Tuesday, September 30, 2025

The Roni Story

 
Original Script enhanced using ChatGPT 

The Roni Story – Narration Script


I was sitting and talking with Roni one afternoon, after lunch.

It was something we often did — sharing moments, words, and silences.


That day, she suddenly said to me…

“Son, you are right. The people of this house… are evil.”


Her words stopped me cold.

I was shocked.


First, because I had never told her such a thing.

Yes, I had seen the way her family treated her.

Yes, I had offered her the chance to come stay with my parents and me.

But never had I spoken those words aloud.


And second… because Roni was not someone who spoke with anger or bitterness.

She was gentle, resilient, forgiving.

Yet, in that moment, I could hear the weight of her truth.


Roni’s household was… complicated.

Her daughter, battling schizophrenia.

Her daughters husband, a man many called a crooked thief.

Her grandchildren — selfish, self-centered.

People often whispered to me that those grandchildren were alive only because of Roni.

That, without her, their mother might have ended their lives when they were just babies.


So I gathered myself and asked her, softly,

“What happened?”


She hesitated… and then began to share.


The day before, she had been out by the well, in front of the house.

She was hanging the clothes she had washed, struggling in the afternoon heat.

Roni was over eighty. Her health fragile.

And then… she fell.


She tried to get up.

But her body could not respond.


So she turned to her daughter and her husband, who were sitting in the veranda.

She called out for help.

They looked at her. They saw her struggling.

And then… they simply turned and walked away into the house.


Her voice broke as she told me this.


Not knowing what else to do, she cried out louder.

Time passed.

And finally, her granddaughter came out — perhaps disturbed from her studies by the sound of Roni’s cries.


The young girl tried to help her grandmother stand, but she couldn’t manage.

Frustrated, she went back inside, scolding her parents.

Only then did the son-in-law finally come out…

Reluctantly, he helped Roni to her feet.


And that, she told me… was why she had called them evil.


Her words still echo in my heart.


Evil is not only in great crimes.

It can be in the small acts of cruelty…

The refusal to care.

The coldness when someone you love lies helpless on the ground.


Roni’s story is not just hers.

It is a reflection of something larger.

How often do we turn away?

How often do we fail to be human… when someone needs us most?


If only we could remember, in such moments…

that compassion costs nothing.

That kindness is not weakness.

That being human means seeing the helpless… and choosing to help.


This, is Roni’s story.

And it is a call…

for us to never forget our humanity.


******************** Translated to Malayalam using Google Translate 

റോണി കഥ - ആഖ്യാന തിരക്കഥ


ഒരു ദിവസം ഉച്ചകഴിഞ്ഞ്, ഉച്ചഭക്ഷണത്തിന് ശേഷം ഞാൻ റോണിയുമായി ഇരുന്ന് സംസാരിക്കുകയായിരുന്നു.

നിമിഷങ്ങളും വാക്കുകളും നിശബ്ദതകളും പങ്കിടുന്ന - ഞങ്ങൾ പലപ്പോഴും ചെയ്യുന്ന ഒന്നായിരുന്നു അത്.


ആ ദിവസം, അവൾ പെട്ടെന്ന് എന്നോട് പറഞ്ഞു...

“മകനേ, നീ പറഞ്ഞത് ശരിയാണ്. ഈ വീട്ടിലെ ആളുകൾ... ദുഷ്ടരാണ്.”


അവളുടെ വാക്കുകൾ എന്നെ തണുപ്പിച്ചു.


ഞാൻ ഞെട്ടിപ്പോയി.


ഒന്നാമതായി, ഞാൻ അവളോട് ഒരിക്കലും അങ്ങനെയൊരു കാര്യം പറഞ്ഞിട്ടില്ലായിരുന്നു.


അതെ, അവളുടെ കുടുംബം അവളോട് പെരുമാറിയ രീതി ഞാൻ കണ്ടിരുന്നു.


അതെ, എന്റെ മാതാപിതാക്കളോടും എന്നോടും ഒപ്പം താമസിക്കാൻ ഞാൻ അവൾക്ക് അവസരം നൽകിയിരുന്നു.

പക്ഷേ ഞാൻ ഒരിക്കലും ആ വാക്കുകൾ ഉറക്കെ പറഞ്ഞിട്ടില്ല.


രണ്ടാമതായി... കാരണം റോണി കോപത്തോടെയോ കയ്പ്പോടെയോ സംസാരിക്കുന്ന ഒരാളായിരുന്നില്ല.


അവൾ സൗമ്യയും സഹിഷ്ണുതയും ഉള്ളവളും ക്ഷമിക്കുന്നവളുമായിരുന്നു.

എന്നിട്ടും, ആ നിമിഷത്തിൽ, അവളുടെ സത്യത്തിന്റെ ഭാരം എനിക്ക് കേൾക്കാൻ കഴിഞ്ഞു.


റോണിയുടെ കുടുംബം... സങ്കീർണ്ണമായിരുന്നു.


അവളുടെ മകൾ, സ്കീസോഫ്രീനിയയുമായി പോരാടുന്നു.


അവളുടെ മകളുടെ ഭർത്താവ്, പലരും വക്രബുദ്ധിയുള്ള കള്ളൻ എന്ന് വിളിക്കുന്ന ഒരു മനുഷ്യൻ.

അവളുടെ കൊച്ചുമക്കൾ - സ്വാർത്ഥരും സ്വാർത്ഥരും.

ആ കൊച്ചുമക്കൾ ജീവിച്ചിരിപ്പുള്ളത് റോണി കാരണമാണെന്ന് ആളുകൾ പലപ്പോഴും എന്നോട് മന്ത്രിക്കുമായിരുന്നു.


അവളില്ലായിരുന്നെങ്കിൽ, അവരുടെ അമ്മ കുഞ്ഞുങ്ങളായിരിക്കുമ്പോൾ തന്നെ ജീവിതം അവസാനിപ്പിച്ചേനെ എന്ന്.


അപ്പോൾ ഞാൻ എന്നെത്തന്നെ കൂട്ടി, മൃദുവായി അവളോട് ചോദിച്ചു,

“എന്താണ് സംഭവിച്ചത്?”


അവൾ മടിച്ചു... പിന്നെ പങ്കുവെക്കാൻ തുടങ്ങി.


തലേദിവസം, അവൾ വീടിനു മുന്നിൽ കിണറിനരികിലായിരുന്നു.

ഉച്ചതിരിഞ്ഞുള്ള ചൂടിൽ അവൾ അലക്കിയ വസ്ത്രങ്ങൾ തൂക്കിയിട്ടിരുന്നു.

റോണിക്ക് എൺപത് വയസ്സിനു മുകളിൽ പ്രായമുണ്ടായിരുന്നു. അവളുടെ ആരോഗ്യം ദുർബലമായിരുന്നു.


പിന്നെ... അവൾ വീണു.


അവൾ എഴുന്നേൽക്കാൻ ശ്രമിച്ചു.


പക്ഷേ അവളുടെ ശരീരത്തിന് പ്രതികരിക്കാൻ കഴിഞ്ഞില്ല.


അങ്ങനെ അവൾ വരാന്തയിൽ ഇരിക്കുന്ന മകളുടെയും ഭർത്താവിന്റെയും നേരെ തിരിഞ്ഞു.

അവൾ സഹായത്തിനായി വിളിച്ചു.


അവർ അവളെ നോക്കി. അവൾ ബുദ്ധിമുട്ടുന്നത് അവർ കണ്ടു.


പിന്നെ... അവർ തിരിഞ്ഞു വീട്ടിലേക്ക് നടന്നു.


അവൾ എന്നോട് ഇത് പറഞ്ഞപ്പോൾ അവളുടെ ശബ്ദം ഇടറി.


മറ്റെന്താണ് ചെയ്യേണ്ടതെന്ന് അറിയാതെ അവൾ ഉച്ചത്തിൽ നിലവിളിച്ചു.

സമയം കടന്നുപോയി.


ഒടുവിൽ, അവളുടെ പേരക്കുട്ടി പുറത്തുവന്നു - റോണിയുടെ നിലവിളി ശബ്ദം കേട്ട് പഠനത്തിൽ നിന്ന് അസ്വസ്ഥയായിരിക്കാം.


ആ പെൺകുട്ടി മുത്തശ്ശിയെ എഴുന്നേൽപ്പിക്കാൻ ശ്രമിച്ചു, പക്ഷേ അവൾക്ക് അത് സഹിക്കാൻ കഴിഞ്ഞില്ല.


നിരാശയോടെ അവൾ മാതാപിതാക്കളെ ശകാരിച്ചുകൊണ്ട് അകത്തേക്ക് തിരിച്ചു.


അപ്പോൾ മാത്രമാണ് മരുമകൻ പുറത്തുവന്നത്...


മനസ്സില്ലാമനസ്സോടെ, അവൻ റോണിയെ എഴുന്നേൽക്കാൻ സഹായിച്ചു.


അതുകൊണ്ടാണ് അവൾ അവരെ ചീത്ത വിളിച്ചതെന്ന് അവൾ എന്നോട് പറഞ്ഞു.


അവളുടെ വാക്കുകൾ ഇപ്പോഴും എന്റെ ഹൃദയത്തിൽ പ്രതിധ്വനിക്കുന്നു.


വലിയ കുറ്റകൃത്യങ്ങളിൽ മാത്രമല്ല തിന്മ.


ചെറിയ ക്രൂരതകളിലും അത് ഉണ്ടാകാം...


പരിഗണിക്കാൻ വിസമ്മതിക്കുക.


നിങ്ങൾ സ്നേഹിക്കുന്ന ഒരാൾ നിലത്ത് നിസ്സഹായനായി കിടക്കുമ്പോഴുള്ള തണുപ്പ്.


റോണിയുടെ കഥ അവളുടേത് മാത്രമല്ല.


അത് വലിയ ഒന്നിന്റെ പ്രതിഫലനമാണ്.


എത്ര തവണ നമ്മൾ പിന്തിരിയുന്നു?

ഒരാൾക്ക് നമ്മെ ഏറ്റവും ആവശ്യമുള്ളപ്പോൾ നമ്മൾ എത്ര തവണ മനുഷ്യരാകാൻ പരാജയപ്പെടുന്നു?


അത്തരം നിമിഷങ്ങളിൽ നമുക്ക് ഓർമ്മിക്കാൻ കഴിയുമെങ്കിൽ...


ആ കാരുണ്യത്തിന് ഒന്നും വിലയില്ല.

ആ ദയ ബലഹീനതയല്ല.


മനുഷ്യനായിരിക്കുക എന്നതിനർത്ഥം നിസ്സഹായരെ കാണുക എന്നതാണ്... സഹായിക്കാൻ തീരുമാനിക്കുക എന്നതാണ്.


ഇത് റോണിയുടെ കഥയാണ്.


നമ്മുടെ മനുഷ്യത്വം ഒരിക്കലും മറക്കരുതെന്ന ആഹ്വാനമാണിത്...

Friday, January 24, 2025

DID I JUST MISS “THE LOVE OF MY LIFE”, THE ONCE IN A LIFE TIME - CONNECTION ????

DID I JUST MISS “THE LOVE OF MY LIFE”, THE ONCE IN A LIFE TIME - CONNECTION ????


Our eyes met across the aisle  - THE CONNECTION. 

Eyes Locked in what feels even now (after about 12 years) - THE CONNECTION.

The Eye lock for a few seconds, followed by the instant synchronized smile as our eyes lite up and sparks flew  - THE CONNECTION.

Both a bit taken aback, the awkward shyness, each with eyes glowing in excitement, wanting to impress, help and please the other  - THE CONNECTION.


The connection was obviously special and natural, multiple times, paths crossed, on a 12 hrs flight across oceans and continents  - THE CONNECTION.

The frequent blushing as paths crossed, the uneasiness of suppressed excited energies, brain freeze due to breaks applied to the gust of love energy trying to reach out, touch and connect  - THE CONNECTION.

The awkward few tango of words as cultures and accents collided, but the eyes locked into each other  - THE CONNECTION.

The eye lock and smile between two strangers, with the others in the group looking on with confused expression  - THE CONNECTION.


Her kindness overflowing and revealing in her actions, towards an unaccompanied kid on the flight, shooting up my heart with more love  - THE CONNECTION.


12 hrs of crisscrossing paths, ending with me left with a life time of regret, for not having the courage and stepping up - THE CONNECTION.


Qatar Airways, JFK to DOH on my way to CCJ on the fateful day of July-15-2012 .....  THE ONCE IN A LIFE TIME - CONNECTION !!!!!

She : Beautiful, lovely and KIND Air-hostess of Qatar Airways, South African origin.

Me : Passenger on the Qatar Airways Flight from JFK to DOH on my way to CCJ, because my mom was hospitalized. Filled with guilt for having feelings churning in me in a time of family crises. 

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Tuesday, January 7, 2025

MEN ALSO NEED LOVE AND HELP

 


MEN ALSO NEED LOVE AND HELP
1. MEN ALSO NEED SOMEONE TO TALK TO
Women usually wait for the man to be there to listen to them, but men also need a shoulder to lean on. Lady, stop for a moment and wait for your man to be there for you, it's not just about you, you're not the only one who has problems or needs a space to vent. In the same way that you tell your man everything because you trust him, make him trust you and he will tell you everything.
2. MEN ALSO NEED TO BE LOOKED FOR.
During dates and intimate conversations, women expect the man to ask questions and follow them, but the man also needs you to show interest in him, ask him questions and to to follow him.
3. MEN ALSO NEED A HUG.
The man is expected to give hugs and good hugs, but men also need the woman to approach him and hug him. Behind the strong ego mask that men wear, there is a gentle heart that also needs tender and loving care. A heart is a heart, whether it belongs to a man or a woman.
4. MEN ALSO NEED TO BE PROTECTED
When you speak ill of a woman or tarnish her name, your man is expected to defend her. But ma'am, also protect your man's honor when attacked, support him in private and in public.
5. MEN ALSO NEED TO BE TOLD "I LOVE YOU"
Although men don't show many emotions, they love it when the woman they love tells them "I love you." Yes, men are weird, they don't usually say these words, but they need to listen. If she stops saying them, he's afraid of losing her.
6. MEN ALSO NEED TO BE PAMPERED.
Men also love gifts, everyone: men or women. The question is, what exactly will please you? Know your tastes, stimulate your ego, laise it, celebrate your achievements, big or small.
7. MEN ALSO NEED TO FIGHT FOR THEM.
Men love a woman who fights for her relationship/marriage. Men can't save love alone, she must fight for him just like him...
8. MEN ALSO NEED YOU TO PRAY FOR THEM.
The man is expected to be the high priest in the relationship/marriage. But men also need the woman to cover them with prayers, for the woman to go to the spiritual battle and growth with him, and to protect him when he feels hurt.
9. MEN ALSO NEED TO BE ROMANTICIZED.
The man is expected to be the one who courts and enchants. But love is better when it is mutual. Lady, enchant your man, be daring sometimes, melt his heart, take it hard; men love a strong woman who can bring her special romance and her spark to the equation.
10. MEN ALSO NEED COMFORT
Men also cry, suffer, cry even if you can't see the tears. In the privacy of the two, hidden from the public; lady, console him, tell him that everything will be fine
11. MEN ALSO NEED PRAISE.
Women expect men to be generous with compliments. But men also prosper with appreciation; go ahead ma'am, don't be silent about his goodness, tell him what you love about him, that he looks and smells good, that there is no other man like him, that he is sexy and wonderful (if he means it).
12. MEN ALSO NEED A MASSAGE.
A woman's dream is to have a man who massages her easily; when she gets home after a long day, he rubs her shoulders, massages her feet, attends to her tension when she is pregnant. But men also have tensions, let your feminine hands detonate those tension bombs.
13. MEN ALSO NEED A WIFE TO START SEX.
Men are often supposed to think about sex constantly and therefore it is the man who should initiate sex. But, ma'am, your spouse will love that you take control from time to time. Excite him, put him in a mood; you know where to touch and lick so that he is up to the circumstances. He needs to know that you want your sex as much as he wants yours.
14. MEN ALSO NEED TO BE TAKEN CARE OF.
What a gentleman should do is anticipate the needs of the woman and satisfy them. What a lady should do is anticipate the man's needs and satisfy them; please him, he is her big baby.
15. MEN ALSO NEED THAT SURPRISE CALL OR TEXT MESSAGE.
Women often look at their phones waiting for the man to call or say "You haven't called me in two days." But men also love calls and surprise text messages; Approach him and put a smile on his face. Instead of crucifying him for not calling you, call him.
16. MEN ALSO NEED LOYALTY.
Men are often expected to be cheaters and dogs, they are very much required not to start adventures. But men also need their women to be faithful and not flirt.
17. MEN ALSO NEED SECURITY.
Men get jealous easily. They, like women, can become insecure and need the woman to ease their fears in a way that says "I only love you. I'm not going anywhere, years later you'll still be who I love."
18. MEN ALSO NEED FINANCIAL GESTURES.
The man is expected to be the supplier, and many women say "Your money is our money, my money is my money." But sometimes a man may encounter financial obstacles and needs an understanding woman to help him tackle the challenges at hand.

Friday, November 29, 2024

Nov-29-2024 Friday Remembering Days with dad, after watching the movie PAZHANJAN PRANAYAM >>>

 Nov-29-2024 Friday Remembering Days with dad, after watching the movie 


PAZHANJAN PRANAYAM  >>>  12:30 noon, just finished watching a Malayalam movie [PAZHANJAN PRANAYAM], kind of story of a guy 40 plus years, not married, looking to get married, gave up job as a teacher to take care of his dad. 

Loads of similarities, that made me think of the beautiful time I spent with my dad. Something my brother Anup was not able to experience and never will know. Kind of started to tear me up and fill up my eyes. 

But the twist is that, as with all movies and dreams, the guy meets a down to earth gal finally and they connect very well.


https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=byvtiPQrVv4  

Saturday, April 15, 2023

DAD : I wish I had known, to love him better !!!!!

 

I wish I had known

To take care of him, better

I wish I had known

To Nurse him, better

I wish I had known

To respond to him, better

I wish I had known

To make him happier, better

I wish I had known

To make him smile, better

I wish I had known

To feed him, better

I wish I had known

To dress him, better

I wish I had known

To clean him up, better

I wish I had known

To walk him, better

I wish I had known

To take him around, better

I wish I had known

To massage him, better

I wish I had known

To listen to him, better

I wish I had known

To understand him , better

I wish I had known

To know him , better

I wish I had known

To spend time with him, better

I wish I had known

To treat him, better

I wish I had known

To respect him, better

I wish I had known

To learn from him, better

I wish I had known

To hold his hands, better

I wish I had known

To give him, better

I wish I had known

To give him the best, better

I wish I had known

To Comfort him, better

I wish I had known

To ease his pain, better

I wish I had known

To make his life, better 

I wish I had known

To love him , better


Missing dad !!! Every day, Every moment ,,,,, Missing his smile every morning, when I wake him up and get him ready for the day,,


Wednesday, August 3, 2022

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Tuesday, August 2, 2022

Caring out of love v/s out of sense of duty or obligation !!

 It is one of the reasons I think its difficult to find someone to do the care-giving work to our satisfaction, Since almost all of them do it out of the obligation of getting paid or if its a relative, they do it out of sense of society-imposed duty,,,
which for sure helps in getting them started, but then its just a matter of time before their good behavior collapses and they start getting angry and resentful, And they tend to take it out on the very person they are supposed to care for and on others.

the feeling of energy drained out and not even able to call up any one for, just a chat.... the few hours I get for myself,, I just collapse in bed... Now its past 2am and this is the time I really get to do any kind of catch up ,, well that is if I have the energy for that...  just cannot believe that its been over 4 years and almost end of 5th year , with out even a day off.... 

But one thing I had the fortune of realizing is (courtesy of some malu movie) that ,,, if you are doing things out of a sense of duty, responsibility or obligation,,,, soon you will start getting frustrated and angry ... but if you do it with a sense of love and learn to love doing it,,, energy level is totally different.... And with 5 years just flying by, tells a lot .... 

Sunday, May 8, 2022

Dementia, a cruel demon !

 

*************************** May-8-2022 Sunday


Dementia,,, a cruel demon, that turns grown men into a baby, in mentality and behavior.
Dementia,,, a cruel demon, that tortures the loved ones who are themselves lost and trying to comprehend about their loved ones change in behavior..
,,, the struggle to remember, what was once a no-brainier,
the struggle to remember where the toilet was,
reaching the toilet and the struggle to remember, why one was there,
the struggle to remember to drink water,
the struggle to remember how to eat, what to eat.
Sitting down to eat, spoon in hand, staring at the food and wondering , what am I supposed to do now ??
The struggle or rather the inability to remember to brush ones teeth and how to brush !!?? ......

The STRUGGLE !!!

That HEART WARMING golden moment, when dad looks at you, recognizes you after days of blank stares, smiles and seem to say " I am glad, I have you in my corner " !!!!! <3 fills up my heart and makes every moment spent with him, worth it.. 😍

Saturday, June 19, 2021

Religion used as cover for the convenience of Evil people

 Jun-19-2021 Satruday


here is another shit happening,, I heard this before from an iranian around 10 years ago in USA about how pakistans mullas rape their students (boys), he said there were videos on youtube at that time itself... now we have a confirmed arrest there..  This is the problem with ALL the religions... because of their veil of secrecy and the way the reality gets suppressed in the name of religion it conveniently becomes a cover and hub for all kinds of criminal unlawful, immoral activities by people who are generally of the Evil kind ...


https://in.yahoo.com/news/pakistan-70-old-lahore-cleric-123201120.html

Wednesday, June 9, 2021

 Mountainview !!??? 

Saturday, June 5, 2021

SHARING IS CARING, IF YOU CARE, SHARE! :)

 SHARING IS CARING, IF YOU CARE, SHARE! :) 

"Every time you have an opportunity to communicate, you have an opportunity to change lives"


Its also true in the case of Facebook (FB) as a medium of communication. 

Having the power of media (FB) to reach out to friends and all those who care to check on your Facebook, gives us the opportunity to reach out, share and spread our positive thoughts and messages, in the most non-intrusive way possible.


You never know who is going thru what in their life? 

Just that chance of seeing or reading a positive message that you cared to share, might brighten up their day, change the direction of their life.

It Maybe for a few minutes, hours, days or even their life. 

And who knows they would end up spreading it to others they come across, a chain of events, THAT YOU CARED TO SHARE, leading to a better world. 

All because you choose to share a positive inspiring message or bit of information in/about your life.


Thanks to facebook and youtube, we got see babies laughing and boy oh boy, did it not mellow the hardest of hearts and melt the coldness within!?

We got to see puppies, kittens and baby elephants fill our hearts with their sweet innocent happy expression and playfulness.


If you care , then please share messages and information that might help change someones life. 


You have one of the most powerful instruments that normal people years ago never had. The power of Facebook for sharing and reaching a wider audience. 

Not just sucking in what the media controlled by vested interested throw in our direction (mostly negative news) causing panic and creating hopelessness. 

We now have the power to voice our own goodness, positive messages, that would probably make a difference in someone else's life in ways we would probably not be aware off.


IF YOU CARE, SHARE!


Cause

SHARING IN CARING :)


I got inspired to run and improve my health after seeing the regular feed on my FB home page of a FB friend going out running. 

Then when I started sharing my running info, another friend of mine got inspired to start running..... this was one good example of spreading and inspiring positive change in the lives of others.


Then there was this article that got me moving away from coffee to healthier Tea.


I see articles shared by people doing yoga, working on healthy eating habits and I have been inspired to try and try adopt the positive practices for what I believe is greater good. :)


There are times when it feels like I have no energy to get thru the day, but thanks to some inspiring and motivating posts by kind FB Friends, just reading a few feeds turning up on the Home page, stopped the downward slide I was in and got my spirits soaring again and helped me walk around with a smile. :)


THANK YOU ALL FOR INSPIRING ME AND GUIDING ME INTO BECOMING A BETTER PERSON. (physically, emotionally, philosophically, psychologically, improving my strength in character, ,,,,)


I sincerely believe and see that there is MORE and GREATER GOOD and GOOD PEOPLE in this world than any bad. We just have to be more conscious when we see it and appreciate it and not keep taking it for granted. Open your eyes to the GREATER GOOD Happening all around you :)

Wednesday, December 11, 2019

Sep 14 2011 Wed,,,, yeaaa interview atlast


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Wed Sep 14 2011
got an potential interview atlast , job in west coast. Too costly, meaning for the same salary, I have to spend more,

Froggy and the "NO" " Nope" "Nah" "Maybe" a Salsa Story

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Friday, July 26, 2019

Snake visit in the morning

Saturday, January 13, 2018

Dementia the Demon

Jan 13 2018 , Saturday.


Dad seemed to have slept like a baby starting around 10pm and waking up around 5:30am went to the bath room and peeped. Slept a bit more and woke up around 6:20am.


Jan 12 2018 , Friday.

Dad end up peeing and shitting in bed today .. in fact around 2am he woke up, sat and started peeing ,, when I got there with the vessel (plastic) he stopped...  Then tried to get him to pee again to the wash room. but guess he forgot and refused to...  THE unforgiving DEMON CALLED DEMENTIA !! 

Then latter around 6:30 we woke up to some shitty smell to find him sleeping in pee and shit.. ,, it was a huge fight trying to get his dress off and getting him into the wash room. then to wash off the shit from his dress and sheets. .. phew!!! Got to give him a bath, with him yelling and protesting all along. At times needing to lock his hands in a grip so that he would stop hitting out in anger.

At night around 8:45pm dad started talking in his own language, non-stop into 10:00pm. he was trying to ask when to go. Started trying to explain what seemed to be the history of the story he was telling us so that he could convince us to go out to visit some office or bank or person he needed to get something from... 


Jan 11 2018 , Thursday.
Woke up around 6am,, dad went to sleep well, with no incidents. Woke up and went to the loo to pee.
Had his breakfast.


Going to MIMS today for moms heart related. Do not have much confidence in the way the Doc at Indra Gandhi hospital answered the questions and prescribed the medicines.

Prakash the Car driver came by on time at 12noon, reached MIMS around 2.. registered for Rs350 as consultancy fee for doc. Doc was out for lunch. So ended up going for lunch, costed about Rs495 for 3 people, With a costly fish fry.

Got meet the doc around 3:00pm.. was out by 3:45 with medicies worth Rs2,400.
Taxi charges were Rs2500.


Jan 10 2018 , Wednesday.
woke up around 6:15 am with the commotion from mom that dad was up and acting confused.. So had to pull him away from the bed room door and lead him back to the wash room. He needed to pee. After which he returned to bed. Looked really tired. After waking up multiple times and wanting to get out.
What is going thru his head? What is causing him to remember something and not other. Whats causing him to remember easy stuff that we take for granted sometimes and making him confused many times.

Jan 09 2018 , Tuesday.

Woke up early morning 6am to the commotion in the bed room. Dad waking up and making his way to the toilet and mom yelling. Turns out dad ended up peeing in the bed. So started the process of separating the bedsheets and getting him off the dress he was wearing and wiping him with the body wipes as he was scratching himself.

Dad had his bath,, almost ended up shitting in the main room before mom caught him pulling up his lungi. Almost made it to the shit pot. Ended up cleaning one bit of his initial shit that came out..
Was able to lead him into the back after washing his back with a new gloves.
The lady came back today. Does not seems to have got her scanning done as suggested by her doctor relative.


Jan 08 2018 , Monday.
around 6:30 with the commotion of dad getting into the toilet. He ended up peeing a bit on the way to the toilet. Was not able to hold it in. But he peed into the toilet. Unlike last night when the was peeing a bit away from it and I had to pour a lot of water to cleanse .




Sunday, January 7, 2018

entitled behavior and willing subjects enabling the entitled behavior

Jan 07 2018 , Sunday.



Since 10:30 pm dad who we got to bed around 9:40 started his cranky behavior of wanting to get up and go out. Letting him get up and out of the room he headed straight for the exit doors that were locked and was trying to pull and yank it open, he even tried to exit out of the window thinking that it was the door.
So had to force him back to bed, he kept yelling and getting up again. At one point had try and restrain him. But he kept punching, pinching (caused an inch long gash on my thighs, minor bloody). Around 10:50 threatened him with the hockey stick, hid is chappals/slippers. Guess now around 11:15 he is tired and seems to have cooled down and sleeping.

He said he wanted to go to the bank for his money. Hopefully he forgets what he wanted to get at and sleeps.
But this has been a strongly recurring behavior of him wanting to go out somewhere, mostly assuming his bank to get his pension, but he is not able to vocalize it properly not able to remember his bank. just seems to know that he has to go somewhere.

Mom’s brother came by in the afternoon (entitled piglet). Just comes in and expects room service. And mom like an idiot was at his beck and call serving him lunch around 3pm. That retarded behavior is never going to end in that family. even thou he knows that mom is a heart patient..... should not be straining herself with work. ,, The lady babe had left towards noon for her home to take care of some personal business and some recurring pain in her stomach

Saturday, January 6, 2018

2018 year of taking on the DEMOM Dementia

Jan 06 2018 , Saturday.

hmmmm again,,, on,, but this time from some warm and beautiful weather location. While the world I was in seems to be engulfed in one of the coldest weather conditions.

home front.. dad incrementally loosing his memory, not even able to communicate a sentence properly. Saying words but must have been meaning something else. 

Dementia,,, a cruel demon, that makes men into a kid, in mentality and behavior.

Dementia,,, a cruel demon, that tortures the loved ones who are themselves lost and trying to comprehend about their loved ones change in behavior.. 

,,, the struggle to remember what was once a no-brainier, 
the struggle to remember where the toilet was, 
reaching the toilet and not knowing why one was there, 
the struggle to remember to drink water, 
the struggle to remember how to eat, what to eat.
The struggle or rather the inability to remember to brush ones teeth !!??


Dementia,,, a cruel demon, that turns grown men into a baby, in mentality and behavior.
Dementia,,, a cruel demon, that tortures the loved ones who are themselves lost and trying to comprehend about their loved ones change in behavior..
,,, the struggle to remember, what was once a no-brainier,
the struggle to remember where the toilet was,
reaching the toilet and the struggle to remember, why one was there,
the struggle to remember to drink water,
the struggle to remember how to eat, what to eat.
Sitting down to eat, spoon in hand, staring at the food and wondering , what am I supposed to do now ??
The struggle or rather the inability to remember to brush ones teeth and how to brush !!?? ......
The STRUGGLE !!!

That HEART WARMING golden moment, when dad looks at you, recognizes you after days of blank stares, smiles and seem to say " I am glad, I have you in my corner " !!!!! <3 fills up my heart and makes every moment spent with him, worth it.. 😍


*************************** Jan-4-2017 Thursday


Around 12 noon.. a little while ago, dad had picked up couple of knifes from the kitchen. Had to forcefully take it away from him and move him to the main room.. after reaching the main room he was so pissed off at me ,, that he punched me like 10 times on my face.. lucky that his punches did not have much power behind it.... he was really pissed off.


*************************** Jan-3-2017 Wednesday
Was talking with R. She mentioned that they were not even allowed into the Thiruvangad temple after the British left. Her husband S was among those who forcefully got into the temple close by with the backing of Congress.

To me a Christian is someone who is allowed into the church and visits the church because he/she is welcome there.
A Muslim is someone who is allowed into a mosque and is welcomed there.
Every other religion Jewish, Buddhist, etc,,, are people who are allowed and are welcomed into the religions place of worship that they claim to belong or have affiliation with.
So the question that comes up. How come can we be called Hindus, when our ancestors and relatives were never allowed anywhere near a temple nor welcomed around the vicinity of a temple???

How come suddenly some crooked brahamin says we are all Hindus we become hindus, (when in fact the brahamin is only interested in the donations we are making to fatten his bank account).

In kerala, around 1920’s, SNDP was instrumental in threatening the Travancouver Maharaja and his Brahamnical group of advisers (the Iyers and Iyenggars) that all the Thiyyas and Ezhavas would convert to Buddhism if they were not allowed into the temples.
Fear of becoming a minority with not enough slaves, scared them into agreeing to let lower caste people into the temples ..

Point to ponder… HINDU? WHO? HOW ?   How can anyone with any sense of SELF-RESPECT ever feel affinity towards been a Hindu, when the so said HINDU Brahamis were responsible for raping the aboriginals of the land (the lower caste people)....



Tuesday, June 20, 2017

2017_06-20 Back to Blogging Jun 20 2017

Jun 20 2017 , Tuesday.

hmmmm ,, need to think to start writing, to be inspired.
hahahaha Inspiration, with all the news and talk around focused on Trump and the bull shit crap about Russia. What the hell are all these people expecting to find . That Trump and Russia go way back as buddies. pffff..

well must be the democrats paying back for all the shit that was thrown at obama, about his birth certificate, religion and all kinds of bull shit....

Karma I guess is a Bitch who loves to come back and hound the hunters .. hahahaaha


Saturday, August 20, 2016

I am afraid to love again

Saturday Aug 20 2016

Another bit of creative gushing out of emotions... 

.... afraid to love again

I am afraid

Yes I am afraid to fall in love with someone
who does not care about me
As much as I care about her

Yes I am afraid to fall in love with someone
who does not love me
As much as I love her

Yes I am afraid to fall in love with someone
who does not think about me
As much as I think about her

Yes I am afraid to fall in love with someone
who ignores me
As much as I am focused on her

Yes I am afraid to fall in love with someone
who will never love me
As much as I love her.

Yes I am afraid to fall in love with someone
who will only hurt me
As much as I adore her

Yes I am afraid to fall in love with someone
who dances with a closed heart
As much as I dance with my heart

Yes I am afraid to fall in love with someone

Copy Rights Vi V (Sep 2014)

Monday, August 17, 2015

Lazy warm days some would love to have

Sunday Aug 16 2015

Lazy warm days some would love to have ....


Ahhhhhh my fav Merengue at last after a very long time... Bonus dancing with a curly haired beauty smile emoticon
Followed by an amazing Cumbia... wow what a night at Border line ,, after a very very long time smile emoticon