Tuesday Sep 28 2010
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3 more days and I am on my solo trip to Europe. Not really sure and filled with doubts. Especially with bad memories and experience of sick behavior from the one European that I thought I knew.
Left a very bad impression of Europeans as a whole and their un-hospitable and selfish way of thinking and behavior.
So different compared to the feeling of hospitability and warm concerns that I and many others extended to her.
Got to try and focus on the positive, now that Gulia seems to be making plans and the effort to try and meet me in Madrid. so different from the selfcentered behavior of someone else.
And the mail from Suz seems to be very encouraging too. lets see how it works out. Stepping into the unknown realm. My first ever trip to Europe all alone and on a budget.
Tuesday, September 28, 2010
Monday, September 27, 2010
Sep 27, short new week before trip
Monday, Sep 27 2010
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4 more days to trip to Spain. Anticipation building up. not sure what to expect, don't know the language, don't know anyone there.
Just going there on a fancy after getting de-motivated by not been able to make the trip to Czech.
was so looking forward to meeting and experiencing Czech after hearing so much about the sweet lil place called Othrokovice. But things happen and people give us attitude which does not go with good hospitality. Then why would one want to go to places where one is not welcomed. Rather made to feel like an enemy.
so I Rather go to places where one is made to feel welcomed.
Well thats life, some people make big claims about their culture at every possible opportunity, a culture that they themselves don't hold highly in regard and are constantly looking to adopt someone elses culture,, hehehe.. funny and with out any logic is some peoples thinking.
The worst part is changing the values of ones culture to suit the needs of the moment and fancy full thinking. Well people tend to be fools and will always be lying to themselves and surely to others with out any deepth in their superficial life.
Its like painting a house in bright attractive colors that is construted with bad material and bad foundation. Soon the venere of superficialy will collapse and the house will crumble.
Its just sad and painful to watch someone you love end up been so blind and oblivious to what we tell them or try to communicate with them. More because of their own self centered ego that prevents them from feeling any sense of humbleness more greared towards arrogance and selfishness.
There is only so much you can do. Then have to harden your heart and move on. It was not ment to happen. Just have to be more careful about my choices going foward. Thou the child like innocence and sincerity in me has taken a beating with all the cruel words and hurt from been at the receiving end of someone elses thoughtless and selfish behavior.
Cheers to lifes for its hard lessons.
Lessons learnt by analysing and understanding the past, revealing with each new day a new understanding. Never to forget the past lessons. Which helps in the main function of Understanding. Because lessons are okay, but not of much use, if we do not analyze and understand the lesson. And with each passing day when we look back at various lessons and experiences, we have a whole new understanding. That I belive is whats called Evolution of thoughts and understanding.
Got to work late around 8:20 which is still early. now its 9:20am and yet I am the only one in the room. :)
Called up anup to make him the beneficiary of my 401
He is going to Italy around Oct10 for a week along with Smitha. So both of us will be in Europe at the same time.
Had biriyani for lunch. with chicken manchurian indian style.
Then meditated for 30 mins. must have been really weak. As I passed out.
So now should I go to Vango for one last dance before heading out to Europe. Does not feel that enthusiastic going there alone. but lets see the people I got to know in the group. How it works out. Go with an open mind. But now it does not feel that enthuisiastic or any kind of build up anticipation. Kind of feels hallow, rather not something I would like to do on my own. Well this should be an experience for me to do something on my own. Used to been a team player, now I need to see how well I can do things on my own in a foreign country that i have no knowledge of language, place or culture.
lets see what Guilia has to say about this.
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4 more days to trip to Spain. Anticipation building up. not sure what to expect, don't know the language, don't know anyone there.
Just going there on a fancy after getting de-motivated by not been able to make the trip to Czech.
was so looking forward to meeting and experiencing Czech after hearing so much about the sweet lil place called Othrokovice. But things happen and people give us attitude which does not go with good hospitality. Then why would one want to go to places where one is not welcomed. Rather made to feel like an enemy.
so I Rather go to places where one is made to feel welcomed.
Well thats life, some people make big claims about their culture at every possible opportunity, a culture that they themselves don't hold highly in regard and are constantly looking to adopt someone elses culture,, hehehe.. funny and with out any logic is some peoples thinking.
The worst part is changing the values of ones culture to suit the needs of the moment and fancy full thinking. Well people tend to be fools and will always be lying to themselves and surely to others with out any deepth in their superficial life.
Its like painting a house in bright attractive colors that is construted with bad material and bad foundation. Soon the venere of superficialy will collapse and the house will crumble.
Its just sad and painful to watch someone you love end up been so blind and oblivious to what we tell them or try to communicate with them. More because of their own self centered ego that prevents them from feeling any sense of humbleness more greared towards arrogance and selfishness.
There is only so much you can do. Then have to harden your heart and move on. It was not ment to happen. Just have to be more careful about my choices going foward. Thou the child like innocence and sincerity in me has taken a beating with all the cruel words and hurt from been at the receiving end of someone elses thoughtless and selfish behavior.
Cheers to lifes for its hard lessons.
Lessons learnt by analysing and understanding the past, revealing with each new day a new understanding. Never to forget the past lessons. Which helps in the main function of Understanding. Because lessons are okay, but not of much use, if we do not analyze and understand the lesson. And with each passing day when we look back at various lessons and experiences, we have a whole new understanding. That I belive is whats called Evolution of thoughts and understanding.
Got to work late around 8:20 which is still early. now its 9:20am and yet I am the only one in the room. :)
Called up anup to make him the beneficiary of my 401
He is going to Italy around Oct10 for a week along with Smitha. So both of us will be in Europe at the same time.
Had biriyani for lunch. with chicken manchurian indian style.
Then meditated for 30 mins. must have been really weak. As I passed out.
So now should I go to Vango for one last dance before heading out to Europe. Does not feel that enthusiastic going there alone. but lets see the people I got to know in the group. How it works out. Go with an open mind. But now it does not feel that enthuisiastic or any kind of build up anticipation. Kind of feels hallow, rather not something I would like to do on my own. Well this should be an experience for me to do something on my own. Used to been a team player, now I need to see how well I can do things on my own in a foreign country that i have no knowledge of language, place or culture.
lets see what Guilia has to say about this.
Sunday, September 26, 2010
Sep 26, Narayan - vicky motor cycle diaries biriyani
Sunday, Sep 26-2010
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Watched the motor cycle diaries. The DVD that was given to me by Gia in 2006. Funny that I had it for so long and never got around to watching it.
Afternoon we had the Biriyani and then went to peace valley with narayan and viki
They did not seem particularly interested in getting on to the kayak or the boat.
Then took them to the farm. hoping that the mini golf would get them excited. They just seemed to be in a very Indian mood of sitting at home and watching TV or a movie. But sorry I don't have a TV.
Around 4:30 they take off. Viki dropping Naryana in New jersey.
Evening dropped off the check for next months rent.
internet net was down, got another connection.
Then hit the gym doing the cycling for 1 hr on level 3 resistance. Was watching the Amazing Race.
Wish I could participate in one of those races going around the world. Not really to win, just for the experience of the race and doing some of the cultural tasks of that particular region.
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Watched the motor cycle diaries. The DVD that was given to me by Gia in 2006. Funny that I had it for so long and never got around to watching it.
Afternoon we had the Biriyani and then went to peace valley with narayan and viki
They did not seem particularly interested in getting on to the kayak or the boat.
Then took them to the farm. hoping that the mini golf would get them excited. They just seemed to be in a very Indian mood of sitting at home and watching TV or a movie. But sorry I don't have a TV.
Around 4:30 they take off. Viki dropping Naryana in New jersey.
Evening dropped off the check for next months rent.
internet net was down, got another connection.
Then hit the gym doing the cycling for 1 hr on level 3 resistance. Was watching the Amazing Race.
Wish I could participate in one of those races going around the world. Not really to win, just for the experience of the race and doing some of the cultural tasks of that particular region.
Saturday, September 25, 2010
Sep 25, Early morning calls
Saturday 25 Sep 2010
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Woke up around 10am with a call from narayan. got up latter and called him back. Also called up home to tell them about the bank.
Narayan will be coming to my home and the we will go pick Vicky up from Alen town. if time permits head for kayaking or just a movie.
he is getting Dum-ki-biriyani (hyderabadi) from NJ.
Heading to costco now.
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Woke up around 10am with a call from narayan. got up latter and called him back. Also called up home to tell them about the bank.
Narayan will be coming to my home and the we will go pick Vicky up from Alen town. if time permits head for kayaking or just a movie.
he is getting Dum-ki-biriyani (hyderabadi) from NJ.
Heading to costco now.
Friday, September 24, 2010
sep24 Friday. one more week to Euro trip.
Friday, 24 Sep 2010
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Woke up a bit charged after yesterdays running. woke up and did more stretching and light crunches. Feel the body tightening up. Rather focused on the work out and having breakfast rather than reaching work.
Reached work around 7:45am took 20 mins in all the early morning traffic. No wonder I was able to reach work faster when I start off around 6:45am. In less than 10 mins. What a huge difference 30 mins makes.
Got call from Vishnu from hyderabad around 7:20 was just getting out, told him will call in 30 mins. Got to work and called him up with calling card.
WEnt for Indian food with the team at Amans.. great food, but my stomach was in turbulance.
went off home from work around 3:30 slept off and did not see the call from malini at 5:30 wanting to go salsa dancing. returned her call around 7:30 by then she was not in a mood to go as she was going to wineyard sat early morning at 5am.
So thank my stars in a way and head out to Brasils. ahhhh too many guys and not many girls. Guess this happens when there is a women teaching the basics.
Anyways end up dancing with the Envi Engg gal and another new gal. There were lots of girls who walked up from the lower disco wearing minimum clothing,,sexy and they were just dancing in their own groups with their own guys.
retruned back with a mixed feeling.
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Woke up a bit charged after yesterdays running. woke up and did more stretching and light crunches. Feel the body tightening up. Rather focused on the work out and having breakfast rather than reaching work.
Reached work around 7:45am took 20 mins in all the early morning traffic. No wonder I was able to reach work faster when I start off around 6:45am. In less than 10 mins. What a huge difference 30 mins makes.
Got call from Vishnu from hyderabad around 7:20 was just getting out, told him will call in 30 mins. Got to work and called him up with calling card.
WEnt for Indian food with the team at Amans.. great food, but my stomach was in turbulance.
went off home from work around 3:30 slept off and did not see the call from malini at 5:30 wanting to go salsa dancing. returned her call around 7:30 by then she was not in a mood to go as she was going to wineyard sat early morning at 5am.
So thank my stars in a way and head out to Brasils. ahhhh too many guys and not many girls. Guess this happens when there is a women teaching the basics.
Anyways end up dancing with the Envi Engg gal and another new gal. There were lots of girls who walked up from the lower disco wearing minimum clothing,,sexy and they were just dancing in their own groups with their own guys.
retruned back with a mixed feeling.
Thursday, September 23, 2010
Sep 23, high on anticipation
Thrusday, 23 Sep 2010
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Was able to do some light work out for 10 to 15 mins before heading out to work. Did not care for the time, woke up around 5am. Got to reply to a few emails.
feeling better already with the work out. Only difficulty is in motivating myself. hahaha the motivation I had today was the tightness I felt with the pants yesterday.
Also had 3 meals yesterday including dinner after a very long time yesterday night was a huge change.
Today got to get in touch with the lady Agnes O in NY in the Dept of Labor as the Virgina dep of labor said since the work was done in NY it does not have jurisdiction.
Was able to get home for lunch and have the chicken curry and rice with tomato pickle.
Completed the Estimation learning in the afternoon. Got to Start on the PMP with its 58 hrs .
Talked with Anil when he was with his kid at the dentist, ending up spending upwards of $400 for his filling even with insurance.
out of work by 5:20 and home.
Around 7:30 went for a brief run about 2 miles. got back and did some light work out. felt good.
Then had Rice and bannana. and curd(yogurt) and rice for dinner. Remember having bannana and rice when i was kid. First time I remember doing that as an adult. :)
Felt sleepy by 12. watching a malayalam movie, Cha-di-ka-tha Chandu. Funny romantic comedy. Romance is an integral part of any Indian movie. People are only allowed the fantasy of falling in love and then marrying. But in real life they marry and then fall in love.
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Was able to do some light work out for 10 to 15 mins before heading out to work. Did not care for the time, woke up around 5am. Got to reply to a few emails.
feeling better already with the work out. Only difficulty is in motivating myself. hahaha the motivation I had today was the tightness I felt with the pants yesterday.
Also had 3 meals yesterday including dinner after a very long time yesterday night was a huge change.
Today got to get in touch with the lady Agnes O in NY in the Dept of Labor as the Virgina dep of labor said since the work was done in NY it does not have jurisdiction.
Was able to get home for lunch and have the chicken curry and rice with tomato pickle.
Completed the Estimation learning in the afternoon. Got to Start on the PMP with its 58 hrs .
Talked with Anil when he was with his kid at the dentist, ending up spending upwards of $400 for his filling even with insurance.
out of work by 5:20 and home.
Around 7:30 went for a brief run about 2 miles. got back and did some light work out. felt good.
Then had Rice and bannana. and curd(yogurt) and rice for dinner. Remember having bannana and rice when i was kid. First time I remember doing that as an adult. :)
Felt sleepy by 12. watching a malayalam movie, Cha-di-ka-tha Chandu. Funny romantic comedy. Romance is an integral part of any Indian movie. People are only allowed the fantasy of falling in love and then marrying. But in real life they marry and then fall in love.
Wednesday, September 22, 2010
Sep 22, Beautiful Warm Day of happines all around
Wednesday 22 Sep 2010
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Woke up with a clearer sense of Joy and happiness. Reaffirming to myself and feeling the sense of happiness with in me.
Automatically the corners of my lips stretched like they were hoping to touch my ears :)
Thou the temperatures seem to drop, today and tomorrow are forecast to be warmer days into the upper 31 deg C or upper 80 into 90 deg F.
Had break fast and did not care for the clock. So ended up at work around 7:20. well I should rather sacrifice 10 to 15 mins than forego breakfast, especially since I have been skipping dinner again.
Going thru mixed feelings about the trip to Madrid and soria. Would have loved to go with people I love. But sometimes things do not work as I would want them to. So I need to open my self up to making the trip alone and try to find the joy of traveling and experiencing a different culture on my own.
12:30 went to Taco bel with ajay. Liked the chicken burrito, much better than the McDonalds burgers.
Fixed and updated the .def for the defect and the enhancement on mocpop.
and then sent out mail
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Woke up with a clearer sense of Joy and happiness. Reaffirming to myself and feeling the sense of happiness with in me.
Automatically the corners of my lips stretched like they were hoping to touch my ears :)
Thou the temperatures seem to drop, today and tomorrow are forecast to be warmer days into the upper 31 deg C or upper 80 into 90 deg F.
Had break fast and did not care for the clock. So ended up at work around 7:20. well I should rather sacrifice 10 to 15 mins than forego breakfast, especially since I have been skipping dinner again.
Going thru mixed feelings about the trip to Madrid and soria. Would have loved to go with people I love. But sometimes things do not work as I would want them to. So I need to open my self up to making the trip alone and try to find the joy of traveling and experiencing a different culture on my own.
12:30 went to Taco bel with ajay. Liked the chicken burrito, much better than the McDonalds burgers.
Fixed and updated the .def for the defect and the enhancement on mocpop.
and then sent out mail
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