Monday, Sep 24 2012
The weekend was spend in self debate about actions past. How to improve self into the future. Lazing about looking for something worth while to do and be proud of accomplishing. To do something positively motivating and enriching.
Was able to go out for a long fast walk. It was an accomplishment, given that for the past 4 weeks, life swung from hectic travel, different cultures, climates and ultimately the body giving up under these pressures and yielding to fever, cold and cough.
Its strange that I noticed when I am sick, my hair and nails don't as fast as they would when I am feeling healthier. So looks like I am back to normal health, except for the occasional cough. Was a good decision not to go out dancing on Friday night.
Guess I am now tired to travelling as a tourist or have ended up having an over dose of exposure or in material sense, have now spent more than I am earning. So time out from any more travel.
These are the situations when I get inclined towards having money and not having to worry about earning to sustain myself.
Back to cooking (rather re-heating) veggie food.
And maybe head out for the group meditation at the Buddhist place in the evening and then for some free monday salsa :)
Thoughts when re-heating..
Looking around and comparing with friends I known for 10 to 15 years.... all ,, i mean all seem to have some kind of life achievement. Have their own house. yes something they did not inherit from their ancestors, just built or broght with their own hard earned money. Something physical that they could look at and feel proud of having done, rather a symbol of all their hard work, sacrifices and achievements.
What do I have, non-attached, fluctuating bank account (at its seasonal low now).
I could have had something too, had it not been my own greed and thoughts of making money grow faster, resulting in investments that only screwed up my savings.
Could have, should have, might have,,,,,, ahhh the story of HAVE.
Was on a roll the few months before going to India, peaceful, happy, alone, tension free life.
Then came the tragedy of moms heart attack. Ended up spending a bunch at the hospitals and travel. And then having to put up with some very idiotic self-imposing people (relatives), who think that they own me and started dictating and pushing me around only to rudely feel the surprise of me pushing back and no longer wanting to have to do anything with them.
Saw a Fedex van pull up, was excited thinking that it must be my iphone 5,,,,aww turns out that it was one of the neighbors who ordered a LG TV.
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