hmmmm again,,, on,, but this time from some warm and beautiful weather location. While the world I was in seems to be engulfed in one of the coldest weather conditions.
home front.. dad incrementally loosing his memory, not even able to communicate a sentence properly. Saying words but must have been meaning something else.
Dementia,,, a cruel demon, that makes men into a kid, in mentality and behavior.
Dementia,,, a cruel demon, that tortures the loved ones who are themselves lost and trying to comprehend about their loved ones change in behavior..
,,, the struggle to remember what was once a no-brainier,
the struggle to remember where the toilet was,
reaching the toilet and not knowing why one was there,
the struggle to remember to drink water,
the struggle to remember how to eat, what to eat.
The struggle or rather the inability to remember to brush ones teeth !!??
The struggle or rather the inability to remember to brush ones teeth !!??
Dementia,,, a cruel demon, that turns grown men into a baby, in mentality and behavior.
Dementia,,, a cruel demon, that tortures the loved ones who are themselves lost and trying to comprehend about their loved ones change in behavior..
,,, the struggle to remember, what was once a no-brainier,
the struggle to remember where the toilet was,
reaching the toilet and the struggle to remember, why one was there,
the struggle to remember to drink water,
the struggle to remember how to eat, what to eat.
Sitting down to eat, spoon in hand, staring at the food and wondering , what am I supposed to do now ??
The struggle or rather the inability to remember to brush ones teeth and how to brush !!?? ......
The STRUGGLE !!!
That HEART WARMING golden moment, when dad looks at you, recognizes you after days of blank stares, smiles and seem to say " I am glad, I have you in my corner " !!!!! <3 fills up my heart and makes every moment spent with him, worth it.. 😍
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Jan-4-2017 Thursday
Around 12 noon.. a little while ago, dad had picked up
couple of knifes from the kitchen. Had to forcefully take it away from him and
move him to the main room.. after reaching the main room he was so pissed off
at me ,, that he punched me like 10 times on my face.. lucky that his punches
did not have much power behind it.... he was really pissed off.
To me a Christian is someone who is allowed into the church and visits the church because he/she is welcome there.
A Muslim is someone who is allowed into a mosque and is welcomed there.
Every other religion Jewish, Buddhist, etc,,, are people who are allowed and are welcomed into the religions place of worship that they claim to belong or have affiliation with.
So the question that comes up. How come can we be called Hindus, when our ancestors and relatives were never allowed anywhere near a temple nor welcomed around the vicinity of a temple???
How come suddenly some crooked brahamin says we are all Hindus we become hindus, (when in fact the brahamin is only interested in the donations we are making to fatten his bank account).
In kerala, around 1920’s, SNDP was instrumental in threatening the Travancouver Maharaja and his Brahamnical group of advisers (the Iyers and Iyenggars) that all the Thiyyas and Ezhavas would convert to Buddhism if they were not allowed into the temples.
Fear of becoming a minority with not enough slaves, scared them into agreeing to let lower caste people into the temples ..
Point to ponder… HINDU? WHO? HOW ? How can anyone with any sense of SELF-RESPECT ever feel affinity towards been a Hindu, when the so said HINDU Brahamis were responsible for raping the aboriginals of the land (the lower caste people)....
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Jan-3-2017 Wednesday
Was talking with R. She mentioned that they were not even allowed into the Thiruvangad temple after the British left. Her husband S was among those who forcefully got into the temple close by with the backing of Congress.To me a Christian is someone who is allowed into the church and visits the church because he/she is welcome there.
A Muslim is someone who is allowed into a mosque and is welcomed there.
Every other religion Jewish, Buddhist, etc,,, are people who are allowed and are welcomed into the religions place of worship that they claim to belong or have affiliation with.
So the question that comes up. How come can we be called Hindus, when our ancestors and relatives were never allowed anywhere near a temple nor welcomed around the vicinity of a temple???
How come suddenly some crooked brahamin says we are all Hindus we become hindus, (when in fact the brahamin is only interested in the donations we are making to fatten his bank account).
In kerala, around 1920’s, SNDP was instrumental in threatening the Travancouver Maharaja and his Brahamnical group of advisers (the Iyers and Iyenggars) that all the Thiyyas and Ezhavas would convert to Buddhism if they were not allowed into the temples.
Fear of becoming a minority with not enough slaves, scared them into agreeing to let lower caste people into the temples ..
Point to ponder… HINDU? WHO? HOW ? How can anyone with any sense of SELF-RESPECT ever feel affinity towards been a Hindu, when the so said HINDU Brahamis were responsible for raping the aboriginals of the land (the lower caste people)....
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