Friday, April 30, 2010
Close ICICI account
Take car for check up end up giving it to sang to fix leaking radiator and the loose upper joints of the front wheels.
Muhu comes with his family, give him one of the Wine bottles I got at the Olympics. and some stuff. blender (old one).
Asaf drops by after that, says would like to have TV and the two stands. Ask him to take the TV on Tuesday or monday with the smaller stand. He takes the bigger stand for now.
get call from lance, said will meet up at polish and as usual never keeps his word and did not turn up. well some people just are not reliable.
10:30 went to Polish hall met Soile for the last time before she gets married in june. About time she got the best of things.. poor gal went thru hell living in vancouver. Glad that things are going well for her.
Sunday, May 2, 2010
DAY one of packing and organizing
Thursday, April 29, 2010
went to sleep @ 2:30 - 3 which is about 5:30 6am EST.
woke up around 9pm.
Interview with Oracle @ 10am PST on Thursday the 29th of May-2010.
Brin Leitsch
Brn Leitsch | Solution Architect
Phone: 720.201.2185
Send Tax doc to Evas address.
SNP 1178, 8/
OTROKOVICE, 76502
CZECH REPUBLIC
EUROPE
went to sleep @ 2:30 - 3 which is about 5:30 6am EST.
woke up around 9pm.
went to HOjo
went to sleep @ 2:30 - 3 which is about 5:30 6am EST.
woke up around 9pm.
Interview with Oracle @ 10am PST on Thursday the 29th of May-2010.
Brin Leitsch
Brn Leitsch | Solution Architect
Phone: 720.201.2185
Send Tax doc to Evas address.
SNP 1178, 8/
OTROKOVICE, 76502
CZECH REPUBLIC
EUROPE
went to sleep @ 2:30 - 3 which is about 5:30 6am EST.
woke up around 9pm.
went to HOjo
Thursday, April 29, 2010
Day for Rush and Travel - Multi tasking
Wednesday, April 28, 2010
up
at 5am, out of bed 5:30
Got mails from the post box, kind of far to go get my mail.
But was glad that I did as I got a post card from Sara B, who sent it from Italy. So sweet and thought full of her. Had circumstances been better I would probably have dated her. But she is sweet and nice, would not want to break her heart at any cost. And its not fair as my heart is still with Eva. Thou Eva did say many times that no one will replace me and all those very many dialouges, I am now not sure, if she just said it at that moment. And like all her many boyfriends, I am just another who gets replaced after a month. Seems like she is having something going on there with Ritish Jain.
In the pics it looks like he is chasing her. And his expressions tells me he is just pursing her as just another part time entertainment. Well i did warn her once at Ossoyos about short term and long terms. Can't be there for her everytime. And now that she does not want any communication, only her own good deeds or karma will help her for becoming another wandering superficial person, who is more like the pot smoking gypsies visiting India for free sex and drugs.
did a bit of packing of my documents that I would need during the transit between . Not taking anything else. maybe get a couple of suitcases back.
Have to see how this will all turn out.
Also thanks to Sara B for the lovely Card from Italy and making me smile today.. :))) Gratzi bella bambina ! :)
hehehe,, pic of Bridge of the Devil.. Tanti Abbracciii,, !
@ work by 8am went to the shuttle pick up @ 7:30am
9:30 to 12 load testing
9:30 was at the war room ready for the attack on the load testing for Release 18 (R18). couple of cuties there. hmmm. one a blond and very sweet. the other looked like a diva.
Well after about 1 hr the testing was over with a few glitches, I would call it kind of organized chaos.
There turned out to be a bug there, that came up when the agents were replying to emails. and when the call came in did not allow the screen pop only allowed it in when the email was wrapped up.
The Avaya guy, don't know his name, kind of had an Aussie ascent.
was trying to figure out the probs at the avaya end. I on my end did not even know that the agents answered the emails.
Anyways got out of the center by 12:30 and was trying to complete the tasks at hand, calling up station sq for the chek to made out too. Then Fry wagonr for any more documentations needed, then filling up the ctsh time sheet,
and was told that the merck time sheets need to filled up too.
So checked for remote log in access, which was not there in my system. Called up help desk, Edgar in mexico city (merck mexico employee) answers the call and he remotes into my system. Takes about 1 hr before he finishes installing and then me cross-verifying.... not sure if it will work outside, can only test it latter.
Almost 2 now. need to get to the airport. ITs about 2 hrs of travelling.
Then started the race to finish the SAP CATS course. after finishing we needed 80% to qualify,, ahhh after a few attempts got 83% and sent msg to ajit.
2:10 go upto the war room and have a talk with the Avaya guy, who now seems to have something up with a partial swift of responsibility on to my plate. And when I proposed another possible resolution, he kind of tried to shoot it down with saying that it could interfere with secondary calls coming in, which I doubt is a possibility. as these people do not have the secondary call comming in or secondary ph number set up.
Anyways tell him that I am heading home and will try to work on that remotely.
2:25 rush to catch the shuttle. takes about 30 mins to reach home. The another rush to put in the check for next months rent. Then rush home pack the docs needed and have rice with yogurt and barely make it to the penbrook station.
Take transfer at market st in downtown philly to the airport train.
@ terminal D get the boarding pass and there is a huge line up for getting thru security. phew, make it past security with out an hasseles, unlike the Vancouver airport where all the security people seem to have something against Indian looking 5:45 get into the Terminal D and wait for the flight. feeling hungry, saw a voice msg from narayan reddy. Yet to get the money out for his visa processing.
call him back and leave a voice msg.
Kannan calls me up to see if I made it to the airport. that was very nice of him. There are few nice people in the world.
Got call back from narayan and scolding me for not having taken the money he offered. :(
Got into the Air jazz plane, for the first time in my life I had a very pretty gal sitting besides me wearing mini skirts. Cute smile and looked like a bookish gal. great sexy legs, must be well maintained. still like evas legs over hers. But this gal I am sure had a head shower every day, cause her hairs looked wel maintained too. Then on top of all that saw the ring on her ring finger. awww the good ones are always taken.
For the connecting flight it was a race. It was at 10:45 and for some reason after I landed there I thought it was already 10:15, when it was only 9:15. Raced thru customs, got stopped for not fully filling it up, twice... kind of did not see the boxes that needed to be filled.
then the run to the terminal. Getting past the security check again. But this time got into the nexus pass lane and was granted faster access. More time cause I was traveling with two lap tops.
Go have a beer and slowly de-stress now that I am out of US soil.
Then was the 1st to board the flight... long haul. And again there is a pretty chinese gal from Toronto besides me, who turns out to be a long distance runner and is going for meeting her cousins and particepate in the mini-marathon about 22 kms....wow.
Then another surprise, she dances salsa.. mama mio.
Get to watch TV onboard and thanks to the hands free by Apple's iphone, I get to hear the dialogues too, unlike Cathay, not many give out head sets for free.
up
at 5am, out of bed 5:30
Got mails from the post box, kind of far to go get my mail.
But was glad that I did as I got a post card from Sara B, who sent it from Italy. So sweet and thought full of her. Had circumstances been better I would probably have dated her. But she is sweet and nice, would not want to break her heart at any cost. And its not fair as my heart is still with Eva. Thou Eva did say many times that no one will replace me and all those very many dialouges, I am now not sure, if she just said it at that moment. And like all her many boyfriends, I am just another who gets replaced after a month. Seems like she is having something going on there with Ritish Jain.
In the pics it looks like he is chasing her. And his expressions tells me he is just pursing her as just another part time entertainment. Well i did warn her once at Ossoyos about short term and long terms. Can't be there for her everytime. And now that she does not want any communication, only her own good deeds or karma will help her for becoming another wandering superficial person, who is more like the pot smoking gypsies visiting India for free sex and drugs.
did a bit of packing of my documents that I would need during the transit between . Not taking anything else. maybe get a couple of suitcases back.
Have to see how this will all turn out.
Also thanks to Sara B for the lovely Card from Italy and making me smile today.. :))) Gratzi bella bambina ! :)
hehehe,, pic of Bridge of the Devil.. Tanti Abbracciii,, !
@ work by 8am went to the shuttle pick up @ 7:30am
9:30 to 12 load testing
9:30 was at the war room ready for the attack on the load testing for Release 18 (R18). couple of cuties there. hmmm. one a blond and very sweet. the other looked like a diva.
Well after about 1 hr the testing was over with a few glitches, I would call it kind of organized chaos.
There turned out to be a bug there, that came up when the agents were replying to emails. and when the call came in did not allow the screen pop only allowed it in when the email was wrapped up.
The Avaya guy, don't know his name, kind of had an Aussie ascent.
was trying to figure out the probs at the avaya end. I on my end did not even know that the agents answered the emails.
Anyways got out of the center by 12:30 and was trying to complete the tasks at hand, calling up station sq for the chek to made out too. Then Fry wagonr for any more documentations needed, then filling up the ctsh time sheet,
and was told that the merck time sheets need to filled up too.
So checked for remote log in access, which was not there in my system. Called up help desk, Edgar in mexico city (merck mexico employee) answers the call and he remotes into my system. Takes about 1 hr before he finishes installing and then me cross-verifying.... not sure if it will work outside, can only test it latter.
Almost 2 now. need to get to the airport. ITs about 2 hrs of travelling.
Then started the race to finish the SAP CATS course. after finishing we needed 80% to qualify,, ahhh after a few attempts got 83% and sent msg to ajit.
2:10 go upto the war room and have a talk with the Avaya guy, who now seems to have something up with a partial swift of responsibility on to my plate. And when I proposed another possible resolution, he kind of tried to shoot it down with saying that it could interfere with secondary calls coming in, which I doubt is a possibility. as these people do not have the secondary call comming in or secondary ph number set up.
Anyways tell him that I am heading home and will try to work on that remotely.
2:25 rush to catch the shuttle. takes about 30 mins to reach home. The another rush to put in the check for next months rent. Then rush home pack the docs needed and have rice with yogurt and barely make it to the penbrook station.
Take transfer at market st in downtown philly to the airport train.
@ terminal D get the boarding pass and there is a huge line up for getting thru security. phew, make it past security with out an hasseles, unlike the Vancouver airport where all the security people seem to have something against Indian looking 5:45 get into the Terminal D and wait for the flight. feeling hungry, saw a voice msg from narayan reddy. Yet to get the money out for his visa processing.
call him back and leave a voice msg.
Kannan calls me up to see if I made it to the airport. that was very nice of him. There are few nice people in the world.
Got call back from narayan and scolding me for not having taken the money he offered. :(
Got into the Air jazz plane, for the first time in my life I had a very pretty gal sitting besides me wearing mini skirts. Cute smile and looked like a bookish gal. great sexy legs, must be well maintained. still like evas legs over hers. But this gal I am sure had a head shower every day, cause her hairs looked wel maintained too. Then on top of all that saw the ring on her ring finger. awww the good ones are always taken.
For the connecting flight it was a race. It was at 10:45 and for some reason after I landed there I thought it was already 10:15, when it was only 9:15. Raced thru customs, got stopped for not fully filling it up, twice... kind of did not see the boxes that needed to be filled.
then the run to the terminal. Getting past the security check again. But this time got into the nexus pass lane and was granted faster access. More time cause I was traveling with two lap tops.
Go have a beer and slowly de-stress now that I am out of US soil.
Then was the 1st to board the flight... long haul. And again there is a pretty chinese gal from Toronto besides me, who turns out to be a long distance runner and is going for meeting her cousins and particepate in the mini-marathon about 22 kms....wow.
Then another surprise, she dances salsa.. mama mio.
Get to watch TV onboard and thanks to the hands free by Apple's iphone, I get to hear the dialogues too, unlike Cathay, not many give out head sets for free.
Tuesday, April 27, 2010
Happy day
Tuesday, April 27, 2010
After going to sleep early yesterday, it felt nice to wake up at 5am and be at work by 7:50. Had taken the 7:30 shuttle.
Felt nice reading Evas quote for the day. ""The body is your tool, the mind is your identity, the soul is you and the whole world within. All three are essential and all three need to be nurtured every day.""
So true, we often get focused on improving one area we tend to forget the other. And then the on going temptations of the modern world. Mostly TV, but again the amount of information one gains is also tremendus, which if not exposed to would lead to ignorance..... again a catch 22 scenario.
How does one bring about a balance here? that is an on going scenario of self improvement in every ones life...
Afternoon took the shuttle to the bank closer to my house and got my checkbook, which was forwarded from the branch I opened the account at on Sunday.
Then went to the PC center for getting the Hard disk they had taken for imaging. They said that they have it ready and so went there again with my work lap top. Only to have the lady say that my hard disk is showing 100% free, that means all the data is lost.
Bummer.... so had to come back and start with the fresh installation of softwares....
Not sure why I am kind of facing so many obstructions. now not really keen on moving to India either. Got to see what in store,,,,, Even the plan to travel in India with Eva has wiped out now that she seems to be in love with another guy. Wonder what happend to Amit. Did he also turn her down like Louis? She seemed pretty pissed at him. And on with Ritish Jain. Good for her to be able to change guys so frequently. well how she does it only she knows. Atleast I cannot think of going for another for a long time to come.
Guess she is an expert now at switching from one guy to another. All the signs were already there. Just that I let my self be fooled into believing that there is something special there and that she was different from the other gals. And with parents from both sides involved, I let myself into it deeper. IT had to happen to teach me something.
Really interested to see how and where her life will take her and where mine will take.. But deep inside I really wish her the best and hope she finds true love and happiness in her life all along and what ever she chooses .... Thou feel and want it to have happened between us. But I guess there is too much of personalty clash on my end to tolerate the feelings of Jealousy that I would feel when I see my women kiss some other guy on the lips.
Don't think that is something I could live with.,, the constant feelings of someone hitting me in the stomach every time she kisses some guy on the lips..... naww too much for me to handle.
Hopefully she finds some guy who meets her specification.
And hopefully its someone she really loves and not just some guy she chooses based on that guy meeting some qualifying parameters.
Hope she realises that love is something deeper than just meeting the qualifying standards and requirements.... its much deeper and from the bottom of the heart.
Guess I was lucky in a way to know that I was capable and I am capable of loving someone very deeply and letting myself be open to hurt and let myself be hurt repeatedly.... all in the name of love.
:)
But then the questions,
why did we end up together if we were not ment to be ?
why did we have to go thru the pain of expectations and hope crashing down?
oh why why why?
if it was not ment to be, why did circumstance bring us together in such a magical way.
It was like everything was falling into place at the right moment and leading us to be together. Thou many times I just wanted to pull back and was hurt on the way cause of her thought less actions or was it her own little girl naivety. Yet everytime I was pulling back, got sucked into it with greater force.
Ahhhhh why is life so confusing.
After going to sleep early yesterday, it felt nice to wake up at 5am and be at work by 7:50. Had taken the 7:30 shuttle.
Felt nice reading Evas quote for the day. ""The body is your tool, the mind is your identity, the soul is you and the whole world within. All three are essential and all three need to be nurtured every day.""
So true, we often get focused on improving one area we tend to forget the other. And then the on going temptations of the modern world. Mostly TV, but again the amount of information one gains is also tremendus, which if not exposed to would lead to ignorance..... again a catch 22 scenario.
How does one bring about a balance here? that is an on going scenario of self improvement in every ones life...
Afternoon took the shuttle to the bank closer to my house and got my checkbook, which was forwarded from the branch I opened the account at on Sunday.
Then went to the PC center for getting the Hard disk they had taken for imaging. They said that they have it ready and so went there again with my work lap top. Only to have the lady say that my hard disk is showing 100% free, that means all the data is lost.
Bummer.... so had to come back and start with the fresh installation of softwares....
Not sure why I am kind of facing so many obstructions. now not really keen on moving to India either. Got to see what in store,,,,, Even the plan to travel in India with Eva has wiped out now that she seems to be in love with another guy. Wonder what happend to Amit. Did he also turn her down like Louis? She seemed pretty pissed at him. And on with Ritish Jain. Good for her to be able to change guys so frequently. well how she does it only she knows. Atleast I cannot think of going for another for a long time to come.
Guess she is an expert now at switching from one guy to another. All the signs were already there. Just that I let my self be fooled into believing that there is something special there and that she was different from the other gals. And with parents from both sides involved, I let myself into it deeper. IT had to happen to teach me something.
Really interested to see how and where her life will take her and where mine will take.. But deep inside I really wish her the best and hope she finds true love and happiness in her life all along and what ever she chooses .... Thou feel and want it to have happened between us. But I guess there is too much of personalty clash on my end to tolerate the feelings of Jealousy that I would feel when I see my women kiss some other guy on the lips.
Don't think that is something I could live with.,, the constant feelings of someone hitting me in the stomach every time she kisses some guy on the lips..... naww too much for me to handle.
Hopefully she finds some guy who meets her specification.
And hopefully its someone she really loves and not just some guy she chooses based on that guy meeting some qualifying parameters.
Hope she realises that love is something deeper than just meeting the qualifying standards and requirements.... its much deeper and from the bottom of the heart.
Guess I was lucky in a way to know that I was capable and I am capable of loving someone very deeply and letting myself be open to hurt and let myself be hurt repeatedly.... all in the name of love.
:)
But then the questions,
why did we end up together if we were not ment to be ?
why did we have to go thru the pain of expectations and hope crashing down?
oh why why why?
if it was not ment to be, why did circumstance bring us together in such a magical way.
It was like everything was falling into place at the right moment and leading us to be together. Thou many times I just wanted to pull back and was hurt on the way cause of her thought less actions or was it her own little girl naivety. Yet everytime I was pulling back, got sucked into it with greater force.
Ahhhhh why is life so confusing.
Monday, April 26, 2010
Revealtions
Monday, April 26, 2010
Got up around 5 and got to see Evas blog.
Gald to know that she is finding love. But not sure if its valid. As again it seems to be some kind of pattern she is following. Getting into spiritual and philosophical discussions and then the poor guy, like me ends up falling in love with her. When she very well knows that its not going to last long.
Looks like Amit was strong enough not to fall for her charms. Good for him.
I am not sure if she is just doing this by instinct of by calculation or a bit of both. I am sure when compared to men, she like most women, she has already calculated a 5 to 6 steps ahead. Men only thing about 2 stem in a relationship, most of their though only leading to sex.
I was hoping that I was wrong about the worst case scenario about her, the best case was that she was really in love and would settle down to a happy married, sincere Indian life.
Or did I escape her clutches too and did not end up marrying her and then realizing how bad the real situation is.
Not sure if that guy Rishit jain is just a guy who seems to be playing around with visiting foreign gals. Cause I saw he had something going on with another on his FB pics.
Well either way, I am still reminded what a experienced lady told me. She needs to find herself. She does not know that and does not realise that, will be thinking that she knows what she is doing. But no matter what I do or others do, she has to find herself in her own way. As with her attitude of been so dogmatic and head strong and not been open to the suggestions and what others say. The only solution (if she needs to end up living a normal life of peace and family) is for her to hopefully find herself soon.
Hopefully not many more hearts are broken.
Just hope that she is not someone who is just into going around the world breaking hearts of guys who fall deeply in love with her.
I am intrigued by the life and behavior of this lady. Curiosity on how life and Karama really works is something I am interested in seeing.
Kind of depressing day, nothing much to do. Gloomy outside too with the rains.
Try calling up kati of fry wagnor around 12 and she says will call me or will send me the docs latter. Again called her around 4 and she says not able to find the docs and will send it as soon as she finds it.
So I call up Jim of the williamson moving and get Lindas number, she is kind enough to give me the details and more than willing to take care of everything related to documentation.
cheers just need to send her passport details and the i-94 copy.
have chat with Ajit regarding the move to India. Kind of seems to be in a wishy washy situation. Now with the way things are going and have happened between E and me. Don't seem to be motivated for the transfer. Was looking forward to the kerala tour during july aug. But life seems to have a mind of its own. Atleast now I am getting paid $$$$ with out much effort.
Return by the shuttle bus. No situation to walk in the rain.
Get home and have a conv with Anil who briefs me the situation of a married life. With all the additional responsibilities and no scope of saying, I have had enough and walk away.
Well thats the scary side of a married life.
Then get chatting with sweet innocent Delma. who is struggling with finding a job in Van. Such a beautiful place, yet so much of under employment.
Got up around 5 and got to see Evas blog.
Gald to know that she is finding love. But not sure if its valid. As again it seems to be some kind of pattern she is following. Getting into spiritual and philosophical discussions and then the poor guy, like me ends up falling in love with her. When she very well knows that its not going to last long.
Looks like Amit was strong enough not to fall for her charms. Good for him.
I am not sure if she is just doing this by instinct of by calculation or a bit of both. I am sure when compared to men, she like most women, she has already calculated a 5 to 6 steps ahead. Men only thing about 2 stem in a relationship, most of their though only leading to sex.
I was hoping that I was wrong about the worst case scenario about her, the best case was that she was really in love and would settle down to a happy married, sincere Indian life.
Or did I escape her clutches too and did not end up marrying her and then realizing how bad the real situation is.
Not sure if that guy Rishit jain is just a guy who seems to be playing around with visiting foreign gals. Cause I saw he had something going on with another on his FB pics.
Well either way, I am still reminded what a experienced lady told me. She needs to find herself. She does not know that and does not realise that, will be thinking that she knows what she is doing. But no matter what I do or others do, she has to find herself in her own way. As with her attitude of been so dogmatic and head strong and not been open to the suggestions and what others say. The only solution (if she needs to end up living a normal life of peace and family) is for her to hopefully find herself soon.
Hopefully not many more hearts are broken.
Just hope that she is not someone who is just into going around the world breaking hearts of guys who fall deeply in love with her.
I am intrigued by the life and behavior of this lady. Curiosity on how life and Karama really works is something I am interested in seeing.
Kind of depressing day, nothing much to do. Gloomy outside too with the rains.
Try calling up kati of fry wagnor around 12 and she says will call me or will send me the docs latter. Again called her around 4 and she says not able to find the docs and will send it as soon as she finds it.
So I call up Jim of the williamson moving and get Lindas number, she is kind enough to give me the details and more than willing to take care of everything related to documentation.
cheers just need to send her passport details and the i-94 copy.
have chat with Ajit regarding the move to India. Kind of seems to be in a wishy washy situation. Now with the way things are going and have happened between E and me. Don't seem to be motivated for the transfer. Was looking forward to the kerala tour during july aug. But life seems to have a mind of its own. Atleast now I am getting paid $$$$ with out much effort.
Return by the shuttle bus. No situation to walk in the rain.
Get home and have a conv with Anil who briefs me the situation of a married life. With all the additional responsibilities and no scope of saying, I have had enough and walk away.
Well thats the scary side of a married life.
Then get chatting with sweet innocent Delma. who is struggling with finding a job in Van. Such a beautiful place, yet so much of under employment.
Sunday, April 25, 2010
Lazy sunday day of Mourning
Sunday, April 25, 2010
woke up late, called up home talked with parents. And then Anil to wish H-Bday.
Got to know that Chandrika aechi passed away in a very tragic way. She was my mom's, dad's younger brother's, wife.
my Grandfathers sister in law.
She was a very wonderful women, always with a heart warming smile. Looked so young for her age. Was widowed at a very young age too.
People from west will be wondering how come you keep in touch with a relation thats so far off. Well thats how family in India is defined. Its not the nuclear, self-centered group of 3 to 4 people. People who do not care for each other after a certain time in life. people who seem to get so caught up and busy with their own work, party or celebrations or holiday mood and not bother about the others in the family or make an effort to reach out.
Anyways around 12 go to the office of the apt and meet Cathy to tell her about the carpet in the bed room having hairs of some pet. And also clarify about the free rent month of May.
its raining slightly outside, feels like vancouver a bit.
Need to go out for a walk...
Went for a 2 hr long walk thru the empty streets of downtown Lansdale. It felt like a ghost town. But I had my merengue, cumbia and salsa songs to keep me company. And a few music from Evas collection.
The only person I met was a cop, who greeted me. Well these are the few pleasures of a small place.
Walked around thinking and contemplating the happenings of the past few months of my life, rather the last one year. How things fell into place and circumstances led from one thing to another. How deeply I fell in love. To the extend of wanting to move to another country and looking for job there.
Thou now I only want good for her, the feeling of betrayal and been betrayed is all I am able to associate her to.
The feelings do come back in waves, but just taking the attitude of forgiveness and not holding any resentment is helping me over come the unhappiness and helping me smile with my heart. The continuous process is of trying to sustain it. Might take sometime.
Did she and does she do this without even realizing in what I perceive to be her growing up with low parental supervision and guidance?
No I idea, how someone can be so sweet and nice one moment and then suddenly turn out to be this angry evil monster. Is this what many people in the past say, women,,, no ones understood them ever.
Even women do not understand why they do certain things. Atleast some are honest to admit it.
got home and cooked rice. But did not feel like eating it. Was feeling tired and ended up going to sleep in the sleeping bag.
woke up around 1 and put the cooked rice into the fridge.
woke up late, called up home talked with parents. And then Anil to wish H-Bday.
Got to know that Chandrika aechi passed away in a very tragic way. She was my mom's, dad's younger brother's, wife.
my Grandfathers sister in law.
She was a very wonderful women, always with a heart warming smile. Looked so young for her age. Was widowed at a very young age too.
People from west will be wondering how come you keep in touch with a relation thats so far off. Well thats how family in India is defined. Its not the nuclear, self-centered group of 3 to 4 people. People who do not care for each other after a certain time in life. people who seem to get so caught up and busy with their own work, party or celebrations or holiday mood and not bother about the others in the family or make an effort to reach out.
Anyways around 12 go to the office of the apt and meet Cathy to tell her about the carpet in the bed room having hairs of some pet. And also clarify about the free rent month of May.
its raining slightly outside, feels like vancouver a bit.
Need to go out for a walk...
Went for a 2 hr long walk thru the empty streets of downtown Lansdale. It felt like a ghost town. But I had my merengue, cumbia and salsa songs to keep me company. And a few music from Evas collection.
The only person I met was a cop, who greeted me. Well these are the few pleasures of a small place.
Walked around thinking and contemplating the happenings of the past few months of my life, rather the last one year. How things fell into place and circumstances led from one thing to another. How deeply I fell in love. To the extend of wanting to move to another country and looking for job there.
Thou now I only want good for her, the feeling of betrayal and been betrayed is all I am able to associate her to.
The feelings do come back in waves, but just taking the attitude of forgiveness and not holding any resentment is helping me over come the unhappiness and helping me smile with my heart. The continuous process is of trying to sustain it. Might take sometime.
Did she and does she do this without even realizing in what I perceive to be her growing up with low parental supervision and guidance?
No I idea, how someone can be so sweet and nice one moment and then suddenly turn out to be this angry evil monster. Is this what many people in the past say, women,,, no ones understood them ever.
Even women do not understand why they do certain things. Atleast some are honest to admit it.
got home and cooked rice. But did not feel like eating it. Was feeling tired and ended up going to sleep in the sleeping bag.
woke up around 1 and put the cooked rice into the fridge.
Saturday, April 24, 2010
Lots to cover today
Saturday, April 24, 2010
Woke up at 5 as usual but got up around 6:30 and checked the mails.
then saw Es blog . saw about their concern about tickets, and about anonymous call for alcohol.
So sent her skype txt msg about Foreigner quota in Railways.,,,, did not look like she appreciated that much. Well nothing new, same as before, some people think like that. And I need to stop giving out free help and control myself. Why do I concern myself with the problems of others, if they choose to go on a certain path, its the decision that they made. And as much as I face the consequences of my decisions, they should too.
Why should I still feel concerned about the life and the holes other people are digging themselves into. Especially since they donèt seem to care about me!!.. why am I been the caring fool who ends up getting insulted for caring about people.
Why do I forget the past.... is it cause I tend to forgive and forget the past easily and move on like a child,, or better word foolish child and behave like nothing bad happened in the past and move ahead happily!?
But again its giving me more peaceful time and happy state of mind, .. as I summarized a few days ago
Anyways, was more concerned about the anonymous call for alcohol. Not sure if she realises this, but there are chances that it could be en-trapment by some official trying to get a promotion or bonous or wanting to get paid or what ever..
Hopefully she has not forgotten the stories of her parents during communistic era. And will be careful and cautious.
10 mins in the hands of the Indian police, her friends,, mihir or who ever,, will not only blame her for the alcohol, and will be very willing to say she is even planning on attacking the indian leaders and that she is taliban and pakistan ISI and came here on secret mission to attack .....
good god, the things I have seen, growing up and living in the Government quarters, just besides the Police station in Hyderabad. The late night cries from the torture, some people went thru at the hands of the police (well most were hardened criminals) ..... Not to forget all the planning secession that dad as the anti-curruption Government official person and his colleagues had trying to catch currupt officials.
Well long day ahead, off to Phily downtown on the train.. cheers and lets see what is store there. Just taking the iPhone for pics,, don't have to take the huge camera anymore.. but don't get good pics,, but hey, thats a choice we need to make.
convenience of washer dryer in the apt,, heheehe,, lap of luxury.
Just wondering about the suggestion form Ajit about making a trip to India during July Aug for setting up the offshore testing team for CTI in india..... lets see what I can come up with?
Nothing like a paid trip to Bangalore or Calcutta... cheers :))) think of the good times, and possible good things ahead,, dreams and wonderful dreams are all that I have that gives me the positive state of mind..... hope generated from the positive dreams. If one crumbles, another is always there ready to send me into a state of happiness.. After all what is happiness , A STATE OF MIND.
The means of achieving it might be different for different people. Mine I think is the best and the cheapest,, I can just use my powerful dream machine,, ,,,:)) my Beautiful MIND...cheers to another beautiful day of action.
Around 11 check for the ticket rates to Downtown philly. The station besides my apt does not have a ticket office. And buying ticket on the train costs about 2 dollars more. So decided to walk to the next station about 2 miles. Came across a duck family , mom, dad and few baby ducks. The parents seem too protective, ready to attack.
Walked all the way thru the scenic route. was reminded of Zion canyon.
Reached North wales station and found out that the ticket office was closed. On the train I ask for a Independence pass, unlimited travel for the day. $10, after about 1 hr of travel, reach 30th Market st and form there transfer to R1 line towards airport. 30 mins.
Only latter did I realise that each terminal has its own station. A,B,C, D, E.
So I am all set for my train travel to the Airport on Wednesday evening. did not want be lost when travelling with luggage.
Then return back to home about 5 pm, change a bit and was back at the Pennbrook station by my house for the 5:52pm train to down town, This time I was going there for sight seeing.
Get off at Market street, near to the 11th street and the Amtrak Central station. Huge !. walk eastwards on market street. getting to see lot of the heritage buildings and museums about the Independence of American history. Did not stop to get in, maybe have to make another trip early morning another day.
Reach Penns landing, wow what a view. breath taking in its own right. with the huge suspension bridge and the battle ship on the other end. Historic site on the Delaware River.
Latter towards 8pm go and have a chicken burger at the Burger king, did not look that good in terms of cleanliness, the Mc Donalds was too crowded and had a huge line up.
9pm reach back to Brasils with hope of getting a bit of salsa, the last train back to Pennbrook was at 11:20 that means I have to be out by 10:45pm.... so just go and join up for the beginner classes, $10 entry. But they donèt seem start till 9:45pm,,,,
Ended up having a Carona, a beer after a very long time. :)
well things start rolling and get to meet a few people who come there in-frequently, but it was a pleasant crowd, the girls seem to enjoy dancing with me. Just that they are not the frequent dancers was a put off as they could not tell me where else people go to dance here.
So after a few dances and a clumsy bachata with a Venenzula girl, Karla, who danced in a very different style, rather felt like she was trying to act that she was the master just because she is latin, like most latin people who want to show off, but do not really know to dance. Every time I tried to lead her into something different she froze up and lost the beat. Well so much for making claims of ones own great culture to foreigners :)... yea right!
Got off the club around 10:50 and it was a rush to reach the station. managed to reach by 11:15,,,, got on the train by 11:25 and home by 12:30am....
Woke up at 5 as usual but got up around 6:30 and checked the mails.
then saw Es blog . saw about their concern about tickets, and about anonymous call for alcohol.
So sent her skype txt msg about Foreigner quota in Railways.,,,, did not look like she appreciated that much. Well nothing new, same as before, some people think like that. And I need to stop giving out free help and control myself. Why do I concern myself with the problems of others, if they choose to go on a certain path, its the decision that they made. And as much as I face the consequences of my decisions, they should too.
Why should I still feel concerned about the life and the holes other people are digging themselves into. Especially since they donèt seem to care about me!!.. why am I been the caring fool who ends up getting insulted for caring about people.
Why do I forget the past.... is it cause I tend to forgive and forget the past easily and move on like a child,, or better word foolish child and behave like nothing bad happened in the past and move ahead happily!?
But again its giving me more peaceful time and happy state of mind, .. as I summarized a few days ago
A clear conscious , forgiving and not holding any grudges helps me move ahead with a sense of happiness and innocence of a child. ..... it feels liberating and sweet to be able to smile with my heart.
Well I think like a child with its innocence, even i will just let the bad moment pass. And then bounce back with happiness and spread the happiness and joy around. As its all these moments of happiness that counts more than the few pot holes.....or puddles.Anyways, was more concerned about the anonymous call for alcohol. Not sure if she realises this, but there are chances that it could be en-trapment by some official trying to get a promotion or bonous or wanting to get paid or what ever..
Hopefully she has not forgotten the stories of her parents during communistic era. And will be careful and cautious.
10 mins in the hands of the Indian police, her friends,, mihir or who ever,, will not only blame her for the alcohol, and will be very willing to say she is even planning on attacking the indian leaders and that she is taliban and pakistan ISI and came here on secret mission to attack .....
good god, the things I have seen, growing up and living in the Government quarters, just besides the Police station in Hyderabad. The late night cries from the torture, some people went thru at the hands of the police (well most were hardened criminals) ..... Not to forget all the planning secession that dad as the anti-curruption Government official person and his colleagues had trying to catch currupt officials.
Well long day ahead, off to Phily downtown on the train.. cheers and lets see what is store there. Just taking the iPhone for pics,, don't have to take the huge camera anymore.. but don't get good pics,, but hey, thats a choice we need to make.
convenience of washer dryer in the apt,, heheehe,, lap of luxury.
Just wondering about the suggestion form Ajit about making a trip to India during July Aug for setting up the offshore testing team for CTI in india..... lets see what I can come up with?
Nothing like a paid trip to Bangalore or Calcutta... cheers :))) think of the good times, and possible good things ahead,, dreams and wonderful dreams are all that I have that gives me the positive state of mind..... hope generated from the positive dreams. If one crumbles, another is always there ready to send me into a state of happiness.. After all what is happiness , A STATE OF MIND.
The means of achieving it might be different for different people. Mine I think is the best and the cheapest,, I can just use my powerful dream machine,, ,,,:)) my Beautiful MIND...cheers to another beautiful day of action.
Around 11 check for the ticket rates to Downtown philly. The station besides my apt does not have a ticket office. And buying ticket on the train costs about 2 dollars more. So decided to walk to the next station about 2 miles. Came across a duck family , mom, dad and few baby ducks. The parents seem too protective, ready to attack.
Walked all the way thru the scenic route. was reminded of Zion canyon.
Reached North wales station and found out that the ticket office was closed. On the train I ask for a Independence pass, unlimited travel for the day. $10, after about 1 hr of travel, reach 30th Market st and form there transfer to R1 line towards airport. 30 mins.
Only latter did I realise that each terminal has its own station. A,B,C, D, E.
So I am all set for my train travel to the Airport on Wednesday evening. did not want be lost when travelling with luggage.
Then return back to home about 5 pm, change a bit and was back at the Pennbrook station by my house for the 5:52pm train to down town, This time I was going there for sight seeing.
Get off at Market street, near to the 11th street and the Amtrak Central station. Huge !. walk eastwards on market street. getting to see lot of the heritage buildings and museums about the Independence of American history. Did not stop to get in, maybe have to make another trip early morning another day.
Reach Penns landing, wow what a view. breath taking in its own right. with the huge suspension bridge and the battle ship on the other end. Historic site on the Delaware River.
Latter towards 8pm go and have a chicken burger at the Burger king, did not look that good in terms of cleanliness, the Mc Donalds was too crowded and had a huge line up.
9pm reach back to Brasils with hope of getting a bit of salsa, the last train back to Pennbrook was at 11:20 that means I have to be out by 10:45pm.... so just go and join up for the beginner classes, $10 entry. But they donèt seem start till 9:45pm,,,,
Ended up having a Carona, a beer after a very long time. :)
well things start rolling and get to meet a few people who come there in-frequently, but it was a pleasant crowd, the girls seem to enjoy dancing with me. Just that they are not the frequent dancers was a put off as they could not tell me where else people go to dance here.
So after a few dances and a clumsy bachata with a Venenzula girl, Karla, who danced in a very different style, rather felt like she was trying to act that she was the master just because she is latin, like most latin people who want to show off, but do not really know to dance. Every time I tried to lead her into something different she froze up and lost the beat. Well so much for making claims of ones own great culture to foreigners :)... yea right!
Got off the club around 10:50 and it was a rush to reach the station. managed to reach by 11:15,,,, got on the train by 11:25 and home by 12:30am....
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