Monday Oct 29 2012
Its now a wait for the performance by Sexy Sandy and her side kicks to show us what its got.
The news seems to be bad with the philly airport closed down and the subways of New york closed.
few more hours for the dance of nature.
Monday, October 29, 2012
Oct 28 2012 Suday, waiting for Sandy
Sunday Oct 28 2012
Was a day of wait and watch with cloudy overcast.
Went to costco, saw that the crowds were lesser on the road and in the shop today than yesterday, when it seemed like every one was on the road and crowding shops and parking lots.
People hoarding up as a precaution of the fall out of the unpredictable out come of natures actions.
Was a day of wait and watch with cloudy overcast.
Went to costco, saw that the crowds were lesser on the road and in the shop today than yesterday, when it seemed like every one was on the road and crowding shops and parking lots.
People hoarding up as a precaution of the fall out of the unpredictable out come of natures actions.
Oct 27 2012 Hike out
Saturday Oct 27 2012
around 1pm went out for a 7 mile hike.
then part of the group went to whole foods for beer and after a long time I had burger, Cowboy burger and fries along with it. yummy with the fried onions and bacon.
around 1pm went out for a 7 mile hike.
then part of the group went to whole foods for beer and after a long time I had burger, Cowboy burger and fries along with it. yummy with the fried onions and bacon.
Friday, October 26, 2012
Oct 26 , end of depressing week and dreaded start of hurricane week
Friday Oct 26 2012
End of depressing week and dreaded start of hurricane week.
CAlled up raj and ajt.. and then send out the mail. But nothing seems to be coming back from them.
Kind of increased dilema and fear as now I got to know that I am on H1B instead of TN which means I need to leave the country as soon as I am laid off.
And next week starts with the huricane virtually coming in from the Atlantic and the news feeds are full of drama about their potential destructive behavior.
Towards evening went to the leasing office and gave the one month notice. ahhhh
End of depressing week and dreaded start of hurricane week.
CAlled up raj and ajt.. and then send out the mail. But nothing seems to be coming back from them.
Kind of increased dilema and fear as now I got to know that I am on H1B instead of TN which means I need to leave the country as soon as I am laid off.
And next week starts with the huricane virtually coming in from the Atlantic and the news feeds are full of drama about their potential destructive behavior.
Towards evening went to the leasing office and gave the one month notice. ahhhh
Thursday, October 25, 2012
Oct 25 2012, Notice
Thursday, Oct 25 2012
As expected got the dreaded Notice of 5 weeks.
Well like everything that you come across face to face, even thou you been thru it before and are expecting it. It fuels the lousy feelings more than its already been experienced when its just all in your mind.
The material impact sure is a fuel as its coming with your other senses getting to experience it and then it comes to hit you with a D-Date.
What exactly is causing me to think of it and dreading it, what is it that I am fearing?
As much as I like to claim, there is a huge part of me thats not willing to do minimum wages jobs. I want to work smarter and contribute to the development of self and my surrounding better with what I believe to be my skills, suited for jobs in the industry. Something that would give me a feeling of self recognization and also gives me enough confidence to hold my head up high and not be belittled by snobs and other ego maniacs. Something that would make the people who I love and who love me, look up with pride and feelings of great achievement in my actions and been associated to me.
It is ofcouse with pride everyone talks about the ones we are related to when we hear of their accomplishments. And in many a cases do not want to talk about relatives who have not done good to the society at large.
Its just like every human, that I want to be liked by people.
Been liked and loved has it own wonderful feeling.
Kind of reminded of the lil babies and dogs loving me of showing actions of liking me with out even a word been spoken.
ITs like the theory of we all been masses of energy, sending of vibrations and frequencies of goodness or not so good. And then suddenly when we meet people who match our frequency there is the
As expected got the dreaded Notice of 5 weeks.
Well like everything that you come across face to face, even thou you been thru it before and are expecting it. It fuels the lousy feelings more than its already been experienced when its just all in your mind.
The material impact sure is a fuel as its coming with your other senses getting to experience it and then it comes to hit you with a D-Date.
What exactly is causing me to think of it and dreading it, what is it that I am fearing?
As much as I like to claim, there is a huge part of me thats not willing to do minimum wages jobs. I want to work smarter and contribute to the development of self and my surrounding better with what I believe to be my skills, suited for jobs in the industry. Something that would give me a feeling of self recognization and also gives me enough confidence to hold my head up high and not be belittled by snobs and other ego maniacs. Something that would make the people who I love and who love me, look up with pride and feelings of great achievement in my actions and been associated to me.
It is ofcouse with pride everyone talks about the ones we are related to when we hear of their accomplishments. And in many a cases do not want to talk about relatives who have not done good to the society at large.
Its just like every human, that I want to be liked by people.
Been liked and loved has it own wonderful feeling.
Kind of reminded of the lil babies and dogs loving me of showing actions of liking me with out even a word been spoken.
ITs like the theory of we all been masses of energy, sending of vibrations and frequencies of goodness or not so good. And then suddenly when we meet people who match our frequency there is the
Wednesday, October 24, 2012
Oct 24 2012 !!?? sums up start of today
Wednesday, Oct 24 2012
Tried to get up early.
It was nice going for a great walk and run about 3.3 miles in 45 mins after a brief work out yesterday.
Now got to get cracking on updating some of my tech skills and see how I can monetize on that.
FB delight.
Tried to get up early.
It was nice going for a great walk and run about 3.3 miles in 45 mins after a brief work out yesterday.
Now got to get cracking on updating some of my tech skills and see how I can monetize on that.
FB delight.
Tuesday, October 23, 2012
Oct 23 2012
Tusday Oct 23 2012
"""A roadblock of sorts will appear in the second half of the month as the Sun moves into Scorpio on October 23. In and of itself, this transit simply represents a change of focus. In this case, however, the Sun is activating the very same traits Saturn is trying to reign in. Adding to this tension, the Sun will butt heads with Saturn on October 25, leaving you feeling a bit downbeat and intensely secretive.""
Got a call for an opening, but they were looking for someone with lots of Manager exp.
Bummer again.
Got another call,,, asking me to be ready to receive the 5 week notice from HR.
Here we go again, held at ransom of the world and its crazy twists and turns.
Depressing feeling sweeping over me, the weather not helping either with its gloomy over cast of clouds.
A bit scared thinking of the hard time I had in Canada been unemployed and worrying to pay my bills. Hate to go back to India and face up to the red-neck characters who are among the village relatives.
Kind of really feeling sick now, mostly the dread of the unknown, fear of hitting lows and becoming dependent on others. Not the way I would like to live.
Who else to blame, other than self. Reasoning can be so diverse. Could end up blaming myself and feeling bad about the choices I made on the opportunities I must have done different.
But then again in the same way able to reason that, given the circumstances of laziness, lack of motivation, lack of concrete will, I would probably have made the same call.
"""A roadblock of sorts will appear in the second half of the month as the Sun moves into Scorpio on October 23. In and of itself, this transit simply represents a change of focus. In this case, however, the Sun is activating the very same traits Saturn is trying to reign in. Adding to this tension, the Sun will butt heads with Saturn on October 25, leaving you feeling a bit downbeat and intensely secretive.""
Got a call for an opening, but they were looking for someone with lots of Manager exp.
Bummer again.
Got another call,,, asking me to be ready to receive the 5 week notice from HR.
Here we go again, held at ransom of the world and its crazy twists and turns.
Depressing feeling sweeping over me, the weather not helping either with its gloomy over cast of clouds.
A bit scared thinking of the hard time I had in Canada been unemployed and worrying to pay my bills. Hate to go back to India and face up to the red-neck characters who are among the village relatives.
Kind of really feeling sick now, mostly the dread of the unknown, fear of hitting lows and becoming dependent on others. Not the way I would like to live.
Who else to blame, other than self. Reasoning can be so diverse. Could end up blaming myself and feeling bad about the choices I made on the opportunities I must have done different.
But then again in the same way able to reason that, given the circumstances of laziness, lack of motivation, lack of concrete will, I would probably have made the same call.
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