Nov 16,,, day of rest I assume

Friday, Nov 16 2012

Its been a lack luster day, after all the hectic coordination.

At last or suddenly experiencing a vacuum. Peace, of not having to wait for others to respond, not wondering, if its a yes or a no, plan A of plan D, a sudden call in between or the wait for the call back and having to call up multiple time to multiple people.

Even after so many moves, my 2nd this year,,,, I am still left with the Good, Bad, Ugly feeling of struggle trying to make things happen and work out smoothly.

Change brings with it, the velocity of change, turbulence and chaos.

""The velocity of change comes visiting, with cousins turbulence and chaos ""

People in US keep taking about needing protection from other countries... because it seems that the people of other countries are out to get them... what a load of crap... in fact

 Deepavali?

 (  bloody arayans rascals celebrating the murder of our great Dravidian king Ravan... hmmmmm, even the Dravidians seem to be brain washed into accepting the Arayan superiority and victory over their own, more because of lack of education and the propaganda machinery thats been working for centuries).

Nov 15, Thu, Coordination of an Octopus

Thrusday, Non 15

Was trying to coordinate with the movers for this week and turns out no one was available. And next week is a no-happening with the long weekend. After a few calls to Kam and hol,y settled for nov 26.
so have to drive over on sunday, stay there for 3 nights and drive back.

so renting a car here for 5 days.

That would leave me 11 more days that I can stay in a hotel.,, in other estimate, need to get a apt by the 7th of dec.

Got a call from Doc office, telling me that they found that I have high chloestrol.. .aaahh thats something I know, now I got to find out how much more.. did it increase than when I did it a few months ago at home?
....

Went out for salsa dancing,, not a great night. was lack luster. came back home a bit disappointed even thou it was probably my last time going out salsa dancing in the area.

Nov 14, Wed, Relocation Action

Wednesday, Nov 14 2012

Lots of hectic work, Packing,,,, all in parts and pieces and not able to do it continuously. More because of confusion and putting off to the last minute.

But should be able to set it into motion and complete it once the movers date is confirmed.

now to head for the drug test again... ahh and to check on the costco checks,, did I cash them before I went to india in july???

Nov 13 2012,,,, packing, waiting and Doctor

Tuesday Nov 13 2012

It packing time and getting to the Yearly physical.


Monday Nov 12 2012

Started the day with the remote meeting, that did not go well as the Client seemed to have had made plans of their own and only wanted some clarification.

So after that it was waiting to be allotted to the proj so that I could start the relocation process. But as usual screw ups in the dates and understanding of the need by others screw up the date. Should have been nov 12 , with 1perct assigned to the proj but I lucily noticed the request been put for Nov 19 and alerted others. But again its a wait game, sending out mails to people..

and in between all this , went for the drug test which is another pre employment requirement with client.

,, wanted to go out to the buddhist temple for meditation and salsa after, but then after I started off, and thinking of hour long drive in the peak hr traffic of 5pm,,, got discouraged. Sun seems to be setting pretty soon and its getting dark by 5:30pm.

Nov 11 Sunday, New York

Sunday , Nov 11

Got off around 10 went over to NJ to Nars house, stopped over at the temple briefly.

Had a great lunch of fish curry and yummy rasam. Then around 4:20pm all head out to JFK in two cars.

Got back from jfk directly around 10:15. got call from cog Raj about attending a call tomorrow morning for some work related stuff. great. when the going gets going,, its like the flood gates of demand suddenly start opening up and improving my stock value in the job market.
cheers to that.

Nov 10 , weekend, relax, hike

Saturday, Nov 10 2012

At last one weekend where I can relax, not think about my employment status and the possibility of getting employed, self doubt, punctured confidence, help-lessness,,,,,

ahhh what a relief to be just able to not think about the immediate future and the barb wire preventing me from moving forward.

Yesterday my attempt at fish fry seemed to have worked a bit, just that I was not in any mood to eat the fried fish as I had a few baked tilapia before. Towards the evening had a shot of whisky with ice and water, felt relaxed and calmed. Which in turn resulted in me forgetting to have dinner and having to put the fried fish in the fridge.



Now to get ready for the hike.

Great hike..

Got lost when coming back, missed taking my usual exit and ended up driving 13 miles to the next one... luckily was able to turn around before paying the toll of would have ended up with another big drain on from my pocket.

Was thinking about why I tend to ignore someone after they say "no" when I ask them to dance.
Well it takes a lot of emotional energy in me to motivate myself to go over to ask someone to dance, and its also because I would have watched them and found them attractive enough to over come my shyness to ask them to dance. And when they say "no" it sure could be just "no I am resting" or anything.
But to me its like something I love and wanted to have and internally I understand I cannot have. And the more I would look at it or brood over it, the more painful or more desirable it appears.. So in my own best interest its best to ignore it and to imagine that its not there at all.
So when the object of my interest says "no", I in my own interest and to protect my own emotion, just tend to ignore the person going forward. To me that person no longer exists in and around the dance floor. They become a non-entity in the landscape.

Nov 09 2012, The test of patience - The Wait

Friday Nov 09 2012

It was a very patient wait yesterday, then ended up getting a call for another opening, thou it was a mismatch and the expectation was for a person experienced in process enhancement, something I never did and do not have the confidence to be creative, when needed, mostly with in time-lines.

kind of hurt my confidence and the wait for the call for the confirmation at virz. in va..... ahhh


‎"Demand integrity from yourself.
 Integrity is like loyalty. 
You can't demand it of someone else; 
you can only demand it of yourself." 

-- Jim Rohn

So very true. One thing I did not find in all the women I dated in the West, is their sense of loyalty. Which is probably a result of their upbringing with too many options. Or may be I am wrong, even Eastern women have the same issues. Guess its mosty a man thing and the ones who are not able to be loyal to their spouses are branded as "bad eggs" and there by most women blaming the whole group of men as "dogs".

Sense of Loyalty and commitment to relationship, no matter how bad the going gets, tells a lot about the persons loyalty and integrity.

Very easily do we get to see that, if one just takes a look back at a persons history. Well there could be exceptional circumstances for break up, but then when one commits to a relationship, it has its own sacred chamber to exclusivity. Only opened or broken by the people within that chamber.

The purpose of life as someone posted on FB : is to have fun

Well I have a different idea about it :

Come to think about it, purpose of every living creature or being is to reproduce. The rest of the activity for food, fighting for food to sustain life, building colonies are but SUPPORT activities to aid the purpose of breeding. 
Be it Human, animals, viruses, bacteria,,,,,
 I like to go by "Breeding or Reproduction" for all living creatures (Trees, plants, animals, creatures, birds, fish, bacteria, viruses, humans,,,,,). Kind of allowing it to be given a wider umbrella of thinking. ;)

Atlast around afternoon get call from client,, then around 5 get confirmation of the proj. yeaaa atlast after 2 months of waiting it out on the bench.

Here I come Virginia,,,, :) close to the White house. hmmmm