Wednesday Jul 14th 2010
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Time is 1:45am, not able to sleep, had coffee in the afternoon before going for the process orientation workshop in Delaware. Damm should have gone for a run.
Now my mind and heart are racing 100miles an hour.
All kinds of crazy thoughts. And really need to sleep if I am to wake up at 5am. thats about 3 hrs from now. grrrrr coffee.
Troubled sleep, guess I must have gone to sleep around 4, woke up at 5 and then went to sleep again to wake up at 6.
Made it to work by 7 only to find that the conf call with India was not going to happen.
Got to move the workshop that was supposed to happen today at Delware to closer to work on Thursday. So back to work on Wed.
need to start documenting and streamlining the work.
Got txt msg from Tara about salsa. which is practically non existent in my life with all the training workshops. Sent her a mail telling her about it.
4:30 training, last two classes I guess. Tomorrow is the precise workshop at the hotel from 10 to 3.
Its been raining on a off on a summer day. strange climate.
Wednesday, July 14, 2010
Tuesday, July 13, 2010
Jul 13th tue, Afternoon to Delaware
Tuesday, 13th Jul
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Nothing major seems to have happened as forecast in the astrological solar eclipse. I am still the same guy, single, not looking really. But with half an eye open.
Was thinking about the comment I got from someone,
I have also learnt a lot from you.
Was it real and sincere,
was it mocking and sarcastic
Well I can say, that if that person learnt from me what I wanted them to learn then they learnt something. And will be happy for them.
But if they just experienced something, and did not think much, did not do any logical reasoning, analytical reasoning, or has poor powers of observation, or choose to ignore the obvious hints and then choose to ignore the bigger picture that I was trying to convey. Then it is not learning.
Rather would classify it as experience they can remember but ignoring any positive content. Which means they did not really learn now.
But if they are fortunate or smart enough with better or improved powers of observation, and analytical thinking. Then maybe they will learn in the future.
Made it out of home by 6:45am and to work by 7am.
again 1st to be in the conf. call. There did not seem to be much to talk about and the call ended by 7:25am
8am called up home and again was bombraded by dad trying to brain wash me into coming to kerala and getting married. Again and again the same old dialouges and emotional black mail.
After that I called up Eva and talked to her for sometime, she seems to have reached Haridwar today morning, had some food at the Shanti ashram in the morning and having upset stomach.
She found dharmashala, kulu, manali as too touristy.
At the ashram they got blessed by someone who thought that they came in there to find themselves and so that guy blessed them with more power and other things :)
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Nothing major seems to have happened as forecast in the astrological solar eclipse. I am still the same guy, single, not looking really. But with half an eye open.
Was thinking about the comment I got from someone,
I have also learnt a lot from you.
Was it real and sincere,
was it mocking and sarcastic
Well I can say, that if that person learnt from me what I wanted them to learn then they learnt something. And will be happy for them.
But if they just experienced something, and did not think much, did not do any logical reasoning, analytical reasoning, or has poor powers of observation, or choose to ignore the obvious hints and then choose to ignore the bigger picture that I was trying to convey. Then it is not learning.
Rather would classify it as experience they can remember but ignoring any positive content. Which means they did not really learn now.
But if they are fortunate or smart enough with better or improved powers of observation, and analytical thinking. Then maybe they will learn in the future.
Made it out of home by 6:45am and to work by 7am.
again 1st to be in the conf. call. There did not seem to be much to talk about and the call ended by 7:25am
8am called up home and again was bombraded by dad trying to brain wash me into coming to kerala and getting married. Again and again the same old dialouges and emotional black mail.
After that I called up Eva and talked to her for sometime, she seems to have reached Haridwar today morning, had some food at the Shanti ashram in the morning and having upset stomach.
She found dharmashala, kulu, manali as too touristy.
At the ashram they got blessed by someone who thought that they came in there to find themselves and so that guy blessed them with more power and other things :)
Monday, July 12, 2010
Jul 12th Salsa before Delware
Mon, 12th Jul 2010
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Salsa at Vang tonite before Delware training tomorrow.
Bit of trouble waking up and getting out of bed. Kind of like my rhythm was off.
neyways ready to leave by 6:35am
Made it to work by 6:55am by beating the train/gates.
Ind team was on time by 7:am.
Kris made an announcement that Raj will no longer be able to work in US because of Visa issues. Thats a big bummer. He seems to be a guy who is very sound technically.
Called him up around 8:15am after the conf. Seems to be more a rejection cause of political policies of US than any other. Last day seems to be today and he may go back to Hyd. :(
More pressure on Kris and he is scheduled to leave for India aug 1st week, in about 4 weeks.
Life as a Indian living in US is tough with the sword of Visa rejection always hanging on top our head. Fear of losing a steady income also makes people shrink and scared to say no to unreasonable client requests.
Did not go for the BI training. As I did not see the scope in doing it today and missing out for two days due to training at delaware the next two days
Got home, called up naraya and got his voice. A few mins latter he called back and seems to be down with Cold and had not gone to work.
Was feeling too tired, again the 3 days latter effect. Went to the Bedroom for a nap and ended up getting up around 12midnight with a severe thunderstorm. Guess it was a good thing that I did not go out salsa dancing into the city.
Saw a few missed calls and voice msgs. ahhhhh
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Salsa at Vang tonite before Delware training tomorrow.
Bit of trouble waking up and getting out of bed. Kind of like my rhythm was off.
neyways ready to leave by 6:35am
Made it to work by 6:55am by beating the train/gates.
Ind team was on time by 7:am.
Kris made an announcement that Raj will no longer be able to work in US because of Visa issues. Thats a big bummer. He seems to be a guy who is very sound technically.
Called him up around 8:15am after the conf. Seems to be more a rejection cause of political policies of US than any other. Last day seems to be today and he may go back to Hyd. :(
More pressure on Kris and he is scheduled to leave for India aug 1st week, in about 4 weeks.
Life as a Indian living in US is tough with the sword of Visa rejection always hanging on top our head. Fear of losing a steady income also makes people shrink and scared to say no to unreasonable client requests.
Did not go for the BI training. As I did not see the scope in doing it today and missing out for two days due to training at delaware the next two days
Got home, called up naraya and got his voice. A few mins latter he called back and seems to be down with Cold and had not gone to work.
Was feeling too tired, again the 3 days latter effect. Went to the Bedroom for a nap and ended up getting up around 12midnight with a severe thunderstorm. Guess it was a good thing that I did not go out salsa dancing into the city.
Saw a few missed calls and voice msgs. ahhhhh
Sunday, July 11, 2010
Jul 11th New moon day/night
Sunday Jul 11 2010 New Moon
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Woke up a bit late and was lazy to pack up and move from the Days Inn in Ridgefield to Marriot at Teaneck bag and baggage. :)
At the training our table of 6 guys ended up winning the most points for the whole 3 days of accumulated points, for been on time and the quiz questions.
Reached back home by 5:45pm after starting around 3:45pm. There was one major accident besides the NewArk airport.
On the way, got a call from Bal Atwal via skype that was routed to my cell phone. Talked for a few, did not recognize him for a bit, was wondering who it was.
He asked about Eva, told him had called her a few times nothing much happening there. And as she seems to be having her own plans which I am not a part off. Looks from her blog that her interests are else where.
Well just need to keep myself busy and busier and fill up my brain with so much that I would not have time for my own personal life.
Three days of training and EATING I have gained about 5 lbs. :(
Go for a long walk around 8:pm sit by the lil lake for about 2 hrs watching the stars and sky. Its a new moon night. And supposed to be Solar eclipse in the pacific cook islands. Astrologically a very powerful time for changes.
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Woke up a bit late and was lazy to pack up and move from the Days Inn in Ridgefield to Marriot at Teaneck bag and baggage. :)
At the training our table of 6 guys ended up winning the most points for the whole 3 days of accumulated points, for been on time and the quiz questions.
Reached back home by 5:45pm after starting around 3:45pm. There was one major accident besides the NewArk airport.
On the way, got a call from Bal Atwal via skype that was routed to my cell phone. Talked for a few, did not recognize him for a bit, was wondering who it was.
He asked about Eva, told him had called her a few times nothing much happening there. And as she seems to be having her own plans which I am not a part off. Looks from her blog that her interests are else where.
Well just need to keep myself busy and busier and fill up my brain with so much that I would not have time for my own personal life.
Three days of training and EATING I have gained about 5 lbs. :(
Go for a long walk around 8:pm sit by the lil lake for about 2 hrs watching the stars and sky. Its a new moon night. And supposed to be Solar eclipse in the pacific cook islands. Astrologically a very powerful time for changes.
Saturday, July 10, 2010
Jul 10th 2nd day of training
Sat, Jul10 2010
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2nd day of training. woke up after a not so great sleep. Kept waking up almost to the hour. Kind of not focused. Maybe meeting too many people, exposed to too much info, brain on hyper mode, too strong a coffee yesterday at the office HQ.
Call up Srikanth in the neighbouring room around 7:30 to be ready by 8am to reach the Marriot by 8:15am.
Have complimentray breakfast of fruits and starbucks coffee.
Day goes on, with more orientation and networking. Not really sure. But the majority of the guys been Indians, there seems to be a very distinct difference in behavior of the non-Indians and the Indians, who seem to be behaving like kids out of school. :)
And one guy constantly remarking about the american attitude towards work not been that good as Indian, Very touchy subject, and non of the Americans were rude to make any comment about it. One of the subjects was about motivating a 60 year old guy who was in that guys team.
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2nd day of training. woke up after a not so great sleep. Kept waking up almost to the hour. Kind of not focused. Maybe meeting too many people, exposed to too much info, brain on hyper mode, too strong a coffee yesterday at the office HQ.
Call up Srikanth in the neighbouring room around 7:30 to be ready by 8am to reach the Marriot by 8:15am.
Have complimentray breakfast of fruits and starbucks coffee.
Day goes on, with more orientation and networking. Not really sure. But the majority of the guys been Indians, there seems to be a very distinct difference in behavior of the non-Indians and the Indians, who seem to be behaving like kids out of school. :)
And one guy constantly remarking about the american attitude towards work not been that good as Indian, Very touchy subject, and non of the Americans were rude to make any comment about it. One of the subjects was about motivating a 60 year old guy who was in that guys team.
Friday, July 9, 2010
jul 9th off for Training in NJ
Friday, jul 9th 2010
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jul 9th off for Training in NJ. No salsa for tonite.
So what, need to start focusing on self development.
woke up 4am and need to get out of the house by 5:30 to 6am , There is a 2 hr drive, over 100 miles, have to drive past the locations of jersey city and NY down town parallel on I-95.
Started off @6am.
Sometimes reaching speads of over 80 miles per hr reached destination around 7:45am. That was good driving, traffic could have been worse.
The rent @ marriot was like $260 per night, with company discount it was like 169. Decided to check what the other guys in the camp will be doing.
Turns out that a few booked into the Marriot, others live around the area, few married with kids decided to commute 2hrs each way for the 3 days. I decided to join Srikanth at the Days Inn about 2 miles away.
Breakfast, lunch and snacks were served.
Training was a better understanding of myself as a Integrator manager. Need to get into more of Director/Administrator mode.
There were 3 guys who were with the company for more than 10 years.
The group of about 25 was 21 poople of Indian origin and 4 cacausions.
Evening booked the room from outside the hotel, hijacking the wi-fi, used Hotels.com and got the room for $81 per night. At the desk it was around $100. (Lessons learned from Hiking trip last year).
Then called up Eric the instructor as he proposed meeting up for dinner. They aready left for the river side mall for a restaurant called Monsanto steak house. So asked Srikanth if he was interested. He said yes and so drove over to that place.
Pricey, just having a piece of Steak was like $50 plus $10 tip.
But it was nice to network and getting to know the personal life styles of the two ladies from Mass. One has a dog and carries a gun. The other the unmarried and cuter one was into recruiting for the company, used to drive bikes (motor-750CC).
Back to the motel, my stomach was in revolution mode. should have had lime or wine with the steak.
Watched a bit of TV and and passed out.
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jul 9th off for Training in NJ. No salsa for tonite.
So what, need to start focusing on self development.
woke up 4am and need to get out of the house by 5:30 to 6am , There is a 2 hr drive, over 100 miles, have to drive past the locations of jersey city and NY down town parallel on I-95.
Started off @6am.
Sometimes reaching speads of over 80 miles per hr reached destination around 7:45am. That was good driving, traffic could have been worse.
The rent @ marriot was like $260 per night, with company discount it was like 169. Decided to check what the other guys in the camp will be doing.
Turns out that a few booked into the Marriot, others live around the area, few married with kids decided to commute 2hrs each way for the 3 days. I decided to join Srikanth at the Days Inn about 2 miles away.
Breakfast, lunch and snacks were served.
Training was a better understanding of myself as a Integrator manager. Need to get into more of Director/Administrator mode.
There were 3 guys who were with the company for more than 10 years.
The group of about 25 was 21 poople of Indian origin and 4 cacausions.
Evening booked the room from outside the hotel, hijacking the wi-fi, used Hotels.com and got the room for $81 per night. At the desk it was around $100. (Lessons learned from Hiking trip last year).
Then called up Eric the instructor as he proposed meeting up for dinner. They aready left for the river side mall for a restaurant called Monsanto steak house. So asked Srikanth if he was interested. He said yes and so drove over to that place.
Pricey, just having a piece of Steak was like $50 plus $10 tip.
But it was nice to network and getting to know the personal life styles of the two ladies from Mass. One has a dog and carries a gun. The other the unmarried and cuter one was into recruiting for the company, used to drive bikes (motor-750CC).
Back to the motel, my stomach was in revolution mode. should have had lime or wine with the steak.
Watched a bit of TV and and passed out.
Thursday, July 8, 2010
Jul 8th training approval
Thursday, Jul 8th 2010
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Got approved and a seat for the Training in Teneck New Jersey. for 3 days over the weekend Fri to sunday. Okay this is going to be either a weekend of slogging and no partying or great party.
Lets see. need to notify Ajit about it as its on Friday and into sunday, may try to check into the marriot itself.
And again there is training at Courtyard Wilmington Newark/Christiana Mall, 48 Geoffrey Drive, Newark, DE 19713 on 13 and 14. Wow the stars of training have all lined up. cheers to getting my mind off, worring about Eva and her safety for sometime.
How is it things seem to happen in a certain way. So much of coincedence and so many things seem to happen in such a way that I could not even dream off. Most of it seems to make me feel good about the future and then suddenly when I start making plans in one direction, things seem to go out of wack. Like life is telling me just go with the flow, your detailed plans and other attractions and expectations will only collapse.
How many times can my soul keep getting beaten and raise up. Sometimes I feel like giving up. Then like a child who forgets the bad experience soon, I just seem to bounce back. Is it because of my own foolishness or my child like sincerity?
Atleast this way I am not thinking negative thoughts much. :)
You can tell someone to go to hell, that’s your right. But wait till tomorrow and see how you feel : )
advice Mr Buffet got from someone. :)
Got call and then mail from aji to go ahead with the training of tomorrow.
Called up Evi around 7:30pm her time. In Dharmasala and enjoying the nature there. :)
maybe going to Manali tomorrow or day after. Good to know that she is safe.
Lunch at home. the other guys are already crying about me not having much work to do.
So return back. need to check on the credit card at TD. guess I am not destined for the TD credit card.
Went there around 5pm and the lady there was not really helpful.
Returned home, was feeling tired. So hit the bed and woke up around 8pm, went for a walk and then talked with AV who was waiting for his flight to San Jose.
Then got down to packing for the weekend training at NJ. Should be a great weekend. will miss out of the latin festival in Philly on sat. :( aww well need to improve self more. FOCUS.
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Got approved and a seat for the Training in Teneck New Jersey. for 3 days over the weekend Fri to sunday. Okay this is going to be either a weekend of slogging and no partying or great party.
Lets see. need to notify Ajit about it as its on Friday and into sunday, may try to check into the marriot itself.
And again there is training at Courtyard Wilmington Newark/Christiana Mall, 48 Geoffrey Drive, Newark, DE 19713 on 13 and 14. Wow the stars of training have all lined up. cheers to getting my mind off, worring about Eva and her safety for sometime.
How is it things seem to happen in a certain way. So much of coincedence and so many things seem to happen in such a way that I could not even dream off. Most of it seems to make me feel good about the future and then suddenly when I start making plans in one direction, things seem to go out of wack. Like life is telling me just go with the flow, your detailed plans and other attractions and expectations will only collapse.
How many times can my soul keep getting beaten and raise up. Sometimes I feel like giving up. Then like a child who forgets the bad experience soon, I just seem to bounce back. Is it because of my own foolishness or my child like sincerity?
Atleast this way I am not thinking negative thoughts much. :)
You can tell someone to go to hell, that’s your right. But wait till tomorrow and see how you feel : )
advice Mr Buffet got from someone. :)
Got call and then mail from aji to go ahead with the training of tomorrow.
Called up Evi around 7:30pm her time. In Dharmasala and enjoying the nature there. :)
maybe going to Manali tomorrow or day after. Good to know that she is safe.
Lunch at home. the other guys are already crying about me not having much work to do.
So return back. need to check on the credit card at TD. guess I am not destined for the TD credit card.
Went there around 5pm and the lady there was not really helpful.
Returned home, was feeling tired. So hit the bed and woke up around 8pm, went for a walk and then talked with AV who was waiting for his flight to San Jose.
Then got down to packing for the weekend training at NJ. Should be a great weekend. will miss out of the latin festival in Philly on sat. :( aww well need to improve self more. FOCUS.
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