Feb 24, Wake up in Canada

Monday Feb 24 2014

Woke up to a bright early morning of cold in Edmonton Canada.

Had reached on Feb 23, went thru customs, kind of felt was harassed by the Customs officer. Felt a under current / tone of racism there. Hopefully I was not been to over sensitive.

Well the cold is really COLD. -20deg ... just going thru 10 meters to the car rental left my hands numb and could feel the cold thru my jeans pants

Anways seems like a small city, so was able to make it with out GPS to the hotel. Another great thing is that the streets are numbered like in New York city so was easy to drive and have reference points.

Evening went and met up with Melani and had a great dinner and catching up conversation . Looks like our lives are criss-crossing again.

was feeling a bit sad to be leaving DC, and still feeling a bit not sure about the new assignment.

First off all pissed off with AT and T for leaving me feel cheated even after paying for the Early termination.
was told that the phone would be unlocked in 24 to 48 hrs and then when I called after 48 hrs they said it takes 7 days,, then asked to talk to supervisor, who gave me the line that it takes 10 days... ahh so its like each person is just quoting time lines from the air.

After 4 years of been a loyal customer, I no longer feel like going back to taking a connection with At&T.
It was like the customer service personal do not care, and for sure this attitude is coming from way up from above. Not a good sign for the company, time to SELL OFF the shares before the attitude become epidemic. Or has it already become.

Feb 21 2014, Religion, Movers, Salsa for AshisS,

Friday, Feb 21 2014

Religion :
Religion does not make you superior.
You become Superior because of the Goodness in you to do Good things for Others.


Movers :
The movers came in yesterday around 9:30 and left around 11:30 === 12.
Whole apartments feels so empty, just with the barest of my worldly possessions. The thought process started grinding and trying to put the feeling I was going thru into words.

hmmmm sitting in an empty house...  This is how life should be... free of worldly possessions. 
Let go, let go, let go...
was thinking about that and then recalled the words 
"EAT to LIVE and NOT Live to Eat" 

I like my furniture's and household stuff too, but now after the movers came in and took it away, it feels kind of liberating, not seeing it 


Mel in edmonton:
It was nice to hear back from her, wanted info on possible houses to rent in edmonton. said would be back in town after her trip to hawa and vancouver.

Salsa:
Yesterday night introduced Ashis to salsa at salsa room. After trying to finish up the beer stock in my room. we ended up reaching a bit late, so kind of felt bad about it.
Gave him the vip card. hopefully he will start using it and learn another skill.
Wanted to introduce him to the pican crowd too, but that remains to be seen if only he could make it for tomorrows friday night.
And my car gets taken for moving today morning. So I would probably not be able to make it with out someone driving me.


Past @ pican... meeting interesting people:
Last week, met this cute and pretty german gal at pincan salsa. Felt like a very good connection. And interestingly, the next day was thinking about her, when I get a facebook request for friends.
Wow kind of reminded me of what happened a few years ago.

Is it something to do with the European gals and me?

Ended up exchanging a few mails back and forth, getting to know...
But anyways for now the possibility of anything great happening is minimized by the fact that she is going to jamaican islands for vacation... and that I would be moving away to another country when she returns.

hahaha... natures way of throwing in temptations and leaving me with doubts of could have's, should have's.
Well if things are ment to be, things will happen on its own. Things fall into place in very unexpected ways.

Feb 16 2014 move time

Sunday Feb 16 2014

So many things happening,,, all like a whirl wind. where do I start chronicling

got on to this thinking about the words a lady said at the grand canyon. Hmmm some people can just see and tell. She was empathizing with me or my conditions at that time. Must have been so obvious to the onlookers about me been the care taker and the other been the selfish princess taking everything for granted.... blinded by love.... fool me once, .... fool me repeatedly... shame on me...

Anyways the past few days have been stressful with all the issues related to the move. Atlast the dates for the movers got set and so started the process of booking tickets, hotel and rental....

Now the process of cutting off the utilites , lease,,,, and other threads , re assigning of address.... and to top it all ,, have yet to start the process of filing taxes... Tough to concentrate , focus ... and the last sorting of the documents to be packed in appropriate boxes.....   motivation, motivation, please, please help me focus and get things done.

ahhhh the problem of been stuck with the cell phone 2 year contract is killing me, hope I get compensate for that.

WAtching wedding crashers... hmmm heart .... don't know what the exact word is.

Feb 04 2014 Public Speaking toastmasters videos

Tuesday FEb 04 2014.


Managing Your Fear : http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=d1u7THOudfw

Impromptu Speaking: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=GefKPy5YYHI
Rehearsal Tips to Make You Shine!: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=HfRJg_4Xqkw
Keeping the Audience Engaged : http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JHl4yUQMBYA
How to Give a Toast : http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Z38PoXhzg20
Finding Speech Topics : http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fvlPYQMjFic
Knowing Your Audience : http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9A80QdJPR9U
Knowing Your Audience : http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=AykYRO5d_lI
Job Interviews : http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=PZdjoqQrhbU
Gestures and Body Language : http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-3ywrgCA-1I
Using Humor in Speeches : http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Y8gYnqbifr0
How to Offer Feedback : http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=v06oz5JYFIg
Speaking Mistakes to Avoid : http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=DcSbpKIWPHI

Feb 03 2014 Gypsy life

Monday Feb 03 2014

New month, new week, new day..

My life that i never planned

- No permanent Address (tough to put an address on the Passport when I don't live more than an year at one place).

- No steady job that I can say, yes I have been working for this company or at this place for 10 years... all the jobs I held were just in single digit years.

- Travel, Travel, Travel, good for small party talk, but not a great life in terms of stability and peace. Long term friends or relationships.

- Don't have too many permanent accessories (cause there is no permanent place to store it or keep it and a huge burden during the frequent relocations).

- Home is where the heart is,,, I am now confused as to where my home is. My heart is all over the world.

- Travel brings out the best and worst in people. A great gauge to decide on a potential mate for life.
will get to know their good side of been a caring, helping, supporting person and a team player
OR
a selfish person, who will suck out the energy in your life,,,,your life would be better with out and not worth fighting for.
Unplanned travel is like life, how you go about it as an individual or as a person worthy of been in a team or a person who uses the team for their own selfish agenda.

Would you want to be part of a team where you are been used and utilize whenever the other person finds it convenient or would you want to be in a team that brings out the spirit goodness of been in a supporting team that helps bring out the best in each other.

A good and best team mate is someone who is mature, responsible and thinks about the team before own self most of the time.

Feb 01 2014.... Self Confidence!!??

Saturday Feb 01 2014

Wish I had more belief, self confidence, self esteem,,,,,

Why is it so low for me compared to the other?.
Is it Culture? Personalty? Others who are always blaming me for their failures? been too sensitive to others opinions or remarks? did I grow up overly protected from the world that I am not able to handle rejections well? too many rejections?

Why? What?

It was nice to see a guy with lot of similar back ground as mine high school and pre Engineering from hyd and then ending up in private college in karnataka becoming the ceo  of micro soft. The encouraging kicker is that he  same year as me.

So does that mean that I can become something big too and help contributing to making a huge change in this world for the better?

Why not?

Have to keep trying and trying,,, get up and pull myself up after every fall and get working harder to work at becoming better.

Jan 27 2914, dull start of the week

Monday, Jan 27 2014

After a very quite weekend mostly spent at home. Trying to re energize self and soul, trying to get my spirits up and going.All cause of the cold outside.Made a new drink that I was able to come up with .. of fresh cut ginger, put in a bit of turmeric power and microwaved it in a cup of water.... 
Ginger is great to improve our immune system, turmeric has healing powers ,, good for any internal cuts and bleeding within the colon and I remember using it when I had a major injury to my leg, it healed like magic. 
So made it for the second day.

Wish I was able to get out and go for a run ,, even getting to the gym in the neighborhood for the thread mill seems to not hold that much of a motivation factor,, even thou its again a privilege that I am given and not realizing the value and not been appreciative and grateful for those privileges of luxury.

Have been having the fruit mix, blending it in the blender and having it like a smoothie. Seems to reduce the waste that has been making me feel guilty when I end up throwing out  about 50% of the fruits I end up buying but not consuming (or lazy to consume).

Getting the small portions of mixed-cut fruits seems to be better and easier to consume after blending it.

Its exactly to the day last month that was my last working day. Time sure flies (again a reminder).Don't seem to be able to concentrate and study. things I am so privileged to have opportunity for. 

Whyyyyy, ,,, is it the ADD or is it just my own dis content and the search for something more exciting, or is it just plain laziness, with no sense of accountability but a sense of Entitlement (false)?

Oh why am I been so ungrateful and not putting in the disciplined focus thats needed to make my life productive for self, family and the world?
Do something good and useful for others. Learn something that I am given an opportunity to learn (a privilege actually),,,,, there by given the power and opportunity to make life around me better. 

Nothing much happening on the side of the getting a new project.was there on Saturday evening as part of the dry run for the presentation pitch they were making to one of the possible clients... still a long way to go...Realistically seems like a far fetched shot.

****************Some people become so losts deep in hate, that they become blinded by any goodness or all the goodness thats there in the object of their feelings.was thinking about the people on facebook friends, who so seem to trash obama at every possible opportunity. ITs like unknown to them they have a deep racial bias. So easily seems to have forgotten the republican pres before who led the people into war and chaos in Iraq, not to mention the lives of the poor soldiers lost and the impact that the families are burdened with.*****