Thu, Jul 15 2010
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Had gone to sleep early, rather was been lazy, did not go for the planned run nor work out.
Wanted to get up early, thou I woke up at 5am a practice which took some time to develope, did not get out of bed till 5:45. So then had to skip the brief yoga and kick boxing work out that I had planned for 5:45 to 6:15am.
Just ended up rushing thru the actions and made it out by 6:45am to beat the train gates and into work by 6:55am.
The first in at the conf. kris and the indian team made it in intervals of 5 mins after 7:10am. Talked to kirs about the issue with mat and his british attitude of probably looking down on us dark skinned. And hence his taking liberty of raising his voice when I am trying to understand the limitations of setting up the Dev envi.
Not one of the best teams to work with if he is going to get too protective about his island.
Anyways, sent out a mail to georg s about needing more help. Atleast he included me in the mail chain that mat did not.
Change and scared of change is a common human thread. People react in different ways.
We now have the new process that seems to be coming on and not every one is open to the use of a new system for internal metrics gathering. As it requires filling up of work break down in an additional system on top of the two different time sheets that are been filled out.
10:05 am got out of work. was planning on stopping by at home on the way. But traffic did not seem to be in my favor. Just managed to reach the Residence inn of marriot by 10:25am
lunch of pasta @12noon.
4:pm out of the workshop, helped a guy start up his car as his battery was down. Then drove to Ajays apt to help start his car and drive to the mechanic as his battery was acting up as well.
Was thinking of sending an mail to malini and as soon as I logged on there was a mail from her asking about going to salsa tomorrow. Wow that is a very strange connection. She sent the msg from Arizona, guess she went hiking to the canyon with her parents.
Then got a txt msg from tara about wanting to go out if she does not get a flight to denv tomorrow.
Wow that is a nice change.
I am now in such a stage after facing all the rude behavior and been taken for granted and with my pride and self esteem so beaten up. That even the slightest gesture of kindness, even as much as a smile from a pretty girl is making me think that they are the best.
Thursday, July 15, 2010
Wednesday, July 14, 2010
Jul 14th
Wednesday Jul 14th 2010
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Time is 1:45am, not able to sleep, had coffee in the afternoon before going for the process orientation workshop in Delaware. Damm should have gone for a run.
Now my mind and heart are racing 100miles an hour.
All kinds of crazy thoughts. And really need to sleep if I am to wake up at 5am. thats about 3 hrs from now. grrrrr coffee.
Troubled sleep, guess I must have gone to sleep around 4, woke up at 5 and then went to sleep again to wake up at 6.
Made it to work by 7 only to find that the conf call with India was not going to happen.
Got to move the workshop that was supposed to happen today at Delware to closer to work on Thursday. So back to work on Wed.
need to start documenting and streamlining the work.
Got txt msg from Tara about salsa. which is practically non existent in my life with all the training workshops. Sent her a mail telling her about it.
4:30 training, last two classes I guess. Tomorrow is the precise workshop at the hotel from 10 to 3.
Its been raining on a off on a summer day. strange climate.
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Time is 1:45am, not able to sleep, had coffee in the afternoon before going for the process orientation workshop in Delaware. Damm should have gone for a run.
Now my mind and heart are racing 100miles an hour.
All kinds of crazy thoughts. And really need to sleep if I am to wake up at 5am. thats about 3 hrs from now. grrrrr coffee.
Troubled sleep, guess I must have gone to sleep around 4, woke up at 5 and then went to sleep again to wake up at 6.
Made it to work by 7 only to find that the conf call with India was not going to happen.
Got to move the workshop that was supposed to happen today at Delware to closer to work on Thursday. So back to work on Wed.
need to start documenting and streamlining the work.
Got txt msg from Tara about salsa. which is practically non existent in my life with all the training workshops. Sent her a mail telling her about it.
4:30 training, last two classes I guess. Tomorrow is the precise workshop at the hotel from 10 to 3.
Its been raining on a off on a summer day. strange climate.
Tuesday, July 13, 2010
Jul 13th tue, Afternoon to Delaware
Tuesday, 13th Jul
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Nothing major seems to have happened as forecast in the astrological solar eclipse. I am still the same guy, single, not looking really. But with half an eye open.
Was thinking about the comment I got from someone,
I have also learnt a lot from you.
Was it real and sincere,
was it mocking and sarcastic
Well I can say, that if that person learnt from me what I wanted them to learn then they learnt something. And will be happy for them.
But if they just experienced something, and did not think much, did not do any logical reasoning, analytical reasoning, or has poor powers of observation, or choose to ignore the obvious hints and then choose to ignore the bigger picture that I was trying to convey. Then it is not learning.
Rather would classify it as experience they can remember but ignoring any positive content. Which means they did not really learn now.
But if they are fortunate or smart enough with better or improved powers of observation, and analytical thinking. Then maybe they will learn in the future.
Made it out of home by 6:45am and to work by 7am.
again 1st to be in the conf. call. There did not seem to be much to talk about and the call ended by 7:25am
8am called up home and again was bombraded by dad trying to brain wash me into coming to kerala and getting married. Again and again the same old dialouges and emotional black mail.
After that I called up Eva and talked to her for sometime, she seems to have reached Haridwar today morning, had some food at the Shanti ashram in the morning and having upset stomach.
She found dharmashala, kulu, manali as too touristy.
At the ashram they got blessed by someone who thought that they came in there to find themselves and so that guy blessed them with more power and other things :)
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Nothing major seems to have happened as forecast in the astrological solar eclipse. I am still the same guy, single, not looking really. But with half an eye open.
Was thinking about the comment I got from someone,
I have also learnt a lot from you.
Was it real and sincere,
was it mocking and sarcastic
Well I can say, that if that person learnt from me what I wanted them to learn then they learnt something. And will be happy for them.
But if they just experienced something, and did not think much, did not do any logical reasoning, analytical reasoning, or has poor powers of observation, or choose to ignore the obvious hints and then choose to ignore the bigger picture that I was trying to convey. Then it is not learning.
Rather would classify it as experience they can remember but ignoring any positive content. Which means they did not really learn now.
But if they are fortunate or smart enough with better or improved powers of observation, and analytical thinking. Then maybe they will learn in the future.
Made it out of home by 6:45am and to work by 7am.
again 1st to be in the conf. call. There did not seem to be much to talk about and the call ended by 7:25am
8am called up home and again was bombraded by dad trying to brain wash me into coming to kerala and getting married. Again and again the same old dialouges and emotional black mail.
After that I called up Eva and talked to her for sometime, she seems to have reached Haridwar today morning, had some food at the Shanti ashram in the morning and having upset stomach.
She found dharmashala, kulu, manali as too touristy.
At the ashram they got blessed by someone who thought that they came in there to find themselves and so that guy blessed them with more power and other things :)
Monday, July 12, 2010
Jul 12th Salsa before Delware
Mon, 12th Jul 2010
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Salsa at Vang tonite before Delware training tomorrow.
Bit of trouble waking up and getting out of bed. Kind of like my rhythm was off.
neyways ready to leave by 6:35am
Made it to work by 6:55am by beating the train/gates.
Ind team was on time by 7:am.
Kris made an announcement that Raj will no longer be able to work in US because of Visa issues. Thats a big bummer. He seems to be a guy who is very sound technically.
Called him up around 8:15am after the conf. Seems to be more a rejection cause of political policies of US than any other. Last day seems to be today and he may go back to Hyd. :(
More pressure on Kris and he is scheduled to leave for India aug 1st week, in about 4 weeks.
Life as a Indian living in US is tough with the sword of Visa rejection always hanging on top our head. Fear of losing a steady income also makes people shrink and scared to say no to unreasonable client requests.
Did not go for the BI training. As I did not see the scope in doing it today and missing out for two days due to training at delaware the next two days
Got home, called up naraya and got his voice. A few mins latter he called back and seems to be down with Cold and had not gone to work.
Was feeling too tired, again the 3 days latter effect. Went to the Bedroom for a nap and ended up getting up around 12midnight with a severe thunderstorm. Guess it was a good thing that I did not go out salsa dancing into the city.
Saw a few missed calls and voice msgs. ahhhhh
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Salsa at Vang tonite before Delware training tomorrow.
Bit of trouble waking up and getting out of bed. Kind of like my rhythm was off.
neyways ready to leave by 6:35am
Made it to work by 6:55am by beating the train/gates.
Ind team was on time by 7:am.
Kris made an announcement that Raj will no longer be able to work in US because of Visa issues. Thats a big bummer. He seems to be a guy who is very sound technically.
Called him up around 8:15am after the conf. Seems to be more a rejection cause of political policies of US than any other. Last day seems to be today and he may go back to Hyd. :(
More pressure on Kris and he is scheduled to leave for India aug 1st week, in about 4 weeks.
Life as a Indian living in US is tough with the sword of Visa rejection always hanging on top our head. Fear of losing a steady income also makes people shrink and scared to say no to unreasonable client requests.
Did not go for the BI training. As I did not see the scope in doing it today and missing out for two days due to training at delaware the next two days
Got home, called up naraya and got his voice. A few mins latter he called back and seems to be down with Cold and had not gone to work.
Was feeling too tired, again the 3 days latter effect. Went to the Bedroom for a nap and ended up getting up around 12midnight with a severe thunderstorm. Guess it was a good thing that I did not go out salsa dancing into the city.
Saw a few missed calls and voice msgs. ahhhhh
Sunday, July 11, 2010
Jul 11th New moon day/night
Sunday Jul 11 2010 New Moon
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Woke up a bit late and was lazy to pack up and move from the Days Inn in Ridgefield to Marriot at Teaneck bag and baggage. :)
At the training our table of 6 guys ended up winning the most points for the whole 3 days of accumulated points, for been on time and the quiz questions.
Reached back home by 5:45pm after starting around 3:45pm. There was one major accident besides the NewArk airport.
On the way, got a call from Bal Atwal via skype that was routed to my cell phone. Talked for a few, did not recognize him for a bit, was wondering who it was.
He asked about Eva, told him had called her a few times nothing much happening there. And as she seems to be having her own plans which I am not a part off. Looks from her blog that her interests are else where.
Well just need to keep myself busy and busier and fill up my brain with so much that I would not have time for my own personal life.
Three days of training and EATING I have gained about 5 lbs. :(
Go for a long walk around 8:pm sit by the lil lake for about 2 hrs watching the stars and sky. Its a new moon night. And supposed to be Solar eclipse in the pacific cook islands. Astrologically a very powerful time for changes.
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Woke up a bit late and was lazy to pack up and move from the Days Inn in Ridgefield to Marriot at Teaneck bag and baggage. :)
At the training our table of 6 guys ended up winning the most points for the whole 3 days of accumulated points, for been on time and the quiz questions.
Reached back home by 5:45pm after starting around 3:45pm. There was one major accident besides the NewArk airport.
On the way, got a call from Bal Atwal via skype that was routed to my cell phone. Talked for a few, did not recognize him for a bit, was wondering who it was.
He asked about Eva, told him had called her a few times nothing much happening there. And as she seems to be having her own plans which I am not a part off. Looks from her blog that her interests are else where.
Well just need to keep myself busy and busier and fill up my brain with so much that I would not have time for my own personal life.
Three days of training and EATING I have gained about 5 lbs. :(
Go for a long walk around 8:pm sit by the lil lake for about 2 hrs watching the stars and sky. Its a new moon night. And supposed to be Solar eclipse in the pacific cook islands. Astrologically a very powerful time for changes.
Saturday, July 10, 2010
Jul 10th 2nd day of training
Sat, Jul10 2010
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2nd day of training. woke up after a not so great sleep. Kept waking up almost to the hour. Kind of not focused. Maybe meeting too many people, exposed to too much info, brain on hyper mode, too strong a coffee yesterday at the office HQ.
Call up Srikanth in the neighbouring room around 7:30 to be ready by 8am to reach the Marriot by 8:15am.
Have complimentray breakfast of fruits and starbucks coffee.
Day goes on, with more orientation and networking. Not really sure. But the majority of the guys been Indians, there seems to be a very distinct difference in behavior of the non-Indians and the Indians, who seem to be behaving like kids out of school. :)
And one guy constantly remarking about the american attitude towards work not been that good as Indian, Very touchy subject, and non of the Americans were rude to make any comment about it. One of the subjects was about motivating a 60 year old guy who was in that guys team.
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2nd day of training. woke up after a not so great sleep. Kept waking up almost to the hour. Kind of not focused. Maybe meeting too many people, exposed to too much info, brain on hyper mode, too strong a coffee yesterday at the office HQ.
Call up Srikanth in the neighbouring room around 7:30 to be ready by 8am to reach the Marriot by 8:15am.
Have complimentray breakfast of fruits and starbucks coffee.
Day goes on, with more orientation and networking. Not really sure. But the majority of the guys been Indians, there seems to be a very distinct difference in behavior of the non-Indians and the Indians, who seem to be behaving like kids out of school. :)
And one guy constantly remarking about the american attitude towards work not been that good as Indian, Very touchy subject, and non of the Americans were rude to make any comment about it. One of the subjects was about motivating a 60 year old guy who was in that guys team.
Friday, July 9, 2010
jul 9th off for Training in NJ
Friday, jul 9th 2010
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jul 9th off for Training in NJ. No salsa for tonite.
So what, need to start focusing on self development.
woke up 4am and need to get out of the house by 5:30 to 6am , There is a 2 hr drive, over 100 miles, have to drive past the locations of jersey city and NY down town parallel on I-95.
Started off @6am.
Sometimes reaching speads of over 80 miles per hr reached destination around 7:45am. That was good driving, traffic could have been worse.
The rent @ marriot was like $260 per night, with company discount it was like 169. Decided to check what the other guys in the camp will be doing.
Turns out that a few booked into the Marriot, others live around the area, few married with kids decided to commute 2hrs each way for the 3 days. I decided to join Srikanth at the Days Inn about 2 miles away.
Breakfast, lunch and snacks were served.
Training was a better understanding of myself as a Integrator manager. Need to get into more of Director/Administrator mode.
There were 3 guys who were with the company for more than 10 years.
The group of about 25 was 21 poople of Indian origin and 4 cacausions.
Evening booked the room from outside the hotel, hijacking the wi-fi, used Hotels.com and got the room for $81 per night. At the desk it was around $100. (Lessons learned from Hiking trip last year).
Then called up Eric the instructor as he proposed meeting up for dinner. They aready left for the river side mall for a restaurant called Monsanto steak house. So asked Srikanth if he was interested. He said yes and so drove over to that place.
Pricey, just having a piece of Steak was like $50 plus $10 tip.
But it was nice to network and getting to know the personal life styles of the two ladies from Mass. One has a dog and carries a gun. The other the unmarried and cuter one was into recruiting for the company, used to drive bikes (motor-750CC).
Back to the motel, my stomach was in revolution mode. should have had lime or wine with the steak.
Watched a bit of TV and and passed out.
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jul 9th off for Training in NJ. No salsa for tonite.
So what, need to start focusing on self development.
woke up 4am and need to get out of the house by 5:30 to 6am , There is a 2 hr drive, over 100 miles, have to drive past the locations of jersey city and NY down town parallel on I-95.
Started off @6am.
Sometimes reaching speads of over 80 miles per hr reached destination around 7:45am. That was good driving, traffic could have been worse.
The rent @ marriot was like $260 per night, with company discount it was like 169. Decided to check what the other guys in the camp will be doing.
Turns out that a few booked into the Marriot, others live around the area, few married with kids decided to commute 2hrs each way for the 3 days. I decided to join Srikanth at the Days Inn about 2 miles away.
Breakfast, lunch and snacks were served.
Training was a better understanding of myself as a Integrator manager. Need to get into more of Director/Administrator mode.
There were 3 guys who were with the company for more than 10 years.
The group of about 25 was 21 poople of Indian origin and 4 cacausions.
Evening booked the room from outside the hotel, hijacking the wi-fi, used Hotels.com and got the room for $81 per night. At the desk it was around $100. (Lessons learned from Hiking trip last year).
Then called up Eric the instructor as he proposed meeting up for dinner. They aready left for the river side mall for a restaurant called Monsanto steak house. So asked Srikanth if he was interested. He said yes and so drove over to that place.
Pricey, just having a piece of Steak was like $50 plus $10 tip.
But it was nice to network and getting to know the personal life styles of the two ladies from Mass. One has a dog and carries a gun. The other the unmarried and cuter one was into recruiting for the company, used to drive bikes (motor-750CC).
Back to the motel, my stomach was in revolution mode. should have had lime or wine with the steak.
Watched a bit of TV and and passed out.
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