Tuesday, October 16, 2012

Oct 15 2012, new week of anticipation and activity

Monday, Oct 15 2012

Started off the day in anticipation.

around afternoon finished cooking up the atlantic salmon, kind of not happy with the salmon. Does not seem to release the oily stuff  (assuming that its Omega3) that comes out when cooking the Costco brought fresh farm salmon.
And the frozen Alaskan salmon seems to stink much more. The smell of fish. This was something I had experienced when I had brought the Alaskan salmon from wal mart too.

So is it the Alaskan salmon or is it the fact that its been vacuum packed and sealed for a long time thats causing this smell and not releasing any Omega 3 oil

Was hoping to shower up and head to the meditation ,, and got to see that they cut off the water supply due to some issues with the pipeline at the end of the apartment building.

Well its raining too, just let it go and around 4:30 set off to downtown. reached the meditation place around 6 with all the traffic. (kind of feels better driving in slower traffic than the fast moving crazy traffic around rush hour).

It was interesting sharing thoughts about life and philosophies with others who seemed to be like minded and going thru some of the confusions about life and behavior and reactions and trying to control the mind.

After the secession , went to the Gogh and had a couple of good dances of salsa, not as great as I would have wanted.

Kind of also getting a bit of confused about my career and been at home waiting for a project.... its been a month since I got back and that makes it about 3 months to the day of not having worked professionally.



Oct 14 2012, day of socializing

Sunday, Oct 14 2012

Got up with not much of hurry. kind of relaxing day.

Met NAr friend raj who got back from Uta and will be again relocating to near here.

WEnt to the restaurant stuff selling in bulk place and got a pack of Atlantic Salmon and thilapia..
It costed about 87 that I need to pay up to Nar.

Latter went to the ewr airport to pick up raj.

Towards evening nar sis and fam arrive, got out around 8:15 and reached home around 9:30. now to relax and start cooking the salmon curry tomorrow.

Oct 13 Saturday off to NJ

Saturday, Oct 13 2012

Call home, still frustrated with mom exerting herself much and stressing over stuff she should not. Not sure how better to handle it other than ignore it and let her do what she wants. There is so much I can do and tell someone about it.

After much of debate and preparation head off to NJ to the Temple, it was kind of re-kindling the feelings in the heart and feelings of vibrations.
The preparation was about the possibility of me feeling like staying over at Nars house. just in case scenario

Then got the bit of food for nar's home and tried calling him up 3:45. did not pick up the phone.
So went back into the temple canteen and got more food for the week.

Was returning when got call from Anl... and was driving back when nar calls after 4.. then make a u turn and get back.

It was a sweet experience watching his new baby girl have the toothless smile and giggling. sweet... and was great to have the sambar at their house.

Watched a couple of movies,, one was Proposal.... again my mind was saying, if it is ment to be, u will know it and things will just happen.
I thought that I had someone like that a sometime back. Then things started going south , the more I got to know and see some traits in that person, turned out to be an entirely different personalty lurking under the what I thought was a calm, reasoning and understanding person.

Well guess it was not the right time or person.


Friday, October 12, 2012

Oct 12 2012

Friday Oct 12 2012  ... 10 12 2012

hmmm still thinking of the sweetheart of a gal I got see at prx. she seems to have such a heart warming smile and a sweet pure personality. well all these by only the physical appearance  do not know how she really is. Would she be one with a volcano of anger hidden under her outward appearance?

but either way, it was  is a pleasent feeling seeing her and thinking about her.

Oct 11 2012, salsa :)

Thursday, Oct 11 2012

Ended up going for salsa and the surprise factor of seeing the sweetheart of a gal at pax ,,, it was great to see and watch her dance. Just did not like the guy trying to pick her up.

Towards the end had a few great danceses and WOWed the gals I danced with, resulting in a few others jumping on to me and trying to get a dance full of me...

Its flattering to have that kind of effect. Feel like a rock star. But a shy rock star. ;)

Wednesday, October 10, 2012

Oct 10 As Birth Day

Wednesday Oct 10 2012

Its A's birthday, sent out a mail wishing happiness.

Felt kind of uncomfortable and had lots of weird thoughts and images coming in yesterday and did not seem to have a good sleep.

Waiting out for the info about the resume sent for the new direction of my career . A bit unsure and wondering what to expect.

Its been a gloomy Vancouver like weather here. hopefully will brighten up soon with sunshine.

wondering should I go to Nar house for the weekend and spend time with his kids and take it easy.


Tuesday, October 9, 2012

Oct 09 2012, no mans land

Tuesday, Oct 09 2012

Again finding myself , wel-fed, rested, entertained and in no particular hurry to reach or go anywhere.
Directionless, or at peace or at a uncertain phase .

No objective other than the hope of getting on to a project and work on been productive and contributing to the betterment of society.

Had got dressed and all ready to go meditating and salsa dancing. But about 4 miles into the drive and seeing the clutter of traffic and the drizzle in COLD weather acted as a catalyst to make me turn around.
Went to Wal mrt and brought couple of warm shirts , lime and a box of cut fruit box meldy.

Was going thru facebook of a Friends Friend and noticed that the person had gone down the west coast in sep 2009, around the same time I had gone. Its funny to see all these people end up coming back and getting married. Looks like mine was the only trip that was ended up screwed.
Well now as I look back, I was just the driver for a self centered princess, who expected me to be her servant and handy man. Atleast I got to know sooner. :)

Good learning exp on understanding and studying human selfishness.