May 05 2012, Hiking

Saturday, May 05 2012

Got up early, debating to hike or not tooo,, but made it by driving 30 miles and was able to catch up with the group just as they got out and were about to turn a corner... parked and joined them running..

phew,, what a hike,,, got lost many times and then there was this sweet lil turtle behind the jewish temple. ahhh love their sweet innocent face with lines of wisdom all over it.

May 04 2012....Friday.

Friday, May 04 2012

Turned out to be a relaxed day at work. Anls last day at his work too.
tried calling up nar and trying to find out what to take as gift for his new baby gal. running out of ideas. got to go window shopping to see if i can fancy something.

sat out at home trying to catch up on sleep lost for 3 night out dancing.
vodka orange juice with internet youtube with russle peters and jeff dunham with peanut helped get my lungs and face get its exercise.

Mar 03 2012, Salsa

Thursday, Mar 03 2012

Salsa date with sha.. she was kind of getting bored at the tango as her level was advanced. lets see how she behaves at the salsa which would be my strong area.

May 02 2012, Tango

Wednesday, May 02 2012

went directly after work for tango, paid for the 4 classes.
met this sweetest gal, with amazing curvy body and lovely... best part so easy to dance with.

it would be so great to get someone understanding like her as a partner for anything. unlike the bunch of angry old ladies I got to meet latter at the practice secession.

May 1 2012,,,,, hectic day at work

Tuesday May 01 2012

Hectic day at work,,
resolve to get into Tango getting stronger.

lets see how I feel on Wednesday.

I must be a real foolish screw ball. too romantically lost in my own world of creating romance when there is none.
Well maybe I am wrong.... maybe its just the way I am, trying to see some kind of big beautiful romance of a flame just when there a splintering sparks.

Damm crazy trick the mind plays or I let it play.

Oh how I wish I could be strong and objective oriented and selfishly focused on my needs than that of others.

Apr 30 2012. meditation and salsa

Monday, Apr 30 2012

Felt a lot of bad vibration, resulting in very high level of discomfort.

So went to downtown for meditation and then for salsa.
got talking with ven at sanfranscisco... he signed up his daughter in for a medical college in india... costing about 100k initial fee and 20k per annum in yearly fee.. thats like 200k... good god, thats something I could not even dream to have.. and here he is spending on his daughters education. and he has a son who will be following soon.. and this is for education in india. that would be like half a million just in fees.....

Makes me feel so lousy,, no wonder I am without a family. would not be able to support them and pay for their education with my own money, like my dad paid for mine.

Apr 29 2012, Intense meditation @ home

Sunday, Apr 29 2012.

Kept off alcohol, so with a rationally stable mind, able to focus sincerly with out external distraction on the requirements of actions I need to take up on and ground myself. Not improve, not raise above, not lower or anything that indicates sine waves and trubulance. Just pure grounding and neutralizing and bringing about stability.
Starting off with the words

Keep your thoughts positive
because your thoughts become your words,

Keep your words positive
because your words become your behaviors.

Keep your behaviors positive,
because your behaviors become your habit.

Keep your habits positive,
because your habits become your values.

Keep your values positive,
because your values become your destiny.

Values make a person.
Values are the flowers of ones depth in character.
Character is the off-spring of ones sincere, honest thinking and choices made.
Choices made are often the result of sacrifices and acts of unselfishness.

Putting oneself behind and putting others ahead is often an start towards unselfish practice.