Saturday, Aug 28 2010
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wake up still sleepy and tired from a week of traveling and trying to adjust back form the Texas heat to warmth of philly, got to clean up the house of sensitive documents.
The weather looks great outside.
Was also debating on meeting Eva in czech, with the hostile angry way she is behaving.
Why would I want any help or anything with her with that attitude towards me. Whats the point in meeting her parents when she is going to behave like a sick in the head angry person towards me. Not a good situation to go into. Rather I go to Spain and then go with the flow and if she likes she can join me and I would like that too to be in neutral territory we meet and get over this negativity.
It looks like she has not changed at all. She is still the same, self centered, superficial, insensitive,I am a diva, i am too good to be your friend person.
Just have to give it to the friends who said that I am living a foolishness, I am fooling myself into believing that with the Indian experience her attitude would change and she would become more of a team player, as her blog seems to suggest. But the basic instincts just remain. Or is she just fooling herself to avoid facing the guilt of her own actions.
Well i guess she has to grow more to realize that its better to accept with honesty the wrongs she did than try to blame someone else.
Anyways its her life, I have to try and get my head off been concerned about her and stop hurting myself.
ookaaayyy day of kayaking the peace valley, hiking, Vino tasting in the Vino yard (wine yard) .... cheers and maybe some salsa at the end of the day.
Called up home, talked with mom and dad, was having a hard time convincing dad, who wanted me to just come soon and get married. was trying to tell him that I could not come as I do not have enough leave.
Then latter malini comes, her dad calls her up and I could understand the turmoil she is going thru with the questions from her dad.
After she tasted my ginger tea, we started off.
When we were getting out of the appartment complex.... An old man backed into me. Nothing seems to have been damaged visually.
Thou he admitted his mistake, he seemed to be reluctant to give me his drivers license or registration..... only after I got a bit serious, did he show me his license. William,,, thou he told me his name is bill.
Malini latter told me that william is commonly knows as bill.... it was a bit traumatizing. But as the day went by the shock of the image of some ones car backing up into mine was going down.
Then we went to paneera for mailini to grab something to eat. And To PEACE Valley it was.... again a gorgeous view.
Had to wait for few mins before we got the double kayak. hehehehehe and both of don't know to swim. just the trust in the old worn out life jacket.
One of my best days yet.. peace valley and kayaking about 3 hrs around the peaceful lake and for the first time in my life saw deers, swans, heron and many other birds, I always only saw in pics. It was like a movie in 3D and live with the pleasant breeze blowing and cloudless sky shining in its glorious brightness.
We even sat in the middle of all the peace and calmness and mediated for some time. it was such an awesome feeling.
Talking lots of stuff about life, each others history, psychology of men and women.
Ended the night with Vino and Italian pasta with chicken something.
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