Monday, Sep 27 2010
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4 more days to trip to Spain. Anticipation building up. not sure what to expect, don't know the language, don't know anyone there.
Just going there on a fancy after getting de-motivated by not been able to make the trip to Czech.
was so looking forward to meeting and experiencing Czech after hearing so much about the sweet lil place called Othrokovice. But things happen and people give us attitude which does not go with good hospitality. Then why would one want to go to places where one is not welcomed. Rather made to feel like an enemy.
so I Rather go to places where one is made to feel welcomed.
Well thats life, some people make big claims about their culture at every possible opportunity, a culture that they themselves don't hold highly in regard and are constantly looking to adopt someone elses culture,, hehehe.. funny and with out any logic is some peoples thinking.
The worst part is changing the values of ones culture to suit the needs of the moment and fancy full thinking. Well people tend to be fools and will always be lying to themselves and surely to others with out any deepth in their superficial life.
Its like painting a house in bright attractive colors that is construted with bad material and bad foundation. Soon the venere of superficialy will collapse and the house will crumble.
Its just sad and painful to watch someone you love end up been so blind and oblivious to what we tell them or try to communicate with them. More because of their own self centered ego that prevents them from feeling any sense of humbleness more greared towards arrogance and selfishness.
There is only so much you can do. Then have to harden your heart and move on. It was not ment to happen. Just have to be more careful about my choices going foward. Thou the child like innocence and sincerity in me has taken a beating with all the cruel words and hurt from been at the receiving end of someone elses thoughtless and selfish behavior.
Cheers to lifes for its hard lessons.
Lessons learnt by analysing and understanding the past, revealing with each new day a new understanding. Never to forget the past lessons. Which helps in the main function of Understanding. Because lessons are okay, but not of much use, if we do not analyze and understand the lesson. And with each passing day when we look back at various lessons and experiences, we have a whole new understanding. That I belive is whats called Evolution of thoughts and understanding.
Got to work late around 8:20 which is still early. now its 9:20am and yet I am the only one in the room. :)
Called up anup to make him the beneficiary of my 401
He is going to Italy around Oct10 for a week along with Smitha. So both of us will be in Europe at the same time.
Had biriyani for lunch. with chicken manchurian indian style.
Then meditated for 30 mins. must have been really weak. As I passed out.
So now should I go to Vango for one last dance before heading out to Europe. Does not feel that enthusiastic going there alone. but lets see the people I got to know in the group. How it works out. Go with an open mind. But now it does not feel that enthuisiastic or any kind of build up anticipation. Kind of feels hallow, rather not something I would like to do on my own. Well this should be an experience for me to do something on my own. Used to been a team player, now I need to see how well I can do things on my own in a foreign country that i have no knowledge of language, place or culture.
lets see what Guilia has to say about this.
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