Sep 20, Monday. Fever and Struggling with focus

Monday Sep 20 2010
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Monday,, start of new week and day. Was a struggle getting up, as I feel that I did not have a week end at all. After the long ride to Allentown on Sat for the training.

Sunday was spent on scrubbing the washroom and vaccuming the house. Wanted to cook but.

anyways made it to work around 7:10am feeling feverish and coughing. Damm don't want to fall sick before the trip.

Around 10 went out with the guys for Coffee at Dunkin dougnuts. Thought I was feeling low cause of that. But even after coffee, feel low energy and a bit undercurrent of sickness.

Should stop commenting on evas blogs and even reading it. As she does not seem to interested in replying or acknowledging my comments or opinions. Have to harden my heart and feelings towards people who treat me like wise.

Just have to be more care ful with who I choose to let my sincere feeling for. And stop wasting my time and energy focusing on people their life, who have shown that they do not deserve any of it.

Pondering on the anonymous mail I got from someone name monica. saying that she lives close by and may want to talk over the phone and that she is interested in learning new languages and has an online language learning going on. First mail she said she was in italy for 15 years and the 2nd mail she said 12 years.

kind of have a fishy feeling about her intentions as she does not seem to reveal exactly where near lansdale she lives, just too vauge ???!! red flag.

Lunch was at Chipotle,, spicy and yummy mexican food.

Got back was still feeling under the weather. not able to focus or even try to do some online course.

Got out of work around 5 and headed home. tried to sleep but feeling restless. Tried to mediate but again not able to focus.!!??

Should I go to vango my fav place to dance for free tonite?