Thursday, Oct 27, 2011
Its day 2 of the Fruit diet, yesterday night I was feeling hungry like crazy, but held on, was craving fries, bread and what not.... glad that phase is over.
Woke up in the morning feeling a bit tired, guess its a good thing as it means the body worked extra hard to compensate for lack of material by compensating it from other parts which have stored up or stacked up.
Started with drinking lots of water. its 10:30am now and will be starting off with eating bannanas
Someone told me that fruits have sugar and thats not good. Well my understanding is that sugar makes me Hyper and that will keep me active and thus burning into the accumulated fat. Actually feeling more charged to get things done and motivated to do some yoga stretches and light work out at home.
Same thing with Coffee, makes me hyper and gets me going to get things done. Just have to balance it out by reducing the intake of FATTY food or FAT creating food like something fried, chocolates (I was an addict, watched the video of children forced into Slavery of the Coca farms and just gave up on a pleasure thats been sustained by the blood or children forced into slavery).
It was a easy decision, based on who I am, same thing that goes for every person in the world. All decisions are based on who you think you are. Once you understand this, every decision become easier. well atleast most.
What I find funny is that people giving up meat, that they eat as food based on the fact that its cruelty to animals, but refuse to give up Chocolate, that which is just a pleasure, and something one can live with out.
********Break up*************
Its me, not you, not your fault at all, its all me ......
(just that I cannot stand lying, manipulative, crooked, selfish, self centered, superficial people. I just end up throwing up and have allergic fits, sleepless nights, causing me to be grumpy and angry during the day). hehehehe
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Thursday, October 27, 2011
Wednesday, October 26, 2011
Oct 26 2011 wed, Diet
Wednesday Oct 26 2011
Saw a post by G and was motivated to get back into shape, the staying at home and trying to complete the courses has made its own layers of fat on my person and that pic from her kind of hit me where it should.
Went over to wal mart and got a bunch of fruits and will be on a fruit diet as much as I can for the next few hrs, days.
MY ENHANCEMENT and touch up to make it a self portrait
Saw a post by G and was motivated to get back into shape, the staying at home and trying to complete the courses has made its own layers of fat on my person and that pic from her kind of hit me where it should.
Went over to wal mart and got a bunch of fruits and will be on a fruit diet as much as I can for the next few hrs, days.
MY ENHANCEMENT and touch up to make it a self portrait
Tuesday, October 25, 2011
Oct 25 2011 high from testosterone release
Tuesday, Oct 25 2011
yesterday was one of the great days, meditation at the Buddhist temple and listening to a new kind of or should I say way of thinking and meditating. taking negativity in and then imagining that your heart, like a washing machine cleans it up and converts it into positive and sending it back to the person or things.
After that to the Van
High on testosterone after my self-imposed staying away from any social interaction for 2 weeks.
Went out for salsa and man, women can smell it and tend to attack you in droves. at one time there were 3 gals asking me to dance and it was kind of heart breaking to say i will get u on the next one. The bad part, I was out of gas and out of shape and out of stamina. that means next priority is to get back to running and getting back into shape.
Lifes Purpose : Spreading Goodness Around
Lifes Focus : Improving Self and making life easier for self and others around.
These words seem to make me happy, because these were the words that came to me, when I was wondering whats my life, what am I doing, what do I intent to do, what is the meaning of all these.... for now my lifes purpose is to "spread goodness".
It was also great getting all the certificates from sk soft for the pdu (professional development units) credits with the project management institute logo.
got 24,, 5 more to be received. on a average of 2 to 1.5 pdus per course.
One of the good things with this company is that I seem to be getting lots of free professional training and resulting certificates. Something I was never able to before. The one time I got for SAP had ended up spending upwards of 20,000 USD for the course and certification exams.
Got call from Raj in the evening saying that i am confirmed for the new job but waiting for the client to ok the statement of work. hopefully it all gets done by this friday and the account team can switch my project allocation, that way we get to beat the Deadline set up by the HR dept for my last day with the company.
yesterday was one of the great days, meditation at the Buddhist temple and listening to a new kind of or should I say way of thinking and meditating. taking negativity in and then imagining that your heart, like a washing machine cleans it up and converts it into positive and sending it back to the person or things.
After that to the Van
High on testosterone after my self-imposed staying away from any social interaction for 2 weeks.
Went out for salsa and man, women can smell it and tend to attack you in droves. at one time there were 3 gals asking me to dance and it was kind of heart breaking to say i will get u on the next one. The bad part, I was out of gas and out of shape and out of stamina. that means next priority is to get back to running and getting back into shape.
Lifes Purpose : Spreading Goodness Around
Lifes Focus : Improving Self and making life easier for self and others around.
These words seem to make me happy, because these were the words that came to me, when I was wondering whats my life, what am I doing, what do I intent to do, what is the meaning of all these.... for now my lifes purpose is to "spread goodness".
It was also great getting all the certificates from sk soft for the pdu (professional development units) credits with the project management institute logo.
got 24,, 5 more to be received. on a average of 2 to 1.5 pdus per course.
One of the good things with this company is that I seem to be getting lots of free professional training and resulting certificates. Something I was never able to before. The one time I got for SAP had ended up spending upwards of 20,000 USD for the course and certification exams.
Got call from Raj in the evening saying that i am confirmed for the new job but waiting for the client to ok the statement of work. hopefully it all gets done by this friday and the account team can switch my project allocation, that way we get to beat the Deadline set up by the HR dept for my last day with the company.
Sunday, October 23, 2011
Oct 23 sunday
Sunday Oct 23
Back after probably the final phase of work on the floor of nars house. About close to 1000sq feet of flooring and then a few meters of fixing the side boards and mold.
now the wait and anticipation of whats in store for monday. It is adding more pressure as its like a do (get the contract) or get laid off situation. And with the lean phase in the economy and the end of the year for any new spending for new projects, its kind of hard. This comp it feels better to be with for a steady career growth and possibly upto date trainings that I get at free of cost. Cannot beat the fact that they paid me for most of this year for hardly any work done and sitting at home most of the time.
Back after probably the final phase of work on the floor of nars house. About close to 1000sq feet of flooring and then a few meters of fixing the side boards and mold.
now the wait and anticipation of whats in store for monday. It is adding more pressure as its like a do (get the contract) or get laid off situation. And with the lean phase in the economy and the end of the year for any new spending for new projects, its kind of hard. This comp it feels better to be with for a steady career growth and possibly upto date trainings that I get at free of cost. Cannot beat the fact that they paid me for most of this year for hardly any work done and sitting at home most of the time.
Saturday, October 22, 2011
Oct 22 Saturday, drowsy from drinking
Saturday, Oct 22 2011
Woke up with a feeling of still been high after yesterday nights drinking. It sure does help reduce stress and relax. But as with all intoxicating substance its always dangerous and addictive in a bad way.
Got the Lamb curry ready (lamb from Australia), kind of not satisfied with the taste. Seems to have kind of lost the touch. well not having as much practice as before. got to get back into cooking up a storm.
taking a few containers with the lamb curry to nars house. his wife has been giving me great food every time I have been there and always giving me some to take home. now to return the containers filled up with my curries. :)
Head off to nars house to help him with the flooring work, 4th weekend spend helping a friend who lives about 80 miles away. Well he is a very nice guy and he deserves all the help he can get. I am for sure in the western terms giving up my person life and other pleasures that I usually focus on during the weekends.
its been weeks since I last danced salsa, hopefully with the good news confirmation on monday, I should get back into it. More than that, need to go to the Buddhist temple in downtown philly and participate in the group (sanga) meditation and discussion of philosophy and living after that. It was so nice to hear so many good people talk about their beliefs. Wow wish I could have met them before, would have been a great growing and learning experience. And could have avoided the all the pain of interacting with the shallow and superficial minded people.
either way a growing experience, pain and heart break are feeling better understood by having experienced it that way when there is love and happiness its much better appreciated.
Woke up with a feeling of still been high after yesterday nights drinking. It sure does help reduce stress and relax. But as with all intoxicating substance its always dangerous and addictive in a bad way.
Got the Lamb curry ready (lamb from Australia), kind of not satisfied with the taste. Seems to have kind of lost the touch. well not having as much practice as before. got to get back into cooking up a storm.
taking a few containers with the lamb curry to nars house. his wife has been giving me great food every time I have been there and always giving me some to take home. now to return the containers filled up with my curries. :)
Head off to nars house to help him with the flooring work, 4th weekend spend helping a friend who lives about 80 miles away. Well he is a very nice guy and he deserves all the help he can get. I am for sure in the western terms giving up my person life and other pleasures that I usually focus on during the weekends.
its been weeks since I last danced salsa, hopefully with the good news confirmation on monday, I should get back into it. More than that, need to go to the Buddhist temple in downtown philly and participate in the group (sanga) meditation and discussion of philosophy and living after that. It was so nice to hear so many good people talk about their beliefs. Wow wish I could have met them before, would have been a great growing and learning experience. And could have avoided the all the pain of interacting with the shallow and superficial minded people.
either way a growing experience, pain and heart break are feeling better understood by having experienced it that way when there is love and happiness its much better appreciated.
Friday, October 21, 2011
Oct 21 2011, Fri, Last day at the company
Friday, Oct 21 2011
After going to sleep late, watching a few dance programs online, passed out on the couch, woke up to the alarm then went to sleep again, woke up to the commotion at the neighbors, then went to sleep again and woke up around 8:30am feeling way lazier, but miles to go.
yesterday evenings call from Raj was a bonus one more week with the company, hopefully the ameri air assignments comes thru, thou its supposed to be more than 80 percent sure, have to still wait for the clients to approve it in writing.
kind of feeling dis oriented. wanted to go out salsa dancing to reward myself for having finished the 56 official hr course thou it took upwards of 100hrs for me to finish it online.
But did not go and decided to stay indoors and watch a few funny serials online. and eat a few Indian junk food or mixtures.
Ahhhh the Tea tastes soo good, hahaha, can't believe I am having it with out sugar.
Got call from the Doc office about my annual checkup, seems to be in great shape. Triglycerides, the upper limit of which should be 150 was about 200 plus, much less than the 465 that it was a few years ago.
Thanks to staying away from shrimps, eating garlic and drinking fresh cut ginger tea, running and hiking.
After going to sleep late, watching a few dance programs online, passed out on the couch, woke up to the alarm then went to sleep again, woke up to the commotion at the neighbors, then went to sleep again and woke up around 8:30am feeling way lazier, but miles to go.
yesterday evenings call from Raj was a bonus one more week with the company, hopefully the ameri air assignments comes thru, thou its supposed to be more than 80 percent sure, have to still wait for the clients to approve it in writing.
kind of feeling dis oriented. wanted to go out salsa dancing to reward myself for having finished the 56 official hr course thou it took upwards of 100hrs for me to finish it online.
But did not go and decided to stay indoors and watch a few funny serials online. and eat a few Indian junk food or mixtures.
Ahhhh the Tea tastes soo good, hahaha, can't believe I am having it with out sugar.
Got call from the Doc office about my annual checkup, seems to be in great shape. Triglycerides, the upper limit of which should be 150 was about 200 plus, much less than the 465 that it was a few years ago.
Thanks to staying away from shrimps, eating garlic and drinking fresh cut ginger tea, running and hiking.
Thursday, October 20, 2011
Oct 20 thrusday, Anticipation and waiting
Thursday, Oct 20 2011
Waiting since morning for the anticipated news, so far no response to the couple of calls I made to bos (going directly to vm), and raj. have to try and follow up around noon.
Beautiful day outside, with the sun shinning brightly, hopefully this is my ticket into proj mgmt full time.
it was a great feeling on having completed about 56 hrs for the prog mgmt, actually must have taken double that time.
Also still on a high after the experience of shooting range, shot 5 different guns, one of them a rifle.
was able to hit 3 times on the center "x", the popular joke among all was, "hey I got my Ex with that shot" hehehe, all the ladies seem to have so much animosity stored inside of them about their ex's.
well nothing new, the majority of the females I come across seem to be only interested in blaming their ex's and not taking any responsibility for their actions. Always expecting to be treated special, always wanting to be told that they are right and selfish to the core and then when they don't get it from others or their partner, as they do not recognize that others/partners are human beings with their own set of requirements and need to be respected for that..... they end up lying to themselves about how bad the other is and not for one moment thinking that they themselves could be wrong and so highly contribute to all the UN-happiness in them selves and thereby making the lives of those around them miserable. And then with every passing day with the amount of lies they convince themselves with , even the honest truth is so lost and then their lies become their own reality.
And with that the pent up frustration towards their ex's.
Well their life, either they realize and learn or will be lost in the circle of karma repeating their mistakes again and again and inviting into their lives the same old misery.
Waiting since morning for the anticipated news, so far no response to the couple of calls I made to bos (going directly to vm), and raj. have to try and follow up around noon.
Beautiful day outside, with the sun shinning brightly, hopefully this is my ticket into proj mgmt full time.
it was a great feeling on having completed about 56 hrs for the prog mgmt, actually must have taken double that time.
Also still on a high after the experience of shooting range, shot 5 different guns, one of them a rifle.
was able to hit 3 times on the center "x", the popular joke among all was, "hey I got my Ex with that shot" hehehe, all the ladies seem to have so much animosity stored inside of them about their ex's.
well nothing new, the majority of the females I come across seem to be only interested in blaming their ex's and not taking any responsibility for their actions. Always expecting to be treated special, always wanting to be told that they are right and selfish to the core and then when they don't get it from others or their partner, as they do not recognize that others/partners are human beings with their own set of requirements and need to be respected for that..... they end up lying to themselves about how bad the other is and not for one moment thinking that they themselves could be wrong and so highly contribute to all the UN-happiness in them selves and thereby making the lives of those around them miserable. And then with every passing day with the amount of lies they convince themselves with , even the honest truth is so lost and then their lies become their own reality.
And with that the pent up frustration towards their ex's.
Well their life, either they realize and learn or will be lost in the circle of karma repeating their mistakes again and again and inviting into their lives the same old misery.
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