Tuesday, Nov 01 2011
Bright and shinny day , trying to pack up stuff and organizing my stuff. Finishing up on the food and not buying any new food.
watching the news on greece screwing its self more. Those lazy Europeans are toast. soon none of those lazy pigs in europe will be able to travel around like they own the world. The Chinese and Indians all who are working hard will be there travelling about and as always these pigs will again try to steal from them with all kinds of crookedness.
Well its in their DNA, try to live on other peoples work and efforts, zero sense of accountability and no sense of working hard and living. Just lost in drinking and screwing about and making babies and then moving on without taking care of the babies into other relationships and making more bastard babies who grow up with no sense of values and moral for lack of good role models in their life.
I am so happy and glad that my parents are always together, maybe not the best and ideal couple, but they stayed together and gave us direction and acted as good role models to live up to, in terms of moral, values and sense of accountability.
Was looking out of the window, when I saw a couple of teens, maybe 13 or 14, walking, the guy dark was talking animatedly, the gal lighter skinned (Caucasian) was braiding her hair and walking along on his left side. Then what looked like the end of his story, he seemed to stop and look at her, she reached out with her right hand under his chin, palms extending to his right ears, continuing to walk and kissed him.
Awww such a sweet feeling love. Some are so fortunate to have found beautiful reciprocating love.
Why does it seem like all my past were just one sided love affairs, why is it that I end up opening my heart and laying it at the foot of selfish, value less, superficial women, who then just kick and smash up heart that I take a long time to recover and heal. WHY?
For the 2nd day, the interview was a no show. looks like the managers who were supposed to call me are working 10 peoples jobs and not able to find time to interview me.
the move to dalls seems to be on hold as per the info from the practic manager. ahhhh almost booked the ticket.
Tuesday, November 1, 2011
Monday, October 31, 2011
Oct 31 2011, last day of the month
Monday, Oct 31 2011
Last day of the month, had a tough time sleeping at night as the dumb red-necks living on the floor below had loud obnoxious guest coming in around 2:30am and making all kind of noise and a few old ladies who looked like hookers talking their white trash lingo.
only got out of around 8am. had bru coffee with no sugar. yewwww.
got packing a bit.
now the wait for the news to trigger the other activities.
interview with cap scheduled @ 5pm,,, ahhh how could I have got suckered into this one, now have to drive to the Buddhist temple around 3 and be ready for the interview after finding a place to park.
Last day of the month, had a tough time sleeping at night as the dumb red-necks living on the floor below had loud obnoxious guest coming in around 2:30am and making all kind of noise and a few old ladies who looked like hookers talking their white trash lingo.
only got out of around 8am. had bru coffee with no sugar. yewwww.
got packing a bit.
now the wait for the news to trigger the other activities.
interview with cap scheduled @ 5pm,,, ahhh how could I have got suckered into this one, now have to drive to the Buddhist temple around 3 and be ready for the interview after finding a place to park.
Sunday, October 30, 2011
Oct 30 2011, bright sunshine after snow storm
Sunday Oct 30 2011,
bright sunshine after snow storm, just like life full of extreme shades.
Got some cleaning and packing done. trying to fit into some of old trousers. most of them fit in. Well another reason for me to go out running A LOT and slim down.
was again listening to a few Cumbia songs,,,,, ahhhh only a person who can feel the music and dance with his heart will know what it is, when I say, I am in love with Cumbia.
just as I finish typing this, one of my fav merengue songs come on.... ahhhh if only I had a partner who is also nice and good hearted like me. It would be heaven on earth.
bright sunshine after snow storm, just like life full of extreme shades.
Got some cleaning and packing done. trying to fit into some of old trousers. most of them fit in. Well another reason for me to go out running A LOT and slim down.
was again listening to a few Cumbia songs,,,,, ahhhh only a person who can feel the music and dance with his heart will know what it is, when I say, I am in love with Cumbia.
just as I finish typing this, one of my fav merengue songs come on.... ahhhh if only I had a partner who is also nice and good hearted like me. It would be heaven on earth.
Saturday, October 29, 2011
Oct 29 2011, Snowed in yeww
Saturday, Oct 29 2011
Woke up early, kind of woke up to see the first of snow falling. But the snow came in around 10am.
watching the pile up stuck at home. Its great to watch snow from a warm place. :)
Not a great fan of the cold.
Human tendency: To make the most off, with what ever is fastest with as little effort as possible. :)
Words that formed, when I started to analyze a few of my recent actions and way of having gone about doing things and executing certain actions to achieve certain results. Not happy with the less than ethical standards I resorted too, thou not hurting any one in the process, I realized that most actions or all actions resorted to or under taken by us human beings are always soaked in such tendencies.
Tendencies to achieve and get most with as little effort as possible. Which is why we as a group have kind of progressed or developed different from other animals who are happy doing and sticking to their own basic way of living.
But with that every tendency to achieve more with less effort, we have developed into begins with more complicated lives. Is it wrong or right is up for debate, but to each his own.
"""What is right for one person is not right for another, or even for the same person at another time. """
Getting drunk like crazy and finishing up on the stock of alcohol that I have, watching the Stanford university, USC game.
Woke up early, kind of woke up to see the first of snow falling. But the snow came in around 10am.
watching the pile up stuck at home. Its great to watch snow from a warm place. :)
Not a great fan of the cold.
Human tendency: To make the most off, with what ever is fastest with as little effort as possible. :)
Words that formed, when I started to analyze a few of my recent actions and way of having gone about doing things and executing certain actions to achieve certain results. Not happy with the less than ethical standards I resorted too, thou not hurting any one in the process, I realized that most actions or all actions resorted to or under taken by us human beings are always soaked in such tendencies.
Tendencies to achieve and get most with as little effort as possible. Which is why we as a group have kind of progressed or developed different from other animals who are happy doing and sticking to their own basic way of living.
But with that every tendency to achieve more with less effort, we have developed into begins with more complicated lives. Is it wrong or right is up for debate, but to each his own.
"""What is right for one person is not right for another, or even for the same person at another time. """
Getting drunk like crazy and finishing up on the stock of alcohol that I have, watching the Stanford university, USC game.
Friday, October 28, 2011
Oct 28 2011, Diet ease
Friday, Oct 28 2011
woke up around 7 and was checking out to see my proj assignment. seems to be good so far. have to see how it goes in the days ahead, too many loose ends and uncertainty.
Easing into day 3, but today, going to eat stuff and do some work out. Would be trying to stick to fruits as much as possible and avoiding alcohol. Only going to drink on social occasions.
Expecting snow storm latter tonite on the north western corridor. Damm screwed up my plans to go out dancing, don't like getting stuck in the snow when returning. Last time it happened that way.
hmmmm almost a year since I returned from Spain and Portugal.
nice to see pilar the hottest and prettiest spanish gal I got to meet there. Gald to connect with her on facebook, ahhh how I wish that I could speak spanish or she could speak english, we had such a good connection and hmmmmm so beautiful. The best part she also has a twin who is as beautiful and smoking hot . wooooo hmmmm :))) memories, sweet and heart full filling.
woke up around 7 and was checking out to see my proj assignment. seems to be good so far. have to see how it goes in the days ahead, too many loose ends and uncertainty.
Easing into day 3, but today, going to eat stuff and do some work out. Would be trying to stick to fruits as much as possible and avoiding alcohol. Only going to drink on social occasions.
Expecting snow storm latter tonite on the north western corridor. Damm screwed up my plans to go out dancing, don't like getting stuck in the snow when returning. Last time it happened that way.
hmmmm almost a year since I returned from Spain and Portugal.
nice to see pilar the hottest and prettiest spanish gal I got to meet there. Gald to connect with her on facebook, ahhh how I wish that I could speak spanish or she could speak english, we had such a good connection and hmmmmm so beautiful. The best part she also has a twin who is as beautiful and smoking hot . wooooo hmmmm :))) memories, sweet and heart full filling.
Thursday, October 27, 2011
Oct 27 2011 , Day 2 of the Fruit diet
Thursday, Oct 27, 2011
Its day 2 of the Fruit diet, yesterday night I was feeling hungry like crazy, but held on, was craving fries, bread and what not.... glad that phase is over.
Woke up in the morning feeling a bit tired, guess its a good thing as it means the body worked extra hard to compensate for lack of material by compensating it from other parts which have stored up or stacked up.
Started with drinking lots of water. its 10:30am now and will be starting off with eating bannanas
Someone told me that fruits have sugar and thats not good. Well my understanding is that sugar makes me Hyper and that will keep me active and thus burning into the accumulated fat. Actually feeling more charged to get things done and motivated to do some yoga stretches and light work out at home.
Same thing with Coffee, makes me hyper and gets me going to get things done. Just have to balance it out by reducing the intake of FATTY food or FAT creating food like something fried, chocolates (I was an addict, watched the video of children forced into Slavery of the Coca farms and just gave up on a pleasure thats been sustained by the blood or children forced into slavery).
It was a easy decision, based on who I am, same thing that goes for every person in the world. All decisions are based on who you think you are. Once you understand this, every decision become easier. well atleast most.
What I find funny is that people giving up meat, that they eat as food based on the fact that its cruelty to animals, but refuse to give up Chocolate, that which is just a pleasure, and something one can live with out.
********Break up*************
Its me, not you, not your fault at all, its all me ......
(just that I cannot stand lying, manipulative, crooked, selfish, self centered, superficial people. I just end up throwing up and have allergic fits, sleepless nights, causing me to be grumpy and angry during the day). hehehehe
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Its day 2 of the Fruit diet, yesterday night I was feeling hungry like crazy, but held on, was craving fries, bread and what not.... glad that phase is over.
Woke up in the morning feeling a bit tired, guess its a good thing as it means the body worked extra hard to compensate for lack of material by compensating it from other parts which have stored up or stacked up.
Started with drinking lots of water. its 10:30am now and will be starting off with eating bannanas
Someone told me that fruits have sugar and thats not good. Well my understanding is that sugar makes me Hyper and that will keep me active and thus burning into the accumulated fat. Actually feeling more charged to get things done and motivated to do some yoga stretches and light work out at home.
Same thing with Coffee, makes me hyper and gets me going to get things done. Just have to balance it out by reducing the intake of FATTY food or FAT creating food like something fried, chocolates (I was an addict, watched the video of children forced into Slavery of the Coca farms and just gave up on a pleasure thats been sustained by the blood or children forced into slavery).
It was a easy decision, based on who I am, same thing that goes for every person in the world. All decisions are based on who you think you are. Once you understand this, every decision become easier. well atleast most.
What I find funny is that people giving up meat, that they eat as food based on the fact that its cruelty to animals, but refuse to give up Chocolate, that which is just a pleasure, and something one can live with out.
********Break up*************
Its me, not you, not your fault at all, its all me ......
(just that I cannot stand lying, manipulative, crooked, selfish, self centered, superficial people. I just end up throwing up and have allergic fits, sleepless nights, causing me to be grumpy and angry during the day). hehehehe
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Wednesday, October 26, 2011
Oct 26 2011 wed, Diet
Wednesday Oct 26 2011
Saw a post by G and was motivated to get back into shape, the staying at home and trying to complete the courses has made its own layers of fat on my person and that pic from her kind of hit me where it should.
Went over to wal mart and got a bunch of fruits and will be on a fruit diet as much as I can for the next few hrs, days.
MY ENHANCEMENT and touch up to make it a self portrait
Saw a post by G and was motivated to get back into shape, the staying at home and trying to complete the courses has made its own layers of fat on my person and that pic from her kind of hit me where it should.
Went over to wal mart and got a bunch of fruits and will be on a fruit diet as much as I can for the next few hrs, days.
MY ENHANCEMENT and touch up to make it a self portrait
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