Dec 18 2013 Cross Roads

Wednesday Dec 18 2013

 few days ago, I completed 1 year at Ver as employee of cognizant.. 

Then was told that my contract was for 2 years and had got my id and other credentials re - newed.  

And as my life would have it :) was told today by ct director that they got a mail from Ver sub-contracting dept that I just have till the end of this month.. just 8 more working days... dammm life changes so suddenly.

I am still waiting for my H renewal to come thru... Hanging on based on pending approval petition with the US immigration.

Kind of at a very scary uncertain cross roads.

Dec 15 2013, Mid month

Sunday , Dec 15 2013

My Mantra for HAPPINESS 
Let Go, Let GO, Let Go 
Let It GO, Let it Go, Let it Go  
Let Go, Let GO, Let Go   


So it was a good night dancing. good music in Dc after a very long time, cause of the merengue they played. that was a long due.

was on a high after that and was not able to sleep. ending up waking up latter during the day.

got to see the titanic again on tv. hmmm touching love story. ahhh for the sincere, loyal love of a beautiful UN-selfish women.

No more entertaining selfish women :)

Dec 14 2013 My Mantra for HAPPINESS

Saturday Dec 14 2013

My Mantra for HAPPINESS 
Let Go, Let GO, Let Go 
Let It GO, Let it Go, Let it Go  
Let Go, Let GO, Let Go   

Repeat as many times as you want and try to smile when you repeat.....

Almost end of another year.
Just went by like nothing happened. And thank god for that. Was relatively peaceful, no drama from any kind of relationships (cause there were none). PEACE and HAPPINESS in the serenity of ones own life lived in shadows of ones own actions, accountability, on occasions helping others in need and helping them in their journey of change in their life.

Was glad to be able to pass on the good $700 plus couch to pam instead of ending up selling on craigs list or something. And been a bit instrumental in connection nar in his quest for a job in Vz. Was glad he got it . Would have been a cruel waste of talent not been utilized in this world and loss for the world.

Nice meeting new bunch of people. Was nice to have  carmen invite me to her house party and also raj to a lil get together at his house.

just the question now of visa extension pending....

sad that my quest for a Green card thru cog failed as they refused to apply cause of the docs from the previous company not been in a particular format.

At a cross roads now..... which direction to go, should I just switch to TN,, and have more freedom ????
Should I just continue with my H1 as it might get really tough to get one should they pass the immigration reform.

Dec 01, the month of love, romance and hope

Dec 01 2013 Sunday

hmmm ,, what a start.
Brought a TV after about 4 years. hmm about 3.5 years.. a 60" sleek LCD beauty for thanks giving for a deal.
The channels are so filled with Christmas movies, stories of love, stories of love.

Just about watching  stories of romance, of couples who met when they were kids, separated,, then they become grown adults, with just fleeting sweet heart felt memories of their meeting . And as adults and as stories go, they end up locking heads and egos with each other... and as stories go,, they end up falling back in love and then realizing that they are the ones that they were always wanting to be with.

ahhhhh only in my dreams does these things happen.
So far from the reality of real people, crazy people with they own freaky behavior, not so easy to put up.

Was mysteriously thinking , the last two nights about the past romance in my life.
A sincere, heart filling, crush or love.....
The sweet smiles, the twinkle from the love filled eyes, looking at me adorably. Like I was the only precious thing in the universe.

Nov 11 2013 what a Day at work and expecting snow tomorrow

Monday,, Nov 11 2013

What a start to the day,, putting up with arrogant idiots at work

ahhhh to put up with freaking arrogant punk arse respect and decency challenged people at work..... some retards just think that they are still living in the age of Feudalism, they are the lords and the rest are their slaves.. grrrrr

It was surprising to hear even sean say that he was subjected to this punk arse retards ego and arrogance. I thought that been the contractor there was making it easy for these people to think that they can push me around and get away with it.

 And a few weeks ago, the same punk arse who is new to the company, just about out of college, got on a conf call with the blown out arrogant attitude , snobby, looking down attitude.... 
on the call were people who were working for the company even before he was born.. 
No wonder they were all so pissed off and felt offended and lashed out with 7 defects/issues that day and the Blitz the next meeting.

Subsequent to that,, its been 2 months and we just have about 4 more issues reported for the whole 2 months....

Gawd,,, please help and please take these retards to their own kingdom of arrogant retards.

Oct 05 2013 The Power of Choice

Satruday, Oct 05 2013

THANKS TO series of past experiences, now I am able to sniff out the selfish and self centered from a mile away.

Able to make my life more peaceful by keeping away the toxic.

Ah the power of choice!.

These days, one look up and down, couple of minutes of observing the body language and out comes the aroma of the double talkers, people who think that they are more entitled to things by virtue of who ever they think that they are and expect others to be their slaves.

umff.. I would call them hand kerchief princess.
Like the ones who keep dropping their hand kerchiefs to sucker in good men to drop down to their knees and pick it up for them. All the while the princess is looking down her nose and going "hahaha,, another idiot bites the dust, men are so easy to manipulate"

Sep 28 Good run after a good nights Sleep

Saturday Sep 28 2013

Went out for a good 5 mile run.
Had gone to sleep on a friday night early. No night out partying. :)
Felt good waking up and went out for a run.

In between had a much better conversation with dad.

moms back to playing politics as usual.
Well some human characteristics can never be changed.

Sep 22 Religion not to Blame

Sunday, Sep 22 2013

http://en.shiapost.com/2013/08/31/uns-navi-pillay-worries-about-jihad-al-nikah/

Many people tend to blame religion for this and label the whole religion with negativity.

I don't think the religion is to be blamed for that, its just that people with vested interests, always twist facts  and manipulate other people into believing and doing atrocious acts.

For that matter of fact, the WMD (weapons of Mass destruction) story was used by all the so said League of  Developed countries to gang up and send their innocent soldiers to invade IRAQ, and look what it has resulted in. :: http://www.iraqbodycount.org/

Its so easy to point fingers at other religions and label them all. The for that matter of fact, then going by popular labels,,,, we would have:
 brown men do not respect women,
black men are cannibals,
 Hispanics are drug peddlers,
white people are Pedophiles,  ....

But we all know that the actions of a few 'bad apples' do not reflect the true image of the society they have been linked to.

And now the latest,,, so said Syrian (conveniently Labeled ""Rebels"" by the Western Media / PEOPLE in this case and not named as Terrorists), seemed to be the ones to be getting sympathies. Had it not been for this article, no one would have known how sick minded and twisted these (their leaders) are.

And now I feel more sympathetic towards Assad and what he is fighting against. Also explains why the other Conservative countries in the middle east are against Assad regime.....

Sep 20 Opportunity to Change

Friday, Sep 20 2013

Over heard at Toastmasters : When you get the opportunity to give a speech, you have an opportunity to change someones life.

My Take : When you have an opportunity to Express ( Facebook, art, speech, poetry, blogging, writing, singing, dancing,,,,) you have an Opportunity To Change someones LIFE. 

Sep 15 Onam 2013

Sunday , Sep 15 2013

Wishing all Malus (Malayalam speaking people) A HAPPY ONAM 2013.
Cheers and Enjoy the Celebrations of OUR Great Dravidian Heritage honoring our ancient King.
The only one Festive celebration of Dravidian Heritage where no matter what religion we choose to practice Hindu, Muslim, Christian, Buddhist,,, just been the Malayalam speaking DRAVIDIANs, connects us thru this common heritage of ours.
Cheers to the next days of Celebrations leading to Thiru-Onam. 
Peace and Prosperity to ALL.  

Went for the toastmaster inter club contest in neighboring area, it was great seeing and hearing some great speeches by pros of 10 and 20 years, our area has it next week, volunteered for the role of timer. 

After that it was a laid back day, which started with the idlies and chutney,  work on the a bit of grocerry shopping. gas for the car on the way back.
Had the Hyderabadi Chicken biriyani that I had brought as take out yesterday... yummmm... 

was not able to sleep for the days following the speech... kind of wondering whats happening. 
 I am still high on the adrenaline that I got pumped up on after the speech. Too excited to go to sleep at night.

Have to find a balance tonite. So should I go out to the new salsa place close by or sit out at home and watch the NFL games!!?? 
What about the running, did not get any done since sep8.???!!!

Sep 11 - Humorous Speech Contest.

Wednesday Sep 11 2013

DAy of the Humorous Speech Contest at toastmaster..

[post soon]

Aug 30 . God and Good

Friday, Aug 30 2013


.....Be Good, Do Good

What drives people in lower economic countries to give up on the basic needs, requirements of a human being to live with family and friends to RE-LOCATE to cold foreign counties for work.

The HOPE of providing better living conditions and future security for their family and the BIGGER Hope of been able to be part of that better conditions and happiness.

HOPE.

Thinking about it a bit more, there is also this factor, which goes on the lines of "Make Hay when the sun shines".

With all kinds of uncertainties thrown in, its just live how and make the hay as soon as possible before the sun goes down.

Something that other fellow living creatures also do. Bees, ants, Bears ,
 

Now looking for material to be able to talk for 5 to 7 mins at the club level “Humorous Speech Contest”.

I just want to get in there so that I have one more item ticked off my “bucket list”.

Self analyzing, it no longer seems to be the fear of been on stage, it’s the fear of not been able to deliver the message, because of  not having put in enough effort to prepare for the message.
 

Another bucket list item that seems to be nagging me. To go for US football game , more so a NFL game, the icing on the cake would be to go for a Super Bowl game with someone wonderful, and loving and who loves me.

Someone who is just happy been with me and doing stuff together.
...  Love  LOVE, LOVE, LOVE :)

 

 

Aug 28 2013 Syria.

Wednesday Aug 28 2013


How do we know that its the Syrian govt that did the chemical attack? Given the fact that the middle east govts know the whole world is watching them.
And two countries were smacked (Iraq and Afghan) on lesser grounds.

Does not look like they would try to attempt that. More like a possibility of other vested interests..... my money is on the British Govts. under the radar techniques.... No wonder they were in a HURRY to initiate counter attack process. Much too fast for a slow acting and reacting mentality [UK govt]. Its like they already knew it was coming and were already in place with bills in their parliament..... Hopefully the US govt and people do not get dragged into the chaos and fighting.
Let us not forget the country (UK) and people who have a legacy of over 600 years in creating rifts between groups and countries all over the world.. sowing seeds of hatred at every possible opportunity and profiting from the fighting... examples of their legacy,,, India/Pakistan, Iraq/Kuwait, Israel/ Palestine ..... 
Hope the world wakes up to their crooked political strategies and become more peaceful....

Aug 27 2013 how to fall in love

Tuesday, Aug 27 2013

was watching the movie on youtube "How to fall in love"
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9qYHGojCkTY

Kind of reminded me of my own life. 75 to 90 % of it.

How the gal he was dating seems to be more interested in pushing her own agenda of things to do on a date and how she was bored with or disliked  what ever he liked.
Even thou, I liked to learn new things and open to try out many a new hobbies and interests and adapt, what I got out was utter contempt and sarcasm for even some of my basic likes.
There in was a clear indicator of two personalties not made of each other... and guess who ends up becoming the one who is unhappy and also gets finger pointed and blamed....hehehe... well character of people stands out and is always revealing in little things that they do right at the start, just that we usually get blinded or think that some compromises can be made... yes can be made if both think like wise and make an effort to be open to try out and likes of the other.

there comes again the attractions between the Controlling party and the walk-over.

Aug 26 Chocolate pleasure.

Monday, Aug 26 2013 Chocolate pleasure


Please watch the whole documentary and make your own decision. I know many people stand up for issues and do a lot of what I call lip service on FB,,,, but how many would really try to take a stand by giving up on a source of pleasure,,, I strongly believe that its not a necessity for our survival…. Its just a source of pleasure. And our pleasure creates demand and impact lives across the globe. What we choose to act on and what we choose to ignore defines us to ourselves.
This is one issue that has touched me, and made me realize that I have the power to choose. not to contribute to the demand and give up on a pleasure I was addicted to since childhood. Chocolate.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ZNpwIzeyjKQ

The same measuring stick could be used to define the fact, that many a innocent lives are forced into the Flesh market, just to meet up with the demand created by the Animal instincts of men.

If and only if all men would and could control their animal instincts and focus on behaving in a more civilized way,
If only they choose to choose the path of self-control rather than canibalist freedom. :'(

Aug 20 2013 Full moon , Blue Moon

Tuesday, Aug 20 2013

FULL MOON,,,, watch out for the Crazies and keep away from them as far as possible ... we have the power to choose peace over chaos and turbulence .

Gave me an opportunity to shake off the borderline dual personalty people, who seem to get angry at every little thing, instead of having learnt to let it go, but rather resort to barking, yelling , intimidating, threatening, committing emotional black mail, ... in other words, telling the world around that they are entitled to privileges  without really having worked to earn it.

Aug 05 2013, Attraction

Monday, Aug 05 2013

Attraction, is a strange thing.

Was thinking about the conversation I was part off with raj and judy on the drive back home from salsa and the various relationship dramas going on in the salsa community.

Looks like my summary is that of broadly classifying people into , Controlling and walk over.

Reality of Attraction is between two groups of people broadly classified as :
 a) Controlling  b)Walk over (Controlled).
the Controlling people are always looking for walk over people to have a relationship with  and the Walk overs are looking for Controlling people to have relationship with.
So far so good, made for each other.

The Controlling people hate other Controlling people and are always repulsed and turned off by their own kind in tune with the "Like Poles syndrome".

The Walk overs like the other Walk overs, find them to be nice people but do not find that magnetic attraction or as I always hear,  "No Chemistry" with the nice guy or nice gal. :) so go figure.

Many times the Controlling people are lucky to get a submissive walk-over people for life.... with the walk-over living a miserable life.

But when the Walk-overs mature, with age and bad experience of relationships with Controlling people, they will learn to look for other walk overs and that ends up in Giving, Mutual Respect and long term LOVE :)

August 03 2013 ABCs of life and Element.

Saturday, Aug 03 2013

The ABCs of life that would make your soul/heart an Element, Mixture or Compound.

A = Attitude
B = Behavior
C = Character

Attitude, leads to Behavior and that shows in our Character.

HEART :
- When your heart is at its purest, unselfish form of attitude, - its like an element,
- when it got a mix of other elements dirt like evil selfishness, dishonesty, manipulation, anger, mischief, destructive.... - its like a mixture

Turns into a Compound when the mixture is let to remain and foster a bond with other Element over time.
Very difficult to separate out and get back to the individual Elemental form.

Jul-31-2031 Wednesday - ENERGY - Speech #3

Wednesday Jul-31-2031

Hi Everyone.

Energy!

“Energy is neither created nor   destroyed” **************

********************“ENERGY…. Is neither Created ,,,,, NOR … destroyed”

***********But its converted from one  form to another.

(one of the few times my favorite subjects in College ofHeat Transfer, thermodynamics, Mechanical Vibrations, Electrical  engineering,,, seems to help make sense)

We are all born with a certain level of energy,

Each person, each living creature, stationary substance, each object around us has a certain frequency of vibration  and an Energy Level ,,,, Kinetic, Potential energy, Heat Energy,,,,

How and what we use the Energy we  have,, is a choice we continuously making.

At Toastmaster.

Watching speaker after speaker make  amazing speeches,,,, the one thing that stood out to me is their Energy  Projection.

Don’t remember much of what  they spoke, I remember a few words and few quotes here  and there,

but the one thing that stood out  to make me remember them was their Energy.

The more I watched and tried to  analyze the speeches and speakers, the more I am  convinced, that its all about Converting our INNER Energy.

Public Speaking,,, Most of us are scared and nervous

Maybe because we are doing if  for the 1^st time,

or scared that we are going to be under  observation and judged harshly by others.

or , maybe our own insecurities…

The Quivering VOICE, the UN-controllable shake  of our limbs, thoughts racing 100,000 miles an hour…..wooo phew!.,,,,

then the first few words come out ...and  are uttered… 

IFffff….

. …If we could at that moment  pause, look around and take in the stares of people looking at  us… we can feel that energy radiating from them, good– bad – neutral…,,,Energy…. 

Its like all  their conflicting energy is flowing towards us….

Maybe

Just maybe,,, not been used to that onslaught  of Energy, our own energy tries to hide…. 

Resulting in the all too  familiar  tongue tied syndrome….

That.. 

... that’s where I think  seasoned speakers with PRACTICE… 

learn and master the art of  Feeding,, Controlling and Projecting the Energies.

Now switching to another Dear subject to all : LOVE…. Love energy…

I think …..When  one  really falls in love,  one falls in love with the Energy-Vibrations of the other person. 

And  when there is matching  energy  it results in Resonance and an  amplification of Energy,, 

aka,, the Highs  of falling in LOVE

what  we choose to be dazzled by... plays a part in finding the harmonious  matching personal energy.

All  the bling, the glitter, the show,,,,,, does not last long. Because if  there is mis-match  of personal energy,  there is soon bound to be un-happiness.

Energy  is neither created nor destroyed,  its just converted from one form to another.

Many  a times we have the power to choose what we convert the energy we are  born with …. so cheers to  finding  that harmonious matching  energy and amplifying  the RESONANCE of our Energy match up.

During  the course of our  lives we all get attracted to people who seem to have a tons  of energy in the things they do.

Most  of the times we end up falling and having a crush on people who seem  to speak with a higher energy, 

we kind of feel inspired by their talk or  something that they do. 

I  see many people seem to fall  for singers and a few for inspiring speakers. 

But Singers  get the most love thou...

After  my Ice-Breaker speech,, A whole speech of about 6 mins ,,, 

 people choose  to remember many things,

butthe one that stood  out  was about the lil dance move I did…. 

Because I guess when the happy  dancing energy came out, people felt it and I guess it caught  their attention  and probably in a way it inspired  them.

****“ENERGY …. Is neither  Created ,,,,, NOR … destroyed”

…. But its converted from one  form to another.

So  heres to us all,, for, choosing  to Learn, Practice  and Improve our Public Speaking skills….

which is...

the  ART  of  Feeding, Controlling,  Projecting  and Spreading the “Happiness Energy” 

……..and  inspiring  people  around us with …GOODness  Energy.

Thank you :)

Jul-31-2031 (Wednesday)  -- Speech # 3 

Toastmaster Manual / Speech / Time: COMPETENT COMMUNICATION (CC) MANUAL (3), Get to the Point (5 to 7 min)

Jul 21 Sunday , time for reflection,,, Amma the Hugging Saint,, intriguing video

Sunday, Jul 21 2013

Sunday, after a hectic and tiring Saturday working from home for the project.. phew 12 hrs 5am to 5 pm...

Not having the energy to go out in the evening, fell asleep watching some stand up comedians and their dirty talk.. chris rock.. and another.

The whole week was intrigued how Amma the hugging saint made the big time Congress men of US to end up with tears in their eyes, just by hugging them... video below.. I am still wondering what caused them to cry or maybe better term was, to end up  with tears in their eyes.

http://vimeo.com/70271273

On friday night met Michl at salsa, even she said that she was in tears when she was sitting in the Queue before the darshan. But did not feel anything during the hug.

Jul 14 2013 Shashwatha and self-less Volunteering

Sunday, Jul 14 2013

Last sunday on July 7 went towards down town DC to visit the hugging saint / guru Amritha Amma. Thought that there would be some Traditional Malu food and maybe I could Volunteer in the kitchen and socialize with some other Malus from the north of Kerala.

Ended up meeting a few very good and inspiring souls from Austria, France, Israel, US.,, and a surprising  Argentinian Doctor of Indian Origin, going to go for her first job as a Gynecologist

It was  surprising how sincerely dedicated they were at what they Volunteered to work for. The most surprising factor was knowing that they paid and pay for their trip and other accommodation and travel expenses.

Shashwatha,,, thats the name of the Gal (French National) who inspired me last week at the Volunteering I did in the Kitchen for 16hrs. 
Bless her soul and her inspiring energy, thoughts, words and self-less actions.

Loved the Idlies she made, went there specifically the second day on Monday evening to get it. Missed out on the Appams,,, got sold out.

It was very heart warming listening to the Shashwatha talk about god with in oneself and feeling her pure energy. Told her that I am inspired by her and her self less actions.

Life : Is all about been good, doing good, been inspired to do good and inspiring others around us to do good..... 
So cheers to Goodness and Spreading Goodness around 

Jun 29 2013 Alcoholic Beverage Control (ABC)

Saturday Jun 29 2013

ABC (Alcoholic Beverage Control) is nothing but a bunch of Power Drunk punks, out to harass the law abiding public.

And worst of all yesterday night (Jun-28-2013) I had the surprise of seeing them invade a decent family restaurant, Picante in Chantilly, VA.

 Bunch of them all wearing Bullet proof vest, carrying guns and the works came into the restaurant were some families were having Dinner and there was a Salsa dancing class of probably 10 couples going on at the other side of the restaurant.
They then went on to harass the wonderful owner of the restaurant.
All the show of POWER for what?
Like it was some kind of Communist Police state!!??

Just Because a couple of the ABC's Power Drunk, Reason-Retarded, Quarter-brained Red-Neck Bully mentality - officers wanted to get a kick out of harassing harmless people?????

Hope someone picks up this info and make them accountable for their actions.

Its disgusting to see law abiding citizens and business establishments been treated worse than terror suspects.

Even my family have had people working in the law enforcement, but never seen openly idiotic mis-use of power. Thats pure Power Drunk at work 101 and disrespect of Liberty.

The ABC of Virginia are like the Taliban" of the area.

Jun 27 2013, heart beat

Wednesday, Jun 27 2013

If only you could calm yourself,
you can not only listen,
but feel my heart beat :)

Jun 19 2013 Wed - Maturity of Civilization

Wednesday, Jun 19 2013


The maturity of a civilization / group / Ethnic / Religion / Country of people depends on the amount of open discussions and dialogues they HAVE or are allowed to have and are Open to hearing out differing opinions, minority concerns and above all been tolerant towards the acceptance of a peaceful resolution. - Vino

When one opens up to learning a New LANGUAGE, one opens up to learning a whole New CULTURE.
So the amazing discovery starts into the world of sounds, words, multiple interpretations of words, cultural comparisons ......and above all a better understanding of the world around us. With a higher probability of it leading to stronger friendships and tolerance between people.
So cheers to learning new languages and opening up our mind(S)

Jun 16 2013 Sunday ,,, Exploitation

Sunday, Jun 16 2013

Was thinking about the past few days,,

the whole idea is not clear enough to explain ....
but its on the lines of a catch phrase its "Real Men Do Not Pay for Sex"... among those crude lines... mostly about educating people about these subject related stuff,, so that we with our powerful Energy, reach,, could start becoming a spokes persons for this subject area.... 

that would help reduce or lower the market that's leading to many a women and children been exploited and forced into that market, mostly stemming from the DEMAND. Hit the demand in every way and direction as possible and we could probably see many a lives changed or saved.... what do you think..

The term worlds oldest profession is a cheap glorification or label given my self serving people. ITs actually worlds oldest form of exploitation and taking advantage of people who are in unfortunate circumstances.

No self- respecting person would want to sell their body for sex, be open for humiliation and degradation of their soul, mind, body.

Every one is and should be respected for the good in them.

Sometimes circumstance in certain parts of the world, could be environmental, that results in the whole population of a region ending up not having enough good to eat or feed their kids. These are people who should be helped generously, probably relocated to lusher un-used areas of the world, where they could probably start a fresh life with chances of their kids surviving.

But one thing leads to another and people end up taking advantage of others under-privileged situations and exploit them.

Then again back to this subject, the exploiters or middle men are just working on meeting the selfish demands of the even more lazy, crude minded exploiters who think that just because they are in a bit more privileged situation are Powerful enough to take advantage of the under-privileged.
That CURRUPT use of POWER is the most shameful of any Human behavior.

May 29 2013 Wednesday, speech no 2 down

Wednesday, May 29 2013.....


2nd Speech at Toast masters down.... Phew,,, nerve wracking last speech... but was able to deliver the speech, that I was trying to find words to make it a 5-7 min speech I was only able add a bit to around 5pm ,, had no time to practice and prepare,, was thinking of delivering it at the next secession... 
but..., went to the event at 6:45 pm and gave my speech around 8:30pm..... thanks to the encouragement of a few fellow toast masters,,, 
Phew !,,, I even forgot the names of some of the people I knew well.....Good god, how is it that some people are able to deliver speeches in such a cool, collected manner and why is it that I am such a wreck.... 

But for an impromptu speech,, it seemed a great thing to have been able to speak for 6mins and 40 secs... how the hell did I have so much to talk about,, what did I really talk,, I was so nervous and lost,, I do not even remember what exactly I spoke, just that it got the people laughing and discussing about the topic for about 30 mins after that.....
 — feeling wonderful

When one opens up to learning a New LANGUAGE, one opens up to learning a whole New CULTURE.
So the amazing discovery starts into the world of sounds, words, multiple interpretations of words, cultural comparisons ......and above all a better understanding of the world around us. With a higher probability of it leading to stronger friendships and tolerance between people.
So cheers to learning new languages and opening up our mind(S)

May-28-2013 Tuesday, Energy

May-28-2013 Tuesday, Energy

Energy is neither created nor destroyed, its just converted from one form to another. 

When one really falls in love, one falls in love with the Energy/Vibrations of the other person. All other things, the bling, the glitter, the show,,,,,, does not last long. Because of the mis-match of energy, there is bound to be un-happiness.
Energy is neither created nor destroyed, its just converted from one form to another. Many a times we have the power to choose what we convert the energy we are born with so cheers to finding that harmonious matching energy.

finding the harmonious matching energy plays a part in what we choose to be dazzled by.

during the course of our life we all get attracted to people who seem to have a ton of energy in the things they do. Most of the times we end up falling and having a crush on people who seem to speak with a higher energy, kind of feel inspired by their talk or something that they do.
I see many people seem to fall for singers  and a few inspiring speakers. Singers the most...

It was natural that even I ended up having a crush on someone who I just saw give a very energetic speech. Was communicating with a very experienced friend who was into toastmasters and he said that its a normal thing. And that there will be other people who would be having a crush on you for the speech you give.
And give a speech I did , for the first time in my life.
Was impressed with myself and flattered by the feed back and review I got back for it.

A whole speech of about 6 mins and people choose to remember many things, but the one that stood out was also the one that I am comfortable with and doing. Because I guess when the happiness energy came out, they all felt it and I guess it caught their attention, dazzled them and in a way it inspired them.

So heres to spreading happiness and inspiring people around me.

It was a long Memorial day weekend in the US.
had gone out dancing on firday night. Confused a bit by the actions and words of Cdy. I have been going there for about 6 months now and suddenly since the past 3 weekends she keeps saying how good I am ... then was also surprised to hear her say that she hates guys and she just leads them on and that men just think with their dicks... hmm interesting to hear that.
So now I almost asked her, are you just leading me on?

She seems to be aware of how she tends to lead during dancing and that since I control her, she liked it and dancing with me.
So full of contradictions.

I was not really enjoying dancing with her as I end up spending my rythem and focus on trying to keep her in line and not ending up hurting the others dancing.

If only she knew to control her self and follow . Its partner dancing, just like in a relationship, there is a lead and there is a follow. there cannot be multiple leaders, thats where there is dis-harmony and un-happiness.
Just like in partner dancing, there are roles one plays in relationship. And one is also blessed with certain body parts and physical capabilities that the other does not have to complete the requirements so the relationship could flourish.

But if someone in the relationship tends to try and get into the role of the other,, just like in everything in the world, there is dis-harmony and resulting chaos.

Hopefully people will be more aware and accepting of the roles they need to play and not play and work on making their relationship better and harminous.

May 20-2013 Love

Monday May 20 2013

Coming out of a depressing and low energy weekend.
Thou relatively peaceful, there is this lurking feeling of uneasiness.

Then today cheered myself up, thinking about love and having had the fortune to know and realise that there is someone there who loves me. Who maybe in a peculiar situation, for having made certain decisions based on what , where and other ciricumsatances. But yet feels a bit better to know that hidden (maybe forbidden) connection. Like a secret love that only we both could understand and comperhend.
Others probably do feel that tension of pull and push, yet it feels nice to know and comforting to feel that sincere love and see it in the eyes and espressions.

April 22 2013 , Nightmares leading into first speech.

Monday, April 22 2013.

Had nightmares during weekend, was centered about my first speech to be done on wednesday.
woke up to the horros of some ladies shouting at me during my speech. woke up with a week knee. Been thinking about it and going thru the horrific feeling of stage freight again.

April 10, day of presentations... still nervous and stammering when presenting.

Wednesday, Apr 10

A beautiful day, sun shinning at its brightest after a very long time,
 new years eve for Telugu and kannada people.

day of presentations for me... still nervous and stammering when presenting. jitters and heart rate racing.

just finished the smallest at work presentation , was stammering at places. :(

was working on my ice-breaker,
well they have hobby nite, today, so might try to show off my salsa.
its kind of giving me confidence to talk about something I think I maybe good at.

so my nervousness is thinking about situations that may not happen or when I am the least preparation and practice.

lets see how it works out tonite.. :) fingers crossed.

Apr 04 2013 , hyper active day, sudden burst of Suns energy

Thursday , Apr 04 2013 ,
A hyper active day, sudden burst of Suns energy.
Charged after having cooked my own food yesterday night . Also the early morning coffee helped to keep me hyper and motivated.

Apr 03 2013 Lost and feeling insecure.

Wednesday, Apr 03 2013

Been having a nagging feeling the past few days, something is off.
Getting all kinds of bad vibrations. Not feeling motivated to cook, clean, work out. Its like something is there bothering me, but revealing itself.

But today, after digging a bit, got to know that I am been given a low-blow by the company, not paying me what they should. It feels sick, that market conditions are so bad that I am now afraid to take the risk. And also that I am kind of not upto the job market skills that seems to change every other day.
Living me with no bargaining chip.

One thing for sure, this is all market dynamics and my own ability or lack there of to over come the hurdles.
But how?
the million dollar question.

Trying to prepare for my 1st speech... not as easy as I thought that it would be, even writing it up in sequence of presentation has been a task, that turned out to be harder than anticipated.

Feb 21 2013, Connections

Tuesday, Feb 21 2013

Its very intriguing, the connection : it could be a look, a touch, a dance, a word, a story, thinking, circumstances...
Living us thinking about the person, some forgotten with time, remembered ocassionaly, some never forgotten.
All kinds of connections varying in intensity.

My first dance connection, in wash, was thinkng about her and was wondering if i would ever meet her again. Decided to go there on a wed, yesterday. and ended up meeting her and dancing bachata. Was interesting to know more about her profesion and where she came from.... turns out to be a Beauty of Italian orgin. hmm so obvious to who I am automatically attracted to., unspoken, just the connection of a memorable first dance.

Jan 17 2012,,,, fasting by circumstances

Thursday, Jan 17 2012

Ended up getting up late and rushing thru the morning chores reached work @ 8:20... just had coffee and tea with a few biscuits.
forgot lunch,, and at home around 7:45...
picked up ash ctshneighbour to the store for milk and gave print outs requested\

supposed to have snow storm today, but luckily nothing happened :)



Wendesday, Jan 16 2012

woke up early to get to to work by 7:30 got in by 8.. thinking that I had a meeting which turned out to be at 8:30..

towards evening 5:45 went to the apt leasing office to follow up on the issues,,
the maint person phil came by around 7pm and we tried to work on the release of water,, but did not seem to work at curbing the hammering noise in the bedroom celling.

so around 8 hit the road for bachata free after 9.

got back home around 1.


Tuesday, Jan 15 2012


Monday Jan 14 2012

Jan 13 2012 lazy sunday

Sunday Jan 13 2012

Been lazy to get up and with the gloomy weather outside, had little motivation to get out.
Anyways got heating the frozen pizza that I had heated up yesterday and had it with the ginger tea I made yesterday.

now to try to work on the dough I prepared last week to make some chapatis.

Jan 12 2012,

Saturday Jan 12 2012

Still on a high from yesterday nights dancing and connecting on the very first dance.

Was again thinking about the theories of breeding , reproducing, multiplying that is the basis of all the living organisms survival. Or what they do and have to do and learn to do and learn to adapt....


Friday, Jan 11 2012

went out and got the pass and tickets to the salsa event.

Amazing 1st dance and connection.
After that it felt like the gal fell in love with me. I kind of felt a something too, but was afraid of opening up and getting hurt .

was difficult to top off that connection and dance after the first one.

Jan 10, to go or not to

Thursday, Jan 10 2012

around 10 had phil come in to check the noise in the bed room of the apt.
narrowed it down to the piping from the water heater.. pvc pipe expanding and contraction causing the hammering noise..

now to figure out do I go to the singles meeting or not in the evening.

Jan 09 2012 Toastmasters

Tuesday, Jan 09 2012

trying to figure out about the sound happening at night in the bed room.

got back home for lunch had the remaining biriyani.

out of work around 5:25 and got to the leasing office to follow up on the complaint. was able to meet the maintanence guy and show him the recording of the sound.

now to the lions den of toastmasters.

Jan 08 2012, random thoughts

Tuesday, Jan 08 2012

Random thoughts,, deep about religion, philosophy and lots of stuff, but what does it all lead to too.
reached work @8o5

got biriyani for lunch take out.

kind off feeling funny,, like something major and nice is going to happen.
Huge major change in the air. sempre.

Jan 07 2012. Slow down a bit

Monday Jan 07 2012

Woke up wondering if I should call up home and see how things went with the check up for moms heart.

Got to call up home to see what transpired... seems like doc told her to take the same medicines and go for next checkup July 08. thats six months.


seems her cholestrol and sugar level were lower.


Sunday Jan 06 2012

lazy sunday, nothing much happening.
got to call up home toward night to see if things are going on fine with moms trip to the hospital. which is morning time for them.

went to the grocerry shop, then to costco,, with all the crowd, parked as far as possible.

got bored and went back home to prepare the dough for making chapatis. Prepared the dough and kept it to set/settling down
Then got down to watching the play-offs wild card.

wanted to work on the visa documentation, but was not having any motivation and inspiring energy. So was basically a couch potato and did not want to strain my ankle that was sprained. Still having swelling and pain when walking.
Hopefully will get better in the coming days and will be able to walk and then slowly get back to running.

CAlled up home around 11:45 and found the call was not going thru, so called up moms cell and got to know that Bro was talking to them on the other line, thats a relief that he is following up.
The got to know that mohn and kank were going with mom and dad to the hospital.

Jan 05 2012.. Weekend chores of Sat

Saturday, Jan 05 2012

wow, boy, what a night.
Was low in emotional energy and did not feel confident about self. So instead of going downtown towards the pentagon, went closer to home.
Sat at the bar with my beer. Did not even ask one person to dance, just kept getting asked to dance. Wow, that was surely an emotionally healing experience for the very old wounds that could be the cause of the emotional low of not feeling worthy.

Most remarkable was the connection dancing with a very older lady, wow, it was magical. She was a very nice and understanding lady, must be a very giving and caring person from the way she said somethings, don't remember what, but it was the way she said it.
Well my theory still holds good, that I am best compatible and easily find the best connection with giving and caring people. But they are all usually taken ..... :(
And the moment I try to make it work with selfish, self centered people, its all kinds of chaos in my life and leaves me with a hurt heart that takes years to recover.

ahhhh.

now off to get my weekend chores done.

Jan 04 2012... Start time of projects of life.

Friday, Jan 04 2012

Supposed to be a great time to start off on new projects in my life,, like a one and only person to love in my life, the center of my universe,,,,, ahhh still the basic darn romantic at heart. Always associating life and that unique love. Even after having my heart thrown around and kicked around coldly.

Jan 03 , Sleepless night and head ache after

Thrusday, Jan 03 2012

Was able to put together the document at work at last. Great help from S and S.
Also was interesting the email exchange between me and MB.
Its a strange connection we developed in Lisboa portugal. and then the subsequent day at madrid again accidently meeting each other on the street. hmmmm what did I do to connect with a swimsuite model.
Almost been 3 years since our meeting and her other world travels. Very interesting.

Who would have thought, that my ultimate initial plan of going over to Czech to meet the person I loved would end up with the person behaving more arrogant and sickeningly un-civilized,,,,, and then the trip turned over into a great adventure of me meeting some very wonderful people in Spain and Portugal and the super adventures at Madrid's salsa clubs.
Life sure has it own way of providing and taking care of me.
It just is not possible for me and the Czech gal to be couple. Just not the kind of gal I can be with or should be with.
Was so madly in love at that time, was hoping that the bad phase would go and she would be able to see how hurtful her actions were. But I guess some people are who they are, and if we try to tell them about it, they will only turn it around and paint you as the BAD person and villain.

Ahhh the head ache. starting again, was for some strange reason not able to sleep, and remember been away even at 3am.. then woke up after 7 and was at work by 8:25am with a Splitting head ache.

Got thru the day with discussion and white board....

and yeaa got a bigger monitor at work , so now I have two screens to play around with.. cheers. was having difficulty viewing some stuff and multi tasking,, now it goes with my style of getting lots of things done.

Jan 02, Time to go to work

Wednesday, Jan 02 2013

Back to work

The start of a
 new phase
.. new leaf
....new chapter
.....new year
......new energy
.......new motivation
........new milestone
.........new drive
..........new ideas
...........new approach
............new look
.............new outlook
..............new friends
...............new love
................new relationships
.................new affairs
..................new travels
...................new learnings
....................new poems
.....................new stories
......................new tastes
.......................new appetites
........................new investmets
.........................new dresses
..........................new house
...........................new job
............................new news :)

JANUARY 01 2013, Happy New Year, Cheers

Tuesday, Jan 01 2013... 01-01-2013

Woke and called up home to talk with mom and dad.
It was one of the pleasant conversations. Thank god.

My feet hurts really bad from yesterdays accident of twisted feet resulting in a sprained ankle and a huge swelling around the ankle.

Pondering about it, was it nature telling me
1) okay , heres me making it easy to refuse the invitations to the New Years Parties or if somewhere along I have a change of heart and decided to go party.

2) Telling me you should make use of your feet and go out dancing, see what happens when you are incapacitated and are not able to use your feet. These are accidents that could happen anytime, so just go ahead and enjoy every healthy moment you can put other there to enjoy in a healthy way. :)