Tuesday , Aug 31 2010
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After a great monday night out salsa dancing at the Vango, was finding it tough to get up. Danced with all a bunch of people, mostly got asked by others to dance than me asking any.
Still feel my confidence and self esteem is at its low after the way Eva has been behaving/behaved with me. With me making efforts to smooth out the negativeity and her only trying to focus on just the negativitiy.
Well i tired like no man has ever, if she is just showing to me and her self that what she tries to show the outter world as a person into all kinds of philosophical and positive reading and posting on the blog and then goes on to the opposite of what she writes, then for sure she is not really who she portrays herself to be. Even to her self.
and like a fool instead of just ignoring sick people, I tend to get more concerned and want to do good to someone who is just ungrateful for all that I have done and sacrificed. Maybe its because I care too much,,,,, have to learn to care less for such people. But again the argument comes up, they are part of your life and you choose to take a chance. Is it bad on my own character to give up easily?..... or should I be as cold hearted as them?
It surely is affecting my own self-esteem and I am taking in her negative energy and looking at myself as a bad person. When in fact its the other way around, she is the one who is negative and still swimming in all kinds of fake, shallow, superficial show off state of mind.
Sure all her travel is great conversation material and to be made to feel great about it by people who are not into traveling to exotic places. Other than that, how can there be any spiritual growth when the foundation on which one is doing the travel is based on trying to just show off to less fortunate people.
As someone said, its " A real man doesn't love a million girls. He loves one girl in a million ways."
Thats also true to what ever one does, its does not matter how many different places in the world we travel in, as long as we can find happiness in one place, that is what matters. And that one place is within us, not at different places in the world.
So the same thing applies to me, I have to focus on my own happiness instead of trying to feel happy by trying to make someone else happy. All my actions seem to be try to please others and then feel happy if they are happy. And end up pushing my own requirements and happiness to the back.
Have to get back to focusing on my own self, appreciate all the good people with their positive energy and feel better about my own self worth and do good.
7:10 got on the issue of logging on to the test machines with Sweta. was over by 9am.
Got to pay rent, bills, ,,, send mail to vaughn systems.
Got msg from Aji regaring negotiating with Sangi for my leave. Looks like Sep10th is a no go as there is SIT (system integration test) starting for 2 weeks from Sep13. :(
Best possible dates seem to be latter on. need to now check to see flights and climate. don't want to go in any snowy conditions.
Got to decide, is it going to be just spain or just Czech? given evas attitude of treating me like an enemy, don't feel comfortable going there and then having to face the hostile behavior. Rather go alone and enjoy by my own.
around 11:40 got msg from Ajay about going out for dosa at dosa hut :) wanted to go home and get the docs and pay the rent. decicded to go for dosa and latter came back and around 2:10 went home. got the docs.
Send mail to Vaughn about new dates request and sorry for the earlier one on Sep 12.
Back to office and meeting around 3pm-4.
off work after sending in the Expense report and sheets to Prida .. then send fax for the receiptes to be uploaded via the system
Wanted to go out running, but was so lost, fell on to the couch after eating and woke up around 12.
Getting lazy and stressed out about this Euro trip. Had sent out email to Vaughn regarding new possible dates. Have to wait for approval again before making the next move.
Tuesday, August 31, 2010
Monday, August 30, 2010
Aug 30 Monday,,,, effects of Cheese
Monday, Aug 30 - 2010
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Had troubled sleep at night with the effects of Cheese-Nachos from yesterday. Guess I am not built for eating cheese. :()
Today with sangi and kris coming back from vacation, I get to know where I stand as regards to the Euro vacation.
got into work around 7:05..... sweta was ready there pinging me, she seemed to be in a happy mood.
8:45 finised showing her the mystries of conf transfer, blind transfer.
Sent out Cogs time sheets. prepared ones for the 15th of next month.
Feeling really bad in the stomach,, so went and got myself Tea and put in lot of lemon in it. Hoping that will break up all the greasy cheese.
Just remember call from balaji and not been able to return his call, should call him today. Was too lost in the beauty of Princeton Univ. to make the call.
Sent msg to Aji reminding him about leave.
Got call from Nar saying about his baby and her acclimatizing to Indian conditions.
Then an heartly talk with anil and during the talk I just completed a in-house course of cogs. got 2 hrs of learning credit in 30 mins hehehe;)
3 to 4 meeting sangi was there. after the meeting went and met Aji again regarding the holidays. But was not able to get any definitive dates. And Sangi saying that System Integration Testing was starting on 13th for 2 weeks. got to see if I can get atleast after that.
Called up malini for salsa and had a blast dancing ... got asked more than asking to dance. especially dancing with Marsha. She is so easy to lead. She kept saying that I should not sit, I should be dancing... hehehe.. I like her encouragement.
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Had troubled sleep at night with the effects of Cheese-Nachos from yesterday. Guess I am not built for eating cheese. :()
Today with sangi and kris coming back from vacation, I get to know where I stand as regards to the Euro vacation.
got into work around 7:05..... sweta was ready there pinging me, she seemed to be in a happy mood.
8:45 finised showing her the mystries of conf transfer, blind transfer.
Sent out Cogs time sheets. prepared ones for the 15th of next month.
Feeling really bad in the stomach,, so went and got myself Tea and put in lot of lemon in it. Hoping that will break up all the greasy cheese.
Just remember call from balaji and not been able to return his call, should call him today. Was too lost in the beauty of Princeton Univ. to make the call.
Sent msg to Aji reminding him about leave.
Got call from Nar saying about his baby and her acclimatizing to Indian conditions.
Then an heartly talk with anil and during the talk I just completed a in-house course of cogs. got 2 hrs of learning credit in 30 mins hehehe;)
3 to 4 meeting sangi was there. after the meeting went and met Aji again regarding the holidays. But was not able to get any definitive dates. And Sangi saying that System Integration Testing was starting on 13th for 2 weeks. got to see if I can get atleast after that.
Called up malini for salsa and had a blast dancing ... got asked more than asking to dance. especially dancing with Marsha. She is so easy to lead. She kept saying that I should not sit, I should be dancing... hehehe.. I like her encouragement.
Sunday, August 29, 2010
Aug 29 2010 , Mountain Lake & Art At Princeton
Sunday, 29th Aug 2010
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Wake up around 7:30am thinking I am going to be late for the hike in Princeton. Hike is at 10:45am, about an hrs drive, so was okay.
Just have to start off by 9am.
Should be interesting hike as malini told me that she was going to introduce me to Hyderabadi biriyani after the hike.
Would like to go the Alchemist & Barrister with the group for beer and eats after. As it was a nice place and very accommodating, waitress last time we were there.
lets see how it feels as the day progress. Biriyani or European food.
Wow what a day it was... the Great week-ennd
Got to the hiking and was greated by people, obviously they all missed me. :) from last weekend.
awww it was touching.
Reached Princeton University, New Jersey around 10:30 just about the end of gas in my car. It was a very pleasant hike, got talking with Kelly and Mariola from poland.
Then around 2pm we went to the Art Muesuem of Princeton University, had lots of painting and other historical facts and statues from Roman period.
After that we all went to Alchemist and Barristas for Lunch.. was sitting at a table with 4 ladies and they so very educated me on the operas, broadway shows, classics and woooo it was so very intellectually stimulating. Was given advice on what to look out for in Europe,,,so much contradicting Evas stories about Europe or the glossy part she just selectively choose to reveal and criticize all India as been filled with Cheats... damm @#$%^
Then there were a few touching moments with Malini, Sidney sure was happy to see her. She is really a very Classy gal. So full of confidence and very intelligent and worldly knowledgeable.
Got back home around 7pm with my iPhones battery going dead and lossing my way once on the highway. ended up taking 1 north instead of 1 south.
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Wake up around 7:30am thinking I am going to be late for the hike in Princeton. Hike is at 10:45am, about an hrs drive, so was okay.
Just have to start off by 9am.
Should be interesting hike as malini told me that she was going to introduce me to Hyderabadi biriyani after the hike.
Would like to go the Alchemist & Barrister with the group for beer and eats after. As it was a nice place and very accommodating, waitress last time we were there.
lets see how it feels as the day progress. Biriyani or European food.
Wow what a day it was... the Great week-ennd
Got to the hiking and was greated by people, obviously they all missed me. :) from last weekend.
awww it was touching.
Reached Princeton University, New Jersey around 10:30 just about the end of gas in my car. It was a very pleasant hike, got talking with Kelly and Mariola from poland.
Then around 2pm we went to the Art Muesuem of Princeton University, had lots of painting and other historical facts and statues from Roman period.
After that we all went to Alchemist and Barristas for Lunch.. was sitting at a table with 4 ladies and they so very educated me on the operas, broadway shows, classics and woooo it was so very intellectually stimulating. Was given advice on what to look out for in Europe,,,so much contradicting Evas stories about Europe or the glossy part she just selectively choose to reveal and criticize all India as been filled with Cheats... damm @#$%^
Then there were a few touching moments with Malini, Sidney sure was happy to see her. She is really a very Classy gal. So full of confidence and very intelligent and worldly knowledgeable.
Got back home around 7pm with my iPhones battery going dead and lossing my way once on the highway. ended up taking 1 north instead of 1 south.
Saturday, August 28, 2010
Aug 28 2010 , malini, Kayaking, hiking, accident
Saturday, Aug 28 2010
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wake up still sleepy and tired from a week of traveling and trying to adjust back form the Texas heat to warmth of philly, got to clean up the house of sensitive documents.
The weather looks great outside.
Was also debating on meeting Eva in czech, with the hostile angry way she is behaving.
Why would I want any help or anything with her with that attitude towards me. Whats the point in meeting her parents when she is going to behave like a sick in the head angry person towards me. Not a good situation to go into. Rather I go to Spain and then go with the flow and if she likes she can join me and I would like that too to be in neutral territory we meet and get over this negativity.
It looks like she has not changed at all. She is still the same, self centered, superficial, insensitive,I am a diva, i am too good to be your friend person.
Just have to give it to the friends who said that I am living a foolishness, I am fooling myself into believing that with the Indian experience her attitude would change and she would become more of a team player, as her blog seems to suggest. But the basic instincts just remain. Or is she just fooling herself to avoid facing the guilt of her own actions.
Well i guess she has to grow more to realize that its better to accept with honesty the wrongs she did than try to blame someone else.
Anyways its her life, I have to try and get my head off been concerned about her and stop hurting myself.
ookaaayyy day of kayaking the peace valley, hiking, Vino tasting in the Vino yard (wine yard) .... cheers and maybe some salsa at the end of the day.
Called up home, talked with mom and dad, was having a hard time convincing dad, who wanted me to just come soon and get married. was trying to tell him that I could not come as I do not have enough leave.
Then latter malini comes, her dad calls her up and I could understand the turmoil she is going thru with the questions from her dad.
After she tasted my ginger tea, we started off.
When we were getting out of the appartment complex.... An old man backed into me. Nothing seems to have been damaged visually.
Thou he admitted his mistake, he seemed to be reluctant to give me his drivers license or registration..... only after I got a bit serious, did he show me his license. William,,, thou he told me his name is bill.
Malini latter told me that william is commonly knows as bill.... it was a bit traumatizing. But as the day went by the shock of the image of some ones car backing up into mine was going down.
Then we went to paneera for mailini to grab something to eat. And To PEACE Valley it was.... again a gorgeous view.
Had to wait for few mins before we got the double kayak. hehehehehe and both of don't know to swim. just the trust in the old worn out life jacket.
One of my best days yet.. peace valley and kayaking about 3 hrs around the peaceful lake and for the first time in my life saw deers, swans, heron and many other birds, I always only saw in pics. It was like a movie in 3D and live with the pleasant breeze blowing and cloudless sky shining in its glorious brightness.
We even sat in the middle of all the peace and calmness and mediated for some time. it was such an awesome feeling.
Talking lots of stuff about life, each others history, psychology of men and women.
Ended the night with Vino and Italian pasta with chicken something.
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wake up still sleepy and tired from a week of traveling and trying to adjust back form the Texas heat to warmth of philly, got to clean up the house of sensitive documents.
The weather looks great outside.
Was also debating on meeting Eva in czech, with the hostile angry way she is behaving.
Why would I want any help or anything with her with that attitude towards me. Whats the point in meeting her parents when she is going to behave like a sick in the head angry person towards me. Not a good situation to go into. Rather I go to Spain and then go with the flow and if she likes she can join me and I would like that too to be in neutral territory we meet and get over this negativity.
It looks like she has not changed at all. She is still the same, self centered, superficial, insensitive,I am a diva, i am too good to be your friend person.
Just have to give it to the friends who said that I am living a foolishness, I am fooling myself into believing that with the Indian experience her attitude would change and she would become more of a team player, as her blog seems to suggest. But the basic instincts just remain. Or is she just fooling herself to avoid facing the guilt of her own actions.
Well i guess she has to grow more to realize that its better to accept with honesty the wrongs she did than try to blame someone else.
Anyways its her life, I have to try and get my head off been concerned about her and stop hurting myself.
ookaaayyy day of kayaking the peace valley, hiking, Vino tasting in the Vino yard (wine yard) .... cheers and maybe some salsa at the end of the day.
Called up home, talked with mom and dad, was having a hard time convincing dad, who wanted me to just come soon and get married. was trying to tell him that I could not come as I do not have enough leave.
Then latter malini comes, her dad calls her up and I could understand the turmoil she is going thru with the questions from her dad.
After she tasted my ginger tea, we started off.
When we were getting out of the appartment complex.... An old man backed into me. Nothing seems to have been damaged visually.
Thou he admitted his mistake, he seemed to be reluctant to give me his drivers license or registration..... only after I got a bit serious, did he show me his license. William,,, thou he told me his name is bill.
Malini latter told me that william is commonly knows as bill.... it was a bit traumatizing. But as the day went by the shock of the image of some ones car backing up into mine was going down.
Then we went to paneera for mailini to grab something to eat. And To PEACE Valley it was.... again a gorgeous view.
Had to wait for few mins before we got the double kayak. hehehehehe and both of don't know to swim. just the trust in the old worn out life jacket.
One of my best days yet.. peace valley and kayaking about 3 hrs around the peaceful lake and for the first time in my life saw deers, swans, heron and many other birds, I always only saw in pics. It was like a movie in 3D and live with the pleasant breeze blowing and cloudless sky shining in its glorious brightness.
We even sat in the middle of all the peace and calmness and mediated for some time. it was such an awesome feeling.
Talking lots of stuff about life, each others history, psychology of men and women.
Ended the night with Vino and Italian pasta with chicken something.
Friday, August 27, 2010
Aug 27 Friday,
Friday, Aug 27 2010
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Dalai Lama:
Despair is never a solution, it is the ultimate failure. In Tibetan we say, “if the rope breaks nine times, we must splice it together a tenth time”.
Even if ultimately we do fail, at least we will have no feelings of regret. And when we combine this insight with a clear appreciation of our potential to benefit others, we can begin to restore our hope and confidence.
Got to thank people for making me feel proud of myself and helping me realize how deeply I can LOVE..... wow guess not even in story books have I come across my dedication and sincerity...... I am really feeling happy at realizing the depth of my ability in a relationship.
And also realize that maybe nature is making sure that the people who do not deserve it DON't get it and pushing them away from me :).,.... Thank you god and nature and the whole Universe for what ever you are doing.
Thinking of the song I heard a few days ago, "I thank god for all the unanswered prayers" :)
Wake up by 4:30 with the hope of getting to work by 6:30 and starting off with the Knowledge transfer to sweta. But was not able to get out of bed. Was thinking thru the conversation with Malini yesterday night.
About cheating and how she thinks its a man thing been a victim and also one who ended up doing it and learning from her own past mistake.
Atleast she made an attempt to own up to her mistakes. thats a good thing.
Not many people are able to be honest with them selves about it. And would rather try and lie more about it to themselves and then make the victim in it look like they were the ones who are the Villians.
hahaha. How foolish can some people get. Its like some people who claim and show how spiritual they are, quote great words from scriptures , Buddha, dalai lama, Gita, Bible, Zen, ,,, and when it comes to practicing any of it, HUGE GAP. Suddenly showing how superficial they are.
Same way when they face with the reality of bad their actions, instead of been honest with themself, they rather get angry and try to blame others. Easiest and more a basic instinct of reaction.
I really would love to see how some peoples life turn out. Thou so far from my brief observation I have only seen them keep repeating the same pattern of behavior from one relationship to another.
And as Ajay so righty said, he found his lady friends who confide in him about their relationship, just saying or claiming that now they have matured and then again end up doing the same mistakes. Its like they are still the same person, but no real change in attitude.
Same thing I noticed with Del. She was showing the same traits when she wanted to move from her guy to another, she showed the same traits, even the words matched with what Eva did.
Ohhhh god, its like all these women seem to have it hard wired in them, or how else could it be so much of similarity in the actions and words.
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Talking about superficiality,,,,,
No heart. just the outter body.
Just like many people who dance, some just perform and they perform for the attention from others. And then there are ones who just dance for the love of it and enjoying the moment.
Seems to be common trend, once people get on to stage and perform, they get addicted to the brief attention. And they can never let it go. So many I keep seeing time after time, city after city, people starting off learning and enjoying and then as soon as they start getting into the performace mode, the high , the rush and the feeling of power gets to their head and they are lost. No more heart in their social dancing.
Biggest issue afflicting the politicians in power and also the Stars of the Movies.
On monday even I had the same experience of people clapping and cheering on the merengue, that girl Jordana I danced with (seems very nice and down to earth), has now become so high and hooked after the attention she got after the dance. Me too, had to cool my own ego off by sitting out at the back for an hour. And this was a social dance, so I can imagine the rush of high after a great performance on stage. That rush and the addiction to the attention is much higher. And me again been a shy guy , after the attention winning social dance, just went to the back of the crowd and stayed there for about 1 hr. not venturing on to the dance floor.
Just got a call from narayan concerned about his wife and baby landing unexpectedly in mumbai instead of hyderbad. Poor guy is not able to sleep since yesterday. Guess its an indian thing of been concerned about people we love.
saw eva on the google chat, wanted to ask her about the immigration in mumbai airport,,,, again she seems to be showing hostile attitude, wondering if I even want to take any help from someone with that attitude.
12 to 2 farewel party at the Thai restaurant for ashi
yummy coconut milk chicken curry.. just like in kerala.
3 to 4 QC meeting
Evening get out, called up malini and left a msg, got call back latter saying that she is too tired to make it to salsa and wanted to go kayaking at peace valley and will be coming to my house and so we can both go.
Called up tara and left a msg if she would be interested in going to salsa.
Talked with anil and then narayan for sometime. narayans family reached Hyd safely. :)
off to salsa now and peacevalley hiking and kayaing tomorrow. :)
Then hiking again at Princeton near malanis house.. gosh week ends are becoming malini dates.
Salsa was okay, got to meet a sweet gal Maureen and her friend, who were constantly looking and me and smiling. A smile that one gives a person when they have know them for quite a long time, a smile of understanding acknowledgement. Not able to place them. Where did I see them before?
But really warmed my heart to the many smiles I got from them and the constant eye contact across the room. Maureen was really good looking and had she smelled good, what ever perfume she used, it was really good.
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Dalai Lama:
Despair is never a solution, it is the ultimate failure. In Tibetan we say, “if the rope breaks nine times, we must splice it together a tenth time”.
Even if ultimately we do fail, at least we will have no feelings of regret. And when we combine this insight with a clear appreciation of our potential to benefit others, we can begin to restore our hope and confidence.
Got to thank people for making me feel proud of myself and helping me realize how deeply I can LOVE..... wow guess not even in story books have I come across my dedication and sincerity...... I am really feeling happy at realizing the depth of my ability in a relationship.
And also realize that maybe nature is making sure that the people who do not deserve it DON't get it and pushing them away from me :).,.... Thank you god and nature and the whole Universe for what ever you are doing.
Thinking of the song I heard a few days ago, "I thank god for all the unanswered prayers" :)
Wake up by 4:30 with the hope of getting to work by 6:30 and starting off with the Knowledge transfer to sweta. But was not able to get out of bed. Was thinking thru the conversation with Malini yesterday night.
About cheating and how she thinks its a man thing been a victim and also one who ended up doing it and learning from her own past mistake.
Atleast she made an attempt to own up to her mistakes. thats a good thing.
Not many people are able to be honest with them selves about it. And would rather try and lie more about it to themselves and then make the victim in it look like they were the ones who are the Villians.
hahaha. How foolish can some people get. Its like some people who claim and show how spiritual they are, quote great words from scriptures , Buddha, dalai lama, Gita, Bible, Zen, ,,, and when it comes to practicing any of it, HUGE GAP. Suddenly showing how superficial they are.
Same way when they face with the reality of bad their actions, instead of been honest with themself, they rather get angry and try to blame others. Easiest and more a basic instinct of reaction.
I really would love to see how some peoples life turn out. Thou so far from my brief observation I have only seen them keep repeating the same pattern of behavior from one relationship to another.
And as Ajay so righty said, he found his lady friends who confide in him about their relationship, just saying or claiming that now they have matured and then again end up doing the same mistakes. Its like they are still the same person, but no real change in attitude.
Same thing I noticed with Del. She was showing the same traits when she wanted to move from her guy to another, she showed the same traits, even the words matched with what Eva did.
Ohhhh god, its like all these women seem to have it hard wired in them, or how else could it be so much of similarity in the actions and words.
\
Talking about superficiality,,,,,
No heart. just the outter body.
Just like many people who dance, some just perform and they perform for the attention from others. And then there are ones who just dance for the love of it and enjoying the moment.
Seems to be common trend, once people get on to stage and perform, they get addicted to the brief attention. And they can never let it go. So many I keep seeing time after time, city after city, people starting off learning and enjoying and then as soon as they start getting into the performace mode, the high , the rush and the feeling of power gets to their head and they are lost. No more heart in their social dancing.
Biggest issue afflicting the politicians in power and also the Stars of the Movies.
On monday even I had the same experience of people clapping and cheering on the merengue, that girl Jordana I danced with (seems very nice and down to earth), has now become so high and hooked after the attention she got after the dance. Me too, had to cool my own ego off by sitting out at the back for an hour. And this was a social dance, so I can imagine the rush of high after a great performance on stage. That rush and the addiction to the attention is much higher. And me again been a shy guy , after the attention winning social dance, just went to the back of the crowd and stayed there for about 1 hr. not venturing on to the dance floor.
Just got a call from narayan concerned about his wife and baby landing unexpectedly in mumbai instead of hyderbad. Poor guy is not able to sleep since yesterday. Guess its an indian thing of been concerned about people we love.
saw eva on the google chat, wanted to ask her about the immigration in mumbai airport,,,, again she seems to be showing hostile attitude, wondering if I even want to take any help from someone with that attitude.
12 to 2 farewel party at the Thai restaurant for ashi
yummy coconut milk chicken curry.. just like in kerala.
3 to 4 QC meeting
Evening get out, called up malini and left a msg, got call back latter saying that she is too tired to make it to salsa and wanted to go kayaking at peace valley and will be coming to my house and so we can both go.
Called up tara and left a msg if she would be interested in going to salsa.
Talked with anil and then narayan for sometime. narayans family reached Hyd safely. :)
off to salsa now and peacevalley hiking and kayaing tomorrow. :)
Then hiking again at Princeton near malanis house.. gosh week ends are becoming malini dates.
Salsa was okay, got to meet a sweet gal Maureen and her friend, who were constantly looking and me and smiling. A smile that one gives a person when they have know them for quite a long time, a smile of understanding acknowledgement. Not able to place them. Where did I see them before?
But really warmed my heart to the many smiles I got from them and the constant eye contact across the room. Maureen was really good looking and had she smelled good, what ever perfume she used, it was really good.
Thursday, August 26, 2010
Aug 26, hangover after Vino tasting
Thrusday Aug 26- 2010
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Woke up with a hangover from drinking chilian vino... again forgot to have dinner, thou I cooked rice and had left over curry from the freezer that I had partially microwaved...... gosh the past few months have been living mostly on one time lunch.
Reached work around 7:05 am got stuck by the train gates...:) but hey beautiful day, thanks to the universe for another great start of day. :)
upto 9am assisting sweta with making the call so that we have a smooth transition for her to do the testings.
Tried calling up Evas number , not sure if its hers or someone else as it just kept ringing. So got the idea to send her the sms from the vodafone site.
Got chatting with nilesh, he is now into solar farming consultance. www.movya.com
Thats a good one. remains to be seen how much margin he can make or has in this business.
Gave ajay money for yesterdays lunch at Dosa hut. $14, dosa, vada, idli and gobi manchurian.
Also got mail from raj about the places to visit in Spain. Said he is busy with all projects in Europe starting in Sep after Aug holidays.
Went home and tried calling up the DOL, but again only getting to the voice mail.
3 to 4 QC meeting. ended up chating with Eva ,, again for some reason she seems to be pissed off at me..... gosh these women really know how to lie to themselves and fool themselves into believing things in a crazy way.
Wonder what she convinced herself now.
The cold way she told me about it, kind of made me wonder if there is any reason to take her help at all. Why would I want to vist someones house and parents if that person is treating me like an enemy.
It would be strange and odd with her behaving like she wants to kill me and trying to even talk with her parents who would not be able to speak in any language I know.
What is really with all these women and their craziness?
Now I am getting to understand why as per most tradition they are considered better off at home taking care of the home, kids and then their husbands. Because for a man to put up with their craziness he deserves to be pampered.
And this further explains why the ones who are not pampered often drift away if they have the opportunities. :)
Laws of nature, man should just shut his mouth and go about doing what he should, if the women does not appreciate him move to the one who appreciates the fact that he is putting up with her pshycotic craziness and unexplained moodiness.
Talked with Aji regarding the leave and the Green card. seems he got msg from HR saying that I need to complete one year before been able to apply for a Green card.
Got call from malini guess she wants to plan tomorrows salsa outting
had a good talk with Anil ,, hehe we end up talking like teenagers.. damm hope that we don't end up talking like that in front of our kids.
Around 10:30pm got a call from malini, it was a very revealing conversation of each other and our past relationships. Nice bonding. Got to see how this will go.
She seems to have all the fine qualities of a princess. But a princess is not who I am looking for and neither am I a polished prince. ,,,,,
She is surely someone who many guys will be very very happy to be with.
I on the other hand am a guy who because of circumstance had ended up doing minimum wages jobs. Don't believe in spending on luxury items, just buy the on sale dress for $5 and $10 at walmart kind of guy. Happy sleeping even in a sleeping bag. A simple guy with simple tastes, which was one of the reasons I got so attracted towards Eva and her unsually down to earth life style. But had it not been for her Anger and Self Centered Ego of I know everything and you and your thoughts and ideas are not worth anything. She would have been the ideal girl for me if only she could change a bit of her attitude and learn to be a bit more humble.
Thou she claims on her blog that India changed her a lot, it only seems to have just impacted her in little dots, not really a whole lot. And if only she is able to connect the dots and make a continous line or brush stroke,,,,, I would just be even able to give my life for her without any hesitation.
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Woke up with a hangover from drinking chilian vino... again forgot to have dinner, thou I cooked rice and had left over curry from the freezer that I had partially microwaved...... gosh the past few months have been living mostly on one time lunch.
Reached work around 7:05 am got stuck by the train gates...:) but hey beautiful day, thanks to the universe for another great start of day. :)
upto 9am assisting sweta with making the call so that we have a smooth transition for her to do the testings.
Tried calling up Evas number , not sure if its hers or someone else as it just kept ringing. So got the idea to send her the sms from the vodafone site.
Got chatting with nilesh, he is now into solar farming consultance. www.movya.com
Thats a good one. remains to be seen how much margin he can make or has in this business.
Gave ajay money for yesterdays lunch at Dosa hut. $14, dosa, vada, idli and gobi manchurian.
Also got mail from raj about the places to visit in Spain. Said he is busy with all projects in Europe starting in Sep after Aug holidays.
Went home and tried calling up the DOL, but again only getting to the voice mail.
3 to 4 QC meeting. ended up chating with Eva ,, again for some reason she seems to be pissed off at me..... gosh these women really know how to lie to themselves and fool themselves into believing things in a crazy way.
Wonder what she convinced herself now.
The cold way she told me about it, kind of made me wonder if there is any reason to take her help at all. Why would I want to vist someones house and parents if that person is treating me like an enemy.
It would be strange and odd with her behaving like she wants to kill me and trying to even talk with her parents who would not be able to speak in any language I know.
What is really with all these women and their craziness?
Now I am getting to understand why as per most tradition they are considered better off at home taking care of the home, kids and then their husbands. Because for a man to put up with their craziness he deserves to be pampered.
And this further explains why the ones who are not pampered often drift away if they have the opportunities. :)
Laws of nature, man should just shut his mouth and go about doing what he should, if the women does not appreciate him move to the one who appreciates the fact that he is putting up with her pshycotic craziness and unexplained moodiness.
Talked with Aji regarding the leave and the Green card. seems he got msg from HR saying that I need to complete one year before been able to apply for a Green card.
Got call from malini guess she wants to plan tomorrows salsa outting
had a good talk with Anil ,, hehe we end up talking like teenagers.. damm hope that we don't end up talking like that in front of our kids.
Around 10:30pm got a call from malini, it was a very revealing conversation of each other and our past relationships. Nice bonding. Got to see how this will go.
She seems to have all the fine qualities of a princess. But a princess is not who I am looking for and neither am I a polished prince. ,,,,,
She is surely someone who many guys will be very very happy to be with.
I on the other hand am a guy who because of circumstance had ended up doing minimum wages jobs. Don't believe in spending on luxury items, just buy the on sale dress for $5 and $10 at walmart kind of guy. Happy sleeping even in a sleeping bag. A simple guy with simple tastes, which was one of the reasons I got so attracted towards Eva and her unsually down to earth life style. But had it not been for her Anger and Self Centered Ego of I know everything and you and your thoughts and ideas are not worth anything. She would have been the ideal girl for me if only she could change a bit of her attitude and learn to be a bit more humble.
Thou she claims on her blog that India changed her a lot, it only seems to have just impacted her in little dots, not really a whole lot. And if only she is able to connect the dots and make a continous line or brush stroke,,,,, I would just be even able to give my life for her without any hesitation.
Wednesday, August 25, 2010
Aug 25, wakeing with a sense of goodness
Wednesday Aug 25 2010
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Woke up with beautiful dreams, hmmmmm what a feeling and started thinking philosophical stuff that was motivating from my own lifes stories.
Had time to eat cereals and a cup of coffee before heading out to work. Its been a long time since I did this. now to sneak in and get back to the routine of doing some work out too. :)
So should I go salsa or just for a run tonite.
Still high on monday nights Onam special high energy-merengue and flirty Cha-cha.
Loged on to skype, saw madrita martho on skype, just shouted a Ahoj to her and then ran out of the door to my lovely trusty car.
reached work around 7:10am sweta was on the chat got to help set her up with the Avaya connection...
So salsa its tonite for now... lets see if I can get the others to come.
The words that got me today :
When one door slams shut on your face,
life opens other doors,
like the fresh sunshine of early morning.
full of hope and wonder :)
Most of the time in all our innocence and innocent instinct,
We end up looking at the shut door with a truck load off all kinds of unanswered questions.
As hard as it is to pull away, we may have to pull away,
as there is plenty in this world to go by,
just have to believe in the PLENTIFUL ness of OUR WORLD :) cheers ;)
But the moment we turn and look around,
We will start seeing the Doors opening with the lights of fresh sunshine, inviting us into a new day.
We have to enter it with an open heart and mind.
Try and let go of the EVIL Dark shut door with the bag of unanswered questions.
They did not know your true potential. :)
They lost you as they are lost in their sense of foolish arrogance and powerful pride.
10 to 11 status meeting
msg to aji about leave to go on leave, said will let me know as soon as he talks with Sangita. And she is on leave till monday.....
Chatted with John and Nilesh on google chat, john is in the process of short selling his house..... too bad with the way both our lives seem to go up and down. But john was brave enough to get married.
12: went out with Ajay for dosa, vada and idli at dosa house.
Discussing the western girls and girls from India and their mentalities......... universal agreement that Women are very selfish creatures and will always be taking and painting the men in their life as something bad, maybe with the exception of their father and brothers.
Other than that every man made a HUGE mistake hence they moved to the next guy. But ajays experience with the girls he is friends with is that they keep repeating the same mistakes with the next guy. Even thou they claim that they have changed since the past relationship and have grown.
hmmmmm interesting. Is that a hint from the universe to me?
Got busy with doing the research on the Euro trip.
A bit pissed off with Ajis way of handling things about the leave.
Latter talking with narayan got to know his wife and baby are going off to india the next few days. And then to the question I asked him yesterday about my tirp to Europe. He said the very same thing I was thinking but was in doubt.
Talked with Chakri and told him about the Euro trip too.
Was not in a great mood to go out salsa dancing and got a mail from malani about wanting to coordinate going to salsa better. She does not seem to be much different from Eva, just that she is Indian from the the south and much more intelligent and able to hold a conversation on her own.
Also sent out mail to Soile, she is stil the best. The best dance partner to dance with. No wonder so many guys in Vancouver just love dancing with her.
Tells a lot about her attitude. Dancing shows.
I guess it showed to me on monday how much I am worthy, when I got the a compliment "Amazing" from Jordana and couple of other girls.
Jordan kind of made it special for me with the way she came to say bye before she left. Hope to see her around again soon. She is my first fan in Philly. :)
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Woke up with beautiful dreams, hmmmmm what a feeling and started thinking philosophical stuff that was motivating from my own lifes stories.
Had time to eat cereals and a cup of coffee before heading out to work. Its been a long time since I did this. now to sneak in and get back to the routine of doing some work out too. :)
So should I go salsa or just for a run tonite.
Still high on monday nights Onam special high energy-merengue and flirty Cha-cha.
Loged on to skype, saw madrita martho on skype, just shouted a Ahoj to her and then ran out of the door to my lovely trusty car.
reached work around 7:10am sweta was on the chat got to help set her up with the Avaya connection...
So salsa its tonite for now... lets see if I can get the others to come.
The words that got me today :
When one door slams shut on your face,
life opens other doors,
like the fresh sunshine of early morning.
full of hope and wonder :)
Most of the time in all our innocence and innocent instinct,
We end up looking at the shut door with a truck load off all kinds of unanswered questions.
As hard as it is to pull away, we may have to pull away,
as there is plenty in this world to go by,
just have to believe in the PLENTIFUL ness of OUR WORLD :) cheers ;)
But the moment we turn and look around,
We will start seeing the Doors opening with the lights of fresh sunshine, inviting us into a new day.
We have to enter it with an open heart and mind.
Try and let go of the EVIL Dark shut door with the bag of unanswered questions.
They did not know your true potential. :)
They lost you as they are lost in their sense of foolish arrogance and powerful pride.
10 to 11 status meeting
msg to aji about leave to go on leave, said will let me know as soon as he talks with Sangita. And she is on leave till monday.....
Chatted with John and Nilesh on google chat, john is in the process of short selling his house..... too bad with the way both our lives seem to go up and down. But john was brave enough to get married.
12: went out with Ajay for dosa, vada and idli at dosa house.
Discussing the western girls and girls from India and their mentalities......... universal agreement that Women are very selfish creatures and will always be taking and painting the men in their life as something bad, maybe with the exception of their father and brothers.
Other than that every man made a HUGE mistake hence they moved to the next guy. But ajays experience with the girls he is friends with is that they keep repeating the same mistakes with the next guy. Even thou they claim that they have changed since the past relationship and have grown.
hmmmmm interesting. Is that a hint from the universe to me?
Got busy with doing the research on the Euro trip.
A bit pissed off with Ajis way of handling things about the leave.
Latter talking with narayan got to know his wife and baby are going off to india the next few days. And then to the question I asked him yesterday about my tirp to Europe. He said the very same thing I was thinking but was in doubt.
Talked with Chakri and told him about the Euro trip too.
Was not in a great mood to go out salsa dancing and got a mail from malani about wanting to coordinate going to salsa better. She does not seem to be much different from Eva, just that she is Indian from the the south and much more intelligent and able to hold a conversation on her own.
Also sent out mail to Soile, she is stil the best. The best dance partner to dance with. No wonder so many guys in Vancouver just love dancing with her.
Tells a lot about her attitude. Dancing shows.
I guess it showed to me on monday how much I am worthy, when I got the a compliment "Amazing" from Jordana and couple of other girls.
Jordan kind of made it special for me with the way she came to say bye before she left. Hope to see her around again soon. She is my first fan in Philly. :)
Tuesday, August 24, 2010
Aug 24, Woke up excited in the morning
Tuesday, 24 Aug 2010
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Reached work by 7:05am. Still high on yesterday night High energy Merengue and flirty Cha-cha.
conf call till 8am with bangalore. then tried to set up Sweta for loging into avaya, seemed to get some issues, so asked her to share her desktop. remote m/c was slow so kind of hung up as she had to go for the day.
Got to call dept of labor regarding the pending monies from apex for my work in NY.
got mail from Vaughan
You will be making part of history as a participant in our English enclaves deep in the heart of Spain.
You have been selected to come and participate for the following date:
Num.: 233, /
Start date: September 12, 2010 / Sunday (9:45am)
End date: September 17, 2010 / Friday. ( end5pm,,, drop off in madrid 10:30 pm)
Venue: Valdelavilla
Book flights and accommodations
Remember, the program begins on a Sunday morning at 8:45am (Gredos) / 9:45 (Valdelavilla) / 9:00 (Palacio de Soñanes) and ends at 5pm Friday when get back to Madrid. Arrival should be no later than Saturday, day before the program and return flights should not be earlier than 9pm Friday evening if you are coming from Gredos and 10:30pm if you are coming from Valdelavilla and Palacio de Soñanes. From the moment you board the coach on Sunday until you are dropped off on Friday, all your room, board and transport expenses will be covered.Personal expenses, such as souvenirs, bar tab, etc, will not be covered.
We host a 'Welcome Reception' on Saturday evening at 7pm for everyone to sample wine and typical Spanish tapas.
got talking with Chakri regarding the Cuba trip he is planning on having in Nov.
12 to 1:30 there was a town hall meeting, got to see aji for few mins. told him I need to talk to him regarding the europe trip time off.
Right now given the way eva is behaving by not even bothering to pick up my call, does not look like she is even interested in been friends. So do I still go for 2 weeks or just go for the one week and be back. I wanted to back packing and maybe go to the sacred place in spain where people go walking. Santiago.
Does not look appealing to be going to Czech and meeting someone who considers me as an enemy and seems to hate me.
It would be odd to be with her parents who can hardly speak english and with her playing the cold host or who know may not even be there and just leave me and ignore me. Something which she does very well and then accuses me of ignoring her when I was only trying to teach her how it felt, when someone did the same things to her.
As sure as the sun raises in the east, she like every one who is totally selfish and into thier own world. Was not able handle it at all and started thinking, that kind of behavior is part of my personalty... hehehe... she has no idea or rather is so blinded in her own little make believe world of self-centered universe she hardly is capable of seeing the honest truth.
Well truth is a subject and behavior she does not think worthy of her time. Going about lying to everyone close to her is her way of living a truthful life..... so sickening or foolishness. Hope she learns from her own actions soon. But again her way of life is to bulldoze thru it, with out even thinking about her wrongful past actions. Which means no way of making any corrective actions.... and that means she will continue to do what she always does, lie to herself and every one around her.
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Reached work by 7:05am. Still high on yesterday night High energy Merengue and flirty Cha-cha.
conf call till 8am with bangalore. then tried to set up Sweta for loging into avaya, seemed to get some issues, so asked her to share her desktop. remote m/c was slow so kind of hung up as she had to go for the day.
Got to call dept of labor regarding the pending monies from apex for my work in NY.
got mail from Vaughan
You will be making part of history as a participant in our English enclaves deep in the heart of Spain.
You have been selected to come and participate for the following date:
Num.: 233, /
Start date: September 12, 2010 / Sunday (9:45am)
End date: September 17, 2010 / Friday. ( end5pm,,, drop off in madrid 10:30 pm)
Venue: Valdelavilla
Book flights and accommodations
Remember, the program begins on a Sunday morning at 8:45am (Gredos) / 9:45 (Valdelavilla) / 9:00 (Palacio de Soñanes) and ends at 5pm Friday when get back to Madrid. Arrival should be no later than Saturday, day before the program and return flights should not be earlier than 9pm Friday evening if you are coming from Gredos and 10:30pm if you are coming from Valdelavilla and Palacio de Soñanes. From the moment you board the coach on Sunday until you are dropped off on Friday, all your room, board and transport expenses will be covered.Personal expenses, such as souvenirs, bar tab, etc, will not be covered.
We host a 'Welcome Reception' on Saturday evening at 7pm for everyone to sample wine and typical Spanish tapas.
got talking with Chakri regarding the Cuba trip he is planning on having in Nov.
12 to 1:30 there was a town hall meeting, got to see aji for few mins. told him I need to talk to him regarding the europe trip time off.
Right now given the way eva is behaving by not even bothering to pick up my call, does not look like she is even interested in been friends. So do I still go for 2 weeks or just go for the one week and be back. I wanted to back packing and maybe go to the sacred place in spain where people go walking. Santiago.
Does not look appealing to be going to Czech and meeting someone who considers me as an enemy and seems to hate me.
It would be odd to be with her parents who can hardly speak english and with her playing the cold host or who know may not even be there and just leave me and ignore me. Something which she does very well and then accuses me of ignoring her when I was only trying to teach her how it felt, when someone did the same things to her.
As sure as the sun raises in the east, she like every one who is totally selfish and into thier own world. Was not able handle it at all and started thinking, that kind of behavior is part of my personalty... hehehe... she has no idea or rather is so blinded in her own little make believe world of self-centered universe she hardly is capable of seeing the honest truth.
Well truth is a subject and behavior she does not think worthy of her time. Going about lying to everyone close to her is her way of living a truthful life..... so sickening or foolishness. Hope she learns from her own actions soon. But again her way of life is to bulldoze thru it, with out even thinking about her wrongful past actions. Which means no way of making any corrective actions.... and that means she will continue to do what she always does, lie to herself and every one around her.
Monday, August 23, 2010
Aug 23 Monday back to office - ONAM
Monday, Aug 23 2010
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Was only able to get out of bed by 6:10 so rushed thru everything and reached for the call by 7:05am off the call by 7:40am
Finished the Knowledge transfer early by 8:45 which was probably like 6:15pm IST.
then called up home and talked and wished everyone in the family, uncles and shaila aunt - HAPPY ONAM. there was too much disturbance on the phone lines.
Then called up anil to wish him happy onam too.
Wanted to go for some malu food, searched the web saw kerala kitchen. left work around 11:30am. with the hope of reaching there. Had to stop for filling up gas as the tank was empty.
Reached the address for Kerala Kitchen, only to find it closed and it seems to be a kind of poor neighbor hood.
Then returned back and ended up going to Wendys on broad st by work. There were all indians working inside. They got delayed in preparing the grilled chicken for me and so the lady gave an extra finger chips.
Well atleast I got something for free on Onam day.
wondering to ask malani for Vango tonite.
sent her a mail via iphone and got reply back that she wanted to go to reef tomorrow. I want to celebrate today. So told her I am going.
4 to 5 was defect meeting.
8:30 got out off a cat nap,,,,, again forgot to have anything to eat, just had half a glass of Mango juice and a piece of laddu,,, sugar loaded.
Reached Vango around 9:30 driving in the rain, thank ful that there were not many drivers on the Road.
Started off slow, as there seemed to be fewer women than men.
Then danced with Amber. Have not started trying to remember the names, was talking with Anil about not making the effort to remember anyone or their names. that is the problem , I was not making enough effort.
She turned out be a very smooth follow and she was delighted to be dancing with me.
Then noticed one gal very hyper and super pretty and seem to know most of the men there. Was mentally cutting her off my list of people to ask.
then the balarina like gal came and asked me to dance a bachata. she is tall very pretty wearing just tight shorts, would have passed off as swim suit underwear a few decades ago. As soon as we finished the bachata, thanking each other and the merengue came along.
Was just besides the pretty/beautiful latin gal out of impulse asked her. And boy we just hit it off, half way thru the song I noticed that there was a crowd around us and one guy was cheering and clapping.
Phew it was "amazing" in her words. sweet... her name is Jordana. I took a time out after that. the waitress in blue was kind off passing by me up and down and every time we just looked at each other in a flirty way. hmmmm
Latter after a few more salsa with others whos name I forgot, I had an amazing cha-cha flirty and GREAT Connection. was so surprised by the connection I was too dumb stuck to even ask her name. She had an amazing smile, curly blond hairs.. and the connection was all... via the smile.
Just got one 'no' from a gal who I don't think will ask again. But ended up dancing in the same song with another gal Makarita.
End to a great onam day. Aug-23-2010 Monday.
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Was only able to get out of bed by 6:10 so rushed thru everything and reached for the call by 7:05am off the call by 7:40am
Finished the Knowledge transfer early by 8:45 which was probably like 6:15pm IST.
then called up home and talked and wished everyone in the family, uncles and shaila aunt - HAPPY ONAM. there was too much disturbance on the phone lines.
Then called up anil to wish him happy onam too.
Wanted to go for some malu food, searched the web saw kerala kitchen. left work around 11:30am. with the hope of reaching there. Had to stop for filling up gas as the tank was empty.
Reached the address for Kerala Kitchen, only to find it closed and it seems to be a kind of poor neighbor hood.
Then returned back and ended up going to Wendys on broad st by work. There were all indians working inside. They got delayed in preparing the grilled chicken for me and so the lady gave an extra finger chips.
Well atleast I got something for free on Onam day.
wondering to ask malani for Vango tonite.
sent her a mail via iphone and got reply back that she wanted to go to reef tomorrow. I want to celebrate today. So told her I am going.
4 to 5 was defect meeting.
8:30 got out off a cat nap,,,,, again forgot to have anything to eat, just had half a glass of Mango juice and a piece of laddu,,, sugar loaded.
Reached Vango around 9:30 driving in the rain, thank ful that there were not many drivers on the Road.
Started off slow, as there seemed to be fewer women than men.
Then danced with Amber. Have not started trying to remember the names, was talking with Anil about not making the effort to remember anyone or their names. that is the problem , I was not making enough effort.
She turned out be a very smooth follow and she was delighted to be dancing with me.
Then noticed one gal very hyper and super pretty and seem to know most of the men there. Was mentally cutting her off my list of people to ask.
then the balarina like gal came and asked me to dance a bachata. she is tall very pretty wearing just tight shorts, would have passed off as swim suit underwear a few decades ago. As soon as we finished the bachata, thanking each other and the merengue came along.
Was just besides the pretty/beautiful latin gal out of impulse asked her. And boy we just hit it off, half way thru the song I noticed that there was a crowd around us and one guy was cheering and clapping.
Phew it was "amazing" in her words. sweet... her name is Jordana. I took a time out after that. the waitress in blue was kind off passing by me up and down and every time we just looked at each other in a flirty way. hmmmm
Latter after a few more salsa with others whos name I forgot, I had an amazing cha-cha flirty and GREAT Connection. was so surprised by the connection I was too dumb stuck to even ask her name. She had an amazing smile, curly blond hairs.. and the connection was all... via the smile.
Just got one 'no' from a gal who I don't think will ask again. But ended up dancing in the same song with another gal Makarita.
End to a great onam day. Aug-23-2010 Monday.
Aug 22, Time for Return flight
Sunday, 22 Aug 2010
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Woke up around 8am. was thru with and ready around 8:30am, Joe was at the door, wanting to come and hang out. He wakes up pretty early and poor kid was just hanging out side the door.
Had puttu about 10 and 10:30am and anils family went to church, we both hung around for a few more mins and then went to the neighbor hood wal mart to buy Soccer shoes and equipment for his elder rohan
It was another revealing experience for me with the Schools opening up, the school stationary aisle were filled with kids and their parents stocking up on the school supplies. It was great to see little kids mostly girls going about having a To-buy list and going form asile to asile and ticking off the things they got. Wow, responsibility and management.
Wow thats the american sense of responsibility with freedom.
Around 2 his wife takes the kids to rohs singing class
5:30 was the flight back so we started off from his house about 3pm stopped by Ikea to drop off some stuff.
Had lunch ,, heavy one, with fish, chicken, beef and mango pickle kerala style with rice.
the orbitz voice msg said A28 but my flight truned out to be E28. So had to wait for the shuttle and just barely made it past the check-in by 5pm
the security check was faster and on board by 5:10.
reached Philly by 10pm EST sharp. now to find the location for the Economy parking bus.
got dinged for 3 days as it was 2 days and 5 hrs. $33.
made it home with out having to stop for gas.
checked mail and then just went to bed.
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Woke up around 8am. was thru with and ready around 8:30am, Joe was at the door, wanting to come and hang out. He wakes up pretty early and poor kid was just hanging out side the door.
Had puttu about 10 and 10:30am and anils family went to church, we both hung around for a few more mins and then went to the neighbor hood wal mart to buy Soccer shoes and equipment for his elder rohan
It was another revealing experience for me with the Schools opening up, the school stationary aisle were filled with kids and their parents stocking up on the school supplies. It was great to see little kids mostly girls going about having a To-buy list and going form asile to asile and ticking off the things they got. Wow, responsibility and management.
Wow thats the american sense of responsibility with freedom.
Around 2 his wife takes the kids to rohs singing class
5:30 was the flight back so we started off from his house about 3pm stopped by Ikea to drop off some stuff.
Had lunch ,, heavy one, with fish, chicken, beef and mango pickle kerala style with rice.
the orbitz voice msg said A28 but my flight truned out to be E28. So had to wait for the shuttle and just barely made it past the check-in by 5pm
the security check was faster and on board by 5:10.
reached Philly by 10pm EST sharp. now to find the location for the Economy parking bus.
got dinged for 3 days as it was 2 days and 5 hrs. $33.
made it home with out having to stop for gas.
checked mail and then just went to bed.
Aug 21, in Dallas - Family life
Saturday, 22 Aug 2010
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Woke up around 7 with anils two kids standing and talking in hushed voices. Tried to scare them by saying boooo... hit it off with them kids. very social and high energy. So this is what Anil ment by them coming and waking me up in the morning. hehehe.
Had chicken, egg and chapathi for breakfast. nicee..
then we went out to different shops for his weekly family shopping.
First stop at the post office to send the pair of shorts he got to sell on Ebay. Huge crowd. so we backed out. and went to the malu shop. Wow, all the brands that I use for cooking was there and it felt like partially been back at home.
He brought a huge fish.
I brought some masala powder for the fish and meat, have to get it past airport security. Mostly with the hope of giving it to Eva and her parents when I meet them in Czech republic. Got the Eastern Fish Masalsa for Salmon curry.
Then we went to Target, eyeing all the lovely ladies in barest min showing off their assesets. hehehe.. well it was really hot outside. 100 plus deg F.
And then again back to Post office to and been a saturday it was closed by 12.
so we used the automated vending machine to weigh and post the package.
Back to his house about 2:30 and I was getting a head ach. So went up to my bed and just fell asleep. mistake as Anil and his wife ended up waiting for me to come down and have lunch.
So we all had lunch around 4 to 4:30pm and after that Anil and me decided to try out the bowling alley.
IT was a nice game, we got to play about 3.5 games in 1 hr slot. had a dark beer on the pitcher, it was kind of just water, we did not get any kick.
Anils kids and wife went for a Birthday party in the neighbor hood. So we returned back and started having bloody mary. I was not in a great shape to have more than one.
Then his kids returned back with their gifts and it was nice to see them all as a family trying to live it as a team. Not sure how the situation would have been if he had a non-indian wife. Who was going way beyond and been the tradition indian wife and trying to be the great host. wow! really made me think and appreciate the sacrifices the indian ladies make compared to the western wifes. Who would have probably got angry at my coming and asked him to order a take out or made me stay in a hotel.
And his wife is working too.
Got to see how it was difficult to try a raise a kid who was kind of having his own issues of not been able to sleep cause of dry skin and is learning to communicate as he grows up. Little things like this that put a family to test their patience and their ability to work as a team. And like every family he said they do have huge arguments that blow out, but been more tuned to Indian mentality, they patch up and live it out for the kids and the team as a whole.
ITs a different thing when you have a very sweet and quite kid. but not sure if I would be able to handle the pressure of having wild kids who may be always fighting. reminded me of why Chad did not want to have kids at all.
wonder if eva would ever be able to handle this kind of pressure, she would probably be so angry, might dump alll and just run away to some hike.
and anil said that one of his North indian friends wife just did that same thing, dumped the guy and their two daughters and just went away.
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Woke up around 7 with anils two kids standing and talking in hushed voices. Tried to scare them by saying boooo... hit it off with them kids. very social and high energy. So this is what Anil ment by them coming and waking me up in the morning. hehehe.
Had chicken, egg and chapathi for breakfast. nicee..
then we went out to different shops for his weekly family shopping.
First stop at the post office to send the pair of shorts he got to sell on Ebay. Huge crowd. so we backed out. and went to the malu shop. Wow, all the brands that I use for cooking was there and it felt like partially been back at home.
He brought a huge fish.
I brought some masala powder for the fish and meat, have to get it past airport security. Mostly with the hope of giving it to Eva and her parents when I meet them in Czech republic. Got the Eastern Fish Masalsa for Salmon curry.
Then we went to Target, eyeing all the lovely ladies in barest min showing off their assesets. hehehe.. well it was really hot outside. 100 plus deg F.
And then again back to Post office to and been a saturday it was closed by 12.
so we used the automated vending machine to weigh and post the package.
Back to his house about 2:30 and I was getting a head ach. So went up to my bed and just fell asleep. mistake as Anil and his wife ended up waiting for me to come down and have lunch.
So we all had lunch around 4 to 4:30pm and after that Anil and me decided to try out the bowling alley.
IT was a nice game, we got to play about 3.5 games in 1 hr slot. had a dark beer on the pitcher, it was kind of just water, we did not get any kick.
Anils kids and wife went for a Birthday party in the neighbor hood. So we returned back and started having bloody mary. I was not in a great shape to have more than one.
Then his kids returned back with their gifts and it was nice to see them all as a family trying to live it as a team. Not sure how the situation would have been if he had a non-indian wife. Who was going way beyond and been the tradition indian wife and trying to be the great host. wow! really made me think and appreciate the sacrifices the indian ladies make compared to the western wifes. Who would have probably got angry at my coming and asked him to order a take out or made me stay in a hotel.
And his wife is working too.
Got to see how it was difficult to try a raise a kid who was kind of having his own issues of not been able to sleep cause of dry skin and is learning to communicate as he grows up. Little things like this that put a family to test their patience and their ability to work as a team. And like every family he said they do have huge arguments that blow out, but been more tuned to Indian mentality, they patch up and live it out for the kids and the team as a whole.
ITs a different thing when you have a very sweet and quite kid. but not sure if I would be able to handle the pressure of having wild kids who may be always fighting. reminded me of why Chad did not want to have kids at all.
wonder if eva would ever be able to handle this kind of pressure, she would probably be so angry, might dump alll and just run away to some hike.
and anil said that one of his North indian friends wife just did that same thing, dumped the guy and their two daughters and just went away.
Friday, August 20, 2010
Aug 20, trip to Dallas
Friday Aug 20 2010
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Woke up early with the pressue of reaching work before 6:30am Got to work by 6:50am.
got ready to have an early call with Sweta from offshore.
Started KT with sweta around 7:30 in the war room was not able to call her net number so she again ended up calling me.
in between talked about her trip to vayanad in kerala and told her to go visit virajpet and travel to kerala from there. ahh was feeling nostialigic. so changed the subject before I start feeling home sick. more
2pm made it out after submiting the code review to ashish.
out of home after last minute packing with just the back pack by 3.. 3:10pm.
Did not expect the traffic. Just barely reached the airport about 5pm no time for parking so just drove into the airport hoping for the closer parking. and missed the costly one and ended up in the economy parking for $11. Then it was so full only got parking place at the very end. Luckily the pick up bus came by .. ran to get on to it.
landed DWF 8:44pm CST. met Anil who got lost in the airport around 9:45
Reached his house around 11pm
His poor wife was also waiting up
We had a couple of drinks, catching up on the past.... loved his new Car, of $40,000 only , fully loaded. Its huge Honda Pilot. I could have lived in it as a mobile studio apartment.
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Woke up early with the pressue of reaching work before 6:30am Got to work by 6:50am.
got ready to have an early call with Sweta from offshore.
Started KT with sweta around 7:30 in the war room was not able to call her net number so she again ended up calling me.
in between talked about her trip to vayanad in kerala and told her to go visit virajpet and travel to kerala from there. ahh was feeling nostialigic. so changed the subject before I start feeling home sick. more
2pm made it out after submiting the code review to ashish.
out of home after last minute packing with just the back pack by 3.. 3:10pm.
Did not expect the traffic. Just barely reached the airport about 5pm no time for parking so just drove into the airport hoping for the closer parking. and missed the costly one and ended up in the economy parking for $11. Then it was so full only got parking place at the very end. Luckily the pick up bus came by .. ran to get on to it.
landed DWF 8:44pm CST. met Anil who got lost in the airport around 9:45
Reached his house around 11pm
His poor wife was also waiting up
We had a couple of drinks, catching up on the past.... loved his new Car, of $40,000 only , fully loaded. Its huge Honda Pilot. I could have lived in it as a mobile studio apartment.
Thursday, August 19, 2010
Aug 19 Phew what a night it was yesterday
Thursday 19-Aug-2010
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got out of bed around 5:55am :) no breakfast as usual, was not able to finish the Tea. Rushed out and reached work around 7:05am. Then had issues of connectivity. Got chating with sweta on her new connection and remote machine.
around 8 after the call went to the war room to show her the test envi. again issues with making an out bound net meeting call. was calling her number when she called me up.
Showed her the Mvc email that comes as additional only seen in test and not dev.
I am still buzzed with yesterday nights salsa and my best merengue thus far in philly, asked one gal who I thought was nice and she said no, and suddenly a sweet looking chinese gal walks over across the room and asks me to dance,,,,, wooohooo. And she danced like a pro. Turns out that she is from Oreagon. She was so easy to lead. Attitude I guess is the key to a partnership. Something I had difficulty in leading Eva, even from the first dance. That was the first sign that I ignored and let things happen. But again attitude is something that can be changed and worked on if the person is willing to. And given Eavs attitude of I am mightier than anyone and no one can tell me anything, I am too perfect for any critizism... pffff
And like a fool I was trying and trying and trying hoping that she would also put in some effort. Well for someone who tries to preach and live a superficial life of only showing off to other people that is not the whole truth, it is not something that will suit in their way of life. Not even the attitude of acceptance of all the lies she said and rather tries to turn the table on me and said that I am going around telling stories about her,,, hahaha..... re-read that mail to Amit so many times to see where I must have presented something that was not true..... its a lost cause when someone already had made up her mind to go in a different direction with someone else..... they will try to tell as many stories about me as possible to make me into the Villian so that they are not accused by others of been EVIL. and in a big way to justify that their own evil actions are right.
And after repeatedly telling the lies about me, even they soon start believeing the lies they say about me. And soon the subconsicious mind takes over and they are not able to face the truth even if its right in front of their eyes.
Tried to teach malini the polka bachata, she seemed nervous but seems to improve much more.
the crowd on wednesday looks and feels much better than on weekends.
3pm to 4 test status meeting.
In between worked on cleaning up the code and documenting it in the r19 Configuration Items1.xls
5:30 take off and drop Anoy at his apt and go home. plan to pick him up latter to go to King of Purssia mall.
around 6:45 get back and pick Anoy and head to the mall. Huge mall, with all the branded names. Was not able to find anything to buy for Anil and famil. Anoy brought a pair of dress.
9:30 get back to Sultan for some punjabi chicken biriyani.. not anywhere as good as the real biriyani.
10:30 drop him off and head home. to pack. just planning on talking a back pack, practice for the Euro trip.
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got out of bed around 5:55am :) no breakfast as usual, was not able to finish the Tea. Rushed out and reached work around 7:05am. Then had issues of connectivity. Got chating with sweta on her new connection and remote machine.
around 8 after the call went to the war room to show her the test envi. again issues with making an out bound net meeting call. was calling her number when she called me up.
Showed her the Mvc email that comes as additional only seen in test and not dev.
I am still buzzed with yesterday nights salsa and my best merengue thus far in philly, asked one gal who I thought was nice and she said no, and suddenly a sweet looking chinese gal walks over across the room and asks me to dance,,,,, wooohooo. And she danced like a pro. Turns out that she is from Oreagon. She was so easy to lead. Attitude I guess is the key to a partnership. Something I had difficulty in leading Eva, even from the first dance. That was the first sign that I ignored and let things happen. But again attitude is something that can be changed and worked on if the person is willing to. And given Eavs attitude of I am mightier than anyone and no one can tell me anything, I am too perfect for any critizism... pffff
And like a fool I was trying and trying and trying hoping that she would also put in some effort. Well for someone who tries to preach and live a superficial life of only showing off to other people that is not the whole truth, it is not something that will suit in their way of life. Not even the attitude of acceptance of all the lies she said and rather tries to turn the table on me and said that I am going around telling stories about her,,, hahaha..... re-read that mail to Amit so many times to see where I must have presented something that was not true..... its a lost cause when someone already had made up her mind to go in a different direction with someone else..... they will try to tell as many stories about me as possible to make me into the Villian so that they are not accused by others of been EVIL. and in a big way to justify that their own evil actions are right.
And after repeatedly telling the lies about me, even they soon start believeing the lies they say about me. And soon the subconsicious mind takes over and they are not able to face the truth even if its right in front of their eyes.
Tried to teach malini the polka bachata, she seemed nervous but seems to improve much more.
the crowd on wednesday looks and feels much better than on weekends.
3pm to 4 test status meeting.
In between worked on cleaning up the code and documenting it in the r19 Configuration Items1.xls
5:30 take off and drop Anoy at his apt and go home. plan to pick him up latter to go to King of Purssia mall.
around 6:45 get back and pick Anoy and head to the mall. Huge mall, with all the branded names. Was not able to find anything to buy for Anil and famil. Anoy brought a pair of dress.
9:30 get back to Sultan for some punjabi chicken biriyani.. not anywhere as good as the real biriyani.
10:30 drop him off and head home. to pack. just planning on talking a back pack, practice for the Euro trip.
Wednesday, August 18, 2010
Aug 18 Wed, got to get moving in life
Wednesday 18 Aug 2010
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After hitting the bed early with a lack luster sleep and looking for direction in life and the web of confusing clutter. woke up with the alarm at 5am and must have hit snooze atleast 6 times. Only got out of bed thinking about the conf call to bangalore. Had ginger tea and made it to work by 7:05am.
The climate outside is all dark and cloudy, but the forecast says sun. hehehe.. life and predictions. If what is in mordern day considered scientific weather forecast can go so wrong whats the guarantee and why is it so difficult to accept Astrological forecasts :) good Question.
Finished demo by 8:50 so that sweta can go catch her bus at 6:30 from office in bangalore. She reaches home around 8: to 8:30pm. two hrs of travel.
10to 11 weekly status meeting. and 3 to 4 QC meeting.
sangi asks me to work on the OMC code . to seperate the screen pop code from mvc. Atlast some work,, tried doing the Unit testing on dev, but seems not set up in avaya, so try and do that in the war room in test envi.
in between went to the bank and deposited the check I got from vancouver for the house deposite.
Around 5:45pm when stepping out of the office saw that malini had send a text msg for goin out salsa dancing. thats a good motivator. call her back and we planned on been there by 9.
told her that I am kind of feeling depressed and low thinking about my life and she was even more charged to motivate me to go out dancing.
Called up narayan and, Same thing I got from narayan in the evening after that to go out and socialize.
Got call from muhu and told him about the letter he accidently sent to me along with my mails.
8:18 too late to have anything for dinner, got call from malini that she is on her way from new jersey... so rushed thru some chips and washed it down with a bit of scotch.
Reached brasils around 9:40 great parking place... too many men than women. so sat out for the class. malini seems to enjoy it. and there were lot more hot and smoking hot looking girls.
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After hitting the bed early with a lack luster sleep and looking for direction in life and the web of confusing clutter. woke up with the alarm at 5am and must have hit snooze atleast 6 times. Only got out of bed thinking about the conf call to bangalore. Had ginger tea and made it to work by 7:05am.
The climate outside is all dark and cloudy, but the forecast says sun. hehehe.. life and predictions. If what is in mordern day considered scientific weather forecast can go so wrong whats the guarantee and why is it so difficult to accept Astrological forecasts :) good Question.
Finished demo by 8:50 so that sweta can go catch her bus at 6:30 from office in bangalore. She reaches home around 8: to 8:30pm. two hrs of travel.
10to 11 weekly status meeting. and 3 to 4 QC meeting.
sangi asks me to work on the OMC code . to seperate the screen pop code from mvc. Atlast some work,, tried doing the Unit testing on dev, but seems not set up in avaya, so try and do that in the war room in test envi.
in between went to the bank and deposited the check I got from vancouver for the house deposite.
Around 5:45pm when stepping out of the office saw that malini had send a text msg for goin out salsa dancing. thats a good motivator. call her back and we planned on been there by 9.
told her that I am kind of feeling depressed and low thinking about my life and she was even more charged to motivate me to go out dancing.
Called up narayan and, Same thing I got from narayan in the evening after that to go out and socialize.
Got call from muhu and told him about the letter he accidently sent to me along with my mails.
8:18 too late to have anything for dinner, got call from malini that she is on her way from new jersey... so rushed thru some chips and washed it down with a bit of scotch.
Reached brasils around 9:40 great parking place... too many men than women. so sat out for the class. malini seems to enjoy it. and there were lot more hot and smoking hot looking girls.
Tuesday, August 17, 2010
Aug 17 Tuesday, got mail from Raj-finland
Tuesday Aug 17 2010
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Again the same lethargy to wake up to the 5am alarm. out of bed only by 6am made it to work around 7:05am and log on to the conf to be told by aji that our conf was else where. Sweta was on the call and heard something about Argentina in the call.
Had talk with her in bangalore upto 9am.
Got mail from RajUnn about his trip to Cali from fin.
getting ready for the trip to Dallas, still trying to figure out what gift I can buy for Anil and family. Malinis suggest of ice-cream maker sounded good, but I am traveling light with just the carry on. Its friday in and sunday evening out......
Afternoon ajay sends me a msg asking to go out to Dosa hut. So end up going there with ajay and anoy. Interesting inputs about experience from ajay. He is just got engaged last month after going to india and seems to have met a very good kashmiri gal. thou he grew up in mumbai. he went back last month after 4 years.
So agree with him about the wifey qualities that a guy looks for in a women he wants to marry and have a family with. ITs just not the question of Western women, even in India many women in the cities are so filled with Ego and wanting to be free they have little regard for the FAMILY and the need to be compromising and sacrificing our own individuality for the sake of the TEAM(FAMILY). Thats what team work is all about.
Just heard about a women who strapped her kids to the car seat and dorve it into a river. It seems she wanted to be free.
Sometimes when I think of the way Eva gets angry and reacts, I sometimes get the image of a angry women who may just kill all her kids and just go to be free from any responsibilities and accountability and go around the world. Hope things like that do not happen to her or anyone.
3 to 4 meeting test team.
Most to time was trying to log on to deve3 to complete the tests and understand the limits of what we have as compared to Test. mails going back and forth with Mat and then the bunch of noise makers tony and li wang. who seem to not have much to do other than going around trying to make a big deal about something that is not impacting them at all.
Got home early, was feeling lethargic and lazy. The intention and motivation to go out running lost the battle to hunger and after a heavy beef curry and rice dinner was in no mood to run..... just found that I almost put on about 8 pounds the past week. ahhhhh
Got to see bachelor pad..... wooo it was so revealing to see how low the loyalty factor in women are, how deviously calculating and manipulative they are. And how they paint a guy as bad viciously as possible with zero sense of accountibilty to their own actions..... its kind of like a universal disease that beautiful women seem to have. Like been blessed with the power of beauty that seems to drive most men crazy. Seems to paralyze their logical sense of thinking and bring about thier sexual greed out. After that he is no longer a human being, more living with the brain of a animal in heat. :)
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Again the same lethargy to wake up to the 5am alarm. out of bed only by 6am made it to work around 7:05am and log on to the conf to be told by aji that our conf was else where. Sweta was on the call and heard something about Argentina in the call.
Had talk with her in bangalore upto 9am.
Got mail from RajUnn about his trip to Cali from fin.
getting ready for the trip to Dallas, still trying to figure out what gift I can buy for Anil and family. Malinis suggest of ice-cream maker sounded good, but I am traveling light with just the carry on. Its friday in and sunday evening out......
Afternoon ajay sends me a msg asking to go out to Dosa hut. So end up going there with ajay and anoy. Interesting inputs about experience from ajay. He is just got engaged last month after going to india and seems to have met a very good kashmiri gal. thou he grew up in mumbai. he went back last month after 4 years.
So agree with him about the wifey qualities that a guy looks for in a women he wants to marry and have a family with. ITs just not the question of Western women, even in India many women in the cities are so filled with Ego and wanting to be free they have little regard for the FAMILY and the need to be compromising and sacrificing our own individuality for the sake of the TEAM(FAMILY). Thats what team work is all about.
Just heard about a women who strapped her kids to the car seat and dorve it into a river. It seems she wanted to be free.
Sometimes when I think of the way Eva gets angry and reacts, I sometimes get the image of a angry women who may just kill all her kids and just go to be free from any responsibilities and accountability and go around the world. Hope things like that do not happen to her or anyone.
3 to 4 meeting test team.
Most to time was trying to log on to deve3 to complete the tests and understand the limits of what we have as compared to Test. mails going back and forth with Mat and then the bunch of noise makers tony and li wang. who seem to not have much to do other than going around trying to make a big deal about something that is not impacting them at all.
Got home early, was feeling lethargic and lazy. The intention and motivation to go out running lost the battle to hunger and after a heavy beef curry and rice dinner was in no mood to run..... just found that I almost put on about 8 pounds the past week. ahhhhh
Got to see bachelor pad..... wooo it was so revealing to see how low the loyalty factor in women are, how deviously calculating and manipulative they are. And how they paint a guy as bad viciously as possible with zero sense of accountibilty to their own actions..... its kind of like a universal disease that beautiful women seem to have. Like been blessed with the power of beauty that seems to drive most men crazy. Seems to paralyze their logical sense of thinking and bring about thier sexual greed out. After that he is no longer a human being, more living with the brain of a animal in heat. :)
Monday, August 16, 2010
Aug 16 Mon,,, lazzzines KT motivation
Monday 16th Aug 2010
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Woke up with weird dreams, was hard to get out of bed, @ 5:55am pushed myself out and about thinking about the Knowledge transfer I need to do to Swetha.
Got to work by 7 and after the conf, started the KT. upto 9am EST, which was like 6:30pm IST.
then got busy with vaughan home
looks like a great way to get to spain and spend time with the local population. applied for Sep 5th but its full. next one after
August 29 - September 3
and September 26 - October 1
dammm I wish I could just go there in Aug 29.
Maybe will try latter for Sep 26 to Oct 1. Get to know the culture a bit more.
Evening called up Malini to ask her if she was interested in going for salsa at the Vango.
got her voice mesg, left a msg telling her about my plan.
Later got a call back from her. she sounded low. Turns out her best friends mom passed away in Boston and she just got out of the Durga temple near her house.
She wanted to go Wednesday, so not sure how I will feel on Wednesday as I am leaving on Friday to Dallas to meet Anil.
Had a heartly dinner around 8:30pm with rice, beef curry and ginger pickle from Andhra pradesh.
After that even I started feeling lazy and rather decided to stay home and read the book. The skies seem dark and as the evening progressed, the skies lit up with continous lightening followed by roaring thunder. So it turned out to be a good decision to stay put at home.
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Woke up with weird dreams, was hard to get out of bed, @ 5:55am pushed myself out and about thinking about the Knowledge transfer I need to do to Swetha.
Got to work by 7 and after the conf, started the KT. upto 9am EST, which was like 6:30pm IST.
then got busy with vaughan home
looks like a great way to get to spain and spend time with the local population. applied for Sep 5th but its full. next one after
August 29 - September 3
and September 26 - October 1
dammm I wish I could just go there in Aug 29.
Maybe will try latter for Sep 26 to Oct 1. Get to know the culture a bit more.
Evening called up Malini to ask her if she was interested in going for salsa at the Vango.
got her voice mesg, left a msg telling her about my plan.
Later got a call back from her. she sounded low. Turns out her best friends mom passed away in Boston and she just got out of the Durga temple near her house.
She wanted to go Wednesday, so not sure how I will feel on Wednesday as I am leaving on Friday to Dallas to meet Anil.
Had a heartly dinner around 8:30pm with rice, beef curry and ginger pickle from Andhra pradesh.
After that even I started feeling lazy and rather decided to stay home and read the book. The skies seem dark and as the evening progressed, the skies lit up with continous lightening followed by roaring thunder. So it turned out to be a good decision to stay put at home.
Sunday, August 15, 2010
Aug 15 Sunday ,, Indian Independence day
Sunday Aug 15 2010
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wake up around 9:30 trying to prioritize the day,,,,, checked the sand dunes hike,,, too late they were meeting up around 7:45am and at ocean city around 9:45am.
Called up home, there still seems to be issues with phone and the disturbance.
Made ginger tea. hmmm and called up Anoy to see if he would be interested in going to down town philly for the Festival of India. He got invited for lunch by his bong friend.
That is one thing I am getting to notice, non of the guys at work invited me or were out going in terms of wanting to invite me to their house, except for Aji and Ajay, but seemed to be interested in trying to have party at MY place. yea right, like I am going to allow that.
Well I can understand most or all of them wanting to spend more time with their families and we are all so ethnically different indians. Guess if it was a malu, it would have been a different thing.
Well Atleast I got Raj D to my house and entertained him with boody marys before he left to India. And neither did he invite me to his house. Even thou I used to drop him off at his house a few time (did not want to say many times). But never invited me into his house ;)
So I guess I was not very way off in making it a priority to go for his farewell party. And I was not going to give up the commitment I made before they decided on the time and date of the party. I am glad I did not go, more so confirmed by the way they were talking about it after the party..... sickeningly cheap.
okay,,, back to prioritizing ,, maybe a good time to go down town. cheers and maybe visit the independence hall of Philly. ;)
At the train station, it was raining, got call from AV, decided not to go in the rain as it was already too late to go. With one hour of train ride into the city.
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wake up around 9:30 trying to prioritize the day,,,,, checked the sand dunes hike,,, too late they were meeting up around 7:45am and at ocean city around 9:45am.
Called up home, there still seems to be issues with phone and the disturbance.
Made ginger tea. hmmm and called up Anoy to see if he would be interested in going to down town philly for the Festival of India. He got invited for lunch by his bong friend.
That is one thing I am getting to notice, non of the guys at work invited me or were out going in terms of wanting to invite me to their house, except for Aji and Ajay, but seemed to be interested in trying to have party at MY place. yea right, like I am going to allow that.
Well I can understand most or all of them wanting to spend more time with their families and we are all so ethnically different indians. Guess if it was a malu, it would have been a different thing.
Well Atleast I got Raj D to my house and entertained him with boody marys before he left to India. And neither did he invite me to his house. Even thou I used to drop him off at his house a few time (did not want to say many times). But never invited me into his house ;)
So I guess I was not very way off in making it a priority to go for his farewell party. And I was not going to give up the commitment I made before they decided on the time and date of the party. I am glad I did not go, more so confirmed by the way they were talking about it after the party..... sickeningly cheap.
okay,,, back to prioritizing ,, maybe a good time to go down town. cheers and maybe visit the independence hall of Philly. ;)
At the train station, it was raining, got call from AV, decided not to go in the rain as it was already too late to go. With one hour of train ride into the city.
Saturday, August 14, 2010
Aug 14 Sat something special today but dont remember
Saturday Aug 14 2010
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Woke up and was debating to go for the "Wildflower and Butterflies" hike or go to peace valley.
Send Malin a msg asking her if she wanted to go to peace valley. got reply back that her parents are leaving this evening and will call me latter to coordinate tonites salsa.
Everything in life comes with a Expiry date. . .
Like it or not, its a fact of life:). . .
Acceptance is the best approach !
That was something that occurred to me while driving back today morning.
So Wildflowers and butterflies it is. ahhh have to drive all the way to the neighboring state of Delaware. :)(
Todays forecast :
The Moon moves into Scorpio this evening and forms a harmonious sextile aspect to this sign's ruling planet of Pluto. Sexy and full of passion, this combination creates the perfect opportunity to connect more deeply with someone special, bringing your relationship to a whole new level.
wooooooo ;)
Reached Willimington Delaware sate by 11:30 and found the place. Great hike, met a couple form Spain on a English learning vacation. Got to know about Vaughan town work.
Got to check it out for my European trip :) Volunteer English conversation
Later went to Stanleys traven and had a home made Salmon burger with beer ;) And it was great to know from a couple of beautiful ladies about the tubing meet up group. One lady seemed like my type coleen, she likes kai better.
6:30pm As I was getting out of the pub and wondering should I go downtown Philly, directly or to Landsdale and back which would mean 2 hrs of driving back and forth not knowing the traffic, and wondering if I should call up Malini to know what time she is going to make it, get a call from Malini... wowow talk about ESP and connection.
I decided to just go to down town as it would not matter much since we are going out salsa dancing. Malini seemed to be a bit bothered about the hygiene point of view of mine and did not seem to buy my argument of hey, in 5 mins I will be sweating like crazy and it will be worse than the hiking sweat. So might as well finish off the dancing and then get showered. hehehe.
Well we ended up meeting at penns landing, 2nd time again she gets a great place to park. good parking karma for her.
We head towards the penns landing walk the dock/shore feeling the breeze and listening to the rock band playing and many of the parties that were happening in the ships and boats that were docked.
IT FELT VERY ROMANTIC and touching.
Around 8:30 we go to Continental as she wanted to eat something before the dancing. I end up having my sampler of 5 different beers. Only liked one that tasted like Kalu. the fermented fresh alcohol from Coconut trees of kerala. Did not like the flowerly taste of the other Brews.
At salsa on a merengue, a lady came and asked me to dance and wooo hooo, had my first best merengue in Philly, rather a good merengue.
Malaine was all impressed by the merengue, just that she is struggling with letting go and be able to dance freely. Well thats understandable given the fact that she grew up in a very conservative way and not like other gals who just don't seem to have boundaries with respect to physical intimacy with men they meet or are fascinated by.
Then danced the cha-cha with the gal who looks likes a bit like obama. And with a very great smile much photogenic.
Was dancing with one of new girls who had a very vibrant smile, she had open toe shoes and pointed nails. she stepped off beat and ended up injuring her nails. Was feeling really bad about it. Gave her 3 pieces of band-aid to put on it. She was bravely smiling and telling me its okay, but I could see and feel the pain in her eyes.
We got talking and she asked me if Malini was my wife.... wooo nooo thats a very strange thought. Could not make out if she was happy or dis appointed by that information.
Her open heart smile even thru the physical pain and hurt will always remain in my memory. Even told her that she was one very brave girl. She made a come back joke about her hurt, I was too sad and do not remember what exactly she said.
Around 12:30am got out and we tried to enter Cuba-libere but was not allowed as I had sneakers, so we decided to go home.
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Woke up and was debating to go for the "Wildflower and Butterflies" hike or go to peace valley.
Send Malin a msg asking her if she wanted to go to peace valley. got reply back that her parents are leaving this evening and will call me latter to coordinate tonites salsa.
Everything in life comes with a Expiry date. . .
Like it or not, its a fact of life:). . .
Acceptance is the best approach !
That was something that occurred to me while driving back today morning.
So Wildflowers and butterflies it is. ahhh have to drive all the way to the neighboring state of Delaware. :)(
Todays forecast :
The Moon moves into Scorpio this evening and forms a harmonious sextile aspect to this sign's ruling planet of Pluto. Sexy and full of passion, this combination creates the perfect opportunity to connect more deeply with someone special, bringing your relationship to a whole new level.
wooooooo ;)
Reached Willimington Delaware sate by 11:30 and found the place. Great hike, met a couple form Spain on a English learning vacation. Got to know about Vaughan town work.
Got to check it out for my European trip :) Volunteer English conversation
Later went to Stanleys traven and had a home made Salmon burger with beer ;) And it was great to know from a couple of beautiful ladies about the tubing meet up group. One lady seemed like my type coleen, she likes kai better.
6:30pm As I was getting out of the pub and wondering should I go downtown Philly, directly or to Landsdale and back which would mean 2 hrs of driving back and forth not knowing the traffic, and wondering if I should call up Malini to know what time she is going to make it, get a call from Malini... wowow talk about ESP and connection.
I decided to just go to down town as it would not matter much since we are going out salsa dancing. Malini seemed to be a bit bothered about the hygiene point of view of mine and did not seem to buy my argument of hey, in 5 mins I will be sweating like crazy and it will be worse than the hiking sweat. So might as well finish off the dancing and then get showered. hehehe.
Well we ended up meeting at penns landing, 2nd time again she gets a great place to park. good parking karma for her.
We head towards the penns landing walk the dock/shore feeling the breeze and listening to the rock band playing and many of the parties that were happening in the ships and boats that were docked.
IT FELT VERY ROMANTIC and touching.
Around 8:30 we go to Continental as she wanted to eat something before the dancing. I end up having my sampler of 5 different beers. Only liked one that tasted like Kalu. the fermented fresh alcohol from Coconut trees of kerala. Did not like the flowerly taste of the other Brews.
At salsa on a merengue, a lady came and asked me to dance and wooo hooo, had my first best merengue in Philly, rather a good merengue.
Malaine was all impressed by the merengue, just that she is struggling with letting go and be able to dance freely. Well thats understandable given the fact that she grew up in a very conservative way and not like other gals who just don't seem to have boundaries with respect to physical intimacy with men they meet or are fascinated by.
Then danced the cha-cha with the gal who looks likes a bit like obama. And with a very great smile much photogenic.
Was dancing with one of new girls who had a very vibrant smile, she had open toe shoes and pointed nails. she stepped off beat and ended up injuring her nails. Was feeling really bad about it. Gave her 3 pieces of band-aid to put on it. She was bravely smiling and telling me its okay, but I could see and feel the pain in her eyes.
We got talking and she asked me if Malini was my wife.... wooo nooo thats a very strange thought. Could not make out if she was happy or dis appointed by that information.
Her open heart smile even thru the physical pain and hurt will always remain in my memory. Even told her that she was one very brave girl. She made a come back joke about her hurt, I was too sad and do not remember what exactly she said.
Around 12:30am got out and we tried to enter Cuba-libere but was not allowed as I had sneakers, so we decided to go home.
Friday, August 13, 2010
Aug 13 Friiidaaayyy
Friday Aug 13 2010
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Reached work by 7:05 was on the call with off shore Shwet showing her all about the application via the net meeting. upto about 9am.
Funny how I had to go out of the room to make the call from my cell phone.
tried callin up Eva and got no response to the calls. hopefully she is well, last time she picked was when she was near to guntakal.
well tried calling her a few more times around 12 and then at 1pm
Either she is deliberately not picking up or something is wrong.
Wanted to talk with her about my leave approval for the Euro trip......
And also the Salsa Congresso thats going on from Aug 13 to Aug 15 in Bangalore.
Have go out salsa dancing tonite...
Todays forecast says :
The Moon in Libra conjuncts both Venus and Mars today, making this a great time to engage with members of the opposite sex. Romance is in the air now, as the planet of love makes a powerful union with the planet of lust. It's a great night for a date or other special meeting.
Went out salsa dancing, ended up dancing with Sara few songs back to back, who seemed like a intermediate dancer, She seemed to want to keep on dancing as she seemed to enjoy it.
When leaving she specifically ask me if I will be coming back again, it felt nice and she looks very cute and pretty. ;)
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Reached work by 7:05 was on the call with off shore Shwet showing her all about the application via the net meeting. upto about 9am.
Funny how I had to go out of the room to make the call from my cell phone.
tried callin up Eva and got no response to the calls. hopefully she is well, last time she picked was when she was near to guntakal.
well tried calling her a few more times around 12 and then at 1pm
Either she is deliberately not picking up or something is wrong.
Wanted to talk with her about my leave approval for the Euro trip......
And also the Salsa Congresso thats going on from Aug 13 to Aug 15 in Bangalore.
Have go out salsa dancing tonite...
Todays forecast says :
The Moon in Libra conjuncts both Venus and Mars today, making this a great time to engage with members of the opposite sex. Romance is in the air now, as the planet of love makes a powerful union with the planet of lust. It's a great night for a date or other special meeting.
Went out salsa dancing, ended up dancing with Sara few songs back to back, who seemed like a intermediate dancer, She seemed to want to keep on dancing as she seemed to enjoy it.
When leaving she specifically ask me if I will be coming back again, it felt nice and she looks very cute and pretty. ;)
Thursday, August 12, 2010
Aug 12 Thru,, renjis call
Thursday Aug 12 2010
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1:30am got call from India, called back and it was Renji, my bench mate and friend in 8th grade to 10th. We talked after such a long time.
Good god, this year is becoming a year where I am meeting people and friends from the past and reconnecting. talked till 2am and was not able to sleep after that for sometime.
Woke up again at 5am and then out of bed by 5:45am, rushed thru to reach work around 6:55am
8 to 9 Knowledge transfer to Sweta. Pleasent and Intelligent gal. A welcome change to be talking to a smart gal.
10 go to war room to try test out the new data in avay that mat put in. dev3 down so not able to.
Aji sends msg to meet, so we decide to meet after 2pm
11:30 go home try to call Eva, phone seems to be switched off. She must have reached Bangalore today morning 4:30 IST.
Avala koriya villikan try cheddhu.
kanii amayi phone laepata ledhu. Full ga Wadi thoni enjoy chesthu unnadhi eyamoo?
Was imagining the worst case scenario about the talk with Aji. But turns out he wants to create the list of tasks I am working on to present to Sangee..... Told him about the "not having much to do and the honeymoon". but he wanted to put together something to show her that we are doing something and keeping busy.
Then asked him about the leave for 2 weeks to go to Czech. He said okay and as per the HR policy , I will be loosing about 10 working days of pay. that is half my salary of working for 20 business days per month.
All for the sake of love......
Am I doing the right thing, or a foolish thing?
Told Aji that this is going to be my attempt to try to see if my love is true. Going to give it my all and best shot, even thou I will be loosing a lot of my scare income and money for travelling. Well relationship comes first and then comes the other things. Especially since I am seeing her and her parents as my family.
Has she got different plans, is she not revealing to me her true intentions? I do not know. Or is she just playing a game with me and others?
around 12 when was home for lunch, saw Aparna on skpye with her new born baby and chatted with them for some time. She now looks chubby , like a real mom. hehehe..... she used to be so skinny. hmm guess mother hood changes women physically.
3 to 4 defect status meeting,,,,
Get back home around 6, then go to costco to get a few stuff.
But Ice-cream as it was at almost 30% discount. :)
Alphonsoe Mango juice ,,,
Now need to buy a gift for Anil and his family when I am visiting them next week.
Went around, macys, and the mall but nothing seems to appeal.
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1:30am got call from India, called back and it was Renji, my bench mate and friend in 8th grade to 10th. We talked after such a long time.
Good god, this year is becoming a year where I am meeting people and friends from the past and reconnecting. talked till 2am and was not able to sleep after that for sometime.
Woke up again at 5am and then out of bed by 5:45am, rushed thru to reach work around 6:55am
8 to 9 Knowledge transfer to Sweta. Pleasent and Intelligent gal. A welcome change to be talking to a smart gal.
10 go to war room to try test out the new data in avay that mat put in. dev3 down so not able to.
Aji sends msg to meet, so we decide to meet after 2pm
11:30 go home try to call Eva, phone seems to be switched off. She must have reached Bangalore today morning 4:30 IST.
Avala koriya villikan try cheddhu.
kanii amayi phone laepata ledhu. Full ga Wadi thoni enjoy chesthu unnadhi eyamoo?
Was imagining the worst case scenario about the talk with Aji. But turns out he wants to create the list of tasks I am working on to present to Sangee..... Told him about the "not having much to do and the honeymoon". but he wanted to put together something to show her that we are doing something and keeping busy.
Then asked him about the leave for 2 weeks to go to Czech. He said okay and as per the HR policy , I will be loosing about 10 working days of pay. that is half my salary of working for 20 business days per month.
All for the sake of love......
Am I doing the right thing, or a foolish thing?
Told Aji that this is going to be my attempt to try to see if my love is true. Going to give it my all and best shot, even thou I will be loosing a lot of my scare income and money for travelling. Well relationship comes first and then comes the other things. Especially since I am seeing her and her parents as my family.
Has she got different plans, is she not revealing to me her true intentions? I do not know. Or is she just playing a game with me and others?
around 12 when was home for lunch, saw Aparna on skpye with her new born baby and chatted with them for some time. She now looks chubby , like a real mom. hehehe..... she used to be so skinny. hmm guess mother hood changes women physically.
3 to 4 defect status meeting,,,,
Get back home around 6, then go to costco to get a few stuff.
But Ice-cream as it was at almost 30% discount. :)
Alphonsoe Mango juice ,,,
Now need to buy a gift for Anil and his family when I am visiting them next week.
Went around, macys, and the mall but nothing seems to appeal.
Wednesday, August 11, 2010
Aug 11 2010, farewel party
Wednesday Aug 11 2010
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Woke up early by 5 and was ready to go by 6:45am. It was good running briefly yesterday night. Should try to do that consistently.
Got to the conf meeting, tried to understand what was requ for the off shore connectivity.
Raised Help desk tickets to create new account and access for her.
Got a mail back from Aji saying that it will be 2 days before the details of remote desk would be known.
10 to 11 status meeting.
Got msg from Dept of Labor regarding my case, by Agnes. She is so nice, such a heart warmer. Guess I am going to feel like that every time some gal talks nicely to me.
Was supposed to have a farewel party for Dharmesh,, got put off again. So back to home for lunch, had puli-hara (tamarind rice) from the temple. yummm and simple with yogurt.
Then called up Evi , she was some where near to Guntakal. hmmm was not able to hear properly with the guy sitting besides her yelling.
Was able to connect with Agnes around 2pm and talk with her. Said she entered the complaint and things should move from there. Fingers crossed.
Did the Brain Bench on Testing and passed that too.. cheers
Thinking on doing PMP just like Anil
Talked to him towards the evening trying to figure out the best credit card to apply for.
3 to 4 defect meeting
out of work by 5:45pm
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Woke up early by 5 and was ready to go by 6:45am. It was good running briefly yesterday night. Should try to do that consistently.
Got to the conf meeting, tried to understand what was requ for the off shore connectivity.
Raised Help desk tickets to create new account and access for her.
Got a mail back from Aji saying that it will be 2 days before the details of remote desk would be known.
10 to 11 status meeting.
Got msg from Dept of Labor regarding my case, by Agnes. She is so nice, such a heart warmer. Guess I am going to feel like that every time some gal talks nicely to me.
Was supposed to have a farewel party for Dharmesh,, got put off again. So back to home for lunch, had puli-hara (tamarind rice) from the temple. yummm and simple with yogurt.
Then called up Evi , she was some where near to Guntakal. hmmm was not able to hear properly with the guy sitting besides her yelling.
Was able to connect with Agnes around 2pm and talk with her. Said she entered the complaint and things should move from there. Fingers crossed.
Did the Brain Bench on Testing and passed that too.. cheers
Thinking on doing PMP just like Anil
Talked to him towards the evening trying to figure out the best credit card to apply for.
3 to 4 defect meeting
out of work by 5:45pm
Tuesday, August 10, 2010
Aug 10 Tuesday, Thinking of Dallas trip
Tuesday, 10 Aug 2010
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Woke up around 4am and lay there trying to think of future plan.
Have to be at work much before 7 am conf call as now I have someone else on my team. got to work by 6:55am and was the 1st on the call.
Its almost 10 years since Anil came to see me off at the Mumbai Airport. After that hes been to UK and Europe and then settled down in Dallas with wife and kids. Thinking of going and visiting him during the 20th weekend.
around 10am drove Anoy to the SSN office. Called up and talked with Narayan and Anil.
then dove Anoy to the Merck medical/id center to get his Id.
Dropped him off at work and went home for lunch that I got on Sunday from the Temple. Had it and called up Eva, she was already on the train to Bangalore.
Talked to her for a few mins.
Status meeting @4 to 5 then got back to try and help Ashi with the status report.
REached home after 7, dropped off Anoy on the way to his apartment.
Got reading the John grisham book and munching the potato chips. Did not feel hungry after that, had the last of the grapes.
Forwarded the details of my Dallas trip to Anil.woooo will be meeting exaclty after 10 years,, last time we saw each other was at the Mumbai airport.. Aug-20-2000. and now it will be Aug-20-2010....
Went for a run around 9pm.... sun seems to set early now.
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Woke up around 4am and lay there trying to think of future plan.
Have to be at work much before 7 am conf call as now I have someone else on my team. got to work by 6:55am and was the 1st on the call.
Its almost 10 years since Anil came to see me off at the Mumbai Airport. After that hes been to UK and Europe and then settled down in Dallas with wife and kids. Thinking of going and visiting him during the 20th weekend.
around 10am drove Anoy to the SSN office. Called up and talked with Narayan and Anil.
then dove Anoy to the Merck medical/id center to get his Id.
Dropped him off at work and went home for lunch that I got on Sunday from the Temple. Had it and called up Eva, she was already on the train to Bangalore.
Talked to her for a few mins.
Status meeting @4 to 5 then got back to try and help Ashi with the status report.
REached home after 7, dropped off Anoy on the way to his apartment.
Got reading the John grisham book and munching the potato chips. Did not feel hungry after that, had the last of the grapes.
Forwarded the details of my Dallas trip to Anil.woooo will be meeting exaclty after 10 years,, last time we saw each other was at the Mumbai airport.. Aug-20-2000. and now it will be Aug-20-2010....
Went for a run around 9pm.... sun seems to set early now.
Monday, August 9, 2010
Aug 09 new Team memeber in Bangalore
Monday, Aug 09 2010
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Was too lazy to get up with no motivation. But made it to work Conf meeting around 7:10am
Shwetha the new member of my team was on the call and was introduced to the team, seems to be having issues with setting up the connection to Merck network.
Called up e after the meeting and she was at Punithas place, her last night at Ahmadabad. Asked to call after 2 hrs.
Wish she would have come to US than go to Bangalore. Well thats the choice she made.
Feeling much better emotionally after going to the temple and hope this positive feeling continues and brings about a more peaceful feeling to my life and that of my family and the few dearest close friends.
Was supposed to have meeting with Ajit and he cancelled at the last minute. Was hoping to talk to him about Europe trip.
got back home early around 5:30pm. Then decided to relax with the book. And on a vauge whim decided to have a drink, peter scott was the choice. poured a shot, put in a glass full of ice and topped it with water, felt smooth drinking it.
Was contemplating going for salsa after sun down and decided to lay down and rest..... woke up around 1am and saw that I just had 1/4th of the glass of whisky i poured myself. Put in the fridge and went to the bedroom to sleep.
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Was too lazy to get up with no motivation. But made it to work Conf meeting around 7:10am
Shwetha the new member of my team was on the call and was introduced to the team, seems to be having issues with setting up the connection to Merck network.
Called up e after the meeting and she was at Punithas place, her last night at Ahmadabad. Asked to call after 2 hrs.
Wish she would have come to US than go to Bangalore. Well thats the choice she made.
Feeling much better emotionally after going to the temple and hope this positive feeling continues and brings about a more peaceful feeling to my life and that of my family and the few dearest close friends.
Was supposed to have meeting with Ajit and he cancelled at the last minute. Was hoping to talk to him about Europe trip.
got back home early around 5:30pm. Then decided to relax with the book. And on a vauge whim decided to have a drink, peter scott was the choice. poured a shot, put in a glass full of ice and topped it with water, felt smooth drinking it.
Was contemplating going for salsa after sun down and decided to lay down and rest..... woke up around 1am and saw that I just had 1/4th of the glass of whisky i poured myself. Put in the fridge and went to the bedroom to sleep.
Sunday, August 8, 2010
Aug 08 Sunday, hike
Sunday, Aug 08 2010
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up and out of bed by 6:30am.... got working on the laundry after my daily routine.
Got the Chicken curry out of the freezer and had it with whole grain rotis made in mexico, but called as something else here... Tortillas.
need to complete the other 4 tests on Brain bench as part of mid year appraisal. maybe after I go to the Venkateshwara temple in the evening after the hike.
Time to hyderate myself for the Hike. 32 people signed up for this one in NJ border.
lets see how the group dynamics is this time. There is one gal from the Mid-west Ohio, lets see if she is like the other great mid-west people I got to meet, down to earth, warm and friendly.
Atleast she made it clear that she loves dogs last time I saw her. She looked nerdy and down to earth and smart. The kind I always like to hang out with and have a good conversation and simulate my intellect. Someone who can make me think.
fingers crossed there.
Reached the parking for hiking around 10:15 and was hoping to make some phone calls to india. was only able to call up home on the way @ 9:30am and the connection was really bad.
After reaching there was not able to make the calls as there were others there and ended up talking to them.
The drive was sweet and awesome, driving thru small country side of US that I usually don't get to see, the farm lands, the beautiful scenery was breath taking and heart touching. I could have spent my day just driving around those country roads.
The hike was great as we just walked thru the partially dry stream. Was like the hike in Zion canyon. And this one was walking on rocks. After sometime I took off my half shoes and walked bare feet. People seem so shocked to see someone walk without shoes on.
Got back to the parking and then a few us went to the nearest little town and had lunch. There was Bombay sandwich, basically they just spread turmeric on the chicken and called it curry. ahhh grrrrr.. These people have no idea of what a curry is.
Then after the lunch, I split and drove to New Jersey to the Venkateshwara temple. Prayed and mediated for some time.
Saw one gal speaking Tamil with a kind of Malu ascent ,, must be from Palagat. She looked so typical Malu (rather close). The long dark hairs upto the bum, the sweet innocent looking enchanting smile. Ahhh not sure if I should consider myself lucky to not having met single gals or unlucky. For sure my heart would start skipping a beat every time I seem the loveliness of a Malu gal. They are the worlds best and the best kept secret. :)
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up and out of bed by 6:30am.... got working on the laundry after my daily routine.
Got the Chicken curry out of the freezer and had it with whole grain rotis made in mexico, but called as something else here... Tortillas.
need to complete the other 4 tests on Brain bench as part of mid year appraisal. maybe after I go to the Venkateshwara temple in the evening after the hike.
Time to hyderate myself for the Hike. 32 people signed up for this one in NJ border.
lets see how the group dynamics is this time. There is one gal from the Mid-west Ohio, lets see if she is like the other great mid-west people I got to meet, down to earth, warm and friendly.
Atleast she made it clear that she loves dogs last time I saw her. She looked nerdy and down to earth and smart. The kind I always like to hang out with and have a good conversation and simulate my intellect. Someone who can make me think.
fingers crossed there.
Reached the parking for hiking around 10:15 and was hoping to make some phone calls to india. was only able to call up home on the way @ 9:30am and the connection was really bad.
After reaching there was not able to make the calls as there were others there and ended up talking to them.
The drive was sweet and awesome, driving thru small country side of US that I usually don't get to see, the farm lands, the beautiful scenery was breath taking and heart touching. I could have spent my day just driving around those country roads.
The hike was great as we just walked thru the partially dry stream. Was like the hike in Zion canyon. And this one was walking on rocks. After sometime I took off my half shoes and walked bare feet. People seem so shocked to see someone walk without shoes on.
Got back to the parking and then a few us went to the nearest little town and had lunch. There was Bombay sandwich, basically they just spread turmeric on the chicken and called it curry. ahhh grrrrr.. These people have no idea of what a curry is.
Then after the lunch, I split and drove to New Jersey to the Venkateshwara temple. Prayed and mediated for some time.
Saw one gal speaking Tamil with a kind of Malu ascent ,, must be from Palagat. She looked so typical Malu (rather close). The long dark hairs upto the bum, the sweet innocent looking enchanting smile. Ahhh not sure if I should consider myself lucky to not having met single gals or unlucky. For sure my heart would start skipping a beat every time I seem the loveliness of a Malu gal. They are the worlds best and the best kept secret. :)
Saturday, August 7, 2010
Aug 07 2010 Sat JFK airport and Parrispany NJ
Sat Aug 07 2010
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Woke up with a stress out sleep for the pressure of having to wake up early to drop Kris to JKF. Was in fact waking up every one hr. Then woke up at 5am with the call from kris. Reached his house around 6:15am. started off around 6:35 and reached JFK around 9am. Tolls of about 20 plus dollars one way, gas about 34 dollars.
Waited for his call of having cleared Check in and appropriate baggage. After getting his call, started off via brooklyn , cross-town manhattan and passed by empire state building. Wooooo the chicks in NY really know how to flaunt their assets.
Reached Narayans place around 10:15am. When shopping for a colon for him as gift for his birthday. :) And brought myself another one. The gal at the cash register was really nice and kind to gift warp it for free and she did a great job at it.
Narayan kind of screwed it up a bit by focusing on the cost and bitching that its too costly a gift and cannot take it and I have to virtually kick him in the back to make him stop bitching about the cost and JUST ENJOY the GIFT.
Told him this is just a token and I still owe him big time for all the help he so unselfishly did for me.
I should really count myself lucky to have such a nice friend.
Had dinner at his place, watched Singh is King in the afternoon and took off around 6:30pm reached home around 8:45pm.
Was thinking again about E and all the things that had happened. The more I feel that I had just fooled myself into thinking that she had some sense of loyalty and had some character, but she is as I had told Amit, a gal who is destined to be jumping from one guy to another, rather have guys as the flavor of the month. So different from what her parents are as people.
And again thinking of the song that guy sang and thanked god for the WISHES HE DID NOT GRANT..... Thank you god for taking care of me too and for the WISHES YOU DID NOT GRANT.
Should I go for tomorrows hike or not????? hmmm tempting... lets see... now for a shot of Vodka and Canberry juice. :)
And that did not happen. rather decided to relax reading a book :) wise choice. And that would make it easier for me to go hiking tomorow :)
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Woke up with a stress out sleep for the pressure of having to wake up early to drop Kris to JKF. Was in fact waking up every one hr. Then woke up at 5am with the call from kris. Reached his house around 6:15am. started off around 6:35 and reached JFK around 9am. Tolls of about 20 plus dollars one way, gas about 34 dollars.
Waited for his call of having cleared Check in and appropriate baggage. After getting his call, started off via brooklyn , cross-town manhattan and passed by empire state building. Wooooo the chicks in NY really know how to flaunt their assets.
Reached Narayans place around 10:15am. When shopping for a colon for him as gift for his birthday. :) And brought myself another one. The gal at the cash register was really nice and kind to gift warp it for free and she did a great job at it.
Narayan kind of screwed it up a bit by focusing on the cost and bitching that its too costly a gift and cannot take it and I have to virtually kick him in the back to make him stop bitching about the cost and JUST ENJOY the GIFT.
Told him this is just a token and I still owe him big time for all the help he so unselfishly did for me.
I should really count myself lucky to have such a nice friend.
Had dinner at his place, watched Singh is King in the afternoon and took off around 6:30pm reached home around 8:45pm.
Was thinking again about E and all the things that had happened. The more I feel that I had just fooled myself into thinking that she had some sense of loyalty and had some character, but she is as I had told Amit, a gal who is destined to be jumping from one guy to another, rather have guys as the flavor of the month. So different from what her parents are as people.
And again thinking of the song that guy sang and thanked god for the WISHES HE DID NOT GRANT..... Thank you god for taking care of me too and for the WISHES YOU DID NOT GRANT.
Should I go for tomorrows hike or not????? hmmm tempting... lets see... now for a shot of Vodka and Canberry juice. :)
And that did not happen. rather decided to relax reading a book :) wise choice. And that would make it easier for me to go hiking tomorow :)
Friday, August 6, 2010
Aug 06 Friday Dept of Labour
Friday, Aug 06-2010
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Up late, kind of feel tired from yesterday. And have been getting cramps since I went for the fast run a few days ago. Another reason (excuse) for not going for a run yesterday evening.
Posted the masala piece on Evas blog. not sure how much of that she will use of find useful or she would think that other people have better suggestion about that than me. Its such a cliche thing, to not give importance to the words of people who are close but rather go for the words of someone new.
Is it because we already have a preconceived judgment about the people who are close to us and that prevents us from opening up and seeing beyond the reality of our own colored glasses?
Got to work late after sending mail to tara, poor girl, been ignoring her mostly because I did not have anything planned to do. Been going on impulse at the last moment to the hikes. Shes been asking to go for salsa. This weekend need to go drop Kris off at JFK (start at 5am from Philly) and then go Narayans place for the weekend celebrations of his birthday.... So no salsa this week.
Still feeling home sick and kind of happy with the news of 15 days paid off by the client due to year end shut down. That should give me lots to go and celebrate back home after 4 to 5 years...... And who knows if parents have a good gal for me, then get married.
Giving up on finding love on my own. The last with EVA, it was my last shot at it. And it ended up in me totally loosing faith in people and love. Been taken for granted and treated worse than the worst. All because she wanted to maker herself believe that she is doing the right thing by dumping me and for falling for Amit. Who just kooly turned her down and even went on to the extend of telling me that he did not find her attractive at all, neither physically nor emotionally.
Well he does not see what I see in her.
And she chooses to see in me what ever she wants to conveniently believe so that she does not feel guilty for her own actions.
Life goes on. Atleast I can rest and be assured in my own conscious that I tried like no man has ever tried.
After that feeling of been insulted and taken for granted and treated so sickenly, even the slightest gesture of kindness of even a fleeting smile from a lady passing by makes me feel appreciated.
That’s how low I have gone in terms of screwing up my own human dignity.
I just pray to god that he never plays this cruel trick with anyone. Please.
Or maybe there is a higher reason. Was listening to a country music station where a guy sings about meeting his school time crush when he was with his wife. Looking back he used to pray to god every night to help, make her his. But now he thanks god for all the wishes he DID NOT GRANT.
Time will reveal the future.
Atleast I am glad, that I did not end up marrying the girls I used be in love and used to pray really hard to god to be married to them. But now when I look back at that, I feel like thanking god for NOT granting my wish.
That song yesterday evening with the lovely clear sky sunset. Was really touching and deeply moving.
Back to working on the Dept of Labor documents and having it scanned. to be sent to DOL new York and Virginia states..
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Up late, kind of feel tired from yesterday. And have been getting cramps since I went for the fast run a few days ago. Another reason (excuse) for not going for a run yesterday evening.
Posted the masala piece on Evas blog. not sure how much of that she will use of find useful or she would think that other people have better suggestion about that than me. Its such a cliche thing, to not give importance to the words of people who are close but rather go for the words of someone new.
Is it because we already have a preconceived judgment about the people who are close to us and that prevents us from opening up and seeing beyond the reality of our own colored glasses?
Got to work late after sending mail to tara, poor girl, been ignoring her mostly because I did not have anything planned to do. Been going on impulse at the last moment to the hikes. Shes been asking to go for salsa. This weekend need to go drop Kris off at JFK (start at 5am from Philly) and then go Narayans place for the weekend celebrations of his birthday.... So no salsa this week.
Still feeling home sick and kind of happy with the news of 15 days paid off by the client due to year end shut down. That should give me lots to go and celebrate back home after 4 to 5 years...... And who knows if parents have a good gal for me, then get married.
Giving up on finding love on my own. The last with EVA, it was my last shot at it. And it ended up in me totally loosing faith in people and love. Been taken for granted and treated worse than the worst. All because she wanted to maker herself believe that she is doing the right thing by dumping me and for falling for Amit. Who just kooly turned her down and even went on to the extend of telling me that he did not find her attractive at all, neither physically nor emotionally.
Well he does not see what I see in her.
And she chooses to see in me what ever she wants to conveniently believe so that she does not feel guilty for her own actions.
Life goes on. Atleast I can rest and be assured in my own conscious that I tried like no man has ever tried.
After that feeling of been insulted and taken for granted and treated so sickenly, even the slightest gesture of kindness of even a fleeting smile from a lady passing by makes me feel appreciated.
That’s how low I have gone in terms of screwing up my own human dignity.
I just pray to god that he never plays this cruel trick with anyone. Please.
Or maybe there is a higher reason. Was listening to a country music station where a guy sings about meeting his school time crush when he was with his wife. Looking back he used to pray to god every night to help, make her his. But now he thanks god for all the wishes he DID NOT GRANT.
Time will reveal the future.
Atleast I am glad, that I did not end up marrying the girls I used be in love and used to pray really hard to god to be married to them. But now when I look back at that, I feel like thanking god for NOT granting my wish.
That song yesterday evening with the lovely clear sky sunset. Was really touching and deeply moving.
Back to working on the Dept of Labor documents and having it scanned. to be sent to DOL new York and Virginia states..
Thursday, August 5, 2010
Aug 05, Thu, moms birthday
Wednesday, Aug 05 2010
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woke up lazy as hell, body needing more rest after two days of different work out and reading the novel well into the night.
Made it to work by 7 in time for Conf with India.
Around 8 called up Home to wish mom on her Birth day, ended up talking with dad and got to know that mom had gone to the neighboring house of her cousin. Rather her Grand dads house.
So called them up and talked with cousin sreji and spooked her by changing my voice and asking personal family questions. She as ever the one who never takes things laying down, got agressive and abusive to what she thought was a crank call. hehehe, it was nice to see she still had that live wire spirit.
And then she turned to the sweet person she is and wanted to know when I was coming to get married.
Latter, talked with me mom and wished her. :)
Feeling home sick now ahhh
11:45 completed Project Management Test using Brainbench. got 3.25 , 5 down, 4 more to go.
Need to buy a gift for Narayan for his Birthday, planning on visiting him on sat and then have to go to temple too..... long time.
Ahhh how I wish that I could just go back home and visit all the family, just visit, no pressure to marry or anything like that.
Afternoon return back for lunch. was supposed to go with a few guys, then I opted out as there was not enough space for 6 guys in muralis new car.
Tried calling Eva a few times, did not pick up the phone.. well must be busy or must be delibrately doing it as its part of her culture and life to ignore people who care. But will always complain about how other people are so bad and how different its in her own culture, coming from someone who has no clue as to what her own culture is. Maybe that is the problem with most of the western people, they did not grow up with information and knowledge of their own culture and are always looking at other peoples culture and finding it fascinating. Thou she grew up at the same place for more than 25 years, never heard her say that she had a friend in her own neighborhood. Thats such a sad thing.
Around afternoon tested the Associate ph # button with the older version I took a back up with. worked on my machine but not on server.
4pm Then was brain storming and bach said Ajy had the similar problem and it was related to the new patch of software that was causing it.
Pinged ajy on the chat and he told me the remdy, after that it seems to work.
Checked out the proj, made modification and then checked back in. yeaaa thats another issues down. out at 7:30pm,, phew really did some work today.
In between 1pm and 3pm when others were out ended up calling the Dept of labour to complain about the non-payment of wages when I worked in NY. Tried the NY no and got thru to a sweet and caring sounding lady Agnes , wow, she was so nice and telling me so many things, I would have asked her to marry me.
Then she said that since my employer is based in VA state, I should try to call them up and complain, Then she gave me her direct phone number. waaaawu. I am so impressed by her.
Started a series of calls, from one dept to another and in the end reached the LAbour law dept. Who guided me to go and fill up a form from their web site. Was filling up the form when I noticed that they do not handle cases where the contract was performed out side VA state. bummer. so called up Agnes again she gave me her email and asked me to send her the documents.
8pm went for a ride to Khols to check out the shop, then to Ross and then to Wall mart. back home and crashed on the bed.
woke up around 10:30pm and cooked long sting beans with turmeric powder and meat masala. yummy..
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woke up lazy as hell, body needing more rest after two days of different work out and reading the novel well into the night.
Made it to work by 7 in time for Conf with India.
Around 8 called up Home to wish mom on her Birth day, ended up talking with dad and got to know that mom had gone to the neighboring house of her cousin. Rather her Grand dads house.
So called them up and talked with cousin sreji and spooked her by changing my voice and asking personal family questions. She as ever the one who never takes things laying down, got agressive and abusive to what she thought was a crank call. hehehe, it was nice to see she still had that live wire spirit.
And then she turned to the sweet person she is and wanted to know when I was coming to get married.
Latter, talked with me mom and wished her. :)
Feeling home sick now ahhh
11:45 completed Project Management Test using Brainbench. got 3.25 , 5 down, 4 more to go.
Need to buy a gift for Narayan for his Birthday, planning on visiting him on sat and then have to go to temple too..... long time.
Ahhh how I wish that I could just go back home and visit all the family, just visit, no pressure to marry or anything like that.
Afternoon return back for lunch. was supposed to go with a few guys, then I opted out as there was not enough space for 6 guys in muralis new car.
Tried calling Eva a few times, did not pick up the phone.. well must be busy or must be delibrately doing it as its part of her culture and life to ignore people who care. But will always complain about how other people are so bad and how different its in her own culture, coming from someone who has no clue as to what her own culture is. Maybe that is the problem with most of the western people, they did not grow up with information and knowledge of their own culture and are always looking at other peoples culture and finding it fascinating. Thou she grew up at the same place for more than 25 years, never heard her say that she had a friend in her own neighborhood. Thats such a sad thing.
Around afternoon tested the Associate ph # button with the older version I took a back up with. worked on my machine but not on server.
4pm Then was brain storming and bach said Ajy had the similar problem and it was related to the new patch of software that was causing it.
Pinged ajy on the chat and he told me the remdy, after that it seems to work.
Checked out the proj, made modification and then checked back in. yeaaa thats another issues down. out at 7:30pm,, phew really did some work today.
In between 1pm and 3pm when others were out ended up calling the Dept of labour to complain about the non-payment of wages when I worked in NY. Tried the NY no and got thru to a sweet and caring sounding lady Agnes , wow, she was so nice and telling me so many things, I would have asked her to marry me.
Then she said that since my employer is based in VA state, I should try to call them up and complain, Then she gave me her direct phone number. waaaawu. I am so impressed by her.
Started a series of calls, from one dept to another and in the end reached the LAbour law dept. Who guided me to go and fill up a form from their web site. Was filling up the form when I noticed that they do not handle cases where the contract was performed out side VA state. bummer. so called up Agnes again she gave me her email and asked me to send her the documents.
8pm went for a ride to Khols to check out the shop, then to Ross and then to Wall mart. back home and crashed on the bed.
woke up around 10:30pm and cooked long sting beans with turmeric powder and meat masala. yummy..
Wednesday, August 4, 2010
Aug 04 ,, day of meeting and presentation
Wednesday Aug 04 2010
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Woke up around 4 and was tossing and truning. did not feel like getting up even after the alarm went off at 5am. But after saying oooommm namaaaa shivya just pushed myself out of bed at 5:30am.
Day of making presentation to client team about CTI. not sure what their objective is. its been about 4 months and I have not done any real productive work that I am used to doing usually. And now we have got another girl in Bangalore that is going to join the team next week.
So the troubling question in my mind is whats really happening, I don't have enough to that makes me fee justified for the salaray I am paid. what is the idea of having another person in.
Will it be just knowledge transfer and then I get moved to some other project in some other place, with they were transprant about their plans, So that even I can mentally prepare myself for any change in location and Client.
7:05am made it to the conf, damm they started on time before me.
Saw eva online, sent her a msg and then she puts her status to Busy with out even replying.. hehehe its so strange or is it just human tendency to claim all kinds of Culture and then critizing others and then do things that are not considered as good culture..... Guess some people use Culture as an excuse. And Eva is a person who is so far from practicing her own culture, does not even know to cook the traditional food of Czech and her mom had to tell us that there are Traditional authentic Czech food. So she is person like many who use the story line of "in my Culture" for her own convinence and to manipulate to get her own things done or to impose her will.
Well thats another reason i think I am not the best ambasador of my own culture either. Atleast I keep the core values of living and know to cook some Malu food. :)
It was strange to get two msgs from Malini in one day. Seems to be going thru something. Most likely because her parents are here and she is counting the days towards their leaving by next week. Not sure if its in a good way or bad. Not sure if she is close to her parents or dad or mom.
Last yeat it was with Eva and her parents. It was nice to meet them. Thou going to Czech would mean that we would need a translator to communicate. And going by what Eva seems to say, not sure if she will be there. Well I will just go by the flow if she is not there, then I will just go to other places to explore on my own.
Life is too short to waste much on other people who maybe having their own agenda and plans. :)
had meeting with clients around 11:30 ,, was not bad as I thought and got to know more about their plans going forward. More focus seems to be to strengthen the off shore team and have one point of contact here who can take care of both Avaya and Siebel.
Now thinking about it, looks like Mat can be the point of contact for cts and then the girl in bangalore can easily take over and do what ever is required to do at the siebel end.
Got home, and then started reading the novel from John Grisham, "Summons". Wanted to go for a run. But wanted to do that around 9pm.
By then I was feeling a bit lethargic and was only able to motivate myself to go to the gym and do some fast cycling. well something is better than nothing.
Got back home and heated the rice and chicken curry. Wanted to make some beans fry. maybe tomorrow.
Again off to bed with the book.... passed out somewhere in between. Ahh its be so long since I read my last novel. Should start getting into it, now that I am trying to live with out a TV. Can seen the huge 50 inch ples HD TVs thru the windows of my other neighbors. The images are so clear even at the very distant that I am in. wow to technology.
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Woke up around 4 and was tossing and truning. did not feel like getting up even after the alarm went off at 5am. But after saying oooommm namaaaa shivya just pushed myself out of bed at 5:30am.
Day of making presentation to client team about CTI. not sure what their objective is. its been about 4 months and I have not done any real productive work that I am used to doing usually. And now we have got another girl in Bangalore that is going to join the team next week.
So the troubling question in my mind is whats really happening, I don't have enough to that makes me fee justified for the salaray I am paid. what is the idea of having another person in.
Will it be just knowledge transfer and then I get moved to some other project in some other place, with they were transprant about their plans, So that even I can mentally prepare myself for any change in location and Client.
7:05am made it to the conf, damm they started on time before me.
Saw eva online, sent her a msg and then she puts her status to Busy with out even replying.. hehehe its so strange or is it just human tendency to claim all kinds of Culture and then critizing others and then do things that are not considered as good culture..... Guess some people use Culture as an excuse. And Eva is a person who is so far from practicing her own culture, does not even know to cook the traditional food of Czech and her mom had to tell us that there are Traditional authentic Czech food. So she is person like many who use the story line of "in my Culture" for her own convinence and to manipulate to get her own things done or to impose her will.
Well thats another reason i think I am not the best ambasador of my own culture either. Atleast I keep the core values of living and know to cook some Malu food. :)
It was strange to get two msgs from Malini in one day. Seems to be going thru something. Most likely because her parents are here and she is counting the days towards their leaving by next week. Not sure if its in a good way or bad. Not sure if she is close to her parents or dad or mom.
Last yeat it was with Eva and her parents. It was nice to meet them. Thou going to Czech would mean that we would need a translator to communicate. And going by what Eva seems to say, not sure if she will be there. Well I will just go by the flow if she is not there, then I will just go to other places to explore on my own.
Life is too short to waste much on other people who maybe having their own agenda and plans. :)
had meeting with clients around 11:30 ,, was not bad as I thought and got to know more about their plans going forward. More focus seems to be to strengthen the off shore team and have one point of contact here who can take care of both Avaya and Siebel.
Now thinking about it, looks like Mat can be the point of contact for cts and then the girl in bangalore can easily take over and do what ever is required to do at the siebel end.
Got home, and then started reading the novel from John Grisham, "Summons". Wanted to go for a run. But wanted to do that around 9pm.
By then I was feeling a bit lethargic and was only able to motivate myself to go to the gym and do some fast cycling. well something is better than nothing.
Got back home and heated the rice and chicken curry. Wanted to make some beans fry. maybe tomorrow.
Again off to bed with the book.... passed out somewhere in between. Ahh its be so long since I read my last novel. Should start getting into it, now that I am trying to live with out a TV. Can seen the huge 50 inch ples HD TVs thru the windows of my other neighbors. The images are so clear even at the very distant that I am in. wow to technology.
Tuesday, August 3, 2010
Aug 03 Tuesday,, need to send out damage claims
Tuesday, Aug 03 2010
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Narayans birthday, got to call him soon.
Need to send the damage to the moving company,
Call Dept of LAbour against Apex - 2000 for not giving me my 2 weeks salary.
okay,,,get moving...
Go to see that Soile just got married. She is the sweetest and the best. So sincere that any guy would just want to marry her.
Read the long blog of Eva, seems to have spent a lot of time today to about finish up with the Travel stories.
Did not seem interested in reply to my msgs.
Thats ok, thats how she is, thou she seems to put in all kinds of great quotes from great people, it all does not seem to get into her deeply. More of her own immaturity and superficiality. Which is not something new.
How does depth come into people. IS is only when they are really hurt deeply? or if they have the sincerity to be true to themslves? She seems to be a great example of someone nice yet living in some kind of strange fantasy world of her own. Not much thought of her own career and need to contribute in a positive way to the development around in the world. Just more interested in enjoy the scenes of the trip and not much interested in contributing to the drive. Which ofcourse requires work and taking on of responsibility and been accountable.
Well that is life. Again this morning murali was crying preptually about this is not right about the company and that is not right, well I am done trying to tell him anything, just listen to him and then nodd and think ok fool I would have told you my opinion, but you are not someone who would like others opinion, or suggestion for you to improve your state.
So to hell with you and keep rolling in your own shit. I am not even going to shed a tear or my brain power into caring for you... hehehehe... well that was not so tough,, the caring is the tough part. Ignoring and been self centered is the easiest part.
12 noon got back home for some breakfast and getting documents for claiming the damage.
now its 1pm heading back....
Talked with Narayan. wished him on his special day.
Then took the brain bench exams I was supposed to take
Passed all the four at the first attempt, just going by my feeling and common sense.
1 Business Communication 3.32
2)Customer Requirement Analysis 2.85
3) Managing People (US) 3.51 (among the top 90% percentile)
4) Presentation Skill 3.20
not bad. need to go thru 5 more as part of mid year requirements for corporate standing.
Went for a fast run and walk and fast run felt exhausted and then watched the last episode of the bachelorate on abc internet.
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Narayans birthday, got to call him soon.
Need to send the damage to the moving company,
Call Dept of LAbour against Apex - 2000 for not giving me my 2 weeks salary.
okay,,,get moving...
Go to see that Soile just got married. She is the sweetest and the best. So sincere that any guy would just want to marry her.
Read the long blog of Eva, seems to have spent a lot of time today to about finish up with the Travel stories.
Did not seem interested in reply to my msgs.
Thats ok, thats how she is, thou she seems to put in all kinds of great quotes from great people, it all does not seem to get into her deeply. More of her own immaturity and superficiality. Which is not something new.
How does depth come into people. IS is only when they are really hurt deeply? or if they have the sincerity to be true to themslves? She seems to be a great example of someone nice yet living in some kind of strange fantasy world of her own. Not much thought of her own career and need to contribute in a positive way to the development around in the world. Just more interested in enjoy the scenes of the trip and not much interested in contributing to the drive. Which ofcourse requires work and taking on of responsibility and been accountable.
Well that is life. Again this morning murali was crying preptually about this is not right about the company and that is not right, well I am done trying to tell him anything, just listen to him and then nodd and think ok fool I would have told you my opinion, but you are not someone who would like others opinion, or suggestion for you to improve your state.
So to hell with you and keep rolling in your own shit. I am not even going to shed a tear or my brain power into caring for you... hehehehe... well that was not so tough,, the caring is the tough part. Ignoring and been self centered is the easiest part.
12 noon got back home for some breakfast and getting documents for claiming the damage.
now its 1pm heading back....
Talked with Narayan. wished him on his special day.
Then took the brain bench exams I was supposed to take
Passed all the four at the first attempt, just going by my feeling and common sense.
1 Business Communication 3.32
2)Customer Requirement Analysis 2.85
3) Managing People (US) 3.51 (among the top 90% percentile)
4) Presentation Skill 3.20
not bad. need to go thru 5 more as part of mid year requirements for corporate standing.
Went for a fast run and walk and fast run felt exhausted and then watched the last episode of the bachelorate on abc internet.
Monday, August 2, 2010
Aug 02 2010 Mon,, start of 1st week
Monday Aug 02 2010
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Great start after spending time alone in contemplation and enjoying time with my self. Got a lot of things done and also started reading a book by John Grisham, yesterda, Don't remember the last time I was reading a book.
Never the less, fell asleep early and then as usual moved from the couch to the bed around 1am troubled a bit by the acidity from eating the spicy chicken curry I got to make yesterday. Got to balance it with yogurt.
Well woke up 5am but tried to mediate with a sleepy head. Hope tomorrow I will just get out and freshen up, have a shower and then mediate.
Birthday day month,,,, should call up mom, naryan, and others....
Got to work early , Ashish was introduced to the off shore team as the new PM. Got chatting with eva, she seems to get angry or touchy for no reason at all. Tried to explain to her. Looks like its more of her own EGO and Arrogance that seems to make her think that no should tell her anything and that she is too way up above anyone to be told anything. Guess I just have to take the why should I even care and bother about you, if you know everything and you are way up above all and do not need any kind of help from anyone or just me, so be it. I should just try to control my own foolishness of overly caring and I should feel less bad or hurt cause of her reaction. :)
Get to the war room around 9:30 only to have Tanya come in for their meeting so was not able to test out the screen pop for call coming thru .
Afternoon go and get AAA memebership. basic.
Then go over to the Honda show room to get a quote. damm the part cost about 33 dollars and the labour was like 150 to fix the latch that opens the hood.
need to send across the fax with the details of the damage and see what I can get out off that from the moving company.
around 3pm get a msg from sangi asking me about the pop. Tell her I am working on it and will get it across to her in the night.
then 4 to 6:30 there was the KT from Kris to Ashish so after that I go to the war room do a few more tests with modifications and send my report and suggestion to Sangi @7:30.
Get home around 7:50 kind of exhausted, wondering if I should really go for salsa as I promised Laura from Dominican republic. Check the mail to see a mail from her saying that she is tired too, so tell her not to worry as I was at work for 13 plus hrs and I am exhausted too.
Then get a mail from malini telling me how exhausted she is from taking her parents around for the past month or so and wanted to go out with me as soon as they are get on to the flight to India. hmmm
Tell her about my wanting to go to Europe, soak in the culture and go hiking in czech and slovakia and maybe go to greece, check out some museums and history.
No mood to go out running either, mentally kind of exhausted.
watch baseball world junior between Tai-pe and austraila . happy to see aussies get beaten.
okaay might as well catch up on the John grisham novel and see what the plot is evolving into.
Its funny how he was describing about the pain the hero was going thru because his wife left him and went on to marry someone else with out any explanaiton. And I was able to feel his pain and the hundred thousand questions that creeep up cause of the actions of women who think that they are above any kind of accountability.
So proud and arrogant that they think that they are above every one , Divas who think that men are just born to be their slaves. Well good for such women.
Well some men are like that too,
Just today afternoon, when I tired to tell murali that he could get a $14 worth of certificate for the test he cleared. His reaction was, "what will I do with that". Good question, but the way he worded it and said, was full of Arrogance and huge Ego, like these things do not matter at all and that I was a fool to even suggest something nice for him. Its a certificate for soft skills of business communications, a great add on to the Resume. But with that attitude, next time I hope I am more in control and not even think or rather try my best to recommend anything that I think is good for him. Because I am not interested in been at the receiving end of someone elses Eogistical Arrogance and feeling of Superiority. If you think that you are superior, okay, just have fun with your life.
All I have to do is harden my feelings of wanting to do good and help ya. And let nature teach you good or bad, or give you good or bad, or help u positively or negatively or help you prevent or help you progress ,,,,,
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Great start after spending time alone in contemplation and enjoying time with my self. Got a lot of things done and also started reading a book by John Grisham, yesterda, Don't remember the last time I was reading a book.
Never the less, fell asleep early and then as usual moved from the couch to the bed around 1am troubled a bit by the acidity from eating the spicy chicken curry I got to make yesterday. Got to balance it with yogurt.
Well woke up 5am but tried to mediate with a sleepy head. Hope tomorrow I will just get out and freshen up, have a shower and then mediate.
Birthday day month,,,, should call up mom, naryan, and others....
Got to work early , Ashish was introduced to the off shore team as the new PM. Got chatting with eva, she seems to get angry or touchy for no reason at all. Tried to explain to her. Looks like its more of her own EGO and Arrogance that seems to make her think that no should tell her anything and that she is too way up above anyone to be told anything. Guess I just have to take the why should I even care and bother about you, if you know everything and you are way up above all and do not need any kind of help from anyone or just me, so be it. I should just try to control my own foolishness of overly caring and I should feel less bad or hurt cause of her reaction. :)
Get to the war room around 9:30 only to have Tanya come in for their meeting so was not able to test out the screen pop for call coming thru .
Afternoon go and get AAA memebership. basic.
Then go over to the Honda show room to get a quote. damm the part cost about 33 dollars and the labour was like 150 to fix the latch that opens the hood.
need to send across the fax with the details of the damage and see what I can get out off that from the moving company.
around 3pm get a msg from sangi asking me about the pop. Tell her I am working on it and will get it across to her in the night.
then 4 to 6:30 there was the KT from Kris to Ashish so after that I go to the war room do a few more tests with modifications and send my report and suggestion to Sangi @7:30.
Get home around 7:50 kind of exhausted, wondering if I should really go for salsa as I promised Laura from Dominican republic. Check the mail to see a mail from her saying that she is tired too, so tell her not to worry as I was at work for 13 plus hrs and I am exhausted too.
Then get a mail from malini telling me how exhausted she is from taking her parents around for the past month or so and wanted to go out with me as soon as they are get on to the flight to India. hmmm
Tell her about my wanting to go to Europe, soak in the culture and go hiking in czech and slovakia and maybe go to greece, check out some museums and history.
No mood to go out running either, mentally kind of exhausted.
watch baseball world junior between Tai-pe and austraila . happy to see aussies get beaten.
okaay might as well catch up on the John grisham novel and see what the plot is evolving into.
Its funny how he was describing about the pain the hero was going thru because his wife left him and went on to marry someone else with out any explanaiton. And I was able to feel his pain and the hundred thousand questions that creeep up cause of the actions of women who think that they are above any kind of accountability.
So proud and arrogant that they think that they are above every one , Divas who think that men are just born to be their slaves. Well good for such women.
Well some men are like that too,
Just today afternoon, when I tired to tell murali that he could get a $14 worth of certificate for the test he cleared. His reaction was, "what will I do with that". Good question, but the way he worded it and said, was full of Arrogance and huge Ego, like these things do not matter at all and that I was a fool to even suggest something nice for him. Its a certificate for soft skills of business communications, a great add on to the Resume. But with that attitude, next time I hope I am more in control and not even think or rather try my best to recommend anything that I think is good for him. Because I am not interested in been at the receiving end of someone elses Eogistical Arrogance and feeling of Superiority. If you think that you are superior, okay, just have fun with your life.
All I have to do is harden my feelings of wanting to do good and help ya. And let nature teach you good or bad, or give you good or bad, or help u positively or negatively or help you prevent or help you progress ,,,,,
Sunday, August 1, 2010
AUG 01 2010 sun and month of Bdays
Sunday August 1st 2010
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Woke up on the couch 5am. hahahaha guess was not able to reach the BRoom.
then started making a list of things to do. Should stop slacking off, anyways today and this week week the forecast is rain.
let me get cracking.
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Woke up on the couch 5am. hahahaha guess was not able to reach the BRoom.
then started making a list of things to do. Should stop slacking off, anyways today and this week week the forecast is rain.
let me get cracking.
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