem to be getting across. Well atleast I am guilt free and sleeping with a clear conscious.
now off to Canada revenue and then latter to Muhus house for a party...
The movers came in around 7:45am and were gone by 9am.. that was fast.. now to coordinate the car drop off.
had Chicken biriyani for the last time in Van,, hmmm will miss Al-watans friday special biriyani....
Delma calls around 2 pm and we plan on meeting up and going for a movie...
Got to know that Delma, so pretty, zero make up, looks like the ideal beautiful malu gal. is a computer science graduate and also studied law.... wooow talk about high qualification and under used talent..... How come I did not meet her before... whyyyy.. she and me could have made such a wonderful pair.... she is so beautiful and down to earth and so religious too... Why do I end up meeting people who take me for granted and the good ones always turn up when I have no scope of pursing. As I am moving away...
Well it was nice meeting her and getting to know her. Will have to surely help her in anyway possible. Even if its from Philly. Thats one lady who could really use my caring help and be grateful to me eternally and not stab me in the back like the others, who do not even seem to appreciate the blind love I am and caring them for... Talk about mis-placed affections...
anyways we watch the movie. then go for bubble tea and I drop her off at her new house besides ,,,Polish hall. And it is so easy for her to go out Salsa dancing every friday.
around 7 pm got to meet Jennifer the new manager of Dunblane and she turns out to be a Archelogist for and specialization in First nation... wow, that was nice to meet two ladies who are very highly educated and smart.. but doing min wages work for survival... so sad but I hope and pray that persistence with guide them to higher levels of achievements in life.
Monday, May 3, 2010
Sunday, May 2, 2010
DAY four of packing and organizing
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Sun, May 2, 2010
12:30pm Eating last of the love shaped cookies that Eva sent for Christmas- 2009, did not feel like finishing them and did not feel like throwing them away either.. about 5 months old now. EAT them with a heavy heart.
2 pm call u p Jennifer Hewitt. the Bldg mgr and told her about the notice I dropped off on Apr-29th (had called her yesterday too and left a msg) said was busy yesterday at a wedding hence could not get back to me. She said she would get the check for Jun back to me and then do a walk thru and the final process. 604613-3185
5pm party with Kaye, Igor, Mel, Asaf.
Got call from Eva from phillipines. she wanted to come for the party too. Kind of invited herself and then wanted to get a couple of her relatives too. But told her that there is a restriction on the number of people I can accommodate.
Then latter another call from menalnie who works with Eva. asking about directions.
4:30 went to super store and got 2 packs of chips and one pack of Indian snacks.
Kind of trying to figure out the best way to hand over the keys to the car for the movers to pick up. Kaye does not seem to be available on most of the dates. Muhu in Surrey seems to be the next best alternative. Or have to hand over to Asaf.... just figuring out the best way to have fun at Atlantis. OR maybe I hand over the keys on Tuesday evening and then come back from the Boss/Atlantis by the skytrain or taxi.
5:30 Kaye comes in first, Igor sends a text saying he cannot make it cause of work.
Then Call up Asaf who is oblivious to the party, and did not check Facebook. So he sets off to come. Melanie and Eva turn up too.
We start getting drunk on Merlot, the Jackson Triggis specail olympic edition, wine I got for Volunteering at the Olympics..... then the next two bottles from Oliver Twist, I wanted to take to Kerala to give to my family members... but now with the move to US and not wanting to transport the Wine all the way, I open up the other two bottles of Oliver Twist,, bottles that were signed by the owner couples. :(( and tasted good...
Latter we all get into heated drunk discussions,, starting with Greek, the gals were talking about the type of guys that they feel attracted to and how they feel attracted too. Kaye was more mature in saying that she is no longer a teen and does not go,, aww and ooohh when she sees a guy any more, but rather ends up more critically and is not attracted to them as she seems to be traumatized by the cheating of her husband..... Trust is a very delicate thing.... I feel the same, after the series of girls in my life who seem to come into it just to betray me and my sincere trust in them.
I can easily understand how she feels and what she is going thru.
Then we get into talks about sex and the idea of sex and cheating in different cultures... my argument was that thou culture plays a role in influencing, its again the individual persons preception. For some people just touching is equal to sex. for some its the full penetration and both achieving orgasm. for some oral sex is not full sex... for some kissing another while in a relationship is cheating...
around 10:30 they all leave and Kaye takes the vacum cleaner and Melanie takes the Printer.
So now only the thing remaining is the TV for Asaf and microwave for Kaye,,, guess I am just giving out 1000's of dollars worth of free stuff...
Well atleast someone gets to enjoy it and its not going to waste.
Chatted with E a bit.. again seems to get angry,, guess its her own guilty conscious of having played a game of lies and deceit thats at the crux of her not able to face her self and I kind of remind her of her Evil side. WEll atleast I am not holding anything against her, she did what she had to do for what ever she thought it was useful or worth it.
She has to learn to be honest with her self and understand all this started with her thinking that its okay to tell lies and then follow it up with a thousand lies to cover up one lie. And then her torturing me saying that I have to say sorry for calling her a lier, when all i said was how can she talk about trust when we are not even able to have a honest conversation..... well it could be that she was like I suspected ,,,, setting up for the Break up and make it all look like its my fault so that its easier for her to convince Amit about it and hook up with him..... Guess Amit turned out to be another Louis or her first Mirav who just did not fall for her crooked schemes and did not end up becoming another victim.
Am I a victim? in a way maybe, as I was so foolish to place my trust when all the red flags were all there. But I choose to ignore them. Maybe in my own way, not knowingly,, I was desperate to find love and be loved. Wanting to know that I could find connection with someone different than all the crooked cheats I met before. But... the pattern of behavior just continues.....
Or plain and simple,, all these gals come into my life so that they can have their best dreams come true,, which does not include me. Maybe I will meet a gal whos best dream is to always be with me thru thick and thin. And is fully and totally dedicated to me and my values and my way of life... A " Good Luck Chuck " that I am.
Sun, May 2, 2010
12:30pm Eating last of the love shaped cookies that Eva sent for Christmas- 2009, did not feel like finishing them and did not feel like throwing them away either.. about 5 months old now. EAT them with a heavy heart.
2 pm call u p Jennifer Hewitt. the Bldg mgr and told her about the notice I dropped off on Apr-29th (had called her yesterday too and left a msg) said was busy yesterday at a wedding hence could not get back to me. She said she would get the check for Jun back to me and then do a walk thru and the final process. 604613-3185
5pm party with Kaye, Igor, Mel, Asaf.
Got call from Eva from phillipines. she wanted to come for the party too. Kind of invited herself and then wanted to get a couple of her relatives too. But told her that there is a restriction on the number of people I can accommodate.
Then latter another call from menalnie who works with Eva. asking about directions.
4:30 went to super store and got 2 packs of chips and one pack of Indian snacks.
Kind of trying to figure out the best way to hand over the keys to the car for the movers to pick up. Kaye does not seem to be available on most of the dates. Muhu in Surrey seems to be the next best alternative. Or have to hand over to Asaf.... just figuring out the best way to have fun at Atlantis. OR maybe I hand over the keys on Tuesday evening and then come back from the Boss/Atlantis by the skytrain or taxi.
5:30 Kaye comes in first, Igor sends a text saying he cannot make it cause of work.
Then Call up Asaf who is oblivious to the party, and did not check Facebook. So he sets off to come. Melanie and Eva turn up too.
We start getting drunk on Merlot, the Jackson Triggis specail olympic edition, wine I got for Volunteering at the Olympics..... then the next two bottles from Oliver Twist, I wanted to take to Kerala to give to my family members... but now with the move to US and not wanting to transport the Wine all the way, I open up the other two bottles of Oliver Twist,, bottles that were signed by the owner couples. :(( and tasted good...
Latter we all get into heated drunk discussions,, starting with Greek, the gals were talking about the type of guys that they feel attracted to and how they feel attracted too. Kaye was more mature in saying that she is no longer a teen and does not go,, aww and ooohh when she sees a guy any more, but rather ends up more critically and is not attracted to them as she seems to be traumatized by the cheating of her husband..... Trust is a very delicate thing.... I feel the same, after the series of girls in my life who seem to come into it just to betray me and my sincere trust in them.
I can easily understand how she feels and what she is going thru.
Then we get into talks about sex and the idea of sex and cheating in different cultures... my argument was that thou culture plays a role in influencing, its again the individual persons preception. For some people just touching is equal to sex. for some its the full penetration and both achieving orgasm. for some oral sex is not full sex... for some kissing another while in a relationship is cheating...
around 10:30 they all leave and Kaye takes the vacum cleaner and Melanie takes the Printer.
So now only the thing remaining is the TV for Asaf and microwave for Kaye,,, guess I am just giving out 1000's of dollars worth of free stuff...
Well atleast someone gets to enjoy it and its not going to waste.
Chatted with E a bit.. again seems to get angry,, guess its her own guilty conscious of having played a game of lies and deceit thats at the crux of her not able to face her self and I kind of remind her of her Evil side. WEll atleast I am not holding anything against her, she did what she had to do for what ever she thought it was useful or worth it.
She has to learn to be honest with her self and understand all this started with her thinking that its okay to tell lies and then follow it up with a thousand lies to cover up one lie. And then her torturing me saying that I have to say sorry for calling her a lier, when all i said was how can she talk about trust when we are not even able to have a honest conversation..... well it could be that she was like I suspected ,,,, setting up for the Break up and make it all look like its my fault so that its easier for her to convince Amit about it and hook up with him..... Guess Amit turned out to be another Louis or her first Mirav who just did not fall for her crooked schemes and did not end up becoming another victim.
Am I a victim? in a way maybe, as I was so foolish to place my trust when all the red flags were all there. But I choose to ignore them. Maybe in my own way, not knowingly,, I was desperate to find love and be loved. Wanting to know that I could find connection with someone different than all the crooked cheats I met before. But... the pattern of behavior just continues.....
Or plain and simple,, all these gals come into my life so that they can have their best dreams come true,, which does not include me. Maybe I will meet a gal whos best dream is to always be with me thru thick and thin. And is fully and totally dedicated to me and my values and my way of life... A " Good Luck Chuck " that I am.
DAY three of packing and organizing
Sat, May 1, 2010
Day of running around.
changed Address to muhus at Costco.
Got car back in the evening,, need to do front wheel alignment.(approx $60).
Right now had the leaking radiator replaced ($300) and $200 for the front wheel upper axle connection replaced.
SANG is the best auto mechanic and the most reliable. Trust worthy.
met Kaye gave her more stuff. then had dinner with her at metro town and dropped her off
Atleast Kaye is taking the micro wave.... so everything is not lost.
around 11:10 went to Hojo
went to HOjo 11:10pm
Day of running around.
changed Address to muhus at Costco.
Got car back in the evening,, need to do front wheel alignment.(approx $60).
Right now had the leaking radiator replaced ($300) and $200 for the front wheel upper axle connection replaced.
SANG is the best auto mechanic and the most reliable. Trust worthy.
met Kaye gave her more stuff. then had dinner with her at metro town and dropped her off
Atleast Kaye is taking the micro wave.... so everything is not lost.
around 11:10 went to Hojo
went to HOjo 11:10pm
DAY two of packing and organizing
Friday, April 30, 2010
Close ICICI account
Take car for check up end up giving it to sang to fix leaking radiator and the loose upper joints of the front wheels.
Muhu comes with his family, give him one of the Wine bottles I got at the Olympics. and some stuff. blender (old one).
Asaf drops by after that, says would like to have TV and the two stands. Ask him to take the TV on Tuesday or monday with the smaller stand. He takes the bigger stand for now.
get call from lance, said will meet up at polish and as usual never keeps his word and did not turn up. well some people just are not reliable.
10:30 went to Polish hall met Soile for the last time before she gets married in june. About time she got the best of things.. poor gal went thru hell living in vancouver. Glad that things are going well for her.
Close ICICI account
Take car for check up end up giving it to sang to fix leaking radiator and the loose upper joints of the front wheels.
Muhu comes with his family, give him one of the Wine bottles I got at the Olympics. and some stuff. blender (old one).
Asaf drops by after that, says would like to have TV and the two stands. Ask him to take the TV on Tuesday or monday with the smaller stand. He takes the bigger stand for now.
get call from lance, said will meet up at polish and as usual never keeps his word and did not turn up. well some people just are not reliable.
10:30 went to Polish hall met Soile for the last time before she gets married in june. About time she got the best of things.. poor gal went thru hell living in vancouver. Glad that things are going well for her.
DAY one of packing and organizing
Thursday, April 29, 2010
went to sleep @ 2:30 - 3 which is about 5:30 6am EST.
woke up around 9pm.
Interview with Oracle @ 10am PST on Thursday the 29th of May-2010.
Brin Leitsch
Brn Leitsch | Solution Architect
Phone: 720.201.2185
Send Tax doc to Evas address.
SNP 1178, 8/
OTROKOVICE, 76502
CZECH REPUBLIC
EUROPE
went to sleep @ 2:30 - 3 which is about 5:30 6am EST.
woke up around 9pm.
went to HOjo
went to sleep @ 2:30 - 3 which is about 5:30 6am EST.
woke up around 9pm.
Interview with Oracle @ 10am PST on Thursday the 29th of May-2010.
Brin Leitsch
Brn Leitsch | Solution Architect
Phone: 720.201.2185
Send Tax doc to Evas address.
SNP 1178, 8/
OTROKOVICE, 76502
CZECH REPUBLIC
EUROPE
went to sleep @ 2:30 - 3 which is about 5:30 6am EST.
woke up around 9pm.
went to HOjo
Thursday, April 29, 2010
Day for Rush and Travel - Multi tasking
Wednesday, April 28, 2010
up
at 5am, out of bed 5:30
Got mails from the post box, kind of far to go get my mail.
But was glad that I did as I got a post card from Sara B, who sent it from Italy. So sweet and thought full of her. Had circumstances been better I would probably have dated her. But she is sweet and nice, would not want to break her heart at any cost. And its not fair as my heart is still with Eva. Thou Eva did say many times that no one will replace me and all those very many dialouges, I am now not sure, if she just said it at that moment. And like all her many boyfriends, I am just another who gets replaced after a month. Seems like she is having something going on there with Ritish Jain.
In the pics it looks like he is chasing her. And his expressions tells me he is just pursing her as just another part time entertainment. Well i did warn her once at Ossoyos about short term and long terms. Can't be there for her everytime. And now that she does not want any communication, only her own good deeds or karma will help her for becoming another wandering superficial person, who is more like the pot smoking gypsies visiting India for free sex and drugs.
did a bit of packing of my documents that I would need during the transit between . Not taking anything else. maybe get a couple of suitcases back.
Have to see how this will all turn out.
Also thanks to Sara B for the lovely Card from Italy and making me smile today.. :))) Gratzi bella bambina ! :)
hehehe,, pic of Bridge of the Devil.. Tanti Abbracciii,, !
@ work by 8am went to the shuttle pick up @ 7:30am
9:30 to 12 load testing
9:30 was at the war room ready for the attack on the load testing for Release 18 (R18). couple of cuties there. hmmm. one a blond and very sweet. the other looked like a diva.
Well after about 1 hr the testing was over with a few glitches, I would call it kind of organized chaos.
There turned out to be a bug there, that came up when the agents were replying to emails. and when the call came in did not allow the screen pop only allowed it in when the email was wrapped up.
The Avaya guy, don't know his name, kind of had an Aussie ascent.
was trying to figure out the probs at the avaya end. I on my end did not even know that the agents answered the emails.
Anyways got out of the center by 12:30 and was trying to complete the tasks at hand, calling up station sq for the chek to made out too. Then Fry wagonr for any more documentations needed, then filling up the ctsh time sheet,
and was told that the merck time sheets need to filled up too.
So checked for remote log in access, which was not there in my system. Called up help desk, Edgar in mexico city (merck mexico employee) answers the call and he remotes into my system. Takes about 1 hr before he finishes installing and then me cross-verifying.... not sure if it will work outside, can only test it latter.
Almost 2 now. need to get to the airport. ITs about 2 hrs of travelling.
Then started the race to finish the SAP CATS course. after finishing we needed 80% to qualify,, ahhh after a few attempts got 83% and sent msg to ajit.
2:10 go upto the war room and have a talk with the Avaya guy, who now seems to have something up with a partial swift of responsibility on to my plate. And when I proposed another possible resolution, he kind of tried to shoot it down with saying that it could interfere with secondary calls coming in, which I doubt is a possibility. as these people do not have the secondary call comming in or secondary ph number set up.
Anyways tell him that I am heading home and will try to work on that remotely.
2:25 rush to catch the shuttle. takes about 30 mins to reach home. The another rush to put in the check for next months rent. Then rush home pack the docs needed and have rice with yogurt and barely make it to the penbrook station.
Take transfer at market st in downtown philly to the airport train.
@ terminal D get the boarding pass and there is a huge line up for getting thru security. phew, make it past security with out an hasseles, unlike the Vancouver airport where all the security people seem to have something against Indian looking 5:45 get into the Terminal D and wait for the flight. feeling hungry, saw a voice msg from narayan reddy. Yet to get the money out for his visa processing.
call him back and leave a voice msg.
Kannan calls me up to see if I made it to the airport. that was very nice of him. There are few nice people in the world.
Got call back from narayan and scolding me for not having taken the money he offered. :(
Got into the Air jazz plane, for the first time in my life I had a very pretty gal sitting besides me wearing mini skirts. Cute smile and looked like a bookish gal. great sexy legs, must be well maintained. still like evas legs over hers. But this gal I am sure had a head shower every day, cause her hairs looked wel maintained too. Then on top of all that saw the ring on her ring finger. awww the good ones are always taken.
For the connecting flight it was a race. It was at 10:45 and for some reason after I landed there I thought it was already 10:15, when it was only 9:15. Raced thru customs, got stopped for not fully filling it up, twice... kind of did not see the boxes that needed to be filled.
then the run to the terminal. Getting past the security check again. But this time got into the nexus pass lane and was granted faster access. More time cause I was traveling with two lap tops.
Go have a beer and slowly de-stress now that I am out of US soil.
Then was the 1st to board the flight... long haul. And again there is a pretty chinese gal from Toronto besides me, who turns out to be a long distance runner and is going for meeting her cousins and particepate in the mini-marathon about 22 kms....wow.
Then another surprise, she dances salsa.. mama mio.
Get to watch TV onboard and thanks to the hands free by Apple's iphone, I get to hear the dialogues too, unlike Cathay, not many give out head sets for free.
up
at 5am, out of bed 5:30
Got mails from the post box, kind of far to go get my mail.
But was glad that I did as I got a post card from Sara B, who sent it from Italy. So sweet and thought full of her. Had circumstances been better I would probably have dated her. But she is sweet and nice, would not want to break her heart at any cost. And its not fair as my heart is still with Eva. Thou Eva did say many times that no one will replace me and all those very many dialouges, I am now not sure, if she just said it at that moment. And like all her many boyfriends, I am just another who gets replaced after a month. Seems like she is having something going on there with Ritish Jain.
In the pics it looks like he is chasing her. And his expressions tells me he is just pursing her as just another part time entertainment. Well i did warn her once at Ossoyos about short term and long terms. Can't be there for her everytime. And now that she does not want any communication, only her own good deeds or karma will help her for becoming another wandering superficial person, who is more like the pot smoking gypsies visiting India for free sex and drugs.
did a bit of packing of my documents that I would need during the transit between . Not taking anything else. maybe get a couple of suitcases back.
Have to see how this will all turn out.
Also thanks to Sara B for the lovely Card from Italy and making me smile today.. :))) Gratzi bella bambina ! :)
hehehe,, pic of Bridge of the Devil.. Tanti Abbracciii,, !
@ work by 8am went to the shuttle pick up @ 7:30am
9:30 to 12 load testing
9:30 was at the war room ready for the attack on the load testing for Release 18 (R18). couple of cuties there. hmmm. one a blond and very sweet. the other looked like a diva.
Well after about 1 hr the testing was over with a few glitches, I would call it kind of organized chaos.
There turned out to be a bug there, that came up when the agents were replying to emails. and when the call came in did not allow the screen pop only allowed it in when the email was wrapped up.
The Avaya guy, don't know his name, kind of had an Aussie ascent.
was trying to figure out the probs at the avaya end. I on my end did not even know that the agents answered the emails.
Anyways got out of the center by 12:30 and was trying to complete the tasks at hand, calling up station sq for the chek to made out too. Then Fry wagonr for any more documentations needed, then filling up the ctsh time sheet,
and was told that the merck time sheets need to filled up too.
So checked for remote log in access, which was not there in my system. Called up help desk, Edgar in mexico city (merck mexico employee) answers the call and he remotes into my system. Takes about 1 hr before he finishes installing and then me cross-verifying.... not sure if it will work outside, can only test it latter.
Almost 2 now. need to get to the airport. ITs about 2 hrs of travelling.
Then started the race to finish the SAP CATS course. after finishing we needed 80% to qualify,, ahhh after a few attempts got 83% and sent msg to ajit.
2:10 go upto the war room and have a talk with the Avaya guy, who now seems to have something up with a partial swift of responsibility on to my plate. And when I proposed another possible resolution, he kind of tried to shoot it down with saying that it could interfere with secondary calls coming in, which I doubt is a possibility. as these people do not have the secondary call comming in or secondary ph number set up.
Anyways tell him that I am heading home and will try to work on that remotely.
2:25 rush to catch the shuttle. takes about 30 mins to reach home. The another rush to put in the check for next months rent. Then rush home pack the docs needed and have rice with yogurt and barely make it to the penbrook station.
Take transfer at market st in downtown philly to the airport train.
@ terminal D get the boarding pass and there is a huge line up for getting thru security. phew, make it past security with out an hasseles, unlike the Vancouver airport where all the security people seem to have something against Indian looking 5:45 get into the Terminal D and wait for the flight. feeling hungry, saw a voice msg from narayan reddy. Yet to get the money out for his visa processing.
call him back and leave a voice msg.
Kannan calls me up to see if I made it to the airport. that was very nice of him. There are few nice people in the world.
Got call back from narayan and scolding me for not having taken the money he offered. :(
Got into the Air jazz plane, for the first time in my life I had a very pretty gal sitting besides me wearing mini skirts. Cute smile and looked like a bookish gal. great sexy legs, must be well maintained. still like evas legs over hers. But this gal I am sure had a head shower every day, cause her hairs looked wel maintained too. Then on top of all that saw the ring on her ring finger. awww the good ones are always taken.
For the connecting flight it was a race. It was at 10:45 and for some reason after I landed there I thought it was already 10:15, when it was only 9:15. Raced thru customs, got stopped for not fully filling it up, twice... kind of did not see the boxes that needed to be filled.
then the run to the terminal. Getting past the security check again. But this time got into the nexus pass lane and was granted faster access. More time cause I was traveling with two lap tops.
Go have a beer and slowly de-stress now that I am out of US soil.
Then was the 1st to board the flight... long haul. And again there is a pretty chinese gal from Toronto besides me, who turns out to be a long distance runner and is going for meeting her cousins and particepate in the mini-marathon about 22 kms....wow.
Then another surprise, she dances salsa.. mama mio.
Get to watch TV onboard and thanks to the hands free by Apple's iphone, I get to hear the dialogues too, unlike Cathay, not many give out head sets for free.
Tuesday, April 27, 2010
Happy day
Tuesday, April 27, 2010
After going to sleep early yesterday, it felt nice to wake up at 5am and be at work by 7:50. Had taken the 7:30 shuttle.
Felt nice reading Evas quote for the day. ""The body is your tool, the mind is your identity, the soul is you and the whole world within. All three are essential and all three need to be nurtured every day.""
So true, we often get focused on improving one area we tend to forget the other. And then the on going temptations of the modern world. Mostly TV, but again the amount of information one gains is also tremendus, which if not exposed to would lead to ignorance..... again a catch 22 scenario.
How does one bring about a balance here? that is an on going scenario of self improvement in every ones life...
Afternoon took the shuttle to the bank closer to my house and got my checkbook, which was forwarded from the branch I opened the account at on Sunday.
Then went to the PC center for getting the Hard disk they had taken for imaging. They said that they have it ready and so went there again with my work lap top. Only to have the lady say that my hard disk is showing 100% free, that means all the data is lost.
Bummer.... so had to come back and start with the fresh installation of softwares....
Not sure why I am kind of facing so many obstructions. now not really keen on moving to India either. Got to see what in store,,,,, Even the plan to travel in India with Eva has wiped out now that she seems to be in love with another guy. Wonder what happend to Amit. Did he also turn her down like Louis? She seemed pretty pissed at him. And on with Ritish Jain. Good for her to be able to change guys so frequently. well how she does it only she knows. Atleast I cannot think of going for another for a long time to come.
Guess she is an expert now at switching from one guy to another. All the signs were already there. Just that I let my self be fooled into believing that there is something special there and that she was different from the other gals. And with parents from both sides involved, I let myself into it deeper. IT had to happen to teach me something.
Really interested to see how and where her life will take her and where mine will take.. But deep inside I really wish her the best and hope she finds true love and happiness in her life all along and what ever she chooses .... Thou feel and want it to have happened between us. But I guess there is too much of personalty clash on my end to tolerate the feelings of Jealousy that I would feel when I see my women kiss some other guy on the lips.
Don't think that is something I could live with.,, the constant feelings of someone hitting me in the stomach every time she kisses some guy on the lips..... naww too much for me to handle.
Hopefully she finds some guy who meets her specification.
And hopefully its someone she really loves and not just some guy she chooses based on that guy meeting some qualifying parameters.
Hope she realises that love is something deeper than just meeting the qualifying standards and requirements.... its much deeper and from the bottom of the heart.
Guess I was lucky in a way to know that I was capable and I am capable of loving someone very deeply and letting myself be open to hurt and let myself be hurt repeatedly.... all in the name of love.
:)
But then the questions,
why did we end up together if we were not ment to be ?
why did we have to go thru the pain of expectations and hope crashing down?
oh why why why?
if it was not ment to be, why did circumstance bring us together in such a magical way.
It was like everything was falling into place at the right moment and leading us to be together. Thou many times I just wanted to pull back and was hurt on the way cause of her thought less actions or was it her own little girl naivety. Yet everytime I was pulling back, got sucked into it with greater force.
Ahhhhh why is life so confusing.
After going to sleep early yesterday, it felt nice to wake up at 5am and be at work by 7:50. Had taken the 7:30 shuttle.
Felt nice reading Evas quote for the day. ""The body is your tool, the mind is your identity, the soul is you and the whole world within. All three are essential and all three need to be nurtured every day.""
So true, we often get focused on improving one area we tend to forget the other. And then the on going temptations of the modern world. Mostly TV, but again the amount of information one gains is also tremendus, which if not exposed to would lead to ignorance..... again a catch 22 scenario.
How does one bring about a balance here? that is an on going scenario of self improvement in every ones life...
Afternoon took the shuttle to the bank closer to my house and got my checkbook, which was forwarded from the branch I opened the account at on Sunday.
Then went to the PC center for getting the Hard disk they had taken for imaging. They said that they have it ready and so went there again with my work lap top. Only to have the lady say that my hard disk is showing 100% free, that means all the data is lost.
Bummer.... so had to come back and start with the fresh installation of softwares....
Not sure why I am kind of facing so many obstructions. now not really keen on moving to India either. Got to see what in store,,,,, Even the plan to travel in India with Eva has wiped out now that she seems to be in love with another guy. Wonder what happend to Amit. Did he also turn her down like Louis? She seemed pretty pissed at him. And on with Ritish Jain. Good for her to be able to change guys so frequently. well how she does it only she knows. Atleast I cannot think of going for another for a long time to come.
Guess she is an expert now at switching from one guy to another. All the signs were already there. Just that I let my self be fooled into believing that there is something special there and that she was different from the other gals. And with parents from both sides involved, I let myself into it deeper. IT had to happen to teach me something.
Really interested to see how and where her life will take her and where mine will take.. But deep inside I really wish her the best and hope she finds true love and happiness in her life all along and what ever she chooses .... Thou feel and want it to have happened between us. But I guess there is too much of personalty clash on my end to tolerate the feelings of Jealousy that I would feel when I see my women kiss some other guy on the lips.
Don't think that is something I could live with.,, the constant feelings of someone hitting me in the stomach every time she kisses some guy on the lips..... naww too much for me to handle.
Hopefully she finds some guy who meets her specification.
And hopefully its someone she really loves and not just some guy she chooses based on that guy meeting some qualifying parameters.
Hope she realises that love is something deeper than just meeting the qualifying standards and requirements.... its much deeper and from the bottom of the heart.
Guess I was lucky in a way to know that I was capable and I am capable of loving someone very deeply and letting myself be open to hurt and let myself be hurt repeatedly.... all in the name of love.
:)
But then the questions,
why did we end up together if we were not ment to be ?
why did we have to go thru the pain of expectations and hope crashing down?
oh why why why?
if it was not ment to be, why did circumstance bring us together in such a magical way.
It was like everything was falling into place at the right moment and leading us to be together. Thou many times I just wanted to pull back and was hurt on the way cause of her thought less actions or was it her own little girl naivety. Yet everytime I was pulling back, got sucked into it with greater force.
Ahhhhh why is life so confusing.
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