Aug 27 Friday,

Friday, Aug 27 2010
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Dalai Lama:
Despair is never a solution, it is the ultimate failure. In Tibetan we say, “if the rope breaks nine times, we must splice it together a tenth time”.
Even if ultimately we do fail, at least we will have no feelings of regret. And when we combine this insight with a clear appreciation of our potential to benefit others, we can begin to restore our hope and confidence.


Got to thank people for making me feel proud of myself and helping me realize how deeply I can LOVE..... wow guess not even in story books have I come across my dedication and sincerity...... I am really feeling happy at realizing the depth of my ability in a relationship.

And also realize that maybe nature is making sure that the people who do not deserve it DON't get it and pushing them away from me :).,.... Thank you god and nature and the whole Universe for what ever you are doing.

Thinking of the song I heard a few days ago, "I thank god for all the unanswered prayers" :)

Wake up by 4:30 with the hope of getting to work by 6:30 and starting off with the Knowledge transfer to sweta. But was not able to get out of bed. Was thinking thru the conversation with Malini yesterday night.

About cheating and how she thinks its a man thing been a victim and also one who ended up doing it and learning from her own past mistake.

Atleast she made an attempt to own up to her mistakes. thats a good thing.
Not many people are able to be honest with them selves about it. And would rather try and lie more about it to themselves and then make the victim in it look like they were the ones who are the Villians.

hahaha. How foolish can some people get. Its like some people who claim and show how spiritual they are, quote great words from scriptures , Buddha, dalai lama, Gita, Bible, Zen, ,,, and when it comes to practicing any of it, HUGE GAP. Suddenly showing how superficial they are.

Same way when they face with the reality of bad their actions, instead of been honest with themself, they rather get angry and try to blame others. Easiest and more a basic instinct of reaction.

I really would love to see how some peoples life turn out. Thou so far from my brief observation I have only seen them keep repeating the same pattern of behavior from one relationship to another.

And as Ajay so righty said, he found his lady friends who confide in him about their relationship, just saying or claiming that now they have matured and then again end up doing the same mistakes. Its like they are still the same person, but no real change in attitude.
Same thing I noticed with Del. She was showing the same traits when she wanted to move from her guy to another, she showed the same traits, even the words matched with what Eva did.

Ohhhh god, its like all these women seem to have it hard wired in them, or how else could it be so much of similarity in the actions and words.
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Talking about superficiality,,,,,
No heart. just the outter body.

Just like many people who dance, some just perform and they perform for the attention from others. And then there are ones who just dance for the love of it and enjoying the moment.

Seems to be common trend, once people get on to stage and perform, they get addicted to the brief attention. And they can never let it go. So many I keep seeing time after time, city after city, people starting off learning and enjoying and then as soon as they start getting into the performace mode, the high , the rush and the feeling of power gets to their head and they are lost. No more heart in their social dancing.
Biggest issue afflicting the politicians in power and also the Stars of the Movies.

On monday even I had the same experience of people clapping and cheering on the merengue, that girl Jordana I danced with (seems very nice and down to earth), has now become so high and hooked after the attention she got after the dance. Me too, had to cool my own ego off by sitting out at the back for an hour. And this was a social dance, so I can imagine the rush of high after a great performance on stage. That rush and the addiction to the attention is much higher. And me again been a shy guy , after the attention winning social dance, just went to the back of the crowd and stayed there for about 1 hr. not venturing on to the dance floor.

Just got a call from narayan concerned about his wife and baby landing unexpectedly in mumbai instead of hyderbad. Poor guy is not able to sleep since yesterday. Guess its an indian thing of been concerned about people we love.

saw eva on the google chat, wanted to ask her about the immigration in mumbai airport,,,, again she seems to be showing hostile attitude, wondering if I even want to take any help from someone with that attitude.

12 to 2 farewel party at the Thai restaurant for ashi
yummy coconut milk chicken curry.. just like in kerala.

3 to 4 QC meeting

Evening get out, called up malini and left a msg, got call back latter saying that she is too tired to make it to salsa and wanted to go kayaking at peace valley and will be coming to my house and so we can both go.

Called up tara and left a msg if she would be interested in going to salsa.

Talked with anil and then narayan for sometime. narayans family reached Hyd safely. :)

off to salsa now and peacevalley hiking and kayaing tomorrow. :)
Then hiking again at Princeton near malanis house.. gosh week ends are becoming malini dates.

Salsa was okay, got to meet a sweet gal Maureen and her friend, who were constantly looking and me and smiling. A smile that one gives a person when they have know them for quite a long time, a smile of understanding acknowledgement. Not able to place them. Where did I see them before?
But really warmed my heart to the many smiles I got from them and the constant eye contact across the room. Maureen was really good looking and had she smelled good, what ever perfume she used, it was really good.