Friday May 16 2014
Was thinking about people, their feel for music and heart
One of the easiest way to know if a person has heart and feel for music is to ask them about merengue..
If they say its boring, then they do not have basic feel for music. More than often they turn out to be people who are performers.. into 1,2 style 3,4 style 5,6 style.... they do not feel the depth and motivating power of music....
Saturday, May 17, 2014
Thursday, May 15, 2014
May 15 2014 hurt and confession
Thursday May 15 2014
Feeling low and lost.... whats happening there... seeing m online till late night into 2am.
Work it feels very out of place.. looks like will get sacked anytime.
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Nothing hurts more and feels helpless than to see the object of your affection lost and dotting on someone who does not even seem to care about her.....
oh for all that I am able to sense and feel so deeply about her, like sensing the soul of a soul mate, its weird how I am able to sense her and read her , if only she knew how deep.....
Can so clearly sense the turbulence ..... the denial .... the instinct to defensively divert focus and trying to keep occupied with more pleasant controllable activities, away from reality ....
Makes me believe in the supernatural ..... nature works by its own pattern and formulas..... like we are all pre-assigned roles and guided to do things. We like to think that it was all us and our great abilities that got us to where we are.
But in essence, it feels as thou it was pre-determined and we were fools and fooled into thinking that we are the ones controlling....
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Confession time :
Last Wednesday, when I gave you my address, a part of me was thinking, oh god she is going to come down with her boyfriend and beat me up, or shoot me.
I thought, okay I have a clear view of who is going to come from the front of the building . So I might be safe.....
Then you called and said you were at the back of the building..... aaaaahhhh.. I thought ,, "thats it Vino, now you pay the price of been a Romeo:""!! (in indian movie style, the hero always gets beat up by the girls family hehehehe).
I thought about it and said to myself,,,,, ok if I am going to get beat up, so be it. At least I will be beaten up for doing something good with pure, true intentions. And that too by someone smile I adore....
Was so geared up for pain when I came down ,,, like a true martyr.. it felt like a scene from an Indian movie.... hahahahahaha... hope you are laughing at this foolish thoughts I am confessing too ;)
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Feeling low and lost.... whats happening there... seeing m online till late night into 2am.
Work it feels very out of place.. looks like will get sacked anytime.
*************
Nothing hurts more and feels helpless than to see the object of your affection lost and dotting on someone who does not even seem to care about her.....
oh for all that I am able to sense and feel so deeply about her, like sensing the soul of a soul mate, its weird how I am able to sense her and read her , if only she knew how deep.....
Can so clearly sense the turbulence ..... the denial .... the instinct to defensively divert focus and trying to keep occupied with more pleasant controllable activities, away from reality ....
Makes me believe in the supernatural ..... nature works by its own pattern and formulas..... like we are all pre-assigned roles and guided to do things. We like to think that it was all us and our great abilities that got us to where we are.
But in essence, it feels as thou it was pre-determined and we were fools and fooled into thinking that we are the ones controlling....
********
Confession time :
Last Wednesday, when I gave you my address, a part of me was thinking, oh god she is going to come down with her boyfriend and beat me up, or shoot me.
I thought, okay I have a clear view of who is going to come from the front of the building . So I might be safe.....
Then you called and said you were at the back of the building..... aaaaahhhh.. I thought ,, "thats it Vino, now you pay the price of been a Romeo:""!! (in indian movie style, the hero always gets beat up by the girls family hehehehe).
I thought about it and said to myself,,,,, ok if I am going to get beat up, so be it. At least I will be beaten up for doing something good with pure, true intentions. And that too by someone smile I adore....
Was so geared up for pain when I came down ,,, like a true martyr.. it felt like a scene from an Indian movie.... hahahahahaha... hope you are laughing at this foolish thoughts I am confessing too ;)
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I really wanted to ask you something... but I understand you are super super busy.. thats okay.. no pressure, just answer if you can.
When we danced.... I mean when I tried leading you with just the fingers,, what was it that you felt... ????
I remember that your face lite up, like someone just put rose water over you,, and the aura around you came to life.
But what did you feel and think? as opposed to your normal performance partner dancing and styling.... because with the finger touch dance,,,, you never have option for styling... u will be forced to stay focused on your partner and CONNECT, and would be communicating with your partner with the energy from your body connecting thru each others fingers,,, ... I did not realize that I was controlling energy untill one of the beginner girls elaine (adoring fan of yours in Etown) told me that she felt that I was able to control her energy,,,,,
if you have time to think about it, please do let me know.. what was it that you felt... ????
Peaceful and rejuvenating to be at home and spend time relaxing in the luxury of solitude and calmness
One develops inner strength by withdrawing deep with and taking time to reflect in the calmness of ones own breath......
the simple basics, the foundation, is where your true core is.
Peaceful and rejuvenating to be at home and spend time relaxing in the luxury of solitude and calmness
One develops inner strength by withdrawing deep with and taking time to reflect in the calmness of ones own breath......
the simple basics, the foundation, is where your true core is.
Wednesday, May 14, 2014
May 14 2014... Happy Vino on a full moon night :)
Tuesday, May 14 2014.
Its all in our mind, Happiness, Love, Sadness, Hate..... all different versions of the same energy that we are born with and choose to convert into .... yes we have the choice, based on the capability of creative imagination.
So when you are in love, even in your own imagination or one sided...
let it be, because when you feel that love energy develop, its converting all other energies with in yourself into that wonderful loving energy. Which leads to greater good.
Issues tend to happen when you expect something back in return, maybe thats the reason some say,
Love is all about giving, with out expecting anything back in return. .. so cheers to the one love in my life,( in my imagination atleast) for helping me stay happy with her amazing sweetness, the worlds most Beautiful smile and inspiring kindness of action [thou I know so very little about her]
--> Guru Vino of the Vino Ashram of happiness (Vino) ....
Pharrell W song Happyiiieee https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=y6Sxv-sUYtM
Went for a run,,,,, felt a bit good running.. aching legs latter.. but good..
then to sevilla to dance some raunch hot bachata with a few.... who seemed to be too fast for my standards.
well atleast saw a few hook up and make out... wow..
and here I am lost in the imaginary love of someone who does not even care or know about me.
Its all in our mind, Happiness, Love, Sadness, Hate..... all different versions of the same energy that we are born with and choose to convert into .... yes we have the choice, based on the capability of creative imagination.
So when you are in love, even in your own imagination or one sided...
let it be, because when you feel that love energy develop, its converting all other energies with in yourself into that wonderful loving energy. Which leads to greater good.
Issues tend to happen when you expect something back in return, maybe thats the reason some say,
Love is all about giving, with out expecting anything back in return. .. so cheers to the one love in my life,( in my imagination atleast) for helping me stay happy with her amazing sweetness, the worlds most Beautiful smile and inspiring kindness of action [thou I know so very little about her]
--> Guru Vino of the Vino Ashram of happiness (Vino) ....
Pharrell W song Happyiiieee https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=y6Sxv-sUYtM
Went for a run,,,,, felt a bit good running.. aching legs latter.. but good..
then to sevilla to dance some raunch hot bachata with a few.... who seemed to be too fast for my standards.
well atleast saw a few hook up and make out... wow..
and here I am lost in the imaginary love of someone who does not even care or know about me.
May 13 2014 1st Run
Tuesday, May 13 2014
got back home around 5:30 along with Anubh.
was feeling flustered in love,,,, deeply unsure about whats going to happen.
So went for a run.. there seemed to be lots of people out fine dinning and dating by the beach.
My heart
For days they were Lost
For weeks they were crying,
For months they were locked
For years they were trapped.
Layers deep, did it dig deep and hide
Bring it out, Others tried
Afraid, scared, with memories of betrayal and hurt,
weeping away from the light
Suspicious of every touch, love or kind gesture
And just that smile from a beautiful angel,
melted the walls and barbed wires.
liberated the little baby butterflies
from cocoons of misery they were trapped in
... thank you , thank you, thank you my amazingly beautiful angel.
thank you for awakening my heart to the joys of infatuation, love and happiness.
Copy rights Vi V 2014
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" The Girl with the Butterfly Smile " [work in progress]
A smile so beautiful,,
that every time she smiled....
butterflies just fluttered and danced around in joy....
sunlight bounced of their wings
such that it made the northern lights look pale .....
The lights twisted, turned, bounced of the million soft wings in heavenly splendor...
Oh Girl with the Butter Fly Smile
you make me feel so Shy...
Dreams and thoughts I am filled with
that my eyes are always twinkling like stars
Your lovely round baby eyes
filled with gentle innocence just flushes my heart
little soft loli-pop hands
I held and danced to your sweetness. ,,, (ouch ET)
The touch of your Soft cheeks felt
soothing and nourishing to my torn soul.
oh! How i would love to kiss your lips and lovely cheeks
and love you as my love speaks
in the language of touch and whispers
as our bodies lock in the union of holy soul mates
,,,ohhhh if only god was human,
he would probably understand that its not right to emotionally torture people... [this is me adding my dry humor]
Copy rights V V 2014
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Why is it
.....Everywhere I see
............Everyone I see
..I see
...........The face, with the Butterfly smile.
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For days they were Lost
For weeks they were crying,
For months they were locked
For years they were trapped.
And just that smile from a beautiful angel,
melted the walls and barbed wires.
liberated the little baby butterflies
from cocoons of misery they were trapped in
... thank you , thank you, thank you my amazingly beautiful angel.
Copy rights Vi V 2014
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that every time she smiled....
butterflies just fluttered and danced around in joy....
sunlight bounced of their wings
such that it made the northern lights look pale .....
you make me feel so Shy...
that my eyes are always twinkling like stars
filled with gentle innocence just flushes my heart
little soft loli-pop hands
I held and danced to your sweetness. ,,, (ouch ET)
soothing and nourishing to my torn soul.
oh! How i would love to kiss your lips and lovely cheeks
and love you as my love speaks
in the language of touch and whispers
as our bodies lock in the union of holy soul mates
,,,ohhhh if only god was human,
he would probably understand that its not right to emotionally torture people... [this is me adding my dry humor]
Copy rights V V 2014
Why is it
.....Everywhere I see
............Everyone I see
..I see
...........The face, with the Butterfly smile.
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It doesn’t take me much
4 July 2008 at 18:01
It doesn’t take me much
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It doesn't take me much to fall in love,
just a sweet lil gal with flowing hairs.
The twinkling beauty in her eyes,
matching the beauty of her smile.
It doesn't take me much to fall for a gal.
Just a simple gal with a tender caring heart.
It doesn't take me much to fall for a gal.
Just a simple gal whose eyes sparkle when our eyes meet.......
Copy rights V V 2008
4 July 2008 at 18:01
It doesn’t take me much
----------------------
It doesn't take me much to fall in love,
just a sweet lil gal with flowing hairs.
The twinkling beauty in her eyes,
matching the beauty of her smile.
It doesn't take me much to fall for a gal.
Just a simple gal with a tender caring heart.
It doesn't take me much to fall for a gal.
Just a simple gal whose eyes sparkle when our eyes meet.......
----------------------
It doesn't take me much to fall in love,
just a sweet lil gal with flowing hairs.
The twinkling beauty in her eyes,
matching the beauty of her smile.
It doesn't take me much to fall for a gal.
Just a simple gal with a tender caring heart.
It doesn't take me much to fall for a gal.
Just a simple gal whose eyes sparkle when our eyes meet.......
Copy rights V V 2008
Sunday, May 11, 2014
May 11 bye EdmnT,, with a confused heart
Sunday May 11 2014
Leaving Edmonton with a confused heart...
glad to have met someone who meets the crieteria of a perfect soul mate... but just that there was no reciprocal feelings
So little said
in so little time
So much remaining to be said
But time never permits.
Leaving Edmonton with a confused heart...
glad to have met someone who meets the crieteria of a perfect soul mate... but just that there was no reciprocal feelings
So little said
in so little time
So much remaining to be said
But time never permits.
May 10 2014.. Car been moved the conversation with Butterfly smile.
Saturday May 10 2014
Running around for cleaning up the place, and waiting for the car to be picked up. got picked up around 1:30pm
around 4:15 butterfly smile comes in, so we load her car with the stuff that I had. cooking pots and a few food stuff.
then head to remedy for tea... ahhh was not sure how it would go,, but an hour and half just flew away. touched on great topics and amazing intelligent conversation.
It was heart breaking for me to see her go aroun 615... why is the universe showing me someone who meets all the crieteria of a soul mate and then not letting us unite!?
Feels like a cruel joke.
Asked her if I could interest her for persian lunch tomorrow, to which she declined.. ah well I tried.. more than 200%.... thats 100% for me and 100% for her.....
well looks like she is in a different place and plane than I am.....
summary......
Its one sided..physical attraction on my side... We hardly know each other... And i leave for LA today.... She so matches the criteria of an ideal soul mate. ... Happy to have met someone like her...and heart broken at the same time... After i put that post up..we met for coffee and had another round of wonderful conversation... For about 2 hrs.. Then she had to go... And it started feeling like the universe was playing a joke...
kind of reminded me about the same thing that happened in indiana .. just that its just a switch of my direction of move,, and I had just been in Edmonton for about 2 months... did not even know her name for 2 weeks after I was impacted by her smile.. was trying to pull back,, then we became friends on FB,,,, not much interaction... so told her how I was impacted by her smile a day before I left for LA (2 weeks ago).. she was nice and wonderful about it.
we both realize that its just a physical attraction on my side and we hardly know each other.. and maybe we will one day meet when I return to Edmonton over coffee...... so subsequent ot my move to LA,, when I was about to get back to Edmonton on tuesday, Told her about it and that we should meet for coffee sometime when I am here... long story, short,
as fate makes things work,, we met on wednesday as she came to my apartment...and as I was dumping some kitchen stuff.. talked for a few mins.. then on thrusday at the salsa club,, a bit of an awkard meeting saw her dancing very closly with some guy,, thougth that it was her BF... on friday she invited me for dinner.... terriffic conversation for about 2 hrs and then a bit of salsa,,,,, so I told her hey we have to meet for our coffee.. she was reluctant.... then towards the end of the night she said hey I think we can meet for Tea on sat afternoon.. she has a tight scheduled life of activities, dance classes she is helping with ,, ,, so was not expecting much,, as I also had to leave the next day...
That 1.5 hrs of conversation and things we had in common,, blew my mind even more.. felt like she is closest I have ever come to knowing that there is someone meeting the criteria of "the women of my dreams".... and then it started sucking....
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evening went to tumblwe with mark, who was trying to motivte me by asking me to forget her as it does not seem to have potential for growth as I leave on sunday....
Obiviously if she had anywhere near to the same kind of feelings she would have put everything else on hold... but it was not ment to be.
Running around for cleaning up the place, and waiting for the car to be picked up. got picked up around 1:30pm
around 4:15 butterfly smile comes in, so we load her car with the stuff that I had. cooking pots and a few food stuff.
then head to remedy for tea... ahhh was not sure how it would go,, but an hour and half just flew away. touched on great topics and amazing intelligent conversation.
It was heart breaking for me to see her go aroun 615... why is the universe showing me someone who meets all the crieteria of a soul mate and then not letting us unite!?
Feels like a cruel joke.
Asked her if I could interest her for persian lunch tomorrow, to which she declined.. ah well I tried.. more than 200%.... thats 100% for me and 100% for her.....
well looks like she is in a different place and plane than I am.....
summary......
Its one sided..physical attraction on my side... We hardly know each other... And i leave for LA today.... She so matches the criteria of an ideal soul mate. ... Happy to have met someone like her...and heart broken at the same time... After i put that post up..we met for coffee and had another round of wonderful conversation... For about 2 hrs.. Then she had to go... And it started feeling like the universe was playing a joke...
kind of reminded me about the same thing that happened in indiana .. just that its just a switch of my direction of move,, and I had just been in Edmonton for about 2 months... did not even know her name for 2 weeks after I was impacted by her smile.. was trying to pull back,, then we became friends on FB,,,, not much interaction... so told her how I was impacted by her smile a day before I left for LA (2 weeks ago).. she was nice and wonderful about it.
we both realize that its just a physical attraction on my side and we hardly know each other.. and maybe we will one day meet when I return to Edmonton over coffee...... so subsequent ot my move to LA,, when I was about to get back to Edmonton on tuesday, Told her about it and that we should meet for coffee sometime when I am here... long story, short,
as fate makes things work,, we met on wednesday as she came to my apartment...and as I was dumping some kitchen stuff.. talked for a few mins.. then on thrusday at the salsa club,, a bit of an awkard meeting saw her dancing very closly with some guy,, thougth that it was her BF... on friday she invited me for dinner.... terriffic conversation for about 2 hrs and then a bit of salsa,,,,, so I told her hey we have to meet for our coffee.. she was reluctant.... then towards the end of the night she said hey I think we can meet for Tea on sat afternoon.. she has a tight scheduled life of activities, dance classes she is helping with ,, ,, so was not expecting much,, as I also had to leave the next day...
That 1.5 hrs of conversation and things we had in common,, blew my mind even more.. felt like she is closest I have ever come to knowing that there is someone meeting the criteria of "the women of my dreams".... and then it started sucking....
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evening went to tumblwe with mark, who was trying to motivte me by asking me to forget her as it does not seem to have potential for growth as I leave on sunday....
Obiviously if she had anywhere near to the same kind of feelings she would have put everything else on hold... but it was not ment to be.
Friday, May 9, 2014
May 09 2014. dinner or no dinner with the object of my affection
Friday, May 09 2014.
. dinner or no dinner with the object of my affection!!???
Kind of weirded out by the dance with her yesterday night..
had better connection with all the others.. it was like the worst dance with the most important person in my life and that sucks and hurts big time.....
"It kind of sucks and hurts when the best dance of the night and connection is with many amazing strangers and the worst is with the love and soulmate of your life [atleast the love and soul mate of my life in my imagination]....
M
Turns out my fears were not valid. she said she is single again ,, broke up with boyfriend 2 weeks ago.... kind of felt bad and strange that this was happening to her.
Had gone over to the MKT place for the "run for Dad" pre run party. she turned up around 6:15 ,, 6:20.. met her volunteering friend. who it seems was her room mate in vienna.
Had a brief conversation with her upto 8pm.. ranging from me foolishly talking about spanish and arab history and its links. and about black pepper..
she had to leave by 8pm..... to go to the salsa and be there volunteering...
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My heart
For days they were Lost
For weeks they were crying,
For months they were locked
For years they were trapped.
And just that smile from a beautiful angel,
melted the walls and barbed wires.
liberated the little baby butterflies
from cocoon of misery they were trapped in
... thank you , thank you, thank you.
" The Girl with the Butterfly Smile "
. dinner or no dinner with the object of my affection!!???
Kind of weirded out by the dance with her yesterday night..
had better connection with all the others.. it was like the worst dance with the most important person in my life and that sucks and hurts big time.....
"It kind of sucks and hurts when the best dance of the night and connection is with many amazing strangers and the worst is with the love and soulmate of your life [atleast the love and soul mate of my life in my imagination]....
M
hej ... so about the MKT event ... i just saw that it is over at 7 pm ... there will still be food and drinks and my friend can join us after 7 (she volunteers until 7) but i can make it to be there at 6 pm so they get some donations from my consumption there so long story short: are you available to be there at 6 pm?
V
for you,, any time any where
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V
for you,, any time any where
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ITs dauntingly hurting to see the object of my affection looking dottingly with all her baby faced sincere innocence at another , who in turn does not seem to show the same level of intensity or reciprocal feeling or interest. more like using her as a intermittent stepping stage or a temporary rest area break in his own journey.... :(
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Turns out my fears were not valid. she said she is single again ,, broke up with boyfriend 2 weeks ago.... kind of felt bad and strange that this was happening to her.
Had gone over to the MKT place for the "run for Dad" pre run party. she turned up around 6:15 ,, 6:20.. met her volunteering friend. who it seems was her room mate in vienna.
Had a brief conversation with her upto 8pm.. ranging from me foolishly talking about spanish and arab history and its links. and about black pepper..
she had to leave by 8pm..... to go to the salsa and be there volunteering...
++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++
My heart
For days they were Lost
For weeks they were crying,
For months they were locked
For years they were trapped.
And just that smile from a beautiful angel,
melted the walls and barbed wires.
liberated the little baby butterflies
from cocoon of misery they were trapped in
... thank you , thank you, thank you.
A smile so beautiful,,
that every time she smiled....
butterflies just fluttered and danced around in joy....
sunlight bounced of their wings
such that it made the northern lights look pale .....
that every time she smiled....
butterflies just fluttered and danced around in joy....
sunlight bounced of their wings
such that it made the northern lights look pale .....
The lights twisted, turned, bounced of the million soft wings in heavenly splendor...
Oh Girl with the Butter Fly Smile
you make me feel so Shy...
you make me feel so Shy...
Dreams and thoughts I am filled with
that my eyes are always twinkling with stars
that my eyes are always twinkling with stars
Your lovely round baby eyes
filled with gentle innocence just flushes my heart
lil lolipop hands
I held and danced to your sweetness.
filled with gentle innocence just flushes my heart
lil lolipop hands
I held and danced to your sweetness.
The touch of your Soft cheeks feels
soothing and nourishing my torn soul.
soothing and nourishing my torn soul.
,,,ohhhh if only god was human,
he would probably understand that its not right to emotionally torture people...
he would probably understand that its not right to emotionally torture people...
***********************
Why is it
.....Everywhere I see
............Everyone I see
..I see
...........The face, with the Butterfly smile.
***********************
Why is it
.....Everywhere I see
............Everyone I see
..I see
...........The face, with the Butterfly smile.
***********************
It doesn’t take me much
It doesn’t take me much
----------------------
It doesn't take me much to fall in love,
just a sweet lil gal with flowing hairs.
The twinkling beauty in her eyes,
matching the beauty of her smile.
It doesn't take me much to fall for a gal.
Just a simple gal with a tender caring heart.
It doesn't take me much to fall for a gal.
Just a simple gal whose eyes sparkle when our eyes meet.......
----------------------
It doesn't take me much to fall in love,
just a sweet lil gal with flowing hairs.
The twinkling beauty in her eyes,
matching the beauty of her smile.
It doesn't take me much to fall for a gal.
Just a simple gal with a tender caring heart.
It doesn't take me much to fall for a gal.
Just a simple gal whose eyes sparkle when our eyes meet.......
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