Jul 29 Thu

Thursday Jul 29 2010
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was not able to go running yesterday. but woke up early before 5 and was lazing in bed till the alarm went off, hit snooze for 10 mins, and then got out @ 5:10am. why is there is laziness to get out of bed, why the lethargy,

Chatted a bit with Eva and Kiran.. kiran wanted to know what happened to the relation with Eva, told him she is now in india. :( and things did not happen the way we wanted it to happen.

Then had an interesting chat with Eva. Thou I was not able to tell her or give the right explanation. I wish we could have sat face to face and talked about things like civilized people and do away with all the sick mis understanding of each others actions and the resulting hurt. Clear of the webs and interference caused by other people, who may have had good intentions or foolishness of inexperience's.
people who tried to out do themselves not knowing much. Well its my foolishness and desparation also to contact them and to expect some kind of magic to happen from them.

One thing that Eva did not understand was that I am not her Enemy. But she tended to behave in such a way that I am more interested in damaging her. If I had those intentions, I would not have had strong opposition of her going to India in the first place.

And when I raise the issues with the past about her with Igor, or with others, it was for me one to know for sure that she was not having feelings for them or feelings or regret of not been with them. And two to know that she has learnt from that experience and will not let things like that happen again. But her tendency was to just barge ahead in life with out wanting to analyze of learn any lesson from the past. Which I am sure has resulted in her going and falling head over heals for Amit, Rishit and I am not sure who else she seems to have a soft corner for.

Not sure if she is still the same girl I fell in love with or has she, after the heat and indian experience opened up to some other kind of life and living.!!!!!????

Well got a series of meeting that I need to attend today, most important the ones with the Avaya team. to resolve the politics of non-coperation from them. Deeply supect that these guys are scared of loosing their job and have built up a wall around themselve and seem to be getting angry at things when people ask them questions.

Found the can of Milk I forgot was there, was using the new one I brought on sunday, expiry date of the old one is Jul 31, when I opened it, looked like it turned into a kind of yogurt. not sure if its good to have.!!!!

Issue with Vaccine call center and order mgmt call.

Got home, with plans of getting things done and to cook if possible, and go for a run, ended up resting for a few mins and kaboom don't know when I passed out.