Friday, October 12, 2012

Oct 12 2012

Friday Oct 12 2012  ... 10 12 2012

hmmm still thinking of the sweetheart of a gal I got see at prx. she seems to have such a heart warming smile and a sweet pure personality. well all these by only the physical appearance  do not know how she really is. Would she be one with a volcano of anger hidden under her outward appearance?

but either way, it was  is a pleasent feeling seeing her and thinking about her.

Oct 11 2012, salsa :)

Thursday, Oct 11 2012

Ended up going for salsa and the surprise factor of seeing the sweetheart of a gal at pax ,,, it was great to see and watch her dance. Just did not like the guy trying to pick her up.

Towards the end had a few great danceses and WOWed the gals I danced with, resulting in a few others jumping on to me and trying to get a dance full of me...

Its flattering to have that kind of effect. Feel like a rock star. But a shy rock star. ;)

Wednesday, October 10, 2012

Oct 10 As Birth Day

Wednesday Oct 10 2012

Its A's birthday, sent out a mail wishing happiness.

Felt kind of uncomfortable and had lots of weird thoughts and images coming in yesterday and did not seem to have a good sleep.

Waiting out for the info about the resume sent for the new direction of my career . A bit unsure and wondering what to expect.

Its been a gloomy Vancouver like weather here. hopefully will brighten up soon with sunshine.

wondering should I go to Nar house for the weekend and spend time with his kids and take it easy.


Tuesday, October 9, 2012

Oct 09 2012, no mans land

Tuesday, Oct 09 2012

Again finding myself , wel-fed, rested, entertained and in no particular hurry to reach or go anywhere.
Directionless, or at peace or at a uncertain phase .

No objective other than the hope of getting on to a project and work on been productive and contributing to the betterment of society.

Had got dressed and all ready to go meditating and salsa dancing. But about 4 miles into the drive and seeing the clutter of traffic and the drizzle in COLD weather acted as a catalyst to make me turn around.
Went to Wal mrt and brought couple of warm shirts , lime and a box of cut fruit box meldy.

Was going thru facebook of a Friends Friend and noticed that the person had gone down the west coast in sep 2009, around the same time I had gone. Its funny to see all these people end up coming back and getting married. Looks like mine was the only trip that was ended up screwed.
Well now as I look back, I was just the driver for a self centered princess, who expected me to be her servant and handy man. Atleast I got to know sooner. :)

Good learning exp on understanding and studying human selfishness.

Monday, October 8, 2012

Oct 08 2012 Monday, start of new week

Monday, Oct 08 2012

start of new week

Sunday, October 7, 2012

Oct 07 2012 , Lazy sunday

Sunday, Oct 07 2012


Salsa night out on Friday, 4hrs sleep and then on Saturday followed by 10 hrs intense (for me) hiking and 12hrs of sleep :)))) ,,, Good morning to Lazy Sundays :)

Had some very awakening conversation with Nar regarding family, behavior, self awareness and improving self.

Was around 3 pm when I got out and went to cost co. 

Wow was really tired after the hike around green lane resv. 

Watched the Broncos play the Pats. interesting game.

Friday, October 5, 2012

Oct 05 2012 Some good news

Friday Oct 05 2012

Some good news with the call from bos, felt a ray of hope after that. The hopeless feeling was crushing me and my positivity.

So sent out the resume..

then got call from nar and had a uplifting conversation with him.

was thinking about my inclination to speculate, seems to be in my DNA, going by the profession of my Grand dad.
Should that be the one that I should be taking up, seems to be well suited except that my speculation is getting over ridden by greedy hopes and screwing up my covering time or selling timing.

Again seem to add to the theory of natural gratification and attraction to speculative professions.

So now the question for today, should I go out to downtown for dancing? have not been there for more than five months,, still thinking of the great time I had last time I went there on the weekend. That was too great a day.