Thursday, Nov 03 2011
interview at 10am and it went really well. just that they expect me to come and start working ASAP. Which mean, I can only get upto 3 weeks before I can get all the documentation done and join them, but have to get the other permits and stuff which could take 4 weeks including puting up my resignation in my current co.
ahhh and they have a proj lined up in dal that got put off to nov 21 (at best estimates). is it a sure thing.. nope was supposed to report on nov 7 and then that got put off. that reduced my confidence in the probability . now even after my talk with Ra it did not do much to my confidence.
started organizing, re-organizing the boxes that I had packed just 3 months ago for the move then. so much of junk and not sure items.
puuuuuffff... why does the timing of things get so complicated. why can't I just get the job in dls? and everything should be good and peaceful for sometime atleast.
kind of getting hardened to my own logical thinking of fairness and justice after getting burned so often and not able to feel much sympathy towards other people who may be suffering. Or is it cause of my own resignation to the Mortal facts that nothing is permanent and hence me and others need to be open for the worst case scenario, much like the controlling of the false feelings and thoughts of immortality.
Thursday, November 3, 2011
Wednesday, November 2, 2011
Nov 02 2011, Calmer day
Wednesday, Nov 02 2011 (11-02-2011 --> 11022011)
Well did not have much motivation waking up, the proj start been held up and all, with the client wanting every one to join up at the same time instead of me going there 1st and getting a lay of the land. But.....
Now to wait it out and let the forces and powers that are, to pull, push and take matters in direction as destined.
Well did not have much motivation waking up, the proj start been held up and all, with the client wanting every one to join up at the same time instead of me going there 1st and getting a lay of the land. But.....
Now to wait it out and let the forces and powers that are, to pull, push and take matters in direction as destined.
Tuesday, November 1, 2011
Nov 01 2011, Birth month
Tuesday, Nov 01 2011
Bright and shinny day , trying to pack up stuff and organizing my stuff. Finishing up on the food and not buying any new food.
watching the news on greece screwing its self more. Those lazy Europeans are toast. soon none of those lazy pigs in europe will be able to travel around like they own the world. The Chinese and Indians all who are working hard will be there travelling about and as always these pigs will again try to steal from them with all kinds of crookedness.
Well its in their DNA, try to live on other peoples work and efforts, zero sense of accountability and no sense of working hard and living. Just lost in drinking and screwing about and making babies and then moving on without taking care of the babies into other relationships and making more bastard babies who grow up with no sense of values and moral for lack of good role models in their life.
I am so happy and glad that my parents are always together, maybe not the best and ideal couple, but they stayed together and gave us direction and acted as good role models to live up to, in terms of moral, values and sense of accountability.
Was looking out of the window, when I saw a couple of teens, maybe 13 or 14, walking, the guy dark was talking animatedly, the gal lighter skinned (Caucasian) was braiding her hair and walking along on his left side. Then what looked like the end of his story, he seemed to stop and look at her, she reached out with her right hand under his chin, palms extending to his right ears, continuing to walk and kissed him.
Awww such a sweet feeling love. Some are so fortunate to have found beautiful reciprocating love.
Why does it seem like all my past were just one sided love affairs, why is it that I end up opening my heart and laying it at the foot of selfish, value less, superficial women, who then just kick and smash up heart that I take a long time to recover and heal. WHY?
For the 2nd day, the interview was a no show. looks like the managers who were supposed to call me are working 10 peoples jobs and not able to find time to interview me.
the move to dalls seems to be on hold as per the info from the practic manager. ahhhh almost booked the ticket.
Bright and shinny day , trying to pack up stuff and organizing my stuff. Finishing up on the food and not buying any new food.
watching the news on greece screwing its self more. Those lazy Europeans are toast. soon none of those lazy pigs in europe will be able to travel around like they own the world. The Chinese and Indians all who are working hard will be there travelling about and as always these pigs will again try to steal from them with all kinds of crookedness.
Well its in their DNA, try to live on other peoples work and efforts, zero sense of accountability and no sense of working hard and living. Just lost in drinking and screwing about and making babies and then moving on without taking care of the babies into other relationships and making more bastard babies who grow up with no sense of values and moral for lack of good role models in their life.
I am so happy and glad that my parents are always together, maybe not the best and ideal couple, but they stayed together and gave us direction and acted as good role models to live up to, in terms of moral, values and sense of accountability.
Was looking out of the window, when I saw a couple of teens, maybe 13 or 14, walking, the guy dark was talking animatedly, the gal lighter skinned (Caucasian) was braiding her hair and walking along on his left side. Then what looked like the end of his story, he seemed to stop and look at her, she reached out with her right hand under his chin, palms extending to his right ears, continuing to walk and kissed him.
Awww such a sweet feeling love. Some are so fortunate to have found beautiful reciprocating love.
Why does it seem like all my past were just one sided love affairs, why is it that I end up opening my heart and laying it at the foot of selfish, value less, superficial women, who then just kick and smash up heart that I take a long time to recover and heal. WHY?
For the 2nd day, the interview was a no show. looks like the managers who were supposed to call me are working 10 peoples jobs and not able to find time to interview me.
the move to dalls seems to be on hold as per the info from the practic manager. ahhhh almost booked the ticket.
Monday, October 31, 2011
Oct 31 2011, last day of the month
Monday, Oct 31 2011
Last day of the month, had a tough time sleeping at night as the dumb red-necks living on the floor below had loud obnoxious guest coming in around 2:30am and making all kind of noise and a few old ladies who looked like hookers talking their white trash lingo.
only got out of around 8am. had bru coffee with no sugar. yewwww.
got packing a bit.
now the wait for the news to trigger the other activities.
interview with cap scheduled @ 5pm,,, ahhh how could I have got suckered into this one, now have to drive to the Buddhist temple around 3 and be ready for the interview after finding a place to park.
Last day of the month, had a tough time sleeping at night as the dumb red-necks living on the floor below had loud obnoxious guest coming in around 2:30am and making all kind of noise and a few old ladies who looked like hookers talking their white trash lingo.
only got out of around 8am. had bru coffee with no sugar. yewwww.
got packing a bit.
now the wait for the news to trigger the other activities.
interview with cap scheduled @ 5pm,,, ahhh how could I have got suckered into this one, now have to drive to the Buddhist temple around 3 and be ready for the interview after finding a place to park.
Sunday, October 30, 2011
Oct 30 2011, bright sunshine after snow storm
Sunday Oct 30 2011,
bright sunshine after snow storm, just like life full of extreme shades.
Got some cleaning and packing done. trying to fit into some of old trousers. most of them fit in. Well another reason for me to go out running A LOT and slim down.
was again listening to a few Cumbia songs,,,,, ahhhh only a person who can feel the music and dance with his heart will know what it is, when I say, I am in love with Cumbia.
just as I finish typing this, one of my fav merengue songs come on.... ahhhh if only I had a partner who is also nice and good hearted like me. It would be heaven on earth.
bright sunshine after snow storm, just like life full of extreme shades.
Got some cleaning and packing done. trying to fit into some of old trousers. most of them fit in. Well another reason for me to go out running A LOT and slim down.
was again listening to a few Cumbia songs,,,,, ahhhh only a person who can feel the music and dance with his heart will know what it is, when I say, I am in love with Cumbia.
just as I finish typing this, one of my fav merengue songs come on.... ahhhh if only I had a partner who is also nice and good hearted like me. It would be heaven on earth.
Saturday, October 29, 2011
Oct 29 2011, Snowed in yeww
Saturday, Oct 29 2011
Woke up early, kind of woke up to see the first of snow falling. But the snow came in around 10am.
watching the pile up stuck at home. Its great to watch snow from a warm place. :)
Not a great fan of the cold.
Human tendency: To make the most off, with what ever is fastest with as little effort as possible. :)
Words that formed, when I started to analyze a few of my recent actions and way of having gone about doing things and executing certain actions to achieve certain results. Not happy with the less than ethical standards I resorted too, thou not hurting any one in the process, I realized that most actions or all actions resorted to or under taken by us human beings are always soaked in such tendencies.
Tendencies to achieve and get most with as little effort as possible. Which is why we as a group have kind of progressed or developed different from other animals who are happy doing and sticking to their own basic way of living.
But with that every tendency to achieve more with less effort, we have developed into begins with more complicated lives. Is it wrong or right is up for debate, but to each his own.
"""What is right for one person is not right for another, or even for the same person at another time. """
Getting drunk like crazy and finishing up on the stock of alcohol that I have, watching the Stanford university, USC game.
Woke up early, kind of woke up to see the first of snow falling. But the snow came in around 10am.
watching the pile up stuck at home. Its great to watch snow from a warm place. :)
Not a great fan of the cold.
Human tendency: To make the most off, with what ever is fastest with as little effort as possible. :)
Words that formed, when I started to analyze a few of my recent actions and way of having gone about doing things and executing certain actions to achieve certain results. Not happy with the less than ethical standards I resorted too, thou not hurting any one in the process, I realized that most actions or all actions resorted to or under taken by us human beings are always soaked in such tendencies.
Tendencies to achieve and get most with as little effort as possible. Which is why we as a group have kind of progressed or developed different from other animals who are happy doing and sticking to their own basic way of living.
But with that every tendency to achieve more with less effort, we have developed into begins with more complicated lives. Is it wrong or right is up for debate, but to each his own.
"""What is right for one person is not right for another, or even for the same person at another time. """
Getting drunk like crazy and finishing up on the stock of alcohol that I have, watching the Stanford university, USC game.
Friday, October 28, 2011
Oct 28 2011, Diet ease
Friday, Oct 28 2011
woke up around 7 and was checking out to see my proj assignment. seems to be good so far. have to see how it goes in the days ahead, too many loose ends and uncertainty.
Easing into day 3, but today, going to eat stuff and do some work out. Would be trying to stick to fruits as much as possible and avoiding alcohol. Only going to drink on social occasions.
Expecting snow storm latter tonite on the north western corridor. Damm screwed up my plans to go out dancing, don't like getting stuck in the snow when returning. Last time it happened that way.
hmmmm almost a year since I returned from Spain and Portugal.
nice to see pilar the hottest and prettiest spanish gal I got to meet there. Gald to connect with her on facebook, ahhh how I wish that I could speak spanish or she could speak english, we had such a good connection and hmmmmm so beautiful. The best part she also has a twin who is as beautiful and smoking hot . wooooo hmmmm :))) memories, sweet and heart full filling.
woke up around 7 and was checking out to see my proj assignment. seems to be good so far. have to see how it goes in the days ahead, too many loose ends and uncertainty.
Easing into day 3, but today, going to eat stuff and do some work out. Would be trying to stick to fruits as much as possible and avoiding alcohol. Only going to drink on social occasions.
Expecting snow storm latter tonite on the north western corridor. Damm screwed up my plans to go out dancing, don't like getting stuck in the snow when returning. Last time it happened that way.
hmmmm almost a year since I returned from Spain and Portugal.
nice to see pilar the hottest and prettiest spanish gal I got to meet there. Gald to connect with her on facebook, ahhh how I wish that I could speak spanish or she could speak english, we had such a good connection and hmmmmm so beautiful. The best part she also has a twin who is as beautiful and smoking hot . wooooo hmmmm :))) memories, sweet and heart full filling.
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