Thursday May 08 2014
The movers came in aorund 10 and left around 12.
had a weird night of waking up in night mares, thinking that I was missing the flight.
yesterday, mss butterfly smile came to my home.. in a weird twist of events and we had a very very brief talk, was nervous as hell and trying to play kool..
was intersting to see her at such close quarters, sweet, open, a very pleasent way of explaining things.
only bummer was the use of drugs,,,
does she want to use it in the future.
latte in the eveing went to salsa at fky budda.. met the tango gal elain and we went a restuaurant and sat down to talk.
butter fly gal wants to take me out for dinner tomorrow.
went out to OTR.... after driving around for a bit and watching the sun in the western horizon . had the rest of the pizza.. kind had a very very odd feeling of not been in a happy place of having things that I would like to have,,,,, love of a wonderful women.
went to on the rocks and got into the class for basics.
Then for some reason, connected with a hot lady,,, eye to eye,, who latter came over and asked me to dance...
it was a great odd kind of connection.. she said she would come and get me on the bachata and latter on she did ,, and boy of boy,, after a very very long time got to dance bachata in a very very sensual way.
Then the story of the butter fly gal... seems to be kind of weired...Felt as thou she was avoiding me. Well maybe my expectation were raised too high,, its her truf, and been one of the divas, was surely in demand ..
was disappointed when she said no to a merengue... something I wanted to test our connection on..
The salsa on vivo,, was also a bit odd... with her focusing on her hand styling and her attention getting diverted towards people around.... well thats the path of the performer,, not in the non-performer tub I am in that of trying to find connection between partners and not caring about the rest of the world... thou it would be flattering and in a different world of its own.
she seemed to be only dancing bachata with that one guy,, really felt pangs of jealousy.. but also felt that he did not care much about her.... she seems to be just another stepping stone for him..
and she seemed to be into him and looking for his approval.
well, well,,,,,, story of my love life,, always in love with someone who is really in love with someone else....
It was sweet of her to invite me for dinner in the morning.. but after the interaction tonite
not sure where that stands..
Will she pull an selfish eva on me?
suddenly canceling with no regard to the others life and feelings?
If she does,, ,, then I need to go evaluate again why I am been drawn towards women like that, even after 5 years,, the same pattern? atleast in this case I would know what to happened historically.
Its heart,,,, wrenching, tingling to,, see someone you love and deam of them loving you... showing the same kind of loving , dotting love to someone else... and hurting more ,, when you see them treat you love like they are just stepping stone and don't care much for who seems to be the love of your life.
Thursday, May 8, 2014
Tuesday, May 6, 2014
May 06 2014... to Edmonton
Tuesday May 06 2014
ITs going to be a very long day.. demos, cable set up (now doubtful)... and the long 6 hrs of travel to edmonton,, not to mention starting off from work around 1pm and reaching home around 1 or 2.. that will be 12 hrs door to door.
What a hectic past few days
loosing the iPhone on Sunday was one of the craziest things that happened. screwed up my sunday... into monday.
got a new one paying $700 at the apple store.
wooo,, it was heart warming to get the mail from the butterfly smile...
not sure what her real deal is, single or taken?
well there is no scope for anything to happen there as the logistics are too many and against any smooth run even if she is single.
But then it has been a good source of inspiring moments just cause of her smile.. that liberated the bonded butterflies in my heart... phew after such a long time.
So nice to know that i can still feel those feelings.
ITs going to be a very long day.. demos, cable set up (now doubtful)... and the long 6 hrs of travel to edmonton,, not to mention starting off from work around 1pm and reaching home around 1 or 2.. that will be 12 hrs door to door.
What a hectic past few days
loosing the iPhone on Sunday was one of the craziest things that happened. screwed up my sunday... into monday.
got a new one paying $700 at the apple store.
wooo,, it was heart warming to get the mail from the butterfly smile...
not sure what her real deal is, single or taken?
well there is no scope for anything to happen there as the logistics are too many and against any smooth run even if she is single.
But then it has been a good source of inspiring moments just cause of her smile.. that liberated the bonded butterflies in my heart... phew after such a long time.
So nice to know that i can still feel those feelings.
Tuesday, April 29, 2014
Apr-29 2014. My heart and butterfly smile
Tuesday Apr-29 2014.
My heart
For days they were Lost
For weeks they were crying,
For months they were locked
For years they were trapped.
And just that smile from a beautiful angel,
melted the walls and barbed wires.
liberated the little baby butterflies
from cocoon of misery they were trapped in
... thank you , thank you, thank you.
" The Girl with the Butterfly Smile "
My heart
For days they were Lost
For weeks they were crying,
For months they were locked
For years they were trapped.
And just that smile from a beautiful angel,
melted the walls and barbed wires.
liberated the little baby butterflies
from cocoon of misery they were trapped in
... thank you , thank you, thank you.
A smile so beautiful,,
that every time she smiled....
butterflies just fluttered and danced around in joy....
sunlight bounced of their wings
such that it made the northern lights look pale .....
The lights twisted, turned, bounced of the million soft wings in heavenly splendor...
Oh Girl with the Butter Fly Smile
you make me feel so Shy...
Dreams and thoughts I am filled with
that my eyes are always twinkling with stars
Your lovely round baby eyes
filled with gentle innocence just flushes my heart
lil lolipop hands
I held and danced to your sweetness.
lil lolipop hands
I held and danced to your sweetness.
The touch of your Soft cheeks feels
soothing and nourishing my torn soul.
soothing and nourishing my torn soul.
,,,ohhhh if only god was human,
he would probably understand that its not right to emotionally torture people...
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Why is it
.....Everywhere I see
............Everyone I see
..I see
...........The face, with the Butterfly smile.
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Why is it
.....Everywhere I see
............Everyone I see
..I see
...........The face, with the Butterfly smile.
***********************
It doesn’t take me much
It doesn’t take me much
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It doesn't take me much to fall in love,
just a sweet lil gal with flowing hairs.
The twinkling beauty in her eyes,
matching the beauty of her smile.
It doesn't take me much to fall for a gal.
Just a simple gal with a tender caring heart.
It doesn't take me much to fall for a gal.
Just a simple gal whose eyes sparkle when our eyes meet.......
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It doesn't take me much to fall in love,
just a sweet lil gal with flowing hairs.
The twinkling beauty in her eyes,
matching the beauty of her smile.
It doesn't take me much to fall for a gal.
Just a simple gal with a tender caring heart.
It doesn't take me much to fall for a gal.
Just a simple gal whose eyes sparkle when our eyes meet.......
Apr 28 2014, Epiphany
Monday Apr 28 2014,
Epiphany on a sleepless weekend :
There is difference between.....
Loving the idea of been in love with someone and loving who they really are....
Books and Stories helps us Imagine,
Imagination helps us Dream ,
Dreams give us Hope.
Hope leads to Desire.
Desire gives us Drive,
Drive helps us improve ourselves.
- Guru Vino ,,, hehehehe..... laughter cures all
26 April
thou the Edmonton weather was not great, the people there are ,,,,
well just been in LA for about 4 days now and it feels like I have been here for lot more, too many things happening all at the same time.
But really miss the simple, down to earth, sweetness of Edmonton.....
My wishes are very simple and down to earth.. well kind off ,, but the universe does not seem to agree and says,, oops sorry clerical error by the angles...
Epiphany on a sleepless weekend :
There is difference between.....
Loving the idea of been in love with someone and loving who they really are....
Books and Stories helps us Imagine,
Imagination helps us Dream ,
Dreams give us Hope.
Hope leads to Desire.
Desire gives us Drive,
Drive helps us improve ourselves.
- Guru Vino ,,, hehehehe..... laughter cures all
26 April
thou the Edmonton weather was not great, the people there are ,,,,
well just been in LA for about 4 days now and it feels like I have been here for lot more, too many things happening all at the same time.
But really miss the simple, down to earth, sweetness of Edmonton.....
My wishes are very simple and down to earth.. well kind off ,, but the universe does not seem to agree and says,, oops sorry clerical error by the angles...
Saturday, April 26, 2014
Apr 26 2014 New Apt lease, beach
Saturday, Apr 26 2014
Applied and booked the new apt on pine.
was fascinating to discover that it was walking distance from the beach.
Sent docs to movers ,,, now to see if we can coordinate the dates.
Sweet Vedanta : To steal the heart of the person who stole your heart and live together happily ever after.. ;)
Applied and booked the new apt on pine.
was fascinating to discover that it was walking distance from the beach.
Sent docs to movers ,,, now to see if we can coordinate the dates.
Sweet Vedanta : To steal the heart of the person who stole your heart and live together happily ever after.. ;)
Friday, April 25, 2014
Apr 25 2014 Your path will be difficult, but will be rewarding.
Friday Apr 25 2014
Fortune cookie today : Your path will be difficult, but will be rewarding.
hmmmmmm which path? Career, love, family, peace, happiness, money,.....!!?
We are all modules of Energy.
When you are attracted to a person, you are really attracted to that module of energy.
Sometimes when it matches, it gels seamlessly and HEAVEN it is.
Dancing is a great way to know if your energy matches.... it became more evident yesterday with the different levels of energy and frequencies
I have never been a guy who went oohhh ahhh for celebrities, they never had any impact on me....
I just go ,, hmm.. ok.. then start wondering why am not feeling the stuff that other people are feeling ... also used to wonder ,, whats in mona lisa's smile... its just a painting of some round expression less face.. why are people going so poetic about her ???
how can people feel all those kind of things just looking at her painting!!??....
then BOOM,, one fine sunday evening,,,,, I got hit by the butter fly smile... .. ever since then... well the result is the universe decided to send me to LaLa Land hehehehe
Then in its own way, the universe tried to build up expectations by throwing in some obstacles/blocks to the lala land trip,,,,, it kind of raised my expectations a bit... but then in its own way...the universe said... sorry hehehe... not your lucky day... ... aww well one can only try and hope for so much . "every thing happens for a reason" , but glad that I was able to experience those thoughts and un explained treasured feelings, that makes me smile... , something that you cannot fake or buy with money... 100% organic . PURE and FREE .. just wished I had the opportunity to know her and the person behind the butterfly smile....
and I have never been a guy who went oohhh ahhh for celebrities, they never had any impact on me.... I just go ,, hmm.. ok.. then start wondering why am not feeling the stuff that other people are feeling ... also used to wonder ,, whats in mona lisa's smile... its just a painting of some round expression less face.. why are people going so poetic about her ??? how can people feel all those kind of things just looking at her painting.... then boom,, one fine sunday evening,,,,, I got hit by the butter fly smile... .. ever since then... well the result is the universe decided to send me to LaLa Land hehehehe
Fortune cookie today : Your path will be difficult, but will be rewarding.
hmmmmmm which path? Career, love, family, peace, happiness, money,.....!!?
We are all modules of Energy.
When you are attracted to a person, you are really attracted to that module of energy.
Sometimes when it matches, it gels seamlessly and HEAVEN it is.
Dancing is a great way to know if your energy matches.... it became more evident yesterday with the different levels of energy and frequencies
I have never been a guy who went oohhh ahhh for celebrities, they never had any impact on me....
I just go ,, hmm.. ok.. then start wondering why am not feeling the stuff that other people are feeling ... also used to wonder ,, whats in mona lisa's smile... its just a painting of some round expression less face.. why are people going so poetic about her ???
how can people feel all those kind of things just looking at her painting!!??....
then BOOM,, one fine sunday evening,,,,, I got hit by the butter fly smile... .. ever since then... well the result is the universe decided to send me to LaLa Land hehehehe
Then in its own way, the universe tried to build up expectations by throwing in some obstacles/blocks to the lala land trip,,,,, it kind of raised my expectations a bit... but then in its own way...the universe said... sorry hehehe... not your lucky day... ... aww well one can only try and hope for so much . "every thing happens for a reason" , but glad that I was able to experience those thoughts and un explained treasured feelings, that makes me smile... , something that you cannot fake or buy with money... 100% organic . PURE and FREE .. just wished I had the opportunity to know her and the person behind the butterfly smile....
and I have never been a guy who went oohhh ahhh for celebrities, they never had any impact on me.... I just go ,, hmm.. ok.. then start wondering why am not feeling the stuff that other people are feeling ... also used to wonder ,, whats in mona lisa's smile... its just a painting of some round expression less face.. why are people going so poetic about her ??? how can people feel all those kind of things just looking at her painting.... then boom,, one fine sunday evening,,,,, I got hit by the butter fly smile... .. ever since then... well the result is the universe decided to send me to LaLa Land hehehehe
Wednesday, April 23, 2014
Apr 23 2014 LA life day 1 (3rd time around)
Wednesday Apr 23 2014 LA life day 1 (3rd time around)
Woke up to a brand new day in LA.
It has its own magic of sexual charge. When the gals lock eyes with you its so sexually charged ... so different from the warm sensual sweet looking gals of Edmonton.
ahhh so to be smitten by the girl with the butterfly smile.
Had always heard people talk about mona lisas smile and wondered ,, are these people crazy... whats so great about her smile..
now been smitten by a gal a bit looking like her.. but much, much ,, much better and sweeter... I can relate to those people.....
Woke up to a brand new day in LA.
It has its own magic of sexual charge. When the gals lock eyes with you its so sexually charged ... so different from the warm sensual sweet looking gals of Edmonton.
ahhh so to be smitten by the girl with the butterfly smile.
Had always heard people talk about mona lisas smile and wondered ,, are these people crazy... whats so great about her smile..
now been smitten by a gal a bit looking like her.. but much, much ,, much better and sweeter... I can relate to those people.....
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