May 19 , sucky monday

Monday, May 19

las palabras de amor son siempre las mismas: toman el sabor de los labios que las pronuncian - g. de maupassant

the words of love are always the same: take the taste of your lips which pronounced them - g. de maupassant 

Commented about how maupassant was one of fav authors... and it kind of got a reaction.... asking me not to msg. 

Only a heart thats honest and open to receiving love will be understanding towards the love flowing towards it :)..... 

Kind of feels sucky that she deleted my comment about maup been one of my fav authors.
Got out to pc h for some salsa.. baby.. not much of energy left after running.

Sunday was a great day, went to St monica... was flattered by the attention from a few ... one who was so impressed that she asked to dance again. and again and had a great close connecting bachata... wonder if I will ever meet her again.

May -17 2014 long weekend in Canada and my first weekend at home

Saturday May 17 2014

ITs a long weekend in Canada and woke up with some sweet loving thoughts of the one and only..

so sent out this thoughts from my heart...

Mmmmm Wishing you a very wonderful Long weekend.... cheers,

What are you upto ? ,, hmm knowing you,, I guess it would be back to back action packed.. hope you take some time in between all your hectic "to do" to step back and let your body and mind tissues catch up (don't burn out the old ones too soon.. it takes 7 years for the whole transformation,, I remember your words)...

Anways was thinking about you and wanted to just share these words with you... "I hope no matter what, that you never have to fake, pretend or force yourself to love someone".....

Have a lovely time spreading the gift of your adorably, lovely-energy filled, butter fly smile, to all those lucky people around you and making the world a better place.. cheers and loads of luv

one of your many adoring fans

"I hope no matter what, that you never have to fake, pretend or force yourself to love someone. Always stay true to yourself, your true feelings, be sincere and honest like I believe you always are"....

I think ,,,, thats not what my idea of love is about,, you cannot fake love,,, it has to happen in its own way and its own sweet time,, that is ,,,if there is something there...... I also admire her for the fact that she is not faking it or pretending anything thats not there or trying to force something like that.... if she did, I would be disappointed. 
She did not force me or get to me by something she went about doing.... it just happened....I felt her energy,,,,fell for it... and the things I got to know about her,, proved to me that it is towards someone who really deserves to be loved unconditionally....  and I am thankful that she inspired me in a way no one has after a very very long time ... thats nature at work...


hahahahaha

Daivathinte Vikruthikal (loosely translated Gods Mischief ,, not close to the translation in wikipedia) , Award winning novel written by my moms cousin M. Mukundan, story based in the native land of my ancestors Mahe, India,.. Malayalam movie with the same name : which also won the film award for Best story for that state 1992

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Daivathinte_Vikrithikal

I was just thinking about the way the universe twists and turns my life around and was thinking about the word gods mischief... and was reminded of the novel ... I never read but heard.... 

hahahaha.. wiki describes my place,, as a ""little village, Mahe,""  hmmm ,, guess it is,,, the author married my moms (his cousins) class mate.. A place so small that almost every one is related to each other in some way thru marriage 

If I ever become a writer, I hope I write about happiness and love..... no, do not want to be contributing to the misery of focusing on pain and negativity... (thou that seems to see popularly).


I try, I try and I try,,,
...... Then there comes a time, I have to say
bye, bye, bye.... ....
well there is so much a person can Try..... 
after that self-respect kicks in.

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went to costco with anub, his wife and kid....
very interesting couple dynamics.

May 16 2014 no heart no feel for music

Friday May 16 2014

Was thinking about people, their feel for music and heart
One of the easiest way to know if a person has heart and feel for music is to ask them about merengue..
If they say its boring, then they do not have basic feel for music. More than often they turn out to be people who are performers.. into 1,2 style 3,4 style 5,6 style.... they do not feel the depth and motivating power of music....

May 15 2014 hurt and confession

Thursday May 15 2014 

Feeling low and lost.... whats happening there... seeing m online till late night into 2am. 

Work it feels very out of place.. looks like will get sacked anytime.

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Nothing hurts more and feels helpless than to see the object of your affection lost and dotting on someone who does not even seem to care about her.....

oh for all that I am able to sense and feel so deeply about her, like sensing the soul of a soul mate, its weird how I am able to sense her and read her , if only she knew how deep.....

Can so clearly sense the turbulence ..... the denial .... the instinct to defensively divert focus and trying to keep occupied with more pleasant controllable activities, away from reality ....

Makes me believe in the supernatural ..... nature works by its own pattern and formulas..... like we are all pre-assigned roles and guided to do things. We like to think that it was all us and our great abilities that got us to where we are.

But in essence, it feels as thou it was pre-determined and we were fools and fooled into thinking that we are the ones controlling....

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Confession time :
Last Wednesday, when I gave you my address, a part of me was thinking, oh god she is going to come down with her boyfriend and beat me up, or shoot me.
I thought, okay I have a clear view of who  is going to come from the front of the building . So I might be safe.....
Then you called and said you were at the back of the building..... aaaaahhhh.. I thought ,, "thats it Vino, now you pay the price of been a Romeo:""!!  (in indian movie style, the hero always gets beat up by the girls family hehehehe).
I thought about it and said to myself,,,,, ok if I am going to get beat up, so be it. At least I will be beaten up for doing something good with pure, true intentions. And that too by someone smile I adore....
Was so geared up for pain when I came down ,,, like a true martyr..  it felt like a scene from an Indian movie.... hahahahahaha... hope you are laughing at this foolish thoughts I am confessing too ;)

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I really wanted to ask you something... but I understand you are super super busy.. thats okay.. no pressure, just answer if you can.

When we danced.... I mean when I tried leading you with just the fingers,, what was it that you felt... ????

I remember that your face lite up, like someone just put rose water over you,, and the aura around you came to life. But what did you feel and think? as opposed to your normal performance partner dancing and styling.... because with the finger touch dance,,,, you never have option for styling... u will be forced to stay focused on your partner and CONNECT, and would be communicating with your partner with the energy from your body connecting thru each others fingers,,, ... I did not realize that I was controlling energy untill one of the beginner girls elaine (adoring fan of yours in Etown) told me that she felt that I was able to control her energy,,,,, if you have time to think about it, please do let me know.. what was it that you felt... ????

Peaceful and rejuvenating to be at home and spend time relaxing in the luxury of solitude and calmness 
One develops inner strength by withdrawing deep with and taking time to reflect in the calmness of ones own breath......
the simple basics, the foundation, is where your true core is.

May 14 2014... Happy Vino on a full moon night :)

Tuesday, May 14 2014.


Its all in our mind, Happiness, Love, Sadness, Hate..... all different versions of the same energy that we are born with and choose to convert into .... yes we have the choice, based on the capability of creative imagination.

So when you are in love, even in your own imagination or one sided...
let it be, because when you feel that love energy develop, its converting all other energies with in yourself into that wonderful loving energy. Which leads to greater good. 
Issues tend to happen when you expect something back in return, maybe thats the reason some say,
Love is all about giving, with out expecting anything back in return. .. so cheers to the one love in my life,( in my imagination atleast) for helping me stay happy with her amazing sweetness, the worlds most Beautiful smile and inspiring kindness of action  [thou I know so very little about her]

--> Guru Vino of the Vino Ashram of happiness (Vino) ....

Pharrell W song Happyiiieee  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=y6Sxv-sUYtM


Went for a run,,,,, felt a bit good running.. aching legs latter.. but good..

then to sevilla to dance some raunch hot bachata with a few.... who seemed to be too fast for my standards.

well atleast saw a few hook up and make out... wow..

and here I am lost in the imaginary love of someone who does not even care or know about me.

May 13 2014 1st Run

Tuesday, May 13 2014

got back home around 5:30 along with Anubh.

was feeling flustered in love,,,, deeply unsure about whats going to happen.
So went for a run.. there seemed to be lots of people out fine dinning and dating by the beach.

My heart

For days they were Lost
For weeks they were crying,
For months they were locked
For years they were trapped.

Layers deep, did it dig deep and hide

Bring it out, Others tried

Afraid, scared, with memories of betrayal and hurt, 

weeping away from the light

Suspicious of every touch, love or kind gesture

And just that smile from a beautiful angel,
melted the walls and barbed wires.
liberated the little baby butterflies
from cocoons of misery they were trapped in
... thank you , thank you, thank you my amazingly beautiful angel.

thank you for awakening my heart to the joys of infatuation, love and happiness.

Copy rights Vi V 2014


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" The Girl with the Butterfly Smile " [work in progress]

A smile so beautiful,,
that every time she smiled....
butterflies just fluttered and danced around in joy....
sunlight bounced of their wings
such that it made the northern lights look pale .....

The lights twisted, turned, bounced of the million soft wings in heavenly splendor...

Oh Girl with the Butter Fly Smile
you make me feel so Shy...

Dreams and thoughts I am filled with
that my eyes are always twinkling like stars

Your lovely round baby eyes
filled with gentle innocence just flushes my heart

little soft loli-pop hands
I held and danced to your sweetness. ,,, (ouch ET)

The touch of your Soft cheeks felt
soothing and nourishing to  my torn soul.

oh! How i would love to kiss your lips and lovely cheeks
and love you as my love speaks
in the language of touch and whispers
as our bodies lock in the union of holy soul mates

,,,ohhhh if only god was human,
he would probably understand that its not right to emotionally torture people...  [this is me adding my dry humor]


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Why is it
.....Everywhere I see
............Everyone I see
..I see
...........The face, with the Butterfly smile.
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It doesn’t take me much

4 July 2008 at 18:01

It doesn’t take me much
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It doesn't take me much to fall in love,
just a sweet lil gal with flowing hairs.

The twinkling beauty in her eyes,
matching the beauty of her smile.

It doesn't take me much to fall for a gal.
Just a simple gal with a tender caring heart.

It doesn't take me much to fall for a gal.
Just a simple gal whose eyes sparkle when our eyes meet.......

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May 11 bye EdmnT,, with a confused heart

Sunday May 11 2014

Leaving Edmonton with a confused heart...
glad to have met someone who meets the crieteria of a perfect soul mate... but just that there was no reciprocal feelings


So little said
 in so little time

So much remaining to be said
But time never permits.