Thursday, Oct 11 2012
Ended up going for salsa and the surprise factor of seeing the sweetheart of a gal at pax ,,, it was great to see and watch her dance. Just did not like the guy trying to pick her up.
Towards the end had a few great danceses and WOWed the gals I danced with, resulting in a few others jumping on to me and trying to get a dance full of me...
Its flattering to have that kind of effect. Feel like a rock star. But a shy rock star. ;)
Friday, October 12, 2012
Wednesday, October 10, 2012
Oct 10 As Birth Day
Wednesday Oct 10 2012
Its A's birthday, sent out a mail wishing happiness.
Felt kind of uncomfortable and had lots of weird thoughts and images coming in yesterday and did not seem to have a good sleep.
Waiting out for the info about the resume sent for the new direction of my career . A bit unsure and wondering what to expect.
Its been a gloomy Vancouver like weather here. hopefully will brighten up soon with sunshine.
wondering should I go to Nar house for the weekend and spend time with his kids and take it easy.
Its A's birthday, sent out a mail wishing happiness.
Felt kind of uncomfortable and had lots of weird thoughts and images coming in yesterday and did not seem to have a good sleep.
Waiting out for the info about the resume sent for the new direction of my career . A bit unsure and wondering what to expect.
Its been a gloomy Vancouver like weather here. hopefully will brighten up soon with sunshine.
wondering should I go to Nar house for the weekend and spend time with his kids and take it easy.
Tuesday, October 9, 2012
Oct 09 2012, no mans land
Tuesday, Oct 09 2012
Again finding myself , wel-fed, rested, entertained and in no particular hurry to reach or go anywhere.
Directionless, or at peace or at a uncertain phase .
No objective other than the hope of getting on to a project and work on been productive and contributing to the betterment of society.
Had got dressed and all ready to go meditating and salsa dancing. But about 4 miles into the drive and seeing the clutter of traffic and the drizzle in COLD weather acted as a catalyst to make me turn around.
Went to Wal mrt and brought couple of warm shirts , lime and a box of cut fruit box meldy.
Was going thru facebook of a Friends Friend and noticed that the person had gone down the west coast in sep 2009, around the same time I had gone. Its funny to see all these people end up coming back and getting married. Looks like mine was the only trip that was ended up screwed.
Well now as I look back, I was just the driver for a self centered princess, who expected me to be her servant and handy man. Atleast I got to know sooner. :)
Good learning exp on understanding and studying human selfishness.
Again finding myself , wel-fed, rested, entertained and in no particular hurry to reach or go anywhere.
Directionless, or at peace or at a uncertain phase .
No objective other than the hope of getting on to a project and work on been productive and contributing to the betterment of society.
Had got dressed and all ready to go meditating and salsa dancing. But about 4 miles into the drive and seeing the clutter of traffic and the drizzle in COLD weather acted as a catalyst to make me turn around.
Went to Wal mrt and brought couple of warm shirts , lime and a box of cut fruit box meldy.
Was going thru facebook of a Friends Friend and noticed that the person had gone down the west coast in sep 2009, around the same time I had gone. Its funny to see all these people end up coming back and getting married. Looks like mine was the only trip that was ended up screwed.
Well now as I look back, I was just the driver for a self centered princess, who expected me to be her servant and handy man. Atleast I got to know sooner. :)
Good learning exp on understanding and studying human selfishness.
Monday, October 8, 2012
Sunday, October 7, 2012
Oct 07 2012 , Lazy sunday
Sunday, Oct 07 2012
Salsa night out on Friday, 4hrs sleep and then on Saturday followed by 10 hrs intense (for me) hiking and 12hrs of sleep :)))) ,,, Good morning to Lazy Sundays :)
Had some very awakening conversation with Nar regarding family, behavior, self awareness and improving self.
Was around 3 pm when I got out and went to cost co.
Wow was really tired after the hike around green lane resv.
Watched the Broncos play the Pats. interesting game.
Salsa night out on Friday, 4hrs sleep and then on Saturday followed by 10 hrs intense (for me) hiking and 12hrs of sleep :)))) ,,, Good morning to Lazy Sundays :)
Had some very awakening conversation with Nar regarding family, behavior, self awareness and improving self.
Was around 3 pm when I got out and went to cost co.
Wow was really tired after the hike around green lane resv.
Watched the Broncos play the Pats. interesting game.
Friday, October 5, 2012
Oct 05 2012 Some good news
Friday Oct 05 2012
Some good news with the call from bos, felt a ray of hope after that. The hopeless feeling was crushing me and my positivity.
So sent out the resume..
then got call from nar and had a uplifting conversation with him.
was thinking about my inclination to speculate, seems to be in my DNA, going by the profession of my Grand dad.
Should that be the one that I should be taking up, seems to be well suited except that my speculation is getting over ridden by greedy hopes and screwing up my covering time or selling timing.
Again seem to add to the theory of natural gratification and attraction to speculative professions.
So now the question for today, should I go out to downtown for dancing? have not been there for more than five months,, still thinking of the great time I had last time I went there on the weekend. That was too great a day.
Again seem to add to the theory of natural gratification and attraction to speculative professions.
So now the question for today, should I go out to downtown for dancing? have not been there for more than five months,, still thinking of the great time I had last time I went there on the weekend. That was too great a day.
Thursday, October 4, 2012
Oct 04 2012 Life mates
Thursday Oct 4
hmm nothing much happening.. except trying to wake up from listening to the US pres debate yesterday. Romney seems to be on the attack on a sleep and trired looking Obama. Something I was afraid that would happen.
If that continues,, gone is Obama and in comes Rom.
gloomy weather outside. stuck watching cnbc and the stock market. nothing much happening there either other than that I lost most of my earning again over all.
lousy sick feeling. awww well life. wonder whats the meaning of all this and what is it going to lead to.
like all I want to have a loving family that I can provide for and take care of. But with not much hope in careeer and earning to look forward to, it looks like a hopeless situation. Don't even feel like going out and looking for a mate. Rather filled with self doubt and end up building blocks and chasing potential mates away.
The salsa music at pax was just great today, but sad1y not many to dance, ended up dancing with a couple. It felt good and in fact felt great. Wish they could get the same DJ again.
hmm nothing much happening.. except trying to wake up from listening to the US pres debate yesterday. Romney seems to be on the attack on a sleep and trired looking Obama. Something I was afraid that would happen.
If that continues,, gone is Obama and in comes Rom.
gloomy weather outside. stuck watching cnbc and the stock market. nothing much happening there either other than that I lost most of my earning again over all.
lousy sick feeling. awww well life. wonder whats the meaning of all this and what is it going to lead to.
like all I want to have a loving family that I can provide for and take care of. But with not much hope in careeer and earning to look forward to, it looks like a hopeless situation. Don't even feel like going out and looking for a mate. Rather filled with self doubt and end up building blocks and chasing potential mates away.
The salsa music at pax was just great today, but sad1y not many to dance, ended up dancing with a couple. It felt good and in fact felt great. Wish they could get the same DJ again.
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